In an instant, the blood on my face faded, as if the blood in my body had been frozen into ice in an instant, and I shook my head: "No, no--"

"Qingying.?    "

She called my name, and there was a look of helplessness on her face. She reached out her hands and gently held my weak hand. She felt the trembling feeling coming from the deepest part of her heart. I raised my head and looked at her helplessly and sadly: "I don't want it!"

She frowned slightly and said softly: "Qingying..."

I couldn't hold her hand tightly because my arms couldn't use any strength, so my ten fingers could only almost struggle and entangle with her ten fingers, and said, "I came out of the cold palace, not to stay here, no!"

Although I have no way to leave now, I can only use the expedient measures to stay in Jingren Palace, but I know that I cannot always do this. As long as I have the chance, as long as I have the chance, I will definitely use all my ways to leave here.

Because, I'm going to find my Li'er!

My daughter, she has been away from her mother for so long, and when she thinks of this, she almost exhausts my efforts. How can I tolerate myself again-

Thinking of this, my eyes turned red: "Empress, I don't want it!"

She listened to my words, and a trace of unbearableness appeared in her eyes. After a while, she said softly: "I know."

"I, I just want to leave in my dream..."

"I know."

"I don't want it, I really don't want it..."

"I know."

She didn't seem to know what else to say to comfort me, so she could only repeat these words all the time, but there was a feeling of sorrow that made me cry. She looked down at my hand and after a while she said softly: "But, I still want to ask you."

I looked up at her: "What?"

"You and the Emperor...really, do you really not look back?"

I looked at her in a panic.

There are many people in the harem, with colorful flowers and beautiful colors. They slowly flourish in this iron harem like flowing water, and withered quickly. However, only her queen is not like a peach blossom passing by the water, but instead stands like a stubborn stone in the world, without intending to compete for favor and love, nor care about wealth and honor every day, but just looking at the love, hate and affection here coldly. So, perhaps only she will still remember the things that happened between me and that man.

Sweet, tender, painful, desperate...

Only she would have this question.

Will I look back again with him?

Thinking of this, I let go of my hand and smiled faintly. I have asked myself this question, I have made a firm decision but repeatedly overturned it. People are old in such torture. But when I jumped off the dragon boat in the Tiger Leaping Gorge, I never thought about this answer again.

Because, I no longer ask myself this question.

I looked up at Chang Qing's eyes that were as clear as autumn water. I thought for a long time and said solemnly like her: "Empress, I have something I want to ask you for, and I hope you can agree to Qingying."

She was a little surprised. I didn't answer her, but asked her for something.

"you say."

"Qingying, I never want to implicate the queen, nor do I want you to be hurt. So, under this premise--if one day, I will have one step away from the palace gate before I can leave, I beg the queen to help me with that last step."

“…”

A shocked expression appeared on her face, and she looked at me in shock with wide eyes.

And I looked at her firmly without any hesitation.

"Are you serious?"

"yes."

"..." She was shocked and couldn't speak for a long time. I don't know how long it took to finally return to normal, but when she spoke, her voice was not as calm as she used to be. Instead, she had a trace of trembling and said slowly: "Okay."

“…”

"I promised you!"

I looked at the twinkling eyes and smiled at her: "Qingying is here, thank the Queen for her grace."

My hand was once again held by her, warm and warm.

Life has been fleeting for decades, like Bai Jun passing by, and it passes in a flash. But in such a wandering and uncertain life, there are always one or two people, who have nothing to do with love, love, grudges, and hatred. Even if you have no blood relationship, you can let you give all your own things to him. Just a word, a look, or even a knowing smile is better than a thousand words.

Even though many years later, there are still red walls around me. Even if I really have to face the last step, I even feel that even if I can't take this step, there have been such people in my life. These people have appeared, stayed, and got to know each other, and I have no regrets in this life.

.

I don’t know how long Chang Qing stayed with me before I woke up, but seeing that she was full of tiredness on her face, not only physical fatigue, but also had many heavy burdens in her heart. I repeatedly urged her to go back to rest. She reminded me a few words and then returned to Jingren Palace.

As soon as she left, Madam Wu and Shui Xiu immediately came into the house.

When they saw me leaning against the head of the bed, Madam Wu hurried over to help me clean it up, and then brought me the soup from the Imperial Pharmacy for me to drink. I finished drinking it obediently and was about to retract my hand into the quilt, but Shui Xiu grabbed my wrist: "No."

"Um?"

