"This is really ridiculous..." Zhou Chu laughed loudly on the dark side, and his laughter pierced the endless darkness, piercing his eardrums. "People who place everything they have outside of themselves can only hold it like this, entrusting all meanings and hopes to survive, and everything is held in the hand of that woman. Speaking of which, she doesn't know that she is so important to you, right?"

Zhou Chu still had to remain silent and closed his eyes.

After a harsh laugh, another sigh came.

“This is so sad.”

Zhou Chu opened his eyes.

"I get it." He said, "I know what your greatest reliance is."

"Of course you know." Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, also put away his smile and said in a cold voice, "But even if you know, you can do nothing."

Yes, there is nothing we can do.

So far, everything is so clear that you can directly see through the dark side of yourself and understand him, but equally, if you look at yourself, you will find that the dark side of yourself is the only and most fatal weakness that even he himself cannot do anything and cannot break.

Qin Qing.

Everything is a cover-up and a bluff. Whether it is asking him whether he hates him or tempting him to regret, and the past between him and Xia Xiao is nothing but dessert before the appetizer meal. Whether it can be successful or not, it is just to further induce those hidden negative emotions. Whether he faces or doesn't care, these negative emotions and dark sides will definitely exist.

Because he is just a person, not a non-human, he has a dark side of himself.

But these are not insurmountable. In fact, Zhou Chu can overcome and face these, whether it is the bad students who forced him to reverse his life, the Xia Xiao he met later, and the nightmare he experienced. All the various things may sometimes be assumed, but more often, just smile and smile can pass.

But what Zhou Chu has been unable to face and overcome so far is due to his fear of losing Qin Qing.

So. All the previous ones were just for laying the groundwork, just to ignite his uneasy negative emotions, let them be awakened, and then spread. Finally, this fatal blow.

And now, this blow is coming.

"You're afraid of losing her."

On the dark side, I stared at Zhou Chu with a smile and said word by word.

Zhou Chu opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

"You can't even face the possibility of losing her. You dare not imagine that if she is no longer your girlfriend, no longer with you, if you lose her, she will no longer appear in your life, she will even fall in love with others, will be with others, will have your own life, and will be happy. But all this has nothing to do with you..."

"Enough!"

Zhou Chu roared, and at the same time, his whole body exploded. His uncontrollable emotions made him directly enter the initial form and roar and rushed towards himself on the dark side.

But I, who was on the dark side, just hid lightly and floated in the air, and the ghostly voice continued to echo.

"You are afraid of losing her. You are afraid that after you have no her, you will return to the abyss of despair again. You will be afraid that your world will lose all colors, lose temperature, and become endless eternal nights and cold. You don't even know, and you don't know when, you have regarded her as the support point of all meanings and behaviors in life, and treat her as everything..."

Zhou Chu was still chasing himself on the dark side, but every attack was avoided and lost. The ghostly voice was still echoing, as if he wanted to analyze everything about him, clearly and clearly.

"Everyone has his own world, a subjective world established by himself. In this world, there is a pillar that supports all the world. Some people's spiritual pillar is power, some people's material, and some people's ideals, but everyone needs such a pillar, and your pillar is a woman, she."

Zhou Chu stopped. He knew that in this endless darkness, he would never be able to catch up with his own dark side. Strong anger and hatred kept pouring into his heart. His eyes were getting blood red and shining with golden light, staring at the self floating in the air.

"So, what happens if a person's spiritual pillar of the subjective world is pulled out?" Zhou Chu laughed in the dark side, "You know, I also know that if the only pillar that supports this world is pulled out, then the world will collapse."

Zhou Chu finally tried hard to calm himself down, and his throat hoarse: "So what?"

"So what? Ask me?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, showed a sarcastic smile, "Don't pretend to be great. Your fear is far greater than your feelings for her, so great that you don't even dare to let her go."

"It's not like this." Zhou Chu lowered his voice.

"No?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, was still mocking, "Really? Don't deceive yourself anymore. I know that during the Cold War, you struggled to tell yourself that when you were in the cold war, she was worthy of better love and happiness, she deserved better people, because you love her, so because of this love, you want to sacrifice yourself, as long as she is happy..."

"But you can't do it!" The voice became high, and then turned into a mocking, low tone, "But you forgot that feelings are also selfish, and there is no unselfish love, so its selfishness, along with your fear, keeps holding on to you, making you struggle, keep struggling, but you can never face and solve all this..."

Zhou Chu raised his head and wanted to say something, but when he met those teasing eyes, he couldn't say anything.

"You want to say that you are not like this? Aren't you? Then, if not, why don't you just say break up directly? You know, you are an awakened person now, hehe, the danger of the awakened person and the possibility of death at any time, we all know that if you love her from the perspective of love, you only want her to be happy, then you should stay away from her even more, but you still haven't done it. You don't even dare to choose, you can only passively, hand over the power of choice, wait for her to break up, wait for her to leave, or wait for her to be by your side! Hehe. What a ridiculous and selfish idea, you just don't dare to face your own fear and the possibilities brought by losing her."

Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, sneered and once again exposed the truth in Zhou Chu's heart.

The wound will always bleed, and the blood and pain flowing in the real wound will never dry up and stop.

So Zhou Chu was in pain, and he could hear the huge and powerful beating sound of his heart. But he could not breathe. Every beating seemed to be a prelude to suffocation. He was not injured, but he had a feeling of pain. From the position of the heart, it was constantly transmitted to the whole body with every heartbeat. The pain was even colder than any wound. It was not severe, but it was enough to make people despair.

Yes, he loved her and didn't even know what, he had regarded Qin Qing as the only spiritual pillar in his spiritual world. He relied on her and needed her. He put all his life and hope, all his feelings and everything in the future. He also knew that this was dangerous and extreme, but his original world was already a dark and abyss, and he could not find anything. So after Qin Qing became that beam of light, he put everything in her desperately.

It's like a moth hitting a fire, and when you hit it, you'll pour everything into it.

But love is like catching the wind, and it is also the free will of two people, so he cannot be sure, nor does he know her feelings. Because of such uncertainty, he knows that such actions are dangerous, extreme and too absolute, but he has no choice but to pour everything into it.

This is a desperate bet. Once you lose, the rebuilt world will collapse again. He will return to the endless darkness and abyss, and to the cold of hopelessness and despair.

Because of this, he has been afraid of losing, fearing that her feelings will shift and will not be with him. But he also loves her, and subconsciously, he has regarded Qin Qing as everything, so he eliminates such fear. He also hopes that the woman he loves deeply can have a better life and happiness.

Cute love is also selfish, so selfish that he can't just smile and let go. At least he can't do it, and because of this, he kept silent and gave everything he decided to Qin Qing and let her decide.

And he could only love her, regard her as everything, and wait, not knowing where the ending was ahead.

The fear of losing, the fear of not losing, the selfishness of human nature, the possession of love, is also the sacrifice and fulfillment of love, and the conflicting struggle of hoping that the person you love is happy. All kinds of complex and indescribable emotions that others cannot understand, and even he himself cannot fully understand, are mixed together.

The fear of being unable to lose and cannot lose, the selfishness that you want to let go but want to have, hate that you have no courage to face it, hate that you cannot let go, hate that you are selfish but unwilling to let go, hate that you are unable to be better and make her happy, hate that you pretend to be great sacrifice, hate that you are not cruel and cruel enough to yourself.

Fear, hate, fear, hate, blame, selfishness, possessiveness, want her to be better and happier, but cannot let go, fearing to return to the darkness, so hated again, everything, constantly circulating, repeatedly, and constantly gathering together, becoming his biggest inner demon!

And now, this inner demon appeared, stood in front of him, proudly exposing everything, and ruthlessly gave him a fatal blow.

He could not deny that because everything was real and he could not face it. Because the selfishness in human nature and possessiveness in love made him unable to make himself decisive and decisively say that as long as she was happy, then all the spiritual world with her as the pillar collapsed, it didn't matter. He didn't care that he would return to the desperate world again, only the endless darkness and cold ruins.

So he could only stand, struggle, try to face it, but keep escaping, constantly denying it, and force himself to look at it, and could only stand, listening to the harsh ridicule and laughter in his ears.

This time, maybe he lost.

He could not lose her, this was the most real and irresistible voice in his instinct.

This thought just emerged, and it seemed that the entire space was shaking, shaking hugely and violently, and the surroundings began to turn a little dark red.

The dark red and rich black, these two colors began to fill the entire space within sight, with visible black fog and red aura constantly emerging from his body. They appeared from all directions, entangled with each other, and then went towards the dark side of himself floating in the air.

