"I'm really envious."

The disgusting but his own voice sounded, Zhou Chu, who was in the dark side, walked towards him and began to circle around him.

"I mean, I really envy, what a wonderful and pleasant experience. At that time, we were only seventeen years old, and at the age of seventeen, we were locked in such dark darkness for more than a whole month. We had nothing but darkness and a little bit of light, and could not see or hear anything. Huge, endless silence and darkness, we could not move or walk, and no one even talked to you. In such a state, for more than a whole month, everyone would go crazy, but we were not crazy, and we really envy our perverted willpower."

Zhou Chu still didn't say anything, and he was still circling around him, and then suddenly stopped.

"But...but, there was still a little left..." Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, stretched out two fingers and made a little gesture, "There was still a little left behind. No one knew. You went to see a psychologist later, and only I knew, because I am you and you are me, so how could I not leave a little left?"

Zhou Chu was still silent because he knew that he was on the dark side and was right. For a long time afterwards, he could not fall asleep at night. In other words, as soon as he closed his eyes, the long, locked in a dark room would appear in his mind. Once the night came, he began to fear, fear the darkness. He could only stay in a place with light.

Only when there is light and places can he fall asleep. In the long dark night, he frantically searched for various places and did all kinds of things to send himself away. He didn't even dare to let himself stop. It seemed that as long as he didn't do anything, if he stopped, if he was free, the nightmare of that period would continue to invade and repeat.

Until...meet Qin Qing.

"It's not just these." The dark side self smiled at Zhou Chu and shook his finger, "Mental illness is second, but you see, as smart as ours. Wouldn't we think about many things afterwards? For example, can Xia Xiao give up everything from the beginning in exchange for your release? Or, you really can't compare to those things and so on... You know, you didn't feel relaxed at all during that period. Is it worth it?"

The dark side of the human heart, speculation, doubt, distrust, speculation, and unafraid of guessing and judging others with the worst side, thereby changing and affecting cognition.

So, yes, I also thought about it during that period and assumed why I was rescued after more than a month of everything was done. Although I told myself that Xia Xiao was unable to help it. This was already a game for adults, there was still another voice saying it.

You really don't matter that much.

Therefore, I once thought that I was not that important, and Xia Xiao could not give up and hand over the resources and other resources needed by those people because of myself. If Xia Xiao and the background behind her did not solve and handle everything well, in the end, they had to lose what those people needed in order to exchange for their own lives. Will Xia Xiao be willing? Or would she just let herself die in that dark room like that?

He has no answer.

Or, there is no answer until now.

"But..." Zhou Chu smiled again, "What does that matter?"

"Hmm?" I was stunned for a moment with a dark side.

"I mean, what does that have to do with me? Other people's choices are someone else's, your choices are yours, your choices are about you, your choices are still yours? No matter what Xia Xiao thought at that time, it doesn't matter, because no matter what she thought or did, I only know that at that time, I wouldn't compromise or give in anyway."

"Even if it will die?"

"Even if it's going to die, I'll only do what I think is right, no matter what the consequences will be."

"It's really a hell!" The dark side self roared, "I really hate your inexplicable self-righteousness and the bullshit principle, or rather, this almost saint-like character really makes me want to slap you..."

The dark side of myself was jumping and roaring in anger. When a hint of pleasure finally arose in Zhou Chu's heart, he suddenly changed his appearance.

"Do you really think I'm furious?" The dark sided self laughed, "No, no, I'm just playing with you, so, are you going to beat me now, or do you want to continue?"

Zhou Chu's eyes twitched, suppressing his violent mood, and said calmly, "Come on, see what else can you do?"

"I'm waiting and seeing, my own performance," said the dark side myself, and then left a sentence, "You said just now that I could only do that, so I actually want to ask, where are you now?"

Now myself?

Zhou Chu was silent for a moment, then smiled.

"If it's someone else, then I won't, but she is Xia Xiao."

