Chapter 10

There was an operating table in the center of the dim little room. I lay on it, and two people wearing masks were holding knives in their hands and cutting my stomach bit by bit. The feeling was very clear: the scalpel was against the cold texture of the skin, and the dull pain when the flesh was cut. My head began to sweat, and my body trembled violently because of the pain. The two people didn't pay attention to me at all, and only focused on the movements on their hands, with no emotion in their cold eyes. Finally, one of them reached out and took out the bright red kidney from my stomach.

…

I sat up suddenly and gasped.

It turned out to be a dream.

I reached out and found that my forehead was covered with sweat. I tried to calm my breathing and kept comforting myself in my heart.

The ward was so quiet that there was no sound at all. I turned my head and my mother fell asleep with her eyes closed. She stood up and walked to the window. It was late at night, and there was no trace of starlight in the dark sky. The scenes in the dream kept flashing in my mind. I closed my eyes and tried to suppress the fear in my heart.

It turns out that I am just a coward.

Aunt Li came the next morning. When I went to the supermarket to work these days, Aunt Li was helping to take care of my mother. I had already decided that after the negotiation of the kidney selling, I quit my job in the supermarket. To be honest, I don’t know much about how much harm it will be to lose a kidney. But I think it’s impossible to do the physical work in the supermarket after the operation.

After thanking Aunt Li, I hurried to the supermarket. I got on the bus and passed a few stops before I found that my phone had been forgotten in the ward. Because I was worried that if something happened, Aunt Li couldn't find me, I hurriedly got out of the car and ran to the hospital. When I arrived at the hospital, I just pushed open the ward door and found Aunt Li holding my phone in his hand, with a nervous expression on her face.

"Aunt Li, what's wrong?" I hurriedly looked at my mother. She was still sleeping and there was no doctor around, so it didn't seem like something was wrong.

"Xiao Mu, what's going on?" Aunt Li hesitated and handed me her phone, with a very worried expression on her face.

I took the phone, but was stunned when I saw it. It was a text message I just received [Please send the physical examination report to this email before tomorrow xuyiien@If there is no problem, we will arrange the operation next week.] "Your phone rang just now. Aunt Li didn't understand this, and she was worried that someone would ask you for something, so she picked it up and wanted to answer it. After pressing it a few times, she came out." Aunt Li said again when she saw that I didn't say anything.

"It's okay, maybe I sent it wrong. I don't know this number." I put my phone in my pocket and pretended to be relaxed.

Aunt Li frowned in an instant and stood in front of me, "Xiao Mu, although Aunt Li is a country woman without much education, don't treat Aunt Li as a fool."

"Aunt Li, don't think too much. I really don't know this person. It's time for me to go to work, so I'll leave first." As I said that, I thought of leaving the ward in a panic.

Aunt Li grabbed me and his voice became louder, "What surgery? Why do you need your examination report? Xiao Mu, what are you going to do without hiding it!"

I tried my best to hide it, and even wanted to take off Aunt Li's hand and run out. Aunt Li pulled me tightly and did not give in. Seeing that the others in the ward began to pay attention to this side, I had no choice but to pull Aunt Li to the side and talk to her about selling kidneys.

"You... you stupid boy! What stupid thing are you doing!" Aunt Li looked at me with red eyes, her voice choked.

"It's okay. I've asked all of them. It won't be any effect if there are two kidneys in the human body." I comforted with a smile.

Aunt Li stood up suddenly and looked at me anxiously: "How come there is no impact? Why can someone spend so much money to buy kidneys without impact? Xiao Mu, listen to Aunt Li, you are still young, and the road ahead is still long. Don't do stupid things!"

I lowered my head and didn't say anything, and after a while, I spoke with difficulty: "The operation cost is not enough, and I have no choice. I can't let something happen to my mother..."

Aunt Li's tears suddenly flowed out, and his voice was trembling: "If Axiu is not stupid, if she knows what you are going to do, then she would rather die than be punished again. Aunt Li has taken care of her for so many years and knows that she really treats you as her own child. Which mother in the world is willing to exchange her child's health for her own life!"

