"I said," I said softly, "even if he changes, I don't have to return to him, because he doesn't have the power to ask me to do this, and I have no obligation to wait for him to change it."

“…”

"We are strangers."

Speaking of this, I chuckled and said, "Even if you change it, I have no obligation to wait for you."

“…”

"We are strangers."

His breath twitched slightly, and after a while, he slowly said, "Are I and you strangers?"

I looked at him calmly and said, "Isn't it?"

“…”

He was silent for a long time, and said in a dry voice: "What I have experienced with you, and what I have experienced, do you think that I and you are just strangers?"

"Isn't everything we've experienced already over?"

“…”

“As for all this we are going through…and what?”

“…”

"Everyone outside is going through it with us."

He said, "So, I am no different to you, from everyone outside, right?"

"Of course not," I said seriously: "Your Majesty is responsible for the dreams of too many of us. The prosperous age we want to see needs you to create. This is also the reason why I ask Your Majesty to leave first when I meet those assassins today."

“…”

"Your Majesty, your life is indeed much more important than the lives of ordinary people."

“…”

"I hope you can live well and fulfill your dreams. By that day, even if I can't see them, I can feel and know that the era of our hope is finally coming."

His voice trembled slightly, and he said, "I hope that when such an era comes, you and I can stand side by side."

“…”

"Don't you understand that you are the only one who can stand shoulder to shoulder with me!"

“…”

I was silent for a long time and said lightly: "I swear to Nangong Lizhu, but I am no longer the same as I used to be. If Your Majesty wants me like this, I can follow my oath and return to you."

“…”

"But that's all."

After saying these words, I smiled faintly, calmly lowered my eyelashes, and my vision was dim. I had no idea what kind of mood he was or what kind of expression he was after listening to me saying these words, even if he was furious next, I was not surprised.

However, he was so quiet that it didn't seem to exist.

The only thing that made me feel that he was still there was his hands, holding my arms all the time, trembling slightly at this time.

After a while, I heard his hoarse voice sounding in the dark light: "Why?"

“…”

"You tell him that even if he changes, you don't have to go back to him."

“…”

"You tell him that even if he changes, you have no obligation to wait for him."

“…”

"But you've returned to him."

“…”

"Didn't you forgive him for your confrontation with him day and night, even having a bed, getting up and lying on the same bed, have you been forgiven?"

“…”

"Why can't I?"

I said softly: "You are not him."

Pei Yuanhao's breathing was suffocated.

I said, "Your Majesty, it is your own business. You said you want to change it. Maybe the Queen and the Empress and the Empress in the Harem will benefit you in the future, but this benefit has nothing to do with me."

“…”

"No matter how you change it, it's not him."

He said in a hoarse voice: "So, no matter how I change it, you don't care; but if he says he wants to change it, you will forgive him."

I smiled bitterly: "Your Majesty, privilege is special, not everyone can have it."

“…”

"Just like some of the things I have said to His Majesty these days, and some of the things I have done, if it were in the past, I would have been locked up in the cold palace, or had it been killed long ago, right? But His Majesty has all tolerated me."

“…”

"Your Majesty can tolerate me. I think your Majesty understands that mood."

“…”

"You're right, I forgave him again, he didn't even change it. He lied to me again and left me behind again."

“…”

"But if—" When I said this, my throat choked slightly, and a hot warm current surged up, condensed and eyelashes, trembling slightly: "If he could come back, I would still be willing to forgive him."

“…”

"As long as he is willing to come back, everything will be fine."

“…”

"But no matter what kind of privilege I give him, he will never come back..."

His voice became cold and he slowly said, "So, your heart is dead, right?"

I smiled faintly and said, "Your Majesty, you and I have come to this point, so why bother to be a child again? There is no way to give up when you can't choose. I still have room for my choice now, and my choice is already very clear."

He didn't speak anymore.

This dark, without a trace of light suddenly fell into an unspeakable opportunity, and I couldn't even hear his breath.

However, his hand was still holding my hand, but the little temperature he felt just now disappeared at this time.

After a while, his hand let go of mine.

I had just breathed a sigh of relief, but I felt the cold fingertips approaching my cheek. Before I could react, he had already stroked my face with his hands. The cold temperature once again made me tremble, and I heard him murmuring, "I understand."

“…”

"I understand."

“…”

For some reason, these words have been accumulated in my heart for a long time, and finally told him today. I originally thought I would let go of everything and have no regrets. At least there was something between me and him, and I could finally let go, but after I actually said it, my mood was a little overwhelmed, especially when he felt that his breathing and heartbeat seemed to have stopped. When the cold fingertips touched my cheeks, the chill penetrated into my heart.

What will happen to him?

I finally couldn't bear it and retreated a little while trembling.

Feeling my retreat, he chuckled and said, "You don't have to be afraid of me. You are right. It's already this time. I and you don't have to be like children."

“…”

"I can indeed tolerate you to say these words, and only you can say these words, I can tolerate them."

“…”

"I can't understand this feeling now."

“…”

"But Qingying, do you understand one thing? I understand this feeling now. Even in the future, I will tolerate you because of this feeling."

“…”

"But you won't have this kind of mood again."

His words were like a knife, piercing into my heart.

He said, "Do you know that you will never be in such a mood again, you will never be such a person who will make you sad, make you miserable, and make you miserable. No matter how sad you are, you still have to forgive him."

“…”

"He won't be back."

“…”

"He won't be back."

Tears rolled down from his eyes like beads with broken threads, and then fell down, as if falling on his hands.

But there was still a smile on my face.

I said, "I know."

“…”

"I know he won't come back."

"Light," Pei Yuanhao's voice has never been so low, as if it was coming from the bottom of his heart, and he said in a deep voice: "He has left, but if you stay, many things will slowly pass, and many people will slowly be forgotten after leaving..."

“…”

"There were many people and things I thought could last forever, but now there is only one memory left."

“…”

"In a few decades, maybe even my memory will fade away."

“…”

"How long do you think he, who has left, can stay in your life?"

“…”

"One? Two years? Or ten years, twenty years?"

“…”

"Do you have to spend the rest of your life like this? Can you bear such loneliness?"

“…”

"Qingying, I hope you will be back to me. I have never hidden this matter from you. Even Liu Qinghan knows it. I want to get you, but now, I want to protect you well, treat you well, and compensate for the hardships you have suffered and the sins you have suffered in the past. I just want to be nice to you."

I listened to his breathing calmly, and after a long time, I said softly: "Thank you, Your Majesty."

"Light..."

"I understand what Your Majesty means. There are some people we think can remember for a lifetime, but when we turn around, we forget that there are those who have been around you, and there are also those around me."

“…”

“But some people are different.”

“…”

"Even if you only spend a short day with him, it will be enough to have a detailed aftertaste for the rest of your life. What's more, he and I are not."

“…”

"We still have a lot of memories that can allow me to slowly recall for the rest of my life, and even I may not use up those memories."

I smiled slightly at him: "I said it, I can bear it."

“…”

He was silent for a long time, and his hands slowly slid down again and held my hand, but this time, he had no purpose. He just grabbed my hand, then let go, and said, "For the first time, I know that your heart can be so cold."

I smiled faintly: "I still said the same thing. I swear to Nangong Lizhu, and I can follow my oath to return to His Majesty."

“…”
Chapter completed!