I gave up, I gave up these things completely.

I suddenly realized that life is nothingness, and everyone is just to live a better life in this world. If you can't do it, then don't say anything.

I can't hold on anymore. Some things are endangering my life, but I also asked him to hurt me as much as possible.

I was relaxed and free, and there seemed to be nothing to tie me up.

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Relax, I really felt how malicious the world is, so I gave up, gave up the struggle to survive, and just wanted to devote myself to the embrace of the god of death and let me completely perish.

I know that it is wrong for me to do this myself, but there is no way. I just want to completely ruin my body and die completely.

What is going on with this pathological thing that makes people cry about the arrival of the devil?

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In the Year of the Fire, Zhuang Bufan came to this ghost town and looked at it dark.

He took a city out of his cuff, looked at it all, his chest felt stuffy, he picked up a piece of parchment and spread him out.

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I was thinking, since living in the world is painful, why should I continue? It would be better to die as soon as possible.

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I'm a fool, and I don't need to do this at all, that's fine, I think! At least one head is a count.

I didn't want to play anymore. I gave them the heads. If they wanted it, they would just let it go. No matter what other things were, I finally understood one thing. I couldn't even say it, and it was almost over.

Yes, why are you addicted to this? I just want to waste time and squander all the time as much as possible. Only in this way can I relax.

Of course, I especially want to end it.

Why don’t I uninstall it? I am addicted, and I feel happy in my heart. It gives me satisfaction. However, after you get satisfaction from reality, you won’t think so.

Forget it, even if I lost, no one came to help me, I was drunk.

But my health is not very good, and even my bones are about to break.

But so what? Others don’t know what you think. You only do it yourself, but there is no way.

Despair, I don't know what else can make me laugh.

If possible, please let me die and lie on the ground. If possible, the pain will soak the heart and lungs of people. If you want to gain, you will lose it.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Call! Go and call! What did I suddenly see?

I kept shouting, there was something else to say, and there was still something in my head.

One day, I saw a man jumping off a building and committing suicide. I saw blood soaking in front of him, but I couldn't even say anything.

When despair comes, what else can be saved?

Wait for a while, wait!

Will I jump down? When I think about this incident, no one understands it. Right! When something appears in my arms, it is also good to die!

He said that people have obsessions, but what about me? I never can see where the road is.

I tried every possible way to get 600 yuan, but I still couldn't get it.

I understand, when can I die?

I saw someone hanging out.

I know it was my fault, but I don’t know how to recover it, but when you know, what will happen if you drive someone crazy? I saw someone doing this, but I don’t know what to do.

I...I completely want to die. Without expectation, I will see if I will starve to death.

I'm thinking, what am I thinking?

I have no wish for everything in the world. I thought that I could suppress it somewhere and have fun more happily.

But now, I forgot! I forgot everything.

I felt happy, but I didn't know what to do next!

Losing the ability to speak, right, I know, why do I stare at this kind of thing?

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Wait, I was thinking about what should I do if my mother died one day? When I thought of this, I saw a person who was in the room, lying on the ground, dying of myocardial infarction.

When I saw this scene, I was stunned. They didn't expect that such a result would occur.

———

Now, I seem to have some realization.

I knew what I should do with my tasks. In the past, when I faced these things, I was in a mess and didn’t even have the will to help. This was awful.

And now, the expression on his face was full of pleasure.

It's relaxing and happy, even sleeping, thinking about living like this.

I knew how stupid I was, I was very stupid, and I didn’t know what to do, my whole nerves and brain were in chaos.

Once a person becomes sad, there is a problem. I am not serious enough. Or, even if I try hard to write, why?

No one encouraged me, or just glanced at me and let me have fun!

I read their articles, and some people read mine, and I discovered something horrible, what I wrote, and what they read, and they fell in love with the articles I copied.

From this point of view, I knew I had a problem.

I have always been in a certain pattern, unable to get out of it, and the quagmire is deep, making me live a painful life.

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This is a chaotic world, how should I do it?

By the way, don’t do anything. Leave here first and contact some people. Since you don’t want to continue waiting, and wait until you reach the age of twenty-five, or even after you are thirty, I can only say one thing, sorry! You are much worse than I thought.

This is painful, it turns out that this is me!

What am I willing to do? Suddenly, I wanted to go out and throw a coin into the air to see what my life trajectory would be like.

In addition, some people can persist, because they have strong backings to support them, and I have nothing, so what should I do?

Seriously, see through the laws of operation in this world with a responsible attitude, and operate for me.

I knew another world was coming to me, and I should use some force to keep my vitality.

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Become a waiter and see what all kinds of people are like, and what they look like.

I have almost forgotten the taste of living, and my serious appearance has made me realize that I will continue like this for the rest of my life.

I once loved this place, but I was still defeated by my endless fantasy, which took a lot of energy into it.

It made me feel depressed and told me when I could make some money so that some people could eat delicious food instead of being stupid, like a depressed cucumber.

When will this morbid life end? I just hope to be faster and faster! Let me get rid of it!

(End of this chapter)
Chapter completed!