The loss of a successful man

When driving a container truck, you have to go on long distances often. Li Jing only goes home once or twice a week, and it is not uncommon not to go back a week. My sister-in-law is very busy at work and she is busy until midnight every day. Her elder brother often has social engagements. I stayed alone in the huge house, and the house seemed lonely.

In the loneliness of the evening, while playing games on the computer, I listened to the door ringing. My elder brother and sister-in-law came back one after another. When my elder brother came back, he would shout in the living room: I am back. When my sister-in-law came back, she often knocked on the stone pavement with her giggling heels from afar. When she arrived at the door, she changed her shoes and came in quietly. Then the water in the bathroom rustled and rustled. After taking a shower, she went upstairs. She was the only sound in this house. Only when Li Jing came back would I feel at ease.

In the morning, my elder brother and I went out at almost the same time, and we could take his gray Citroen to the company. At this time, my sister-in-law was still sleeping. Sometimes, I would wonder inexplicably: What kind of marriage did my elder brother and sister-in-law maintain? For my sister-in-law, it was just a bed that I needed to sleep. At night, when she came back, my elder brother was asleep. In the morning, she was still asleep. My elder brother had left and had no chance to talk. On the way to work, I occasionally heard my elder brother talk about my sister-in-law, a woman who loved work so crazy. For the sake of her career, she couldn't even make time for giving birth.

When the eldest brother said this, there was a faint loss on his face. It was a expression that a successful man would easily refuse to show to others. There was only a private space like this in the car that showed a fleeting bit of disappointment.

Whenever this happens, I can't say anything, watch the people coming and going on on the roadside, or say some relaxed topics, and change the heavy atmosphere. Sometimes, there will be inexplicable thoughts in my heart. If I marry a man like my elder brother, I will give up everything to give him warmth. People are always like this, and I don't know how to cherish it when I hold it in my hands. Everyone has their own standards of life. People like me are destined to be unable to become great people, and destined little women can only be a wife to a mediocre man.

In the kitchen of my elder brother, because my sister-in-law didn’t eat three meals at home, I had a lot of social engagements. Even if I didn’t have social engagements, I was too lazy to cook by myself. I kept it idle. During the day, there were hourly workers to clean up the room for two hours and wipe the already clean kitchen cleaner, like a deserted idle room, which lacked the breath of fireworks in the world.

I actually fell in love with him

Later, when I got off work, I often brought a few side dishes home and cooked them carefully in the kitchen. Once, I prepared the meal and was about to take the dishes to the restaurant. When I turned around, I saw my elder brother standing at the door of the kitchen. I didn’t hear him replying at any time. I smiled: Brother, let’s eat together.

The eldest brother smiled silently and entered the kitchen to get a pair of chopsticks. He ate so greedy, like a hungry child. After finishing the meal, he saw that I didn’t move the chopsticks at all. He was stunned for a moment and said: Sorry, I’ve finished all your dishes. I haven’t eaten home-cooked dishes for a long time.

I smiled and said: It's okay, I can just make some food.

The eldest brother suddenly sighed: A house with a scent of fireworks is called home. This is the most delicious meal I have eaten in several years. You often cook it in the future and I often come back to eat it. OK?

I said yes. Li Jing and I live in my elder brother's house, and there is no burden. Being able to do something for their family can make up for our guilt. Anyway, I have to cook. This is a good thing to kill two birds with one stone, and it can also be considered a reward for my elder brother's goodness to us.

The elder brother often comes back early and has fewer social engagements. He always says while eating: It’s still the food at home to support people. Every time, he eats like a greedy child. Occasionally, when Li Jing comes back, I cook a few more dishes. Three people eat around the dining table and laughing. The elder brother says excitedly: This is what it looks like home.

My sister-in-law has always been a sharp and sloppy woman. Li Jing and I live in her house and don’t meet often. She never expressed dissatisfaction. Occasionally, when I come back in the middle of the night and when I’m hungry, I will go into the kitchen to eat some side dishes I cooked. It looks very pleasant. I have always been relaxed and relaxed, and I am also happy to each other.

