"If I say that now, isn't it too late?"

"In the past half of my life, I only knew clearly that I fell in love with her and loved her. How should other people love and how did they fall in love with her? I really don't understand."

"I also thought I didn't have to understand."

When I heard these words, I smiled faintly, and it was no surprise that he was the emperor, and it was rare that he could truly love a woman. As for who that woman was, it could only be said that she had a fate in her previous life and was destined in this life. If Nangong Lizhu was her accompanying him through the most difficult years in her early years, she also accompanied him to live and die together, and even she pulled him back at the moment on the verge of life and death. In fact, if you think about it carefully, in their relationship, I am a person who should not exist. All my expectations and delusions about him were unfair to that woman, and even an invisible harm.

He loves her, and there is nothing wrong with that.

However, if he wants to let him know how to love, it will indeed sound like a fantasy and extremely absurd.

He is the emperor, and he only needs to let the women in the harem enjoy the rain and dew, as long as he knows rewards and favors, it is enough. As for love - he doesn't need to, let alone understand.

Just as I was thinking this way, he slowly said word by word—

"But, I understand a little now."

“…”

I was stunned. Before I could react, I felt him slowly raise his head and look at me, his eyes shining brightly in the dark night: "I want to understand too."

“…”

"I want to make good compensation for the hardships you have suffered over the years."

“…”

"I want to learn to treat you well, too."

“…”

"Love you very well."

“…”

I looked at him silently.

Such nights and such quietness have formed an invisible world around us. Perhaps only at this time, this place will take out the words in his heart for the first time, and I dare to say to him what I never dared to say in the past. Who knows what expression I will see after the first ray of sunshine in the morning and shines on his face, and what kind of future I will face.

This moment, maybe only this moment.

I lowered my eyes and said calmly: "Your Majesty, this has nothing to do with me."

Sure enough, I heard his breath suffocating.

It was a squeezing feeling. After that suffocation, I heard his rapid breathing, as if one hand was trying hard to smooth out the pain on his skin, so rapid.

After a while, the rapid breathing sound slowly calmed down.

When he spoke, his voice became a little sour, but unexpectedly, there was no rage at all, as if he had a bitter smile: "I know, it has nothing to do with you."

“…”

"You have changed your mind."

“…”

"I, even if I can control the world, I can't control the hearts of the people."

“…”

"I have no choice but to order you to change your mind, nor can I force you to put your mind back on me."

I smiled softly in my heart.

In fact, this was originally an obvious fact, but for the emperor and those in his position, they would not understand it, nor were they easy to understand. From childhood to adulthood, he had obtained many things too easily, so it became natural to get it, and if someone didn't give it to him, he would anger him.

Looking back at the moment when I left the palace, his anger and my despair were still vivid in my mind until now.

But, it has passed.

Now I am no longer the Yue Qingying who had no ability to protect himself and could only follow the arrangements of heaven. He now also understands that imperial power can force a person, but cannot force a heart.

At this time, I still wanted to save some things. After all, even if he and I cannot get back together in love, there are some other things to do together. So I said softly: "But Your Majesty can win the hearts of the people."

He chuckled: "Light, the hearts of the people are different from yours."

“…”

"I want to win the world, but I don't want to lose you."

“…”

My breathing tightened, and my skin tightened all over my body, like a hedgehog who was frightened and raised all the thorns in my body, looking at him nervously: "You - what do you want to do?!"

"But don't worry," he said immediately, his voice even deliberately softened: "I said I won't hurt you anymore, but I really won't."

“…”

You don't hurt me, but you have too many ways to hurt me.

Maybe it was because he was getting too close, maybe it was because he hugged me so tightly, and he clearly noticed my heartbeat and every throbbing. At this moment, it seemed that what I was thinking in my heart was also discovered in time. He raised his head and looked at me with a burning look: "It's true."

I looked at him and shook my head gently.

He said, "Don't you believe me?"

