Chapter 46 Not a Hero
I've forgotten when the last time I boarded the plane-
Go down the mountain as fast as possible and arrive at the nearby big city! Buy a plane ticket in the most hasty way, which is the fastest speed I can think of.
In fact, Tia's proposal was not too much. Rest and leaving would not affect any of my plans, but I refused. The reason I couldn't tell Tia and Su Ling was that I could no longer bear this longing.
Maybe no one can understand? When the plane took off and was already above the clouds, I looked at the sea of clouds below, and couldn't help but smile at the corner of my mouth. It was remembering Xin Yi's once dumb and stupid appearance, his clearly moving face, but he couldn't make too many expressions. When I occasionally smiled, it was like a flower blooming.
But now, I know the reason. I feel happy about this, so I can't help but want to laugh. If Xin Yi could be by my side now, I would tell her, look, I know you more, and I know everything about you.
This kind of emotion makes people happy, and my longing is that she is clearly asleep in Wangxian Village. I can return home in a dusty manner. I see her at the first time, talk to her, hold her hand, watch her sleeping face silently, and guard quietly, but I still miss her.
My eyes that fell on me. My smile that missed her can dissolve my deepest sadness and anxiety. My voice that I missed her the most. Whether it was her once dull or her somewhat weird after the fox transformation, I hope that when I turned around, I saw her smiling and called me "uncle" in that familiar and gentle tone.
This kind of longing is too painful, and it is unforgettable in my heart and soul. How can I wait? No one can understand, even Xin Yi doesn’t know how much I miss her? The time of the night is understandable, but for me, every minute and every second is so difficult. When I know Xin Yi’s situation and when the hope of waking is right in front of me, these conditions simply boil this longing.
So, I seemed very 'ignorant'? I refused Tia and Su Ling's normal proposal without thinking, and they were very determined, but I couldn't explain it. Thinking of this, I leaned against the window of the plane with a little tiredness, but it was not completely relieved, at least I didn't feel that my brain was so irritated now. In any case, for the peace of mind for the people around me, I slept for a few hours, made some arrangements before going down the mountain.
Just remembering the reluctant look when I found the Tong Emperor, I touched my face a little embarrassedly, because through Tia's investigation, I learned that all the demon hunters in this sacrificial sacrifice had the same feelings and changes as me, and the weaker the strength, the more obvious the improvement, and the stronger the feeling of the essence of the soul power.
If it were on weekdays, it would have nothing to do with Tongdi and I not being in the village. As long as there were a few senior executives who were commanding and assigning tasks, it would be fine. After all, the meaning of monster hunters lies in monster hunting, and they also needed training.
However, I think this opportunity for improvement should be given to them with a good condition and a relatively quiet and peaceful environment, so that they can experience it quietly, and it is best if someone can give them more guidance. Therefore, at this time, I need to stay in the village like Tongdi. Otherwise, the Dungeon Ada and several elite dungeon hunters who are not far from me and Tongdi can do it. However, these top-notch dungeon hunters are not in Wangxian Village, and I... let me be selfish this time. I have never been a hero, my children are in love, I have my own emotions, and I cannot do it to put my heart to greatness. So, when Tongdi snorted and rejected me, I didn't care about him at all, just said that these young demon hunters were just right away and forced to leave.
It looks very irresponsible, which is why I am embarrassed. But some feelings and longing really have a way. Maybe I am not a human being and become a god. I have seen through it for a long time, so why bother to get obsessed with it?
And the way he looks when he is obsessed must be very unbearable in the eyes of the gods. Not only is he not enlightened, but he is also very intoxicated, sweet, happy and willing.
What will you finally understand when you practice this life?
My mind was thinking a lot, but for the plane, the destination I was about to reach was not far away. Before I knew it, the plane had already landed.
I almost couldn't wait and couldn't wait, so I booked a car and drove directly to the place where Xin Yi's mother was.
Over the years, she has actually lived in the factory and mining area. The former factory and mining area has long been declining. The scene of people working in groups as soon as music is played has long disappeared. Even the old residential buildings are only some elderly people still living there, and the rest have already moved to the city. Even my parents have moved to the city, but Xin Yi's mother has been living in the old factory and mining area.
I used to be very puzzled, why did Aunt Xin have the ability to let Xin Yi study abroad? Later, I wondered if she didn't move to the city and saved the money? These things were not very good at caring about me, so I have always believed in this explanation.
Now my relationship with Xin Yi is clear, but everything I used to make me feel very sensitive. Even so, I am not able to afford to go abroad. Moreover, Xin Yi has good grades and can go to school in China. Why do I have to go abroad?
Did I think too much? I couldn't help frowning in the car and found that everyone actually had some secrets, including Aunt Xin, who I thought had always been very ordinary.
As for the factory and mining area, my expression became a little cold. I couldn't forget the night when I almost died. It was in the factory and mining area, the place that once left me with psychological shadows for a long time! Later it became a warehouse, and there were many inexplicable people. It was there that Chen Chong almost killed me.
It was there that my fate changed completely and I saw a different world. It should be their territory. Thinking of what happened in my childhood, the mysterious cave, I actually had every reason to believe that they were there to cover up the situation with a warehouse and then had a secret.
However, today's me is completely different from that of me. I have the strength to break in and kill one back and forth again. But this time I went to pick up Aunt Xin, and I don't want to cause trouble. But when I think about it, everything is like a delicate balance. My destiny starts to turn from there, but I have never touched that place! Perhaps because it is in the factory and mining area, where I grew up, I don't want to leave blood here. Or maybe, the shadow of my childhood is too deep, and I can't touch it for a while. Or maybe, it's related to Chen Chong... In the end, is it because I don't want to stay here broken?
I rubbed my brows and couldn't give myself an answer, so I simply stopped thinking about it. The only thing I can be sure of is that even if I pass by this time, I still won't touch that place until one day I can't escape anymore.
The car quickly crossed the expressway and arrived at the city where my hometown is. This is also a city full of memories. I once met friends like Amu here, staying here for a few years, and becoming the owner of an antique shop. Looking at this city that has changed a little after several years, I don’t know if I should cry or laugh.
The car passed through the most central urban area, drove for a while, and came to another urban area of the city. I was a little confused and couldn't help but ask the driver to stop.
In front of me is a community that has been built for many years, and in this community, my parents lived here. Before, because of work transfer, they lived in another city. Later, they retired and returned to this city. When they returned to a house that had been bought but had been placed for many years.
I am actually very unfilial and rarely see them. Especially after life changes, I often arrange for Tia to help me "cope" them. As long as they know that I am safe and do something, I have no worries about food and clothing.
I know there is a reason for me, that is, when I know that in a sense, I am not their real son, and another soul lives in my body, I am even more escaping and unable to face them. I keep telling myself that I am their son, but no matter how I hint myself, this psychological trace cannot be completely eliminated.
But now, when I passed by here, I realized that I was in a hurry to pick up Aunt Xin, but I didn’t expect them. I couldn’t help but ask the driver to stop. When I stopped here, I realized that all the excuses were so clumsy. I could not be filial for the time being because of the responsibilities I bear, but I couldn’t escape their longing and concern. Have I asked them about their emotions? Or did I continue to believe what they said don’t worry, we are all fine?
I was standing here so sadly that I wanted to cry. I quickly turned around and almost ran to the nearest mall at a speed. I bought the tobacco and alcohol for my father, my mother's warmth and a bracelet, and then I pretended to be calm and calm.
I am actually so sad. Maybe the people in this world who often care about you the most and are most selfless to you are placed by you in a position that you don’t think of, although I have been home to visit them over the years. I have also thought of my childhood and when I was young, I occasionally miss them. But this time my mood is so different, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me? Maybe when I saw Uncle Xin, I began to really untie my knots and face my parents?
For some reason, this sudden perception also caused a slight fluctuation in my soul, but I didn't care. I just rushed into the community where my parents were.
This time, I truly recognized that I am Ye Zhengling, their son, because my body's blood and hair come from them, my appearance and expressions all have their shadows.
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