The wind messed up Le Zhishi's hair. He looked at Song Yu, looking a little helpless, but his words were firm, "I'm not afraid."

Song Yu guessed Le Zhishi's answer. He was indeed a very stubborn child.

Soon, Le Zhishi lowered her eyes again, "I just feel...a little sad and I don't dare to look at her."

He regarded Lin Rong as his mother and did not want to hurt her at all.

The first time he saw Lin Rong, he could almost recall the jokes Lin Rong made about Song Yu's love. Although they were all teasing, it was obvious that she probably also hoped that Song Yu could find a girl he liked and be happy and safe.

spend your life.

I don't know what to do when I'm happy.

"Don't think about it." Song Yu saw the sad look on his face and couldn't bear to throw such a complicated problem to him. This was not Le Zhishi's fault in the first place, "Let's go up first."

"Um."

Returning to the dormitory again, the dormitory aunt greeted her eagerly, "Mom is leaving?"

Le Zhishi responded in a low voice, "Yes, I'm back."

"Don't worry about being sick. She almost fell down when she came in."

When she was happy, she saw the snacks Lin Rong gave her. The packaging was easy to spot, and she could imagine Lin Rong rushing to get in the door and wrestling, because she sometimes walked carelessly, which was the same as herself.

With Lin Rong's care, Song Yu was able to go upstairs with Le Zhishi and enter and leave his dormitory at will.

In fact, it's not that he didn't know that as long as he signed the registration form and indicated his identity, he could come to Le Zhishi's dormitory from time to time to take care of him. But he just needed a reason to have a space where he could be alone with Le Zhishi, so he deceived himself and others.

Make the decision to rent an apartment.

Fortunately, Le Zhi also likes him, at least now. Otherwise, he really made too many wishful decisions.

During the weekend, there was no one else in the dormitory. Le Zhishi opened the door and turned on the light, climbed into his bed, found his cell phone next to his pillow, and also saw the spray Lin Rong placed next to his pillow.

Feeling a little depressed, he got off the bed, opened the cabinet, packed two sets of his clothes into his schoolbag, along with his laptop and the turquoise given to him by Song Yu.

Song Yu stood in front of his desk and discovered the chicken soup that Lin Rong had painstakingly stewed, as well as the snacks and snacks she had given to each roommate on the table, all of which were well distributed.

Even the same habits told him that Le Zhishi was also the "son" brought up by Lin Rong.

Song Yu's mood was complicated, and his body felt a little numb. He hid the little thoughts in the past from everyone, and over time it became a habit, and he could digest them by himself no matter what.

But now he is no longer alone. He promised to cherish Le Zhishi, but this decision seemed to drag Le Zhishi into the abyss of self-blame and suffering. Song Yu felt very uncomfortable for a while, not knowing

What should be done.

"I've packed it up." Le Zhishi saw Song Yu lost in thought, stretched out his hand, touched his fingers, briefly held his fingertips, and said softly, "Let's go."

Song Yu agreed, then took Le Zhishi's bag and drove him back to the secret small apartment. Along the way, the two of them had a tacit understanding of avoiding talking about what had just happened. Song Yu played a soothing song

Piano music covers the silence in the carriage.

Le Zhishi checked the messages on his phone. He saw more than a dozen missed calls, which was shocking, as well as WeChat messages from friends. He had a very strong escape mentality and turned off the screen not wanting to see any of them. Suddenly

For a moment, he very much hoped that Song Yu could drive him away in this car and hide in a place where no one could find him.

But this bad idea only existed for a few seconds, and Le Zhi gave up. He couldn't take Song Yu away, nor could he leave Lin Rong and Song Jin.

Calm down, Le Zhishi carefully replied to all the messages one by one, and then chose to shut down.

The apartment was not far from the school. They arrived quickly. The lights in the underground parking lot were very dim. Le Zhi got out of the car and followed Song Yu into the elevator. He sneezed in the elevator, so Song Yu stretched out his hand and shook his head slightly.

She hugged his waist.

Opening the door of the apartment, it was dark inside, as if it was no longer the beautiful and warm room in the afternoon. Song Yu stretched out his hand to turn on the light switch next to the door, but was stopped by Le Zhishi. Song Yu wanted to ask him what was wrong, but

The next second, Le Zhishi hugged him and buried her face in his collarbone. He didn't say anything, but the hug seemed to be a comfort to Song Yu.

