Section 5: From Su Shi

When I was running around the school aimlessly and venting my depression, Loulanxue called me. As soon as I answered it, she said, "Hey, how is the room arranged? It's very good, right?"

I said in a little surprised: "How do you know I'm back?"

"I just received a call from Qian Buyi. He said he met you at the airport, and said that the misunderstanding between you two has been resolved, so I have time to hold a party and everyone is happy together." Loulanxue replied.

"Oh, so that's it."

Loulanxue said proudly: "Don't you, how about the house? We have arranged it well for you? We were all tired yesterday and today, but we were almost exhausted."

"I haven't gone to see it yet." I said.

"Oh... I understand. I went to Liu Ning's class, right?" Loulanxue was stunned for a moment, and suddenly said, "I actually chose nearly five hundred electives in one night. Are the boys from your Literature Academy so hungry?"

"It's okay." I said.

At this time, Loulanxue finally began to realize my emotions, "Yeah, why do you look like your emotions are not very right?"

"Nothing, I'm just a little tired. Do you have the key to the house there? I want to go in and have a sleep, but the things in the dormitory were emptied by Zhang Sheng."

"Where is Zhang Sheng? Didn't he be with you?" Loulanxue asked strangely.

While walking under the street lights at school, I said, "He is still angry with me now."

"Angry? No, right? You two will have conflicts?" Loulanxue asked with a more strange heart, "What the hell is going on? What's wrong with you two?"

"He probably isn't very satisfied with my attitude towards women, right?" I said.

"Ah? No? He has known you for so long, but he still doesn't know what kind of virtue you are? He can't wait for today to despise you." Loulanxue said inappropriately.

I was depressed at this time. When I heard her indifferent jokes, I was too lazy to continue saying it, "Everyone, don't gloat, do you have a key? If you have a key, you can open the door and hang up the phone if you don't have a key."

"Okay, okay, okay, you are the biggest, Master Chu, you are waiting for me at the South Gate, I will arrive in ten minutes."

Ten minutes later, Loulanxue and I met at the South Gate. The apartment we rented was called Zhengda Apartment, which was only five or six minutes away from the south gate of our school. On the way, Loulanxue showed a woman's gossip and pestered me and asked me to tell her what happened. I didn't want to say it at first, but after being pestered by her for two or three minutes, I couldn't stand it anymore, so I told all the things that happened today.

When we finished speaking, we arrived at the door of the apartment. Loulanxue took out the key to help me open the door and asked, "Actually, I can see Xiaoci's thoughts if you don't say it. You didn't see it. When I arranged your room yesterday, she didn't let me and Chu Luohua intervene at all. She was all arranged by herself. She was completely harmed by you."

"Okay, don't say this to me as if you occupy a moral height. If you want to say something to other girls, I may not be able to refute you. As for Achi, I don't think I have done anything wrong, whether it is moral or emotional." I sat on the sofa and said.

Loulanxue sighed, walked to the side to pour water for me, then took it to my hand, and sat down next to me, and said, "Actually, to be honest, rationally, I agree with your approach. Since there is no way to develop with someone, I should just let her give up. It is better to have a short pain than a long pain, and it is better to drag it away in a close and distant way. But no matter what, if you can do such a thing, it means you are still full of cruelty."

"Just be cruel. Anyway, since I was a child, I haven't heard anyone say I'm a good person." I drank the water from the cup in one breath, then lie on my back on the sofa and said.

After sitting next to me for a while, Loulanxue suddenly said, "Since you can accept Han Rong and Ulan at the same time, why can't you accept one more Li Wenci?"

I lay on the sofa, shook my head and said, "Is this different?"

Loulanxue asked, "What's the difference? Isn't Xiaoci a pretty and handsome girl?"

"To be kind to someone because of love is the happiness of both parties. To be kind to someone because of pity is the insult to each other, because the warmth at this time is full of hypocritical charity. Forget Zhang Sheng, that stupid second child, don't you understand this principle, do you so smart?" I lay on the sofa, looked at the ceiling above my head, and slowly said to Loulanxue.

Loulanxue was stunned by me. After a while, she said, "Aren't men all the better women? How come you have such a strange idea?"

"What men you say you want is not a real woman, but just to satisfy their vanity and fill their inner inferiority. Therefore, as long as a woman looks OK, they will be happy to accept that she is blindly devoted to him, without considering whether she loves this woman or whether that woman has got what she really wants."

"What about you, what do you want?" Loulanxue asked again.

I have to say that the problem of Loulanxue is really difficult. I sat up, leaned against the sofa for a while, and said, "What I want is a lover who treats each other honestly, is equal and respects each other, not an emotional slave."

Hearing this, Loulanxue blinked and thought for a while, and asked, "Equality? Can you and women really achieve equality?"

As soon as I heard Loulanxue say this, I knew what she wanted to say next, so I said, "Do you want to say that since you say equality, then you are so fickle, can you allow your woman to be fickle?"

Loulanxue nodded and replied, "Yes, what is your answer?"

I shook my head almost without hesitation, "Of course not."

Loulanxue looked at me and asked, "Then you said again, you are equal to your woman?"

"Everything is equal, with this exception." I shook my head and said.

