Kim Taeyeon's sudden outbreak obviously made Han Yu stunned.

He looked at the red eyes that were glaring at him in a daze and shed tears like broken beads in his red eyes, and then wet the white mask on her face... as if it was wet on his hands.

For a moment.

A feeling of at a loss, a little heart-wrenching, and a deep and puzzled mixed feeling stirred in his heart.

He thought about it, but because the person in front of him had a mess of tears, he could not think at all, so he could only open his mouth and follow the words of the two of them just ended. No matter what, it was always right to apologize first.

"Yes, I'm sorry Taeyeon... It was Oppa's mistake, Oppa did it wrong, I..."

“Oppa, where are you wrong?”

"Hey...well, huh?"

Looking at Han Yu who looked like he had done something wrong, hanging his head first, apologizing to him with a helpless and self-blame, Kim Taeyeon suddenly bit her lower lip slightly and asked him.

Afterwards, while facing Han Yu, he raised his head and looked at him, Kim Taeyeon shook her head for no reason.

She raised her hand in front of Han Yu, wiping the tears on her face, then took a deep breath, looked at him with red eyes, and said in a affirmative tone: "Oppa, you actually don't know why I am like this, and you don't know what I did wrong, right? But because I cried, you apologized to me, right?"

When Han Yu heard her words, his appearance suddenly became silent in a slight shock.

"Huh...I know."

As soon as he saw him like this, Kim Taeyeon smiled as expected, but the low laughter seemed particularly weak and tired.

"Hey, what's wrong with me today..."

While wiping the tears in her eyes with her fingers that still could not be suppressed, Kim Taeyeon turned her back slightly to Han Yu and turned her face to the side. Through the mask, the crying and nasal sound in her voice seemed to be aggravated a lot: "Oppa, do you know? Your innocent behavior really makes people feel like you have become the person who made a mistake...Oppa, do you know?"

"Taeyon, I--"

I couldn't help but speak, but my tone rose. Seeing the petite and thin figure in front of me, some words were stuttering on my lips and I couldn't say it any more.

Han Yu tried again and again, but finally lowered his head and let out a breath from his mouth. He frowned as if he was headache, raised his hand and rubbed his forehead. While lowering the volume, his tone of speech was filled with a little unspeakable concern and doubt:

"Taeyeon... Yes, you're right, I really... I really can't think of what I've made you angry. Is it because of my previous proposal? Or did I make you angry today? But, don't you know it very well? You can't live like this..."

"Why not? Didn't you live like this yourself?"

Hearing the question that was inserted into the back, Han Yu couldn't help but put down his hand, raised his face, and looked at Kim Taeyeon who turned his head to look at him in a daze.

She seemed to have controlled her momentary collapse just now, and at least tears no longer quickly spilled out of her red eyes. But for some reason, looking at her at this moment, Han Yu felt a feeling that was even more melancholy than before.

"You said that living with everyone is better than living alone. That's right, but you said to me, why do you still live the same life as me? You would rather stay alone alone than reach out to touch the world, right? You don't want to do something you don't want to do...what are you qualified to ask me to do it?"

Speaking of this, Kim Taeyeon secretly gritted her teeth. She tried to tighten her cheeks so that she would not show that weak and sad expression. Then, word by word, she said seriously to the tall figure sitting in front of her:

"Do you know about oppa? Living the way you want is not called selfishness, even if you have cut off contact with the whole world...that is not called selfishness, at most...it is just your own choice. But--!"

The lips under the mask were pursed in unknown ways, as if they were sad and sad, and as if they were aggrieved and angry.

"But...oppa, you ask others to live the way they want. This is called selfishness!"

After the words came to his voice, he ignored the daze that appeared in his eyes for a moment. Kim Taeyeon turned her back to him again. She lowered her head, and her light golden hair drooped down like a protective cover, covering her eyes that were shaking tears again.

It seems that only in this way can the emotions in her heart... be temporarily relieved.

"Oppa, you definitely don't know why I was so angry and so sad just now... right?"

"Okay... Then I'll tell you now."

"Oppa Do you remember that compared to the current me, the past me, the past Taeyeon, who was not famous before... is much worse? At that time, I was even more lonely than now."