The strange thing is that they seem to be in the dark as a matter of course.

Le Zhishi crossed his arms on Song Yu's back, stroking up and down very gently, trying to ease Song Yu's tense mood. After a long time, he spoke, "I'm hungry, let's drink the soup."

."

Song Yu said yes and turned on the light.

The chicken soup contains red dates and wolfberries, as well as nourishing ginseng and fish maw. It is golden and bright in color, and a familiar aroma hits your face as soon as you open the lid. When Le Zhishi took out the porcelain bowl and spoon they bought,

After washing it and serving the soup, he took a sip and remembered his childhood. He was in poor health and had a lot of things he couldn't eat. Until he graduated from elementary school, Lin Rong would bring him meals to school every day and accompany him in the cafeteria.

He finished eating.

Everyone envied him for having such a beautiful "mother" who was good at cooking, so when he was a child, Le Zhi would not call him Aunt Rong outside. He enjoyed being praised by others for his mother's greatness.

This pitiful vanity makes Xiao Le Zhi feel very satisfied.

"Eat more." Song Yu gave him a stewed chicken leg and put it in a bowl.

Le Zhishi looked at Song Yu, wondering if he had done something wrong and if he shouldn't have told her what she liked about him. If he could just be patient, it would be better for everyone.

Time passed very slowly in the quiet air. Le Zhi wanted to say something to make Song Yu happy, but Song Yu was always talking. He said that he should remember to take medicine and take his temperature later.

Send a message to mom, he said as he stood by the sink and washed out the dishes.

Song Yu usually doesn't talk so much, he is always the quietest one. He talks so much, but it makes Le Zhishi uneasy. He is very confused and confused. He blames himself for being too naive, thinking that as long as he can be reconciled

Song Yu was already in heaven when they were together, but when they came back to their senses, they realized that this heaven was probably the hell of the person they loved.

This may be the reason why Song Yu has always kept silent about his feelings.

One night, Le Zhishi quietly followed Song Yu's words, took medicine, and washed up. When he returned to the room, he found that the quilt Song Yu had brought last night was missing. He couldn't help but feel a little disappointed, but

He didn't want to put more burden on Song Yu, so he didn't say anything.

He lay on the bed and sent a message to Lin Rong, saying that the chicken soup was delicious and asking her if she got home safely.

Lin Rong responded quickly and sent him a picture of a marshmallow and an orange sleeping side by side.

[Aunt Rong: Is my brother in a better mood?]

Le Zhishi said honestly, it seems not.

Lin Rong replied quickly.

[Aunt Rong: You coax my brother. He likes to be alone every time. I'm actually very worried. As my brother grows up, he doesn't want to tell his mother anything. Fortunately, you are still by his side. He and you

We will smile more when we are together. It would be great if my brother could rely on us as much as you do.]

Looking at the words sent by Lin Rong, Le Zhishi thought for two seconds.

[Lele: Aunt Rong, if one day you feel that your brother or I have hurt your heart, can you not be angry with him? Just be angry with me. You can hit or scold me. My brother loves me very much.

Yours, I love you very much, but if you do something wrong, it must be my fault.]

Lin Rong replied quickly.

[Aunt Rong: What are you talking about? Could it be that you have done something that you dare not tell me? No, you are both so obedient. If you have anything unhappy, tell me and I will help you solve it.

Otherwise, why do we need parents? And I know that you all love me and your father very much, and I will never be angry with you.]

After a while, he received another one.

[Aunt Rong: At most, I will be angry for a short while, and you can just calm me down.]

Le Zhishi sniffed.

[Lele: Well, I love you [love]]

His nose was a bit uncomfortable because of the congestion, and because he wanted to cry, he felt even more uncomfortable. He needed tissues. He got out of bed and searched around the bedroom. He thought he saw him in the living room during the day and planned to go down and get it. He opened it gently.

He opened the door and saw Song Yu in the living room on the second floor. He hesitated and did not go downstairs directly.

Because he found Song Yu standing in front of the white low cabinet next to the sofa, found a bottle of medicine, poured one pill into the palm of his hand, and drank it with cold water.