At home, I often have two brothers and I. After dinner, I played games. He also came over to watch with interest. His warm breath blew on my neck, itchy, and my face gradually turned red and felt a hot feeling, so the game was lost.

Seeing that I lost, he snatched the computer and called out one of them to play games, and faced me.

When he was happy, he stretched out his feet and lay on the floor and laughed. He was so cheerful, sunny and peaceful, and he didn't look like a manager of a big company at all.

Inexplicably, even though I was sitting in the company, I was thinking that the eldest brother was lying on the floor, stretching his feet and laughing loudly, thinking about what dishes should be cooked at night to match his appetite. I was so willing to look at his cheerful smile, so I wanted to see him eat greedily, and listen to him laughing haha.

In a trance, I realized that I fell in love with my elder brother a little, even...

I was frightened by this idea. I was desperate to think about Li Jing's goodness and wanted to compare my elder brother. However, Li Jing was so pale in front of my elder brother. There were so many comparisons that I couldn't stand the scrutiny. The more I compared, the more I saw that my elder brother was better than Li Jing's goodness.

Finally got out of that home

At that time, I began to lose weight and feel sad inexplicably. As soon as I heard the sound of my elder brother's Citroen driving into the garage, my heart began to beat wildly. At night, when I heard my sister-in-law's footsteps upstairs, my heart would be aching faintly.

In a trance, the vegetables were all cooked without any heat, and the rough Li Jing couldn't feel the anxiety in my heart at all. He still came back every now and then, enjoying the eternal happiness he thought was. Only the elder brother, the difference in my eyes, he had insight.

Once, my elder brother picked up a chopstick of fish-flavored eggplant, looked at me steadily and said, "No salt is added." I looked elsewhere.

The eldest brother didn't say anything, and he understood everything hidden in my heart.

Then, there was a long silence. Slowly, my tears slid down silently. Slowly, my hand was clenched over, and in his palm, he slowly used force, and slowly, I was held in his arms by him... "Li Ming, I love you." At that moment, the words I suppressed for a long time finally gushed out. He was stunned, and there was a brief struggle in his eyes.

Li Ming, I love you, I love you. In such crazy calls, finally, both of them were infatuated... When he hugged me and walked towards the bedroom, I was already in tears. I looked at him, kept looking at him, and didn't say anything. He suddenly woke up, put me down suddenly, and said in shame, "I'm sorry, forgive me, forgive me... Xiaomei, you are my brother and sister... I cry like rain."

He slowly went upstairs, using messy steps he had never seen before. We liked each other, but there were too many reasons that we could not like.

Later, my elder brother never came back for dinner. I knew he was afraid of facing my temptation alone. In the morning, he got up quietly, went out, drove, slowly slid out of the garage, occasionally looking back at the window of my room, with endless attachment and struggle in his eyes.

I didn't know what I would do if I lived there. At night, when I heard his car come back, I wanted to rush out suddenly and plunge into his arms, regardless of it.

After several tortures, I said to Li Jing: Let’s move.

Li Jing asked: Why?

I said slowly: Living here always feels like living under someone else's roof, and I don't like it.

Li Jing said: My brother must not agree.

I said: Let’s discuss it with him tonight.

The eldest brother came back very late. Li Jing grabbed him in the living room and said my thoughts. He was silent. The eldest brother slowly and quietly said: Move it. Then he sighed.

I quickly found the house. My luggage with Li Jing was so simple that it could not be simple. I could just pull it over with a taxi. I called my elder brother for the first time: I came back early in the evening and asked me to cook another meal for you.

There was a table of dishes, and I saw them slowly getting cold under the light, and my elder brother didn't come back.

I walked out of this home where all kinds of temptations were hidden, and returned to my original life.

On the street, I called my elder brother's cell phone again: I'm leaving, you go home. He didn't say anything, and I hung up the phone gently with relief.

A mature woman is a complete work, and the creation of a work is often a collective unconscious process. If you are lucky enough to encounter such a work, the marriage construction we call is basically half successful. The problem is that some creators have not had time to finish the work, but they take it out due to time or other reasons. After such a semi-finished woman comes out, she will encounter a semi-finished man again, so things will be a little difficult to deal with.

