Jiang Cheng forced himself to believe that people actually need to talk.

Although I often feel that I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to move, I just want to be so stuffy and afraid that even a little bit of movement will stir up the mud and sand under the already calm water surface again.

But the same sentence and thought linger in my mind. Every time I touch it, a trace will be left behind, and slowly accumulate, and it will eventually become a mountain that cannot be crossed.

Open your mouth, speak out and hear your own voice, clearly hear every word, every word, what you think, complain and grievance, and the anger and confusion from the moment you speak, you will be separated from the last one by one. The direction you are buried in the deepest part.

In the last week before the final exam, Jiang Cheng went to B University to look for Xu Xingzhi three times in a row.

"It's not considered psychological counseling. You can chat with me," Xu Xingzhi said, "You say, I'll listen."

Some words that can be said to a relatively unfamiliar person, Xu Xingzhi is a perfect listener in Jiang Cheng's venting style.

He didn't even give any advice, just listened quietly, occasionally answering one or two.

Jiang Cheng felt that what he said in a month was not as much as in the past few days. He never thought that he had held so much in his heart.

"I'm not afraid of being denied. I haven't been affirmed since I was a child. I have to listen to myself for such things. I say I'm okay, I'm just fine," Jiang Cheng hugged the cat and gently grabbed the cat's belly. "How much did I do for him? If one day it's going to be erased, it's erased. I don't care. I don't want him to remember me and read me well. How good I am. I know. I don't need him to know what I did. What I want to do is because I'm willing."

"I am willing to buy a thousand gold coins." Xu Xingzhi said.

"Well," Jiang Cheng pinched the cat's paws, "but I know why. I always wanted to ask why, why? Then I thought about it. There was no reason. How did he grow up? In what environment he grew up, what he feared most was that he had no money to make, because he knew best what it felt like to make no money to make. Give up himself is the way he was best at protecting himself. Whether it was to protect himself or protect others, how many times did I say this? I feel like I said it every time?"

"I didn't pay attention," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "I said important things three times, and the most important thing is to keep saying that your voice is better today."

"It's much better, and the split throat has returned to the male duck's voice," Jiang Cheng took a sip of tea, looked down at the cat with his eyes squinting, "It should be fine when the holiday is on."

"That day, you said you still wanted me to meet my sister, right?" Xu Xingzhi reached out and carried a passing black cat from the windowsill, put it on his legs and rubbed his hair.

"Well, I know this, it's quite difficult for you," Jiang Cheng bit his lip, "But now I really have no other way. I like the little girl very much. Moreover, even if a Ding Ding's progress is made, her brother can see hope."

"I can go, but if I go, what if he doesn't agree?" Xu Xingzhi said, "After all, you two are like this now because he doesn't want you to make no money."

This sentence made Jiang Cheng frowned.

Every time he faced Xu Xingzhi and said to himself like a surging river, he actually avoided this detail.

No, this is not the details, this is the source of all his confessions.

He avoided it. Although he had not deliberately avoided it, he still did this subconsciously.

He said to himself, Gu Fei, he could explain all the reasons, why, why, why he was.

It's like an old god who has experienced everything through the world.

But when Xu Xingzhi said, "You two are like this now", he suddenly came to his senses and once again faced the reality of him and Gu Fei.

No matter how much you say, how much you explain to yourself.

They broke up after all.

Since that day, they have never had even a second contact.

Gu Fei’s circle of friends has never been updated.

Jiang Cheng's circle of friends is still updated frequently, but he has never posted any content that only Gu Fei can understand the second meaning.

No more selfies.

Jiang Cheng leaned on the back of the chair and lit up the screen of his phone.

Both the lock screen and the desktop are still Gu Fei, and the WeChat chat background is also Gu Fei, but he has always turned a blind eye.

In his vision, Gu Fei's familiar photos and familiar faces were unconsciously blocked by him, and he never clicked to see the photos and videos stored in his mobile phone.

It was not until now that he was turned up again in fresh pain and sighed softly. Those dog-torture tricks are now all he abused.

"I think you need to have a clear understanding of several issues." Xu Xingzhi looked at him.

"Yes." Jiang Cheng locked his phone onto the desktop.

"First, Gu Fei may refuse treatment, second, treatment may not be useful, because the previous judgments have not been seen," Xu Xingzhi said slowly, "Third, if you have time and willingness, I will give you an anxiety test."