After looking at me up and down for a while, Loulan Xue asked, "Actually, have you ever thought about concentrating on being nice to a girl?"

I nodded deeply, "Absolutely thought about it."

"Then why are you not dedicated?"

I pursed my lips and said, "I can't control myself, who told me that there are always so many good girls around me."

"After all the time, you can be fickle, but you will never allow the women around you to fickle, right?"

"I can't say that completely, because every time I'm with a woman I like, I'll have the urge to live alone with her for the rest of my life. It should be said that I'm still very dedicated, but my loyalty is just a piece of fragments. However, if you have to think I'm fickle, you can barely say that."

"After saying so much, there are only two words, selfishness." Loulanxue said, and raised her mouth.

"When did I tell you that I'm not selfish?" I looked at Loulanxue and said with big eyes.

Loulanxue was so arrogant by my words, "You guy, you are obviously shameless, but you are ignorant. Why can you still be so righteous?"

I looked at Loulanxue strangely and said, "Please, am I honest with you, okay? If I tell you, I feel guilty every day and I am scolded by my conscience every night, don't you feel stingy?"

"I'm too lazy to tell you, I'm just trying to make things worse." Loulanxue said, turning his head. I handed over the cup, "That's just right, take this opportunity to pour me a glass of water."

"Go to die." Loulanxue picked up the pillow and threw it hard on my head.

"If you don't fall down, you won't fall down. Why are you so violent?" I put down the cup depressedly, then turned over again on the sofa, and murmured lazily, "Forget it, I won't drink anymore, I'll be so thirsty."

After saying that, I closed my eyes and rested.

I was still very depressed before seeing Loulanxue, but after chatting with her for so long, my mood improved unknowingly. Things about Li Wenci gradually became open, and everyone has a necessary stage for growth. This time, let’s treat it as a milestone in her growth. Since I did nothing wrong, there is no need to add unnecessary mental burden to myself. I am already tired enough.

After a while, Loulanxue stood up, poured me a glass of water, placed it on the coffee table, kicked me with her feet, and said, "I've drunk water, Master."

I immediately sat up, grinned and smiled at Loulanxue while holding the water, "I find that you are very progressive now and have the potential to be a good wife and mother."

I just drank half of the cup of water and put it down when I heard Loulanxue suddenly say, "Aqi, have you ever seen Su Shi's Jiangchengzi? I remember my dreams on the night of the 20th day of the first lunar month of Yimao?"

I thought about it for a moment and nodded, "I know, it was the lyrics that Su Shi wrote when he was the magistrate of Mizhou, and wrote them to his dead wife. Why, have you really become a literary youth?"

"Oh, stop talking nonsense." Loulanxue hit me and said, "Do you know? This is my favorite poem in ancient poems."

As Loulanxue said, he began to recite this ancient poem softly, "Ten years of life and death are vast. If you don't think about it, you will never forget it. There is no place to talk about desolation in the lonely grave for thousands of miles. Even if you meet, you will not recognize it. The face is covered with dust and your hair is like frost. When you come to the night of a dream, you will suddenly return home. The small window is dressing up. When you look at each other, you will only have thousands of tears. You will find that the heartbreaking place every year, the bright moonlit night, the short pine hill."

After reading this, Loulanxue sighed and said, "When I saw this ancient poem, I was really moved by Su Shi's deep affection for his wife. In my own self-conception, I thought Su Shi would be alone in the second half of his life. But I later learned that Su Shi's poem was written for his Yuanmao's wife Wang Fu. Not long after Wang Fu died, he reunited Wang Fu's second cousin Wang Run. When he was forty, he also married Wang Chaoyun, a dancer and singing girl. In addition to these three people, he also had many favored concubines and maids, which added up to the front and back, saying that three wives and four concubines were considered conservative."

After listening to Loulanxue's big words, I felt that she didn't seem to want to discuss the simplest things of ancient poems and Su Shi, but made some references. So I asked strangely: "Axue, what do you want to say?"

Loulanxue looked at me and continued, "I had a time when I read these materials, and I felt that he was hypocritical. He was crying at the old one while holding his new wife. But now, I think I began to understand a little."

"Understand? What do you understand?" I asked with a blink of an eye.

Loulanxue lowered her head and thought for a while, and said, "I think now that if I were that Wang Fu, I would definitely love Su Shi very much. Although he is fickle and has so many wives, no matter what, he is sincere when he treats me. If he is lucky and can get the lifelong passion of a truly excellent good man, it is naturally a blessing to cultivate in eight lifetimes. If he takes a step back, he can actually get the true love of a good man, which is not a happy thing."

Loulanxue said, turning around in a daze, looking at the coffee table in front of her, "Although in the end, you may still lose it, but what is in the world that can really last forever? People will die, but in the end, everything will end? As long as you have obtained the other party's sincere feelings, it will be worth it, right?"

After Loulanxue finished speaking, she sighed with emotion, and then looked at the coffee table and became more and more dazed. I vaguely felt something was wrong, so the atmosphere in the whole room was a little awkward. At this time, I sat up straight, smiled, and smiled at Loulanxue, "It's over, you have really become a literary youth."
Chapter completed!