Where is this...?

I opened my eyes and looked at the familiar surroundings. The sky was dark, three moons shining in the night sky, and the night wind blew up the yellow sand on the ground and blew towards the distant places.

who I am?

I remembered that I am Kyle, the guardian of the pride of the human race, the guardian of justice and courage, and the most perfect saint.

Who is she...?

Who is walking towards me? Who is walking under the starry sky and above the yellow sand? The brows sweeping, the gentle and determined gaze, the straight and heroic bridge of the nose, the gentle smile on the corner of the mouth, the long dark hair, the silver armor, and the spear that flashed cold light under the night sky.

Everything is so familiar, including your active hug, so familiar, and miss it, but why is my body trembling involuntarily? What am I afraid of? Why do I want to escape from afar? Who are you?

Oh, I remembered that you are Neli, Neli of the human race, my comrade-in-arms, my...my...my...lovers.

Looking around, I remembered it and sighed at the desert. It was indeed here again.

My sin, the place where I sleep, appears in my dream every night.

And...you, the person who appears in my dream every night, my...love.

It’s been so many years, and I thought I had escaped here countless times, and I thought I had lost the hearts of the people, and I wouldn’t regret or feel guilty anymore.

Unfortunately, every night and every dream will tell me that in fact, I have never escaped.

I have been here, and I will always be in this nightmare that is like hell.

"Kyle, you are finally back." You, who embraced me, did not change at all. You are still so straightforward and gentle, and your voice is still so familiar.

"Since you went to Longshan, I have been worried about you. The two forests in the north and south are all cemeteries of demigods." Haha, you are always like this. In your heart, is there the only sinner besides the chivalrous spirit?

"I will not die until this matter is resolved, even if the opponent is the overlords in the forest of Warcraft." What a proud voice and so energetic, but now it sounds, haha, it is really disgusting: "Even if I really die, I am not afraid for the peace of the whole Yara and for the justice in your hearts. Isn't it the ideal in your hearts to sacrifice for justice?"

Stupid people, despicable and cowardly waste, you are always so proud, you always want to make yourself perfect, you always deliberately pursue virtue and make others praise you, you always want others to think of you as a saint, but you are actually just a waste, you are just an ordinary and useless waste, you are just a waste facing strength, powerless and powerless face death, cowardly and despicable.

"Ha, Neri, there will be an old friend coming soon, let's go and welcome it." Ha, stupid guy, be proud and bold, the more you do this, when you know your nature, when you discover your weakness, timidity and despicableness, the more you will hate yourself. Do you understand this truth? Many years ago... me, in my dream... me.

Haha, I know, I can no longer escape, I know, my soul will remain here and cannot leave.

I know that every night, I will return to this battle again, and every night, I will face... my sin again.

This is punishment.

Punish my cowardice and despicability.

Every night, the punishment will continue.

Endless nightmare.

Endless sin and punishment.

Come on, I admit my sins, I accept judgment, I accept punishment.

Let me face my sin again, all of this is my due reward.

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"Haha, haha, haha, ha, ha," Panis gasped violently, woke up from a nightmare again. Through the hair soaked in sweat and pressed against his face, he saw the dark dome of the cave. The tremor of his body gradually subsided, and his curled body slowly stretched out. Panis reached out to wipe away the marks left by sweat or tears on his face, showing a self-deprecating smile.

"It's very hard, Panis." Lina's voice was no longer elegant and beautiful, but it became hoarse and magnetic.

"What are you talking about, Miss Lina." Panis had already woken up, so he simply got up and walked under the light, turned on his kettle and fed a few sips of cold water.

Lina smiled and shook her head, and asked back, "What Sister Catherine wants to do, actually you understand it in your heart?"

"Silly knight, stupid knight spirit." Panis threw the kettle aside, covered his face with his hands, and his voice came from his hands in a muffled voice: "Silly mercy, stupid redemption, so I hate the knight."