Le Zhishi frowned, thinking that Song Yu was also sick. He was very worried, and took another look at the bottle of medicine. He always felt that the packaging of the bottle was very familiar. Song Yu was about to turn around, and Le Zhishi also returned with some guilt.

He went to his room and closed the door. He leaned behind the door and heard Song Yu's soft footsteps going upstairs, and the wooden stairs made a dull sound.

The steps stopped at his door for a few seconds. I don't know if it was Le Zhi's hallucination. His heart beat faster, but in the end the steps did not stop and he reached the next room.

Le Zhishi suddenly recalled why he felt familiar. He had seen this medicine bottle on Song Yu's dormitory table with the same packaging. Song Yu told him it was melatonin and wouldn't let him take it.

He belatedly picked up his cell phone to inquire about the effects of this hormone.

[Taking melatonin can help alleviate sleep disorders and relieve the pain of insomnia to a certain extent.]

Seeing this sentence, Le Zhishi's heart suddenly felt a little painful. He continued reading and read all the introductions about this hormone.

The night passed quickly, and the lake outside the glass window was very quiet. Le Zhi looked at the lake, and his worried face reflected in the transparent glass, as if the lake was also looking at him.

Ten minutes later, he tried hard to convince himself not to disturb Song Yu's Le Zhi, but finally couldn't hold it back. He was afraid that wearing slippers would make too much noise, so he put on his socks, stepped on the ground barefoot, opened the door very softly, and walked out.

I went to the next door and spent almost half a minute twisting the door handle, trying not to make any noise.

Song Yu's room is always dark and quiet, like a bomb shelter that isolates everything. He likes to close all the curtains, leaving no trace of light. Le Zhishi groped in the dark and groped forward very carefully, and soon

His eyes adjusted to the darkness and he saw Song Yu's bed, and he moved closer.

But it was still discovered.

Song Yu reached out and turned on the lamp, and the room suddenly lit up. Le Zhishi stood beside the bed blankly like a stupid thief who failed in a robbery, staring at him awkwardly.

"Why are you here? Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Song Yu leaned up and looked at him.

At this moment, Le Zhishi wished very much that he was a puppy like Marshmallow. He would run over quietly, jump on the bed with a slight jump, and sit next to Song Yu without disturbing him. His eyes were a little sore, so he walked over and sat next to Song Yu.

Yu bedside.

"I'm not uncomfortable." Le Zhishi explained for himself, "I didn't come here to cling to you."

Song Yu looked at him, his frown slightly relaxed due to turning on the light. He stretched out his hand from the quilt and covered Le Zhishi's wrist. His fingertips were cold, "You don't want to cling to me again?"

"No." Le Zhi felt that he had been misunderstood and quickly denied it. He turned the light to the darkest level, lay down next to Song Yu, and stretched out a hand to put on Song Yu, "I came with a mission.

."

"What mission?"

"Let you sleep." Le Zhishi looked a little proud.

Song Yu's lips curled up slightly and he said nothing. Le Zhishi added, "I'm very powerful. Every time the orange lies on my lap, I just touch it and it falls asleep."

"So you want to come and touch me casually?" Song Yu's voice was a little lazy, and it was pleasantly deep.

Le Zhishi shook his head, "It's not casual, I will coax you seriously." After saying that, he began to perform his duties, patting Song Yu's shoulder again and again, with very light force. Song Yu was afraid that he would catch a cold again, so he pulled him away.

Get under the quilt.

"Your hands are cold." Le Zhi was a little dissatisfied. He felt uncomfortable when he thought that one of the side effects of the hormone was a drop in body temperature. The hand that was not patting his shoulder grabbed Song Yu's hand and covered it with him.

Song Yu stared at his face and asked in a low voice: "Why are you here to put me to sleep?"

Le Zhishi answered honestly, "I saw you take melatonin. I just checked and found out that melatonin relieves insomnia." He raised his eyes, his eyelashes trembling a little, "You often

Can't sleep, can you?"

Song Yu did not answer. As his silence continued to lengthen, a layer of moisture appeared in his eyes when he saw Le Zhi, so he added, "Isn't this normal? Many people nowadays can't sleep at night and like to stay up late."