"Fuck."

But Zhou Chu just smiled and followed behind himself on the dark side.

After a hustle and bustle chaos, Nancheng ended with the fall of several senior officials and some people were sent to prison, and a series of major earthquakes were declared to be over. Xia Xiao also left Nancheng at this time and chose to go abroad and concealed his psychological condition. Zhou Chu also returned to campus again and was admitted to Nancheng University.

Then, in order to heal his crazy behavior, he appeared in the nightclubs, lingered in the flowers, played in the band, and kept looking for everything that could be filled to fill the endless and inextricable emptiness. It was also at this time that Zhou Chu met Ou Cheng and rescued Ou Cheng in a drunken trouble, and from then on, the two became close friends.

Then it seemed that everything that could be tried was tried and it was boring. Zhou Chu began to calmly start his normal life as a college student.

Then, he met Qin Qing.

Seeing the scene changing to the campus that day, a warm smile appeared on the corner of Zhou Chu's mouth.

But just when the young and beautiful figure appeared, Zhou Chu, on the dark side, snapped his fingers, and everything disappeared and turned into a gray area.

"We don't need to watch the warm and warm scenes." He smiled on the dark side, and then walked towards Zhou Chu.

"Dark, light, guidance and hope." Zhou Chu said on the dark side, staring at Zhou Chu.

"What did you say?"

"Ah~ Don't pretend to be confused." Zhou Chu looked at Zhou Chu with dissatisfaction, "We are one, so don't do this."

"It seems that we have returned to normal, it just looks."

The dark side of myself stretched out his hands and stretched them out as if he was a metaphor.

"But we all know that darkness still exists, no, it should be said that it is everywhere, always there, in the deepest part of your heart, just no longer fear, no longer madness, but it still exists, but it does not represent fear and fear, what does it mean?"

On the dark side, the stretched hand and originally clenched fist suddenly opened, and the gray area turned into endless darkness.

"The reason why I am no longer afraid or afraid is because the darkness has completely invaded all your heart and all your world. You have already felt that you have been living in the eternal day, without light or warmth, everything is just endless darkness and cold. You are no longer afraid or afraid, but despair."

"Really, completely, desperate."

With a dead silence, Zhou Chu didn't say anything, and he didn't say anything on the dark side. The two of them just stood there, standing in the endless darkness.

He began to realize what he wanted to say on the dark side.

"Hahaha." The dark side of himself smiled gloomyly, "But, things in the world are often very wonderful, so wonderful that you think you are completely desperate, but fate does not make you desperate, but let you see that beam of light."

This light is Qin Qing.

Zhou Chu didn't know, and could not describe that feeling. But when he saw Qin Qing at first sight, after meeting her, a voice told him that she was the faint light in the darkness, which could guide him, pull him, take him out of the endless darkness and cold, and bring him back to the normal world and life.

So like a drowning man who was about to sink into the endless abyss, Zhou Chu instinctively and subconsciously stretched out his hand, trying to hold that hand and grab that beam of light.

And he did hold it, and he also grasped it. Life began to return to calmness and ordinaryness. Those lost emotions, those joys, sorrows and sorrows are gradually recovering. He also learned to be silent, endure, live quietly and work hard, waiting for one day, he can finally live like a normal person, embrace the hustle and bustle of this world, as well as the ordinary but long-lasting warmth and life.

She is his only guide and direction.

Therefore, this is also the reason why he has never left or given up, because he has never dared to face it or is unwilling to think about it. It is also the most core and scary place.

If he loses her, he will lose everything he has and experience now, and will once again fall back into the desperate, unfinished abyss because of his loss, where there is nothing, only darkness, endless cold, and despair.

It was not others, but her, not just feelings, but she had become the only possibility and existence she regarded as saving herself. From her appearance and after being together, he placed it on her without reservation, not just feelings, but her life, her own meaning, and everything.
Chapter completed!