"Yes, my sister is very stupid." Lina agreed with Panis's point of view: "She has longed to be a knight like Nellie since she was a child, so she also imitated Nellie to swear to implement the spirit of the knight for life. In fact, this is nothing, the problem is that she is so stupid that she really did this."

"Knight, it's all this." Panis's voice was filled with a slight silence: "Sacrifice, mercy, kindness, justice, glory, sneer, they will never understand that these things will kill them sooner or later."

"Maybe they don't understand." Lina smiled and said softly: "Maybe they just think that they would rather embrace death than losing these virtues."

Panis sighed softly, and his tone turned back to his usual coldness: "What do you want to explain?"

Lina naturally put her right hand on the collarbone under her neck, with a natural temptation and temptation in her expression: "Since Panis, you understand what my elder sister wants to do, why do you give in every time? You can completely reject my elder sister's request, why not?"

"She is the employer." Panis's answer was simple and clear.

"Is that?" Lina laughed, with a smile in her voice: "But you can even refuse this commission. As my elder sister said before, gold coins actually have no meaning to you. If that's the case, how could you be bound by an employment agreement?"

"I……"

"You are longing for you too?" Lina interrupted Panis's defense and said in a positive tone: "Every night, I wake up from my nightmare, struggle every day with pressure, freeze myself every moment, reject all the kindness from the outside world, constantly punish myself with pain, but constantly stimulate myself with alcohol and sex. In fact, even if you are like this, you are still longing for me? You are eager for redemption and to get rid of all this."

"No." Panis subconsciously raised his voice, and even shocked himself. He looked back at the sleeping girls who were not awakened, and then lowered his voice and defended: "This is my offense, this is my punishment. No one can save me, no one can never."

"Haha, if you don't try it, who knows the result?" Lina smiled softly, but instead of pressing Panis step by step, she talked about herself: "Actually, in our adventure group, who doesn't have some unbearable painful memories, and who doesn't have stories that cannot be talked about?"

"It's your adventure team." Panis deliberately corrected.

"Okay, okay." Lina responded casually without caring: "It's our adventure group, you're satisfied now. In the adventure group, I, Vivian, and even Catherine herself, have a very unpleasant past. Vivian and I were both like you, painful, cold and eccentric. If you saw us a few years ago, you would never believe that we were the same person."

Panis was silent and listened expressionlessly, no one knew what he was thinking.

Lina didn't expect Panis to answer anything, and continued to say on her own: "We have always been like this, and we think that this life will always be painful and indifferent, but Catherine stretched out her hand to us. So, since we can all be redeemed, why don't you muster up the courage to try it?"

"You don't understand." Panis shook his head and sighed deeply: "The same thing is true. No one can save me, and I will never be saved."

"Maybe." Lina was not angry, and stood up without comment and said, "I have been working together for a long time. Let's take a look. Hehe, please take care of it in the future."

"By the way, Panis." Lina slowly walked to Panis with her sharp eyebrows and eyes full of charm, her figure swaying just right, and her every move had an indescribable charm: "It's time for you to watch, I'm going to sleep, come on, good night."

Looking at Lina's swaying back, Panis asked casually: "Are you...changed again?"

"Yes." Lina turned around and raised the book in her hand: "Princess and Empire, Princess Heidi."

"Well, very..." Panis considered the wording: "very personality."

"Shh, tell you a secret." Lina lowered her voice: "Actually, Sister Catherine said that my lethality is too great and I won't let me come out. But I will be lonely if I don't let me come out. So when I'm alone at night, I will occasionally let me out for some breathing, and I will go back early in the morning. Hehe, are you fainted? I'm leaving, and I'll see you again in the future."

"It's really a lot of lethality," said Panis. "You go and rest. I'll wake you up before departure."

"Is redemption?" Panis looked at Lina as she got into her sleeping bag and whispered to herself: "Can a person like me still be redeemed?"

He lowered his head and muttered to himself. Panis suddenly laughed silently, silently, but crazy, laughing until he was exhausted and burst into tears.
Chapter completed!