Han Yu stared at the thin back without saying a word, his eyes were hard to describe. He felt that at this time, he was more suitable to be a person who only listened but did not speak.

"I don't know what's wrong with me, was it born like this or I don't know why I developed this kind of personality after all. Since I was a child, I have almost no friends. In my memory, there are only a few people I can count, that's it... There are still many of them who have become strangers to me now."

Without a response, Kim Taeyeon continued to say that she was talking to herself more than to confess. Between her low-covered hair, her faint red and swollen eyes were as if she was flashing with a hard-to-describe sadness.

"I mom and dad always like to say that I am just an introvert, but only I know that I am such a person, and I am more adaptable to a person's life."

"However, adapting to someone does not mean that I like someone. In fact, it may be because I spend too much time alone. In fact... I seem to be more eager to get along with others than other peers. But I really don't know what to do. Because I don't know how to make friends, because I think I have to take the initiative to contact them. Such behavior makes me feel too awkward and uncomfortable..."

"So... I'm just like this, while I long to have many friends like others, but I don't want to take the initiative to act on my own. Maybe the real idea in my mind is to hope that others can come to contact me on their own initiative, right? I hope they can take the initiative to cater to my personality. Such an idea is very shameless, right?"

Hearing this, Han Yu subconsciously opened his mouth, but he was unable to express his comfort words.

He sighed heavily in his heart, and there was a deep pity in his eyes when he looked at the girl that he didn't even notice.

"In my memory, my life like this lasted for a long time. The first time I changed was when I was 16 years old, that is, in 2004. During the summer vacation that year, I signed up for a cram school to participate in the SM selection."

"It's not just the kind of vocal music that you can learn, but also teach us some cultural courses. Because my dad heard that the big companies in Seoul have high requirements for their trainees. I have been having a bad homework since I was a child, so I thought I could make up for it temporarily. After all, my dream was to become a real singer at that time, so I made a lot of jokes during the cram school..."

"But! Looking back now, I really feel that time is very happy and very happy."

"Because, there I not only met two friends who had the same ambition as me, but also for the first time... I came into contact with something called 'msn'."

"For me at that time, the instant chat software was really amazing. Not only was it like a phone call, it could chat anytime, anywhere, and... can we meet new friends?"

"At that time, I was really like a pure fool, and I was confused about the addition request from someone, and then he became my first contact person. Now think about it... Maybe it was not a coincidence, not a fate, but he had planned it long ago?"

One hand couldn't help but lift it up and touched the mask on his face. Han Yu's mouth under the mask silently pulled out an embarrassing and bitter smile.

"Anyway... I started my study in the cram school. At that time, I was actually quite tired and I was under a lot of pressure every day. I wondered if I could pass the selection and what if I failed. My dad had already worked hard for me to learn vocal music... But fortunately, at that time, I had two friends around me to comfort me, and... a friend on the Internet kept encouraging me, chatting with me, laughing with me, and making me happy."

"In fact, I joined that person as a friend, and before I met those two new friends, the first day after I joined the cram school. I had never known who he was and what he was. He only told me that his surname was Jin and he was from Jeonju."

"Until one day, when we were in English class, we said we wanted to get an English name. I heard that companies in Seoul are popular with stage names, and then I asked him if he had an English name. He told me that his English name was Peter. When I asked him why he called this name, he said that he liked Peter Pan very much, because although Peter Pan was a child who never grew up, he had enough courage to challenge this world dominated by adults and work hard to protect the people he wanted to protect."

"I was really naive at that time... I actually thought his statement was much more handsome than my thoughts, so I said to him, 'Then, since you are Peter, I'll call you Wendy', Princess Wendy... So he is Kim Peter, I am Kim Wendy, the person he should protect..."

"call……"

Suddenly, as if he could not bear the increasingly restrained mood in his heart, Han Yu straightened up slightly, looked up at the vast dark night sky above, and breathed a long sigh.

If you look closely, you will notice the slight changes in his eyes.

The petite figure beside him who had entered the state of memory was not affected by him at all, and continued to speak in a low voice in a murmuring tone.