He knew that this was the negative emotions and energy he had always gathered because of the greatest fear. Self-hate, fear that could not be lost, selfishness and possession, despair and unwillingness, from the time he had his own consciousness and feelings, until now, all the once, small or huge negative emotions were infinitely amplified at this moment. Then they were induced and called out, heading towards the greatest inner demon.

Zhou Chu, on the dark side, his face began to become more evil and gloomy, and the blood red in his eyes became more terrifying and deeper. Huge black and red mist kept gathering around him and condensed. In the end, in all the space, only what he emitted from his body, which made people desperate and tremble. Just touched, it was a breath of endless fear and negative emotions.

Like a devil.

He could only see this form in Gabriel outside the city of Silent Hill that day, so he also understood everything.

Everything is just a concealment and confusion. What everyone has to face is not those plausible clues, nor those memories and distortions of clues that seem to be always associated with themselves, what everyone has to face in the end. It is not someone's dark side and distortion, nor a monster, nor the ultimate boss.

What everyone has to face is their own inner demon.

"Finally understand?" The self, surrounded by a huge black and red breath, made a low and hoarse, extraordinary voice that could almost penetrate the soul.

"But it's over." He said, "Even if you know and realize it, you still cannot resist and fight against your inner demons, and cannot fight against me. All your dark side and negative emotions have been induced, now..."

"He" stretched out his hand to Zhou Chu.

"Swallow me, be me."

He said that the black and red aura that occupied almost all the space, followed Zhou Chu's words on the dark side, suddenly turned into a huge hand, and came towards Zhou Chu in a slow but unable to dodge or escape attitude.

Zhou Chu was still silent. He lowered his head, said nothing, and did nothing, but a voice came from his mouth.

"Yes, I admit that because of fear and fear, because of fear, I will despair again, I cannot face the possibility of losing her, and I cannot let myself say, lose it, I will return to the hopeless and lifeless world, and cannot lose her, this will be my eternal inner demon, unable to eliminate or erase, even if I face it, it still exists. Even if I only have her happiness, I still have to face all the collapse and despair after losing, as well as endless eternal night and pain, but..."

He raised his head and stretched out his demonic hand, but not his own face toward the dark side.

"But... although I don't know if this theory is correct, all emotions, positive, negative, good, bad, including the suffocating pain and despair, and the fear of desperately grasping the fear of losing, all seem to come from something called the "heart."

"What do you want to say?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, seemed to notice something. The huge black and red giant hand accelerated the speed of his head towards Zhou Chu.

"I want to say, although I don't know if this is the case, nor whether it is useful, but this is probably the last solution. Since you are me, you should know that I hate this kind of powerlessness and can't do anything. I feel extremely disgusted. So, I want to try it. Even if there is no hope, I just want to try it..."

Zhou Chu raised his head and smiled at the person who was floating in the dark side of the air like a demon king.

Even more intense, bad premonition arose in Zhou Chu's heart on the dark side, so the giant hand with black and red aura suddenly accelerated after Zhou Chu smiled, almost instantly came to him and swallowed Zhou Chu.

You can feel that there is a substantial force, tightly bound yourself. Where the black and red aura is touching, huge and strong negative emotions are rapidly eroding his emotions. More and countless negative emotions are constantly induced, and almost all souls are full of hatred because of these strong negative emotions.

I hate so much that I can't see anything, there is no unnecessary emotion, there is only a huge and strong hatred, I want to destroy everything, I want to destroy everything that can be seen, and I want to turn the whole world into a hell on earth full of resentment, fear, and hatred.

Pure, naked and uncovered hatred, if it is swallowed, it will only become an existence with only evil and endless resentment and hatred, like a monster.

Zhou Chu's eyes were bleeding from tears, blood oozing from the corners of his mouth, and his eardrums seemed to have broken, biting his teeth, and his bones and internal organs were shattering and shattering, but he still kept his last trace of mind, enduring this violent hatred that almost made him lose, forcibly continued to raise his demonic hand, and showed a trace of unknown whether he was mocking himself on the dark side or mocking himself, making a vague sound.

"Since all emotions... all feelings... come from the thing called the 'heart'... and... because of its existence... I cannot resist and reject these...the most real emotions that come from instinct... then..."

The demon's hand was raised high and then suddenly fell down!

"Then... I don't want this heart!"
Chapter completed!