She made the man spin with a very small movement

A mature woman is a complete work, and the creation of a work is often a collective unconscious process. If you are lucky enough to encounter such a work, the marriage construction we call is basically half successful. The problem is that some creators have not had time to finish the work, but they take it out due to time or other reasons. After such a semi-finished woman comes out, she will encounter a semi-finished man again, so things will be a little difficult to deal with.

She made the man spin with a very small movement

The wisdom index of finished women in terms of emotions and interpersonal relationships is higher than that of semi-finished women, so the premise for a successful marriage should be to have a finished woman. They treat men not as romantic and childish as semi-finished women, but they can use a very small action to make the man spin, and then lean over them with a bird, just like after starting a motorcycle, she is actually the one who sits firmly on it.

Sometimes finished women are a bit scheming. They are not like semi-finished women who are not you or me, as they do whatever they want. They understand that marriage construction requires hard work and effort. They often have to use their brains to raise and calculate various relationships in a planned manner. This can be understood as instinct, or as cherishing or respecting. They say: Home is not just the most convenient and relaxing place for respect, but the most important thing is the combination of interests. Emotions without interests are unreliable, so they will attach great importance to interests. They strive to maintain this small community of interests with wisdom. Although the memory is large, they are safe to be a man's hard drive. They will not be like semi-finished women, but they always have to format and re-made systems.

Therefore, whether the finished women succeed outside or not, they are open and weak at home. This is what they do, and without any effort, they use a tremendous means to correct the course. Men are boats, and they are the helmsmen hidden in men's bodies. The bigger the boat, the more fulfilling they have, the greater the wind and waves, the more room they have to display. No matter what happens, finished women rarely think of abandoning the boat and escaping. Unlike semi-finished women, they always have to figure out where the lifeboat is.

Most finished women are introverted and calm. They warm up their emotions longer and respond to things slowly. They are often not interested in things that appear in public. Of course, these are relatively speaking. They do not lack some ability. We often see cheerful and extroverted finished women. They run with their eyes closed and will not deviate from their goals. Even if they are active, they are very sensible. They know what they should and should not do. Despite this, I would advise you to look at their past, because only for their confidants will open the closed hut in their hearts. The door is closed and there is no window.

They are the kind of people who can pivot the earth with a fulcrum

In the same beauty index, finished women are less cute. They are a little clumsy when they are ostentatious and are often not used to creating trouble and attracting men's attention. They are not as charming as semi-finished women. They lack changes, are not as ups and downs as semi-finished women, and are earth-shaking. This is because the mind of finished women is calm and complete, and does not need to be supported by other people's praise. Despite this, they will still put their lover's praise in their mouths and hold them gently, instead of chewing them quickly like semi-finished women, and spitting them casually like chewing gum.

Finished women are often half a beat slower than semi-finished women in their actions. When semi-finished women express themselves, they have not started yet. When they wake up, the opportunity is often lost, so they can only silently regret in the corner and taste the bitter fruit. But finished women have a killer weapon, which is to be prepared and take action. Their preparation activities are often buried in their hearts and are very confidential. When they suddenly show their trump card, they often surprise them because their preparation time is too long and slow. Half a beat slower gives them time to think. They are people who can lead their thinking. They often hear some people say that I know what to do but can't do it. Well, finished women are the kind of people who know how to do it and can often do it. So never ignore and provoke women who seem silent and quiet on the surface. Their thorns are trapped inside, and they hurt a lot.

Tracing the growth process of finished women is very difficult. Their hardware conditions should be no different from those of semi-finished women. However, the same temperature may not breed the same tomatoes, as well as light, humidity, soil, genetic genes, etc., but in some places they are more special. They may have encountered some small setbacks that seem insignificant to others. Although they even forgot themselves later, they may have changed the way they contact this society. If others call, they are more willing to send text messages.