"Peter and I were really good at that time. I couldn't tell what kind of thought I had at that time. I just felt that I could chat with him very much. Every day, every day I wanted to have a time with him, even if he was a boy. Therefore, I also increased my daily online time... I'm really sorry to my dad. His daughter was not working hard for his life as he thought, and myopia was also raised at that time..."

"But I never regretted it, because I feel that I really fit Peter in a very good way, even if my true personality is actually so bad..."

"Thinking about it, humans are really a strange creature. They obviously can't get along with anyone, but one day, when you meet such a person, the world becomes brighter, as if you have found a monster of the same kind..."

"Anyway, in this way, I spent a short and happy life in the cram school with my studies and Peter and others."

"Later, before the summer vacation was over, I went to Seoul to participate in the SM company selection, but at that time, something that disappointed me very much happened. The two friends we had made an appointment together had failed, and they did not meet me in Seoul like they did."

"My relationship with them was also broken at that time, because even though I got the other party's explanation at that time, I still felt betrayed and abandoned. This feeling made me feel very uncomfortable."

"Fortunately... at that time, at least among the three friends, there was the last one with me."

"Just when I felt lost, I received the encouragement of Peter and the support from my father and others, so I quickly cheered up and finally passed the SM selection. Think about it, on July 17, I got the result of success, that day before today, and that was the 11th year that connected me with the company."

"However, I did not choose to enter the company as soon as possible, but asked the company to return to Quanzhou and finish the last time of my summer vacation. Because I had not had time to say goodbye to my family, because... I had not had time to say goodbye to Peter."

"I can't access the Internet after becoming a trainee. Peter is in the whole state again, so it's impossible to meet me. For some reason, after thinking about this in the car back, my mood, which was very excited and happy, suddenly became a little depressed."

"At that time, I told Peter the news of his selection at the first time. He seemed surprised and had a little strange behavior, but I didn't think much about it at that time. Now, I recalled it and realized that from that time on, the problems between us had already appeared..."

"After returning to Quanzhou, I suddenly became a little idle. My goal has been accomplished and I don't have to go to school. I was really happy to chat with Peter online, but day by day, and I felt sad when I thought that I might not be able to contact him for a long time in the future. Until one day, I realized that on my way out, there seemed to be someone who was silently following me."

"I felt a little scared at that time, and even more strange. So one day, I took advantage of his inattention and ran behind the man and patted him on the shoulder."

"He was scared, and then I was scared by him."

"Because he turned around and wore a scary mask on his face, but then I recognized him again... It turned out that I knew this person. When I was in cram school, he was my classmate. Sometimes we would talk about him when we chat, because he was very strange. He wore a mask on his face almost every day. No one knew what he looked like. Everyone was guessing whether there were any scars on his face or something."

"After I recognized the classmate in this cram school, he obviously became even more panicked. I didn't remember what I said to him at that time, but at a moment when I was curious about him, and I didn't know what he was thinking. I suddenly felt that... he might be Peter."

"I thought about it, but I didn't hesitate. To be honest, I was the one who was peeked every day. I still had this confidence, so I asked him directly in person. He was stunned when he heard it. After a long time, he asked me in a tone that was difficult to believe...how did I know?"

"I guessed it right! He is Peter, he is...my Peter."

"Oppa You may not imagine that day, that day, on that day, August 5, 2004, the day that I had always been impressed by. I met him for the first time in reality, but I grabbed him with my own hands. At that moment, my mood was no less than when I passed the SM selection, and I was so happy that I was about to jump up..."

"I met Peter, and that day I did something I had never done in my life - I ran to date him, and that afternoon, when the sun was just right, I ran to him and I ran to every place involved in my life, telling him about my own affairs and my family."

"I didn't know what was wrong at that time. People who usually didn't say anything flawlessly seemed to tell him what they said in the past ten years. I remember that I picked him a mask with him that day, a mask with the Leo logo, and replaced the ugly mask on his face."

"He was so stingy at that time, just refused to let me see his face. But thinking about it was the first time we met in reality, I would forget it. Thinking that one day, even if there was a face burned to the point of being unrecognizable under the mask, I think I would definitely be the same as before, and always be as good as him."

"However... I didn't expect this idea to be broken soon after. At the time when I went to Seoul and recorded the collaborative song with the one…"

……
Chapter completed!