"Believe or not, it doesn't matter," I lowered my eyes lightly: "I just said that this has nothing to do with me. The past has ended long ago for me. What has passed is memories. There are sweetness and bitterness in memories, joy and sorrow, but there is no love and no hate. The past cannot be changed, so I will not spend any effort in the past and what will not happen in the future is what I want to do."

This time, his breathing was also suffocated, but he immediately smiled and looked at me: "Yes, it has nothing to do with you."

“…”

"This is just my decision."

“…”

"I want to do this."

I frowned slightly, and just as I was about to say something, he continued, "I know what you are going to say--it has nothing to do with you. You have no love or hate for me and the past, because everything is over. Then what I want to say is, okay, I will listen to you and no longer make up for the past. What I want to do is what will not happen in the future."

My heart sank, and I saw him looking at me firmly. His eyes seemed to have ushered in the morning light, bright and warm, almost penetrating all the cold in the darkness: "I will start from now on, every thing, every word, every action, to win your heart."

...

I can't believe my ears.

He is going crazy.

How can an emperor do this?

Pei Yuanhao, how can you do this?!

After knowing that I no longer love him, and even knowing that everything is irreversible, why did he still do this and make this decision stubbornly?!

I said, "You know this is impossible."

He said: "Many people find it difficult to unify this fragmented and broken world, but I want to do it!"

“…”

I was stunned. Before I could think of how to answer, he continued: "The world has been divided for many years, and everyone knows that maintaining the status quo is easier than unification. But there are always some people who are unwilling to accept such facts. No matter how difficult it is, they must return the world to unification. Only in this way can we usher in a real prosperous era. Because someone has done it before, no matter how difficult it is, I will try it, and even believe that I can do it."

“…”

"And you, light."

He looked into my eyes and said seriously: "You just told me that you once loved me."

“…”

"If you have never fallen in love with me, then that's fine. Maybe God hasn't given us that seed, maybe such feelings cannot grow in your heart."

“…”

"But you have fallen in love with me before, so don't blame me for holding such hope."

“…”

"I hope one day, you will fall in love with me."

“…”

I was entangled by his eyes and breathing. It seemed that at this moment, the person had fallen into a bottomless abyss. Every time I struggled hard, he was faintly resolved. At this moment, I was even a little powerless, more helpless, looking at him: "What if you can't do it?"

He looked at me and said seriously: "Win the world or win you, which one is more difficult?"

“…”

"If I can win the world, then can I win you back?"

...

I looked at him desolately, and didn't know what else I could say.

What else can you say?

This is Pei Yuanhao. Didn’t I know it long ago?

His tenderness and his pampering, but all of this is under one premise-he is Pei Yuanhao.

He never gave up on his belief in himself, and never let go of what he wanted easily. I knew it early in the morning, but I still hoped that he could let go with me calmly.

He raised his head and looked at me with a hint of desire. The light in his eyes made him look a bit like a serious and focused child. Such a strange Pei Yuanhao is something I have never seen before. He said word by word: "I will pamper you as I said before, I will treat you well, and respect your choices. But all this is based on one premise-I must pursue you well."

“…”

I looked at him powerlessly.

At this moment, I didn’t know whether he was too stupid or he was too stupid.

What kind of person did I provoke to make myself unable to find birth to heaven when I have no way out?

Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly and desolately, but my eyes, which had shed too many tears, were all dried up and even a little pain, but I couldn't even shed a single tear.

Pei Yuanhao, Pei Yuanhao, what should I do to you?

The long night is over.

I seemed to have seen the faint morning light in the sky. That night, I had done nothing, but I felt like I had experienced a war. At this moment, I was exhausted both physically and mentally. I raised my head, took a deep breath, then reached out and slowly took the hands that were holding me tightly away, supported them on his shoulders, and pushed him away.

He looked up at me, his eyes as firm as ever.
Chapter completed!