"I don't care about your own news over the years, except for the government decrees."

“…”

"It's not hatred, it's not afraid of knowing, it's just that - it's nothing to do with you."

“…”

"I say this to tell Your Majesty that I know the difference between 'love' and 'not love'."

“…”

"It's not the person in your heart. No matter how moved you are, you have ever felt moved, but compared to her, you are still nothing."

“…”

"When you love her, spoil her, trust her, and even don't want to accept any bad facts of her, because she is the person you love, the person you love, and is born to protect your shortcomings."

“…”

"No one can resist this nature, even people like you will choose to deceive themselves."

“…”

"So too."

I looked at him with a smile, and felt my eyes heat up, and my nose felt sore. Tears slowly poured up blocked my throat. My voice was so sour that I could hardly speak in a slight way. I could only smile and say vaguely: "When I love you, I have been deceived by myself - you will be nice to me; you won't let me wait for you like other women; I don't have to compete for favor, but I can also get your favor; I am special to you..."

“…”

"But before I fell in love with you, I knew it was impossible."

“…”

"It is because it is impossible that I have resisted you and refused to accept you."

“…”

"But after I fell in love with you, I just deceived myself like that."

There was a clicking sound in the darkness. I didn't know what it was. I just felt that his face in front of me was blurred and awake for a while. When he heard the sound on the back of his hand, he felt the hot and cold wetness on the back of his hand. He looked up at me, and his eyes were like suffering in hell, and the torn pain was clearly written in front of me.

He called me: "Light..."

I said so many words in one breath. At this time, I was even a little breathless and sat there weakly breathing. I don’t know how many years have I held these words in my heart, and I don’t know which corner of my heart has almost rotten and rotten. I should have brought them into the coffin, but I finally told him all today.

It's okay, it's okay to open it.

I don't owe him, he doesn't have to owe me.

Just like what I said to Miaoyan just now - love is not a shame, and I am not ashamed of falling in love with this man forgot to do so. No matter how much shame and pain he has given me, I am happy when I love each other. When I was plotting against those profiteers with him in Yangzhou, I was satisfied; I was proud to listen to his generous speeches at the cold wind banquet and the clear water table; I was even happy in the harem, every night when I was hugged in my arms and fell asleep.

But these are memories.

Memories are memories. No matter how distinct the pain and happiness in memories are, they have no power.

At this time, I felt him slowly let go of my hands, but those hands slowly stretched towards me, hugging my thin waist, he leaned into my arms, hugged me tightly, and buried his head in my arms.

His breathing, his heartbeat, every time, was transmitted through his clothes to my skin and my blood.

I even felt his trembling slightly.

It seems that the soul is also suffering from torture, which makes him hurt, but it is unspeakable.

This time, I didn't struggle anymore. Let him hug me tightly like this, let him hug my soul's life-saving straw like a lonely child.

The night passed by bit by bit in such a painful embrace.

I don't know how long it took, but I heard his dull voice, and it sounded softly-

“Light.”

“…”

"If I say that now, isn't it too late?"

“…”

"In the past half of my life, I only knew clearly that I fell in love with her and loved her. How should other people love and how they fell in love with her? I really don't understand."

“…”
Chapter completed!