They may have taken responsibility for something, and may even have experience in commanding subordinates at an age. The subordinates may be the children of relatives, or her classmates and colleagues. I don’t know, maybe one, or more. In short, this rehearsal without administrative level gave them a great sense of accomplishment, so their hearts have been very high and strong since childhood. Even if they are not successful, they will never be at ease with others. They will make judgments in their hearts, they will smile disdainfully, resist quietly, and even coldly contempt. Of course, they will never show it. They are not used to it or even too late, but you don’t give them a chance, because they are the kind of people who can leverage the earth with a fulcrum.

If home is on the shore, they are the soft bed on the shore

Finished women take a big step forward as a conspirator, and a big step backward as a loser, but if they only take a small step forward or a small step back, they are ordinary women who neither hinder others nor cause trouble. Finished women need to get along for a long time to understand, so only wise men can get this opportunity. Finished women regard family success as important, and they can generally control their men, but even if they suffer grievances, they will give their men face in front of outsiders. They say in their hearts, wait, and there are some things you can see when you go back. In fact, they will not cause a storm after going back, but those few nail-like words are enough for you to live for half your life.

If you yearn for a thrilling love that goes to life, then you can choose semi-finished women. They will keep you in the whirlpool forever and you will not be able to rest. You will exhaust your energy and find that everything is messy and uncontrollable. When you are still working with semi-finished women here, the finished woman has already sang "Hands Holding Hands" with her husband. But I have to warn you that even if you are lucky enough to win a finished woman, don't play with fire. When a complete work is broken, every piece of porcelain will become a weapon, and the tip will always face you.

Finished women are the kind of people who have to make plans for their family and their whole life. Therefore, if you really want a successful marriage, you should honestly choose a finished woman. Let’s put it this way, if the home is the shore, the finished woman is the soft bed on the shore. She tolerate you, comforts you, gives you stability, and provides you with support. Men, just like this, they fall asleep with the swaying of the finished woman.

This dangerous and seductive lover's wine

I have always liked Chen Xiaoyun's song "I'll ask you about the love liar". When I listened to it, I like to turn the sound loudly and deafeningly. Then I start to feel sad. This song always makes me sad.

Ye Zi said that this song was a rock song, which sounded too noisy and almost made him, the elderly, unable to bear it. He begged me to change the song quickly, otherwise he would have escaped.

I like Ye Zi, I like Ye Zi to accompany me. I have tried to get him to accept this song, but when the persuasion is invalid, I can only obey his meaning.

I think Ye Zi knows that I like him. I never hide my love for him. I said, "Yezi, I seem to like you!" He replied, "Girl, this is the legendary Oedipus plot." I said, "Yezi, let's start it once, okay?" He replied, "Xiaoduo, do you want to write novels, but do you lack feelings? Do you want to provoke me? I, an old man, would rather face the wall for ten years." I said, "Yezi, I haven't written anything for a long time. It only takes two weeks for you to help me!" Ye Zi replied, "Girl, you should continue to play the song of that love liar. I will accompany you to listen to it, don't make any more decisions!"

When I said these words to Ye Zi, I was 23 years old and Ye Zi was 29 years old. I was born in the horse, and Ye Zi was born in the rat. In terms of the zodiac sign, those born in the year of the horse were very compatible with those born in the year of the rat. Ye Zi said that the generation gap was too big, so I should call him Uncle Ye. So I called "Uncle Ye", Ye Zi was silent, and I called "Uncle Ye" again. Ye Zi was still silent, and I shouted loudly: "I like Uncle Ye", Ye Zi continued to silent. Friends on the Internet comforted me and said, "Ye Zi has a wife!"

I have never seen Ye Zi, and I have never seen him in the photo. Only once, Ye Zi posted a photo of him making barbecue in his yard on the forum, and his body was on the side. I stared at the photo for an hour, and then replied, "After my careful study, the roasted thing should be Yangbao." After saying this, I went back to the voice chat room and continued to post "Love liar, I ask you." Ye Zi followed in and asked me, "Girl, what is Yangbao?" I explained seriously, "It's just that the ram has, but the ewes doesn't have, it's round, not long, it's two, not one." After explaining, it was quiet in the chat room. Someone asked Ye Zi what I said to him, and he replied fiercely: "I hate Xiaoduo too unlady!"