"There's a difference between wanting to stay up late and being unable to sleep." Le Zhishi couldn't help but hugged Song Yu in the end, "If it's nothing, how could you take melatonin? And you can't take it often because it has many side effects.

, will lead to dependence, and may also cause mild anxiety and short-term depression.”

He called out to his brother with a nasal voice, "Will you stop eating from now on?"

Seeing how worried he was and holding him so tightly, Song Yu had no choice but to respond, "Okay, I won't eat anymore."

"If you can't sleep, I will stay with you." Le Zhishi said with a solemn expression, "I will buy you a book to read to you, and I will read you civil law, and criminal law..."

"That's not necessary." Song Yu laughed softly.

Hearing his smile, one of the tight strings relaxed slightly when he was happy. He raised his head and looked into Song Yu's eyes, "Then whatever you want me to read, I will read it for you."

Song Yu thought for a while and seemed to have a very good idea, "Your diary from the first to the sixth grade of elementary school."

Le Zhishi's face immediately showed a very embarrassed expression, "This is my privacy..."

"Forget it." Song Yu said, "Just let me sleep."

"Okay, okay," Le Zhishi agreed quickly, "When I find them, I will bring them all over and read them to you." He touched Song Yu's back, "I hope you won't laugh so much that you can't sleep after listening to it.

The things I wrote when I was a kid were probably not normal."

"For example, if you hope that all wheat in the universe will be extinct so that no one can eat it?"

"How do you know!" Le Zhishi opened his eyes wide, "Did you peek?"

"My mother accidentally saw it while she was bringing you midnight snacks, so she secretly told me."

"Why is this like this..." Le Zhishi felt embarrassed when he thought about being laughed at for a long time.

The corners of Song Yu's mouth were raised slightly, and he seemed a little happier than before. This made Le Zhishi feel very satisfied. He leaned his face against Song Yu's neck with some dependence, "I hope you are happy every day."

"No one is happy every day." Song Yu gave a negative response.

Le Zhishi gave a counterexample, "I am happy every day when I am with you, and I am happy even if I am happy for an hour."

After speaking, he lowered his voice, buried it on Song Yu's shoulder, and was silent for a while.

Song Yu thought he couldn't speak anymore and wanted to urge him to go back to sleep.

"Brother." Le Zhishi still spoke, his voice muffled in their embrace.

"If being with me makes you sad, just tell me, okay? I won't insist on staying by your side."

The room was very quiet. He could hear Song Yu's heartbeat, beating his chest dullly. He didn't know how long it took before Song Yu gave his answer.

"Being with you makes me happy and sad at the same time." His voice was a little hoarse, "It's like overdrafting the beautiful part of life. But I still want it, I want it very much."

Le Zhi held him, wanting to comfort him or make him feel relieved, but soon, he heard Song Yu say the next sentence.

"But if you leave me, I may only be sad."

This sentence made Le Zhishi feel great pain and reluctance. He felt that Song Yu was very different from usual, or maybe he had never seen Song Yu like this before. He was like a cat that could only lick its own wounds.

, carry it proudly at all times, giving Le Zhishi a back that looks strong.

"Although I promised you that I would give it a try." Song Yu stroked Le Zhi's hair, "But the initiative is actually in your hands. If you feel scared and don't want to hurt others, you can withdraw at any time, and we can also return

to the previous relationship.”

After he finished speaking, he added, "I will still be nice to you."

His persuasive tone seemed to be enlightening, but Le Zhishi didn't want to be like this. He didn't want to be treated like a child, especially when he knew that Song Yu would be very sad without him.

"If you say that, I won't quit." His tone was a bit angry, "If I really leave you, we can't go back. Don't be nice to me either, I will just cry to you.

look."

"When I was with you, you would hold me to sleep, touch my face, kiss my arms, and smile tenderly at me. I have received all of these. If one day I change back to my original self, I will

I simply can’t accept it.”

Song Yu smiled bitterly, "Then what are you going to do?"

Le Zhi couldn't hold it back and shed some tears. He buried his head, not wanting Song Yu to find out.

"I will leave all of you and hide in a place where no one can find me."