I clenched my fists, and my eyes gradually became blurred. Every word Aunt Li said hit me hard. Indeed, no mother in the world would be willing to do this, but which child in the world would watch his mother die step by step? Although I have only been with my mother for less than a month, she is the best person in the world. If I can't protect her well, I really don't know how I will survive.

I raised my head and just wanted to continue persuasion, but Aunt Li suddenly walked aside and started packing things, "No treatment! We will not treat this disease! I will take Axiu out of the hospital right away!"

I hurried over to pull her, but Aunt Li shook my hand away, "I can't let you ruin your life. A Xiu must have thought so too."

I stopped Aunt Li's actions and repeatedly promised that I would no longer have this idea. Aunt Li reluctantly agreed to stay in the hospital for the time being and let's think of a solution.

"Xiao Mu, don't try to do the surgery without hiding it. If you really take back the money for selling kidneys, I will take Axiu out of the hospital immediately. I will definitely not let her use that money to treat the disease." Finally, when I walked out of the hospital, Aunt Li looked at me and said firmly.

I nodded with a bitter smile, feeling moved and bitter. I knew Aunt Li was thinking about me, but where would I go to raise money if I didn’t sell my kidneys?

When I was working in the supermarket, I couldn't concentrate. I listed ways to find money one by one in my mind and denied it one by one. At this time, I began to regret my previous inferiority complex. Because I was always excluded and bullied when I was a child, I never dared to have a close relationship with others when I grew up. The consequence of avoiding the crowd from afar was that I still had no friend to rely on until now.

That night, my mother's illness began to attack again. She kept curling up and hugging her stomach tightly, her forehead was covered with sweat, which seemed to be extremely painful. Aunt Li had already returned, so I hurriedly asked the clinical patients to help take care of her, and then she ran to call the doctor in a panic.

After the treatment, the doctor warned that the spread of cancer cells began to accelerate significantly. If it drags on, there is no hope of cure.

I stood there blankly, my mind was blank. It took a long time to walk back to the bed, sit down and look at my mother silently. After treatment, she was a little weak and not very clear-headed.

"I don't know why my parents don't want me, they are very healthy and have no intellectual defects." I pulled my mother's hair on her temples and said softly.

"When I was a child, I didn't know what orphans were. I thought that all the aunts in the orphanage were mothers. Chen, mother Li, mother Zhang, mother. Later I learned that the children outside called their mothers without their surname.

The first couple adopted me was a middle-aged couple who were very nice to me. But later, I was sent back after having my own child. The second time I was adopted was 10 years old. At first, it was fine, but later the hostess thought I had a bad personality. She lowered her head all day and said nothing. She was worried that I had any psychological problems and sent me back to the orphanage."

The last time was 12 years old, a couple who looked gentle. When they went back with them, they found that both of them were violent. They beat me when they were unhappy, threw everything at me, and their heads were smashed by the ashtray. Later, someone called the police and I was sent back to the orphanage by the police."

When I talked about this, it was probably because I was a little noisy. My mother opened her eyes and looked at me in a daze. I smiled at her, held her hand and continued, "Since then, I never dared to expect to have my own parents again. But when I grew up so old, I would still envy those children holding my parents when I walked on the street."

"Mom, you are the first person who makes me feel important. Let me know that if I am gone, there will be people who will be sad and sad... Let me know what it feels like to have a mother..."

Tears fell from my eyes, and I lowered my head and cried, "I won't let you have something to do...I don't want to be alone anymore...I don't want to be alone anymore..."

The rough palm stroked my face, looked up, and my mother looked at me sadly with tears on my face.

She must not understand what I said, but she will be sad just because she sees me crying. There is no reason and no reason, because she treats me as her own child.

I reached out to wipe her tears and comforted her softly. She smiled at me, her eyes were gentle and loving, and the corners of her eyes were warm. In an instant, all the cowardice and fear in my heart were melted, and I made a decision silently.

After my mother gradually fell asleep, I gently put her hand into the quilt and covered it. I stood up and looked at her for a while before walking out of the ward firmly.

sorry.
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