The update was interrupted from July 1st to 7th in the past few days. The boiled water has been wandering, hesitating and imitating. Is this eunuch right?

Within half a year, Bai Kaishui stayed in the house to write novels, writing more than one million words, almost 180,000 words per month. He was neither fast nor slow to write. Within half a year, Bai Kaishui wrote with passion and impetuousness, happily, and insisted on writing.

However, now, Baikaishui cannot feel the joy of typing, the excitement of creation, only silent persistence and a sense of responsibility. However, slowly Baikaishui cannot make the promises he made, and he has a sense of guilt and a sense of guilt to write novels. He gradually has a mentality of disgusting with code novels in his heart.

Ask yourself, what happened to you? Within a few days, Baikaishui thought of the reason for all this.

First, boiled water is a very boring person and cannot adjust his mentality. He often stays at home for several months. This is a very upset thing. He has not adjusted his condition well, which causes the boredom and annoying mood to accumulate day by day, and he becomes disgusted.

Second, it is very realistic. The problem of money is not a great master. Within half a year, the money for writing novels is not much. The savings from the year-long work of Baikaishui have been taken to make up for living expenses. Now it is gone. The economic pressure has given Baikaishui the idea of ​​giving up.

Third, family influence and social pressure, boiled water is a real living person. You can also understand the economic pressure of life, social pressure, and the words of people around you. After two years of debut, I stay at home every day and don’t go out, and I have no money. In the eyes of people around me, maybe I have become an abnormal person.

Fourth, at the beginning, I thought about writing a book. Writing my own ideas can be regarded as a pursuit of ideals, but this writing is too long, half a year. If I continue writing like this, or half a year, can I really continue writing like this? This is no longer the impulse at that time when I wanted to write a novel in my heart. Can I make money by writing a novel, and whether I can come up with this path? Many things come one after another. How should I?

Fifth, if you don’t have money, you go out to play less. Even if you have a rest, you just go out for a walk. You need money to go out and buy a bottle of water. This also caused the increase in depression in the first line, and you became even more lost, gradually became confused and at a loss, so that you were so confused every day that your original beautiful thoughts were completely tilted and distorted.

Maybe there are many more, many, life always has problems, and living will have troubles. This is also a very realistic problem in today's society, and it is also the original intention of why I wrote novels. I started writing novels just to build a world in my heart and write down my yearning.

An author told me that he chose to write a novel, so he would be ready to eat kimchi every day and insist on persisting. His words shocked me. I am now a eunuch. Can I say that I have tried my best and tried my best? Is this a deceiver? Or is it another way to escape? Is this contrary to what I thought to myself that I should be a person who dares to face social reality?

I originally thought that after I stopped updating, I could be freed from the entangled heart, jumped out of the conflict between reality and my heart, and after stopping updating, I just needed to find another job, go to work normally every day, chat with colleagues, regain my previous life, and forget about this depressed life.

Yesterday, the website editor came to me again, which made my wandering heart even more wandering. I had been struggling for two months. I still didn’t finish writing. Now I treat stopping and not writing as a kind of relief. Is it true that it is another shackle, and maybe it is a big stain of my life.

The editor said that my novel is OK, why not update, why give up? It's a pity that the editor's persuasion really made me confused. I have put in so much effort. Why don't I finish the novel? Should I be wasted all my efforts? Should I enter the novel industry? Why don't I finish writing this novel before reading it?

The above is just a very real idea of ​​boiled water. A writer is very realistic in his heart. When you read novels, you will also understand the difficulty of us writers.

The Baikai Water will continue to update tomorrow. Of course, you may generally write the outline listed by Baikai Water, but most of them may be different. Thanks to the book friends who have always supported Baikai Water.
Chapter completed!