I think Ye Zi is pitying me. Ye Zi said, "Girl, you should find a man who can cover you!" Ye Zi said, "Don't sleep in the middle of the night, don't smoke, don't lose weight, don't be willful!" Ye Zi said, "Girl, if I go back to Nanjing one day, maybe I will go to you. Let's find a bar and let me drink all the beer in the bar against you!"

I think I can't be a burden to the leaves. I think I'm a slept and beautiful person, and it's easy to find a man. I think spring is coming and it's time for me to fall in love.

At the age of 24, the Chinese people say it is "birth year". In the year of zodiac, I came to Beijing for a man. He was a man from Henan, not from Jiangsu. Ye Zi and I are both from Jiangsu. There is a popular saying on the Internet: "One billion people are cheating, nine hundred million people are the coaches." I think about it now, it is really insightful.

I used all my feelings, confidence and childishness in that man, and finally returned in a mess. I went online again, two years have passed. I began to listen to "I'll ask you about the love liar". Ye Zi said: "When you are over 30 years old, you will know that love is the least worth your efforts!"

I tried to make myself healthy. Ye Zinian had a routine physical examination and came back and told me, "When the doctor was studying for my age, I was shocked!" I blurted out, "Uncle Ye, how old are you?" He replied to me, "Girl, don't be naughty, you know!" I lowered my head and calculated carefully. It turned out that Ye Zi was already 32 years old, and I was 26 years old.

In the middle of the night, I read McCullo's "Bird of Thorns". I really wanted Ye Zi to be my Father Ralph. The next day I blurted out, Ye Zi said, "Girl, Catholic priests cannot join women with cultivating." I said, "Ye Zi, you can join cultivating with other women, I just want you to be my priest." Ye Zi replied, "Girl, Maggie in the book is ill-treated in Ralph, I also know that you have ulterior motives for me. In the end, the priest climbed onto Maggie's bed. Do you want me?" I burst into tears at the computer, and I replied, "Ye Zi, what you said yourself, after the age of thirty, I will know that love is the most unworthy thing to pay, now I know!" Ye Zi said nothing, and did not say "goodbye" and went offline.

The leaves disappeared for three months! During the three months, I was waiting for him every day and late at night. I just wanted to tell him that I still have knots, I still don’t give up, I still long for love, I just want to get his help, not someone else’s.

Ye Zi is back, on my MSN. I know that I am the only one on Ye Zi's MSN. I am sick and vomited and diarrhea. Ye Zi talked to me, and I replied for a long time. Ye Zi asked me, "How are you okay?" I replied, "No, I am thinking of you, and my stomach hurts too." Ye Zi said, "You still won't take care of yourself!" I said, "I vomited all the food I eat, I'm hungry, and I want to eat tomatoes!"

Ye Zi said, "Girl, don't eat tomatoes, your stomach hurts, I feel sad!" I stood by the computer, looking at the lines of words, and trembled happily. This is the first sweet word he said to me in the past four years since I knew Ye Zi. I said softly: "Okay!"

Ye Zi began to disappear from time to time, and no longer said things to make me happy. Ye Zi said: One night, he drove alone in the mountains and the car was out of gas. So that night, he kept listening to the song "Love Liar, I'll Ask You". He leaned against the car, and the stars in the sky were very clear. He said he had no choice but to miss me. The next morning, a local Tu girl rescued him. I asked with a smile, "Later, did you have any stories with that Tu girl?" Ye Zi said: "Where did so many stories come from in life."

I think Ye Zi may be busy with his real life. I tried not to disturb him. During the Spring Festival, I left the phone number at home to his QQ. I said, "Ye Zi, if you miss home, if you miss me, just call me!" During the seven-day holiday in spring, I stayed by the phone and didn't go out for a step. My mother was so, and my mother kept nagging to me: "Xiao Duo, you are old, it's time to find a family in the house!"