Before that, he would take away the small stone given to him by Song Yu and the mathematics book that Song Yu had read. The book was indeed obscure and difficult to understand, but his life was long and he could always finish it by himself.

"Do you want to live your whole life by yourself?" Song Yu asked.

"Hmm." Le Zhi wondered if this seemed very heartless, and whether he should be like those crazy men and resentful women who sacrificed their lives for love in TV dramas and movies to show that he was more serious about his love. So he explained: "My parents are short-lived."

, I’d better live for them for a few more decades.”

He said it very casually, like a joke, but Song Yu suddenly hugged him tightly, almost rubbing him into his body, and soon he relaxed again.

"It's impossible for a person to live alone."

There was no clear reference in this sentence. At first Le Zhishi felt that Song Yu was talking about him, but later he felt that he was talking about himself.

"So don't let me go." Le Zhishi kissed the side of his neck, "Don't treat me like a child anymore. I have grown up. No matter what happens, I can bear it with you."

"I know I did something I shouldn't have done. When I saw Aunt Rong today, I felt that I was really guilty. They were so good to me and raised me like their own son, but I took you away from them.

Already."

"This is not caused by you." Song Yu said.

Le Zhishi corrected him, "This is not caused by you alone."

He raised his head slightly, kissed Song Yu's chin, and looked at him, "You said that you are happy and sad when you are with me, and you are only sad when you leave me. Then I can't leave you alone. You keep

The happy part, give me the sad part."

"Anyway, as long as I have you, even sadness will be happiness."

Song Yu really couldn't figure out where Le Zhishi got so many warm emotions, like a plant that sucked in carbon dioxide but continuously released oxygen, trying to digest all his negative energy, just to make him smile.

He is an unusual and special substance that appears in his life, with great energy that cannot be measured.

"Okay." Song Yu could never refuse, so he simply gave up resistance.

"I said I would cherish you. Before you make other decisions, I won't run away on my own."

"There is no other decision." Le Zhishi was firm, "As long as you need me."

Song Yu hugged Le Zhi as tightly as he held a doll. Their skins touched, and Le Zhi's body temperature gradually flowed to him, making his body relax. Le Zhi patted his back while

, while telling him what happened when he was a child, the lotus pods they picked together, the loquats they planted together, the sunflower fields in Jiangtan Park and the endless summer in the Botanical Garden. Later, his voice gradually became blurred and his hand movements became slow.

Come down.

His anxious heart for Song Yu calmed down slower than his consciousness, extending into his dream.

The next day, Lezhi had a slight fever again. I don't know if it was because of the wind at night. He was taken to the hospital by Song Yu and was given a drip for two hours. Song Yu was writing the paper next to him, and he was quiet.

He leaned quietly on Song Yu's shoulder and watched anime on his mobile phone. During this period, he chatted with Jiang Yufan from time to time. Song Yu occasionally glanced and found that Jiang Yufan was showing off his affection and sent many group photos to Le Zhishi.

When he came out, he happened to have dinner. Le Zhi had a bad appetite and ate slowly and little. Song Yu urged him to drink a bowl of pork ribs and lotus root soup before finishing the meal.

"I want to go somewhere. I'm in school. Can I go home instead of going directly?"

Song Yu glanced at him and said, "Then you'll get the dialysis injection tomorrow?"

"You won't catch a cold again." Le Zhishi shifted the responsibility to him very smoothly and whispered, "Maybe it was because you took my quilt yesterday..."

Song Yu tilted his head and stared at him without speaking.

"Definitely not, I kicked it away myself." Le Zhishi touched his arm, "You can sleep on top of me today, so I won't be able to kick the quilt away."

Passing by a person, Song Yu covered Le Zhishi's mouth and didn't let go until the person left.

"What are you talking about?" His tone became awkward again, and Le Zhishi couldn't understand why.

Although he disagreed, Song Yu finally followed Le Zhishi to where he wanted to go. They walked around the campus for a long time, relying on Le Zhishi's navigation the whole time, and they went further and further off track.

"You tell me and I'll take you there." Song Yu couldn't help but say.

Le Zhishi stared at the phone and waved his hands, "You definitely don't know, absolutely."

"Trivia: I am a senior and you are a freshman."

