Yun Hua's words made Zhou Sheng Beiqian stunned for a moment.

He sat down opposite her, "What the hell happened?"

"fine."

"It's okay, you will say such words." Zhou Sheng Beiqian's face was very serious, "Drawing, isn't he... he bullying you?"

Yunhua's tears fell down suddenly.

She turned her head and didn't want anyone to see her now.

Zhou Sheng Beiqian reached out and wanted to help her wipe her tears.

Yunhua blocked his hand, "Don't worry about me, I'm fine."

"I'll go find him!" he said coldly, "I want to ask him why he should treat you like this!"

Yunhua wiped her tears and looked up at him, "No."

"It's time to draw. Are you still thinking about him? Did he think about you? He wouldn't have the heart to hurt you if he takes you in his heart!"

Zhou Sheng Beiqian's voice was very cold, "You sacrificed your life to save him, and he saved him twice! He owe you more than two lives! But how did he treat you? How could he bear it and how could he bear it!"

Yunhua lowered her head and lowered her eyes, "I voluntarily saved him, it has nothing to do with him."

"Drawing!" Zhou Sheng Beiqian was really angry, "What does it have nothing to do with him? Isn't the person you saved him? Can he live to this day without you? Even if he doesn't love you, he should at least be grateful to you! Did he do it?"

Yunhua was silent for a while, slowly raised her head, and her eyes seemed to be covered with mist. "I thought... you would talk to him, after all, you have always... so respected and respected him."

"It has nothing to do with those." Zhou Shengbeiqian said, "I will never forget his kindness to me when I was a child, but this does not mean that I must agree with everything he did. Especially... you! I... I... I can't believe that he will treat you like this!"

Yunhua didn't say anything.

Zhou Shengbeiqian looked angry, "Does the impact of amnesia on people really have such a great impact? Will it fundamentally change a person's character? I am very unfamiliar with him, so he shouldn't be like this."

Yunhua chuckled, "Maybe it's because I shouldn't have forced him to marry me, it's just a matter of taking advantage of others' danger."

"That's why taking advantage of others' danger!" Zhou Shengbeiqian was helpless and distressed, "You have to save his life and death regardless of your life and death, and you have to get a marriage certificate with him. He should be glad and grateful. You are so good, he is not worthy of you!"

"No matter what, I can't hide the fact that I forced a marriage." Yun Hua chuckled.

"Uncle Tan and Aunt Ji are also thinking about you. They know that you have never given up on him and can't get out of it. For them, if you really like him so much, then eliminate all difficulties and marry him and be with him, as long as you can be happy." Zhou Shengbeiqian said, "For him, it is even more honorable to marry you. What is he not satisfied with?"

"What about me now?" Yun Hua looked at Zhou Sheng Beiqian, "I'm married, disillusioned?"

Zhou Sheng Beiqian looked at her for a while and said softly, "Sometimes, liking someone is not really love, it is just an obsession. You think you will be happy with him, but in fact you are just pain when you are together. Maybe..."

"Maybe something?"

"Maybe you don't love him as much as you thought."

Yunhua was stunned and murmured to himself, "Maybe...I don't love him as much as I imagined?"

"Ask yourself, ask your heart." Zhou Sheng Beiqian's voice was very gentle, "Your liking for him has become a habit and completely imprisoned yourself. You have experienced life and death hardships together, and you have sacrificed your life to save him more than once... There is a psychological effect called the sunken cost effect, which can be used in many things, including feelings."

"The sunken cost effect, simply put, is, the more you pay, the harder it will be to give up. Over time, it will become an obsession! In fact, you may no longer like that person, but you have paid so much and liked him for so long, it will be difficult for you to say let go easily, and it will be even more difficult to see your heart clearly."

Zhou Sheng Beiqian reached out and touched her hair. "The longer you are eroded by this effect, the longer your obsession will be retained. Once you truly get his response and truly have him, you may relax instantly. At this moment, you will find that those obsessions in the past seem to be very inexplicable, and you will say that you may not understand why you liked them so much at that time..."

"Don't be afraid."

Zhou Sheng Beiqian whispered, "It's not that you have changed, but that you have not liked him so much since a long time ago. What supports you is just obsession. You have not changed, but you are tired. If you give too much, you will be tired. When you take off your liking filter, you will find that many aspects of it are actually not liked by you in the past. You are just enduring it, unconsciously enduring..."

Yunhua stretched out his hand and rubbed his temples.

After a while, she turned to look at Zhou Sheng Beiqian, "What you mean is that my love for him is more due to my obsession with him. Because I have paid too much to him, I can't help but let go?"

"I think this is the case." Zhou Sheng Beiqian's tone was very plain.

His attitude will not make you feel any offense, which is something a professional psychologist can do.

He will not evaluate your behavior and thoughts, will not say what you did wrong, or whether you are stupid. He will only tell you the truth with the calmest attitude, which can minimize your inner shame.

Many people are ashamed to face psychologists because they are afraid of hearing others’ evaluations of themselves and fear that others will blame themselves...