I left a message to Ye Zi on QQ: Mom said, I should find a family in-laws!

Since then, the leaves have never appeared again. They just miss him deeply and deeply when I raise my hand, in the gap of my deep thoughts, and in the gap of my Internet access.

I listened to him and tried to find a man who could cover me; I listened to him and no longer had to sleep in the middle of the night, no longer smoke, no longer lose weight, no longer willful; I listened to him, even if he said he didn't want me to disturb him, no longer wanted me to surf the Internet.

In 2006, it was spring again, and I think I like spring. I remember when I met Ye Zi, it was also spring. The forsythia in the community was blooming. As for me, I am 28 years old and my wedding is scheduled for May Day. Walking in the spring breeze of Beijing, I seemed to hear the leaves say to me: "Little, you should be blooming in spring, right?" But, Ye Zi, where are you secretly blooming?

Note: Ye Zi was skilled immigrant in 1998 and returned to his hometown Nanjing before the Spring Festival in 2005. He died of a drunk driving accident. The bar owner said that he had almost finished all the wine in the bar alone, as if he had infinite regret and sadness.

The meeting lasted until midnight the next day. I realized it was so late, so I stood up and went home immediately. He tried to stop me and told me that my wife would not go home until five or six in the morning. Can you sit with me again?

The dream of selling a small shop in Dongmen was when I was in school. At that time, my school was not far from Dongmen. Every afternoon after class, I went to those boutique shops with my best female classmates. Because I was short of money, many of the beautiful skirts and leather boots I liked were not money to buy. Sometimes I spent the whole month of pocket money to buy a fake colored diamond flower, and looked at it beautifully in front of the mirror, and felt very happy.

The year I took the college entrance examination, there were a lot of applicants and the competition was cruel. I let down my parents' hopes and didn't even pass the junior college score. I stayed at home in great despair throughout the summer vacation, and no one saw me. One day, I received a call from my best female classmate. She was admitted to Beijing Institute of Technology and was about to leave Shenzhen to study in Beijing. She said, "Amy, don't be bored at home, all roads in life lead to Rome. You come out and we go to Dongmen to buy clothes, okay?" At that moment, a bold idea suddenly came to my mind. Now I am facing the problem of employment, and I have to find something to make a living and realize my value at the same time. Although I don't have the capital, I have a lot of time. Why don't you start trying my plan to open a store in Dongmen?

I was worried about starting funds throughout the summer vacation. My mother secretly gave me 20,000 yuan, but that was a drop in the bucket and it was not enough to pay the storefront rent. Just when I was at a loss, I received a call that changed my life. The call was called by my class teacher when I was in high school, and his name was Zhou Hong.

Second Zhou Hong's family was well-off and well-behaved. He was famous for his wife's life as a director on the TV station and was responsible for a TV travel program. His son was in the best private kindergarten in Shenzhen. The relationship between Zhou Hong and his wife seemed to be in harmony with him. His lesson plan cover was covered with his wife's beautiful big-headed posts, and he stood in the corridor to celebrate the phone with his wife after class. Although I was fascinated by him because of the puberty commotion in his puberty, such a happy family made people feel that it was nowhere to be involved. When I received his call from him, I thought it was just a teacher's ordinary condolences to a student who failed the exam.

We met alone in the base bar for the first time. He was still wearing a suit. I don’t know if it was a change in our role. His attitude towards me made me feel a little different. At school, he called me my full name. But now, he called me "Amy" and "Little Amy" affectionately, and even added two words to me before a sentence, turning it into "My Little Amy". He asked me with concern whether I was planning to repeat the exam. I could see that he wanted me to repeat the exam, and he promised to find a way to get me back to his class. But I told him that I didn’t plan to study anymore. Because of his gentleness and considerateness, perhaps because of the smell of perfume on him, I gradually relaxed my vigilance. I could see that his concern for me was sincere.

The meeting lasted until midnight the next day. I realized it was so late, so I stood up and went home immediately. He tried to stop me and told me that my wife would not go home until five or six in the morning. Can you sit with me again?
To be continued...