"Shh." Le Zhi didn't even raise his head. He stretched out his hand to cover Song Yu's mouth, but was caught instead of covering Song Yu's mouth.

They finally found it. On the Lion Mountain behind Yingding, there was a small mountain road built with stones. The beginning of the road was at the foot of the mountain. There were almost no other people in sight. Le Zhishi held Song Yu's wrist, which was better than arriving there.

Xitian was still excited when he got the sutra, "Here it is, I found it!"

Song Yu frowned in confusion. There were countless small mountain roads like this. He would never consider this kind of path at ordinary times. It was neither convenient nor efficient.

"So? If you want to go to Yingding, there are many ways..."

Le Zhishi didn't wait for him to finish. He squatted down and pointed at the ground, "Brother, look."

Song Yu lowered his head and discovered that the road here was inlaid with many cobblestones, spelling out five very clear words. When Le Zhi read it out, "Please, go, love, love, road!"

He suddenly wanted to laugh, "Is this what Jiang Yufan told you?"

Lucky stood up and said, "He said his girlfriend brought him here last week, which was very interesting." He whispered to himself, "I like stones."

After saying that, he pulled Song Yu and said, "Let's go, please go on the road of love."

Song Yu thought he would never do such a childish thing in his life, but not only did he do it, he was a little happy. They stayed close to each other and walked up step by step.

In addition to the five words at the beginning, there are many ancient poems and love poems, all made of cobblestones. Le Zhishi said that this seems to be an extracurricular work done by a teacher and his students in the 1980s.

"This teacher is so romantic." Le Zhishi said, "The spelling of the words is so cute." He suddenly saw a yellow translucent pebble, "This one is beautiful, like jade."

Song Yu put his hands loosely on his shoulders, "This is silica colloidal stone marrow. The blue part is because of the copper element."

Le Zhishi stared at him and said, "As soon as you explain it, it becomes very subtle."

Song Yu raised his eyebrows disapprovingly, "Science reveals the nature of romance."

"Okay, I can't compare with you." Le Zhishi led him through the patchwork of city names, and past the words written on stones: "The grass in Liliyuan grows wither and wither every year", and "If the love lasts for a long time,

How can we be in morning and evening?" During this period, Le Zhishi paused and said to the ground, "I spelled it wrong, it's Jiuchangshi."

They walked up the hill little by little, and soon, the two of them reached the end of the road together, where they were surrounded by green trees and no one disturbed them.

"The end is here." Le Zhishi jumped a little, pointed to the words on the ground and said to Song Yu, "Look."

The inconspicuous pebbles put together four simple words, but they seemed to sum up the many years between them.

"Love is deep and meaningful." Song Yu read out softly.

When no one was around, Le Zhi took one of his hands and said, "We have already walked a path of love, and we are very experienced now. Don't worry, everything will be fine."

Song Yu couldn't help but smile, "What experience do you have..."

As soon as he finished speaking, Le Zhishi suddenly came up to him and kissed his lips very lightly and quickly. Just like the autumn in this city, it was short and beautiful.

He nervously retreated to a safe position, let go of his hand, glanced around in a panic, and pursed his lips.

"The experience of a first kiss." Le Zhishi said awkwardly and without confidence.

The setting sun fell gently on his face, and even his soft hair was golden. His ears were red and translucent by the sunlight, and even the capillaries were vaguely visible, like a golden shell. Song

Yu stared closely, hoping that the dusk would fall later, because this scene was really beautiful.

But he also hoped that it would get dark immediately so that he could hug Le Zhishi in a dark corner.

"Are you not satisfied?" Le Zhishi looked annoyed and raised his head, "You are not satisfied, right?"

Song Yu put his hands in the pockets of his windbreaker and said with a leisurely expression, "A little."

"Then can I do it again? That doesn't count."

Song Yu took a step forward, the distance shortened to zero, their chests were pressed together, and he said, "Okay."

Le Zhishi glanced at her secretly again, then kissed her a second time quickly, took a small step back, and asked the other person's feelings seriously, "What about this?"

His love partner was very difficult to deal with, and the corners of his mouth raised a little more, but he still shook his head, "Still not satisfied."

When he was happy, he realized that he had dug a hole for himself, "I don't think you will be satisfied."
Chapter completed!