Yunhua was silent, "I don't know if it is, but I...I will never forget that at the lowest point in my life, it was him who pulled me out of the abyss and she who saved me."

"Drawing, it's not him who saved you, but you." Zhou Sheng Beiqian's expression was very sincere. "At that time, you had a serious tendency to depression, but you didn't know."

"……Yeah?"

"He asked me to diagnose you. At that time, he wanted to hide it from you, so I couldn't give you an accurate notice of the condition through a test. I can only make a judgment for you by talking to you. This is actually a bit of a violation, but because you are the one he cares about, I will violate the regulations for him."

Zhou Shengbeiqian said slowly, "Your depressive tendency was already very serious at that time. You were already suicidal, but your inner kindness saved you. When you met Ouyang Mu, the God of Rose, you could still think of using your own death to make Ouyang Mu arrested. You have reached that level, but you still want to die more valuable..."

"This is also what touched me the most. I have never seen a girl like you."

"You said he saved you, but you might as well save yourself."

Zhou Sheng Beiqian's attitude is very serious, "No one knows better than us how painful a depression patient is. They are not friendship, nor do they want to live, but... they cannot. Many of them want to be happy and want to face life well like normal people, but they cannot. A small negative emotion may drag them down and may cause their emotions to collapse."

Zhou Sheng Beiqian sighed, "If someone can really hear the voices of others' hearts, at least nine out of the ten depressions are shouting for help."

"Normal people can't understand it. They obviously don't have any lesions in their body organs, but they seem to be healthy people. Why do they want to commit suicide? Why can't they overcome that negative emotion? They are not sick at all, they are just to torture people, right? Why are they so pretentious? Why do they collapse at any time?"

“Wait wait.”

Zhou Sheng Beiqian sighed, "It is difficult to make normal people understand depression. Similarly, it is difficult to admit that some depression patients who are particularly eager to live will have depression, such as you."

Yunhua didn't say anything.

"The only ones that can save depression are medicine and yourself."

"When you can defeat the little monsters deep in your soul, you are saved."

Zhou Sheng Beiqian looked at her, "It was you who defeated the little monster in your heart. It was you who dragged yourself out of the abyss bit by bit. It was you who wanted to live too much. He was not your life-saving straw, he was just your spiritual sustenance. Even if it wasn't him, you would find other spiritual sustenances, and you would still struggle to get ashore..."

"In your mind, you beautify him to an incredible level. You put all your emotions and life in your body. Your eyes can only see the good side of him. Even if you discover some bad things, your brain will subconsciously ignore those things. In fact, it is like hypnosis."

"You have always been in a state of self-hypnosis. When one day you wake up from this state of self-hypnosis, you will know that the things you thought you didn't care about, or the things you thought you couldn't see, are actually remembered very clearly. You just ignored them for the time being, you didn't forget, and you didn't care."

"The moment I woke up from my dream, it was really cruel."

“Cruel, extremely cruel.”

"But I will accompany you in painting, I will always be with you, just like in the past few years in M ​​country, I will always be with you. As long as you need me, I will always be with you, I will always be there!"

Yun Hua didn't speak for a long time.

She seemed to be trapped in her own emotions again.

After a long time, she slowly looked up and looked at Zhou Sheng Beiqian, the mist in her eyes became clearer.

"Thanks."

"Don't be so polite to me." Zhou Shengbeiqian breathed a sigh of relief, "I'll make it for you if you want to eat at night."

"Sort takeout." Yunhua whispered.

Zhou Shengbeiqian didn't insist, "What do you want to eat?"

"Come on whatever you want." Yun Hua said, "Sorry, I want to take a break..."

"Okay." Zhou Shengbeiqian smiled, "Doudu and Lance are probably coming back soon. I'll go downstairs to wait for them first, so you can sleep for a while."

After Zhou Shengbeiqian left the study, Yun Hua also returned to the master bedroom.

Lying on the wide double bed, she hugged the quilt tightly and buried her face in it until she couldn't breathe, she looked up again.

Maybe she had never seen him clearly.

Can……

Those common experiences cannot be erased, those vivid details of the purpose, everything...

Why is this happening?

Why has it reached this point today?

If time can go back to the past.

If everything can be repeated...

Thinking of this, Yun Hua really felt a little ridiculous. How could he start over?

I've given her a chance, what else do I want?

...

It's past 7 o'clock in the evening.

When Yunhua came down from the building, only Zhou Shengbeiqian sat alone in the living room.

Yunhua rubbed her eyes, "Where is Doudu and Lance, haven't school yet? Why is it so late today?"

Zhou Sheng Beiqian turned to look at her, his face was not very good, "Draw, listen to me, calm down first."

"What happened?" Yun Hua's brows immediately frowned.

Zhou Shengbeiqian pursed his lips, "In the afternoon, when Douduo and Lance got off school, Aqing called me."

"Hmm, then what?"

"He said... he took the two children back to Bo's house and would not come back tonight. Tomorrow is the final exam for the two children... He said he would send the two children directly to school to take the exam." Zhou Shengbeiqian said.
To be continued...