I looked at her with some confusion, and Shui Xiu said, "Sir, you have an injury on your arm now, which will be very itchy. If you put your hand back in the quilt, you will unconsciously scratch the wound when you fall asleep and will crack again."

"Ah, but my hands are very cold when I put them outside."

"So, now I'll help you warm up."

After Shui Xiu finished speaking with a smile, she sat on the edge of the bed, holding my hand in both hands. Madam Wu finished packing the soup bowl, looked at her sensible appearance, and said nothing, and then smiled and went out.

The warm temperature came from my fingers again.

I looked at Shui Xiu's thoughtful behavior and my heart warmed up. I recalled that Chang Qing had been holding my hand just now, and smiled and said, "Did it be the Queen's explanation?"

Shui Xiu was stunned for a moment, lowered her head and didn't say anything.

I originally asked casually, but looking at her appearance, it seemed that there was something unspeakable. I immediately asked, "What's wrong?"

“…”

The child looked at me again and turned his head away from my gaze.

I became more and more confused, and I stretched out another unharmed hand and grabbed her: "Shui Xiu, what's going on? Tell me!"

She bit her lower lip, as if he was hesitating for a while, then finally turned her face to look at me and said softly: "Miss... it was not what the Queen said."

"Who is that?"

"Yes-" Her face showed a look of embarrassment, and she looked at me again. Finally, she looked out the window as if she had made up her mind and was sure that there was no one around her. Then she bent down and said gently in my ear: "It's Liu Qinghan, Lord Liu."

"What?!"

I suddenly raised my head: "It's him?!"

"Um."

I couldn't react for a moment, and I was stunned for a while before asking again: "It's really him?"

"It's him."

“…”

I just felt my breathing was messy, and even my heartbeat in my chest was chaotic, and I felt like I was still in a dream. In the dream just now, he was still standing in a cold white snow, looking at me with a cold look, and I couldn't touch it even if I stretched out my hands. But when I woke up, it seemed that I had transitioned from the cold winter to the warm spring in March. Shuixiu actually told me that he told them to take good care of me like this.

This dreamy and illusory difference made me feel a little helpless.

"Sir, what's wrong with you? Your face is so red..."

Shui Xiu reached out to touch her and immediately said, "Oh, your face is so hot, is it burning?"

"No, it's okay."

I waved my hand gently and tried my best to calm myself down, but I found that it was futile, my heart beat so much that I felt a little panicked.

It was him, he was here to tell me to take good care of me...

Shui Xiu sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me, but for some reason, her eyes became a little solemn.

After my initial joy, I calmed down and felt something was wrong - he came to explain how to take care of me? Although this place is not the residence of concubines, it belongs to the inner palace. If a man outside does not have an order, he cannot come in. Why would Qinghan come here?

I looked up at Shui Xiu: "Why did Lord Liu come?"

Shui Xiu said: "After the emperor sent you back, he was delivering meals in the warm room. I heard that he asked Lord Liu to accompany him, but it seemed that not only had meals, but also talked about some things. The two of them had enough to discuss a meal. When Lord Liu came out, he came over to ask the Queen for instructions. He wanted to come and pay tribute to the Queen. The Queen originally wanted to ask how the Great Highness had learned in Jixian Hall, so she told him to come."

"So, what did they say?"

"I didn't say anything, I just said that Your Highness has learned very well recently. The Empress rewarded Lord Liu, and later—"

She looked at me, and hesitated. I frowned slightly and said hurriedly: "How is it going afterward?"

"Later, Lord Liu said that he was a minister with you, and he was half a teacher. He wanted to visit your wounds. The Empress was a little hesitant, but she still agreed to him."

"What about it later?"

Shui Xiu said, "When he came, the adult was still asleep and didn't wake up, so I kept following him, but later I went out to provide medicine to the adult. When I came back, I saw the adult stretching his hands out, as if he was calling someone. Lord Liu was afraid that the adult would hurt his arm again, so he held your hand."

“…!”

I just felt my chest burning, as if something was bulging and was about to gush out.

I still remember that I kept calling him in my dream and stretching out my hand to grab him, but now I realize that it was really him who I called, and it was really him who I caught!

It turns out that it was a dream, but not a dream.

No wonder in my dream, I felt that the hand holding my hand was a little rough, while Chang Qing's pair of soft and delicate ches were as delicate as jade, so how could it be rough? I didn't expect it to be Qinghan!

I looked down at my pale and slender fingers, and the fingertips seemed to have the rough touch and warm body temperature left by his palms. At this time, no matter how I wanted to hold myself, I couldn't suppress the smile that caught my mouth.
To be continued...