"Are you afraid that I will be depressed?" Jiang Cheng smiled.

"Not to say," Xu Xingzhi said, "but you are feeling quite anxious now."

"Yes." Jiang Cheng sighed.

"There is another very important point," Xu Xingzhi said, "I remind you as a friend not to pin your hope of reunion on your sister. This kind of exchange-style mentality is not good for both of you."

"I understand," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Thank you."

He has been working hard for a long time on psychology books. If he doesn't understand anything, he will help explain it.

Jiang Cheng knew that he was in a bad state now, and he was in his heart for everything, even if he told Xu Xingzhi for an hour.

But I understand the truth now, but why is my heart aches.

But for him, his throat can speak and he can fall asleep while sleeping is already very satisfied.

Especially if you can sleep, continuous insomnia can really make people collapse.

"You'll still eat that capsule and wait until your sleep is adjusted." Zhao Ke said.

"Yes." Jiang Cheng responded.

Zhao Ke said that Anmian Capsules are a bit useful. He had insomnia before the college entrance examination, so he took this one. Jiang Cheng had insomnia this time, so he recommended it.

A pill before going to bed, a health medicine, is not sleeping pills or something, but I don’t know if it’s a psychological effect or it’s really useful. Anyway, Jiang Cheng could fall asleep before two o’clock.

As long as he can fall asleep, his face was so bad that the counselor talked to him, asking him if he was under too much pressure to study.

He wants to go back to the steel mill during the Chinese New Year, but he doesn't want people to see him losing his love and losing his shape. He is too shameless.

I don’t know what Gu Fei is doing now.

How about it in school?

How about being at home?

Is there any new lens or is there any money to change it?

Where is the phone? I have never posted it on Moments. Is it because I am in a bad mood, or is the phone really broken and I haven't bought a new one?

Are you still taking photos? Are you still taking Gu Miao out for skateboarding?

Still laughing?

As long as one of these thoughts emerges, they will quickly spread into a large area, like a virus reproduction.

Jiang Cheng jumped out of bed, grabbed a cooling candy from Lu Shi's table and stuffed it into his mouth.

Lu Shi's cool candy is OK. Once he puts it in his mouth, he will feel refreshed and ventilated within two seconds, making people feel refreshed and refreshed.

However, compared to the kind Gu Fei gave him food before, it was still not strong enough.

Gu Fei.

Gu Fei Gu Fei Gu Fei Gu Fei.

Hold.

Jiang Cheng was a little annoyed and put another candy into his mouth, without holding it in his mouth. He bit it all over the place, and from his throat to the Tianling Gai was about to be lifted off.

Jiang Cheng wiped away the tears from the quilt.

Cool.

"You are on vacation so early? A week earlier than others?" Li Yan squatted on the steps at the door of the store, playing with his cell phone.

"Well," Gu Fei held a cigarette in his mouth, "If I had to tighten my usual classes like other schools, I would have had a holiday last month."

"Coursong is also good," Li Yan took a photo at him with his cell phone, "There is little pressure."

"Don't post my photos to your friends." Gu Fei said.

"Don't worry," said Li Yan, "If I want to send it, I will send it in groups, and I won't let you see it."

"Yes." Gu Fei responded.

Although this was his request, for some reason, Li Yanzhen felt a little disappointed when he did it. The distant connection between him and Jiang Cheng was broken bit by bit.

"Sister Xin introduced you to a very cool fashion photography?" Li Yan continued to play the game, "She said you have to consider what else? I don't even think about it if I take off all my money and take pictures."

Gu Fei glanced at him squintedly.

"What? I have a good figure and am not afraid of being exposed." Li Yan said.

Gu Fei sprayed a sip of cigarette and continued to look at him with his eyes squinted.

"I know you're Jiang Cheng's figure." Li Yan didn't finish his words, and looked at Gu Fei for a while before moving to the side, "I just said it's right."

Gu Fei looked at him without saying anything, stared for a while before turning back to continue looking at the snow on the road.

"Dafei," said Li Yan, "I always feel that the eyes that can kill people are nonsense."

"It was originally." Gu Fei said.

"No," said Li Yan, "I just saw it, and I feel that you can kill me with one eye, which is very scary."

"You weren't hit by my eyes," Gu Fei took a sip of cigarettes, "You died because you talk too much."

"You can't do it at all," Li Yan probably couldn't get over this old man, and turned to look at him with some discomfort, "You are like being captured every day."
To be continued...