Actually, sometimes I wonder if human life is a process of opening up? It’s like the first word you say, the first step you take, and the first song you learn. When countless firsts come, the next thing will naturally be integrated into life.

There was a gloomy street in the morning, with the sparse pedestrians indifferent or lazy faces, the dazzling skylight yawning in the distance of those who walked by me, the dark clouds piled up above my head near me, and the somewhat dull thoughts emerged from my heart.

I have been lonely for many nights, and I feel like I am a "monster", burying countless secrets but cannot speak to others, and there is no loneliness of "same kind".

Now, I met Qin Hainian and the next day I met such a mysterious middle-aged man. Is this the first time in my life?

Yes, I don’t think that middle-aged man is an ordinary person. At least ordinary people can’t do it in this open street without any branches and can’t leave in the blink of an eye, even if I can’t do it. After all, I just know more than ordinary people and learn differently.

After searching everywhere, I had to hold the brocade box and give up looking for this middle-aged man. At this time, I realized that the world is extremely mysterious, and in these few days, I finally revealed a corner of its mystery like a scroll.

When I returned to the store, because I didn’t turn on the air conditioner, the store was a little stuffy, just like my mood was a little dull. I grabbed the brocade box and couldn’t get back to my mind for a long time, and was inexplicably boring.

There is a magical fur in the brocade box. The middle-aged man told me that it was very big, but I still don’t dare to doubt what his words were. I really want to open the brocade box and take a closer look. After all, the glance just now made me see that this fur was apart from some surprises, at least I couldn’t see anything special in my body.

It's just a fox, with few tails, six legs and a small fox.

But when I put this brocade box on the counter and put my fingers on the buckle, I hesitated when I wanted to open it again. I still remember the feeling this fur brought to me. Just one glance almost made me lose my mind and want to have it. This should be a dangerous thing, right?

I feel that I shouldn't take a second look. Although my spiritual sense is not outstanding at all, it does not hinder my judgment on this matter.

Thinking of this, I endured the complicated feelings in my heart, threw the brocade box under the counter, and forced myself not to think about it all day long.

In addition to this strange event that happened in the morning, the day passed very dullly. It was time to close the store on time. I silently packed everything and habitually wanted to pull it up as usual. But today I was a little hesitant, as if something in my heart was summoning me and taking it away.

This kind of struggle that I could not control myself made me almost keep the time to pull the store at the door of the store. I stood for a minute. Finally, I gritted my teeth, let go of my hand, rushed into the store, and took out the brocade box that I threw on the counter that morning. The moment I grabbed it in my hand, I felt inexplicably at ease, and a smile rose from the corner of my mouth.

This time, I pulled down the store without hesitation and left my store.

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Although this fur brought me such a magical feeling, it did not prevent me from labeling it as "danger". I didn't even know what kind of devil I was. On the night when I should have been busy, there was no time except burning incense to my ancestor. I just sat on the sofa and stared at the brocade box, hesitating whether to open it and take a look.

I think this is like a game of will. In the end, I didn't turn it on. When the alarm clock of the Black Cat Sheriff rang, I won today. I have to take Lao Zhou to negotiate with the female ghost. This is what I want to remind me of in my mind.

I threw it under the bed in annoyance, just like I threw the things that my master had once passed on to me under the bed.

This is an attitude. At least I think so.

After packing everything, I set out from home. In fact, it is not as easy as folk legends to make an ordinary person, or even dangerous things. But in this dilemma, I can choose this one way.

When the car drove to the gate of Lao Zhou's community, Lao Zhou was already waiting there and got out of the car. He called him, and he was obviously trapped in his own thoughts. When I called this, the sound was not loud, and he was shocked.

"Ye Zhengling, I won't take you so scary." Lao Zhou said to me like this. Under the reflection of the street lights, his face turned a little pale.

These days, he often looks like this. I have been thinking about how many times he has to do it. Will Lao Zhou no longer be darker, but become a slim face? If such a whitening method is feasible, it would be a very environmentally friendly thing.

"It's you who scared you, not me." I looked down and saw that there were at least 5 or 6 cigarette butts at Lao Zhou's feet, which shows how much psychological pressure he was.

I believe that if I were to take him to take his blood pressure now, it would be caused by high blood pressure due to tension.

"Yes, you all make sense. I will wait for you to destroy my three views tonight." Lao Zhou said to me as if he was relaxed, walked in front, got in the car, and sat in the passenger seat.

It was 10:40 pm, and I thought it was still a bit too early, so after I got in the car, I didn’t rush to drive, but lit a cigarette and tried to organize the language to Lao Zhou, saying, “Lao Zhou, I don’t plan to destroy your views, you must not think of this yourself. After all, what kind of existence is a ghost? Even if I am a Taoist priest, I can’t give you an accurate answer. Sometimes, you can try to explain from a scientific perspective. What is that? It’s true that a person can explain it like this.”

Lao Zhou didn't say anything, just looked at me, his eyes a little confused.

I spit out a puff of smoke, and the hot wind blowing outside the car window blew the smoke, and I spoke again: "Lao Zhou, I have no other meaning. I just tell you that there must be some corners of this world, things that you and I don't know or even understand. We cannot refuse to accept because they are full of mysteries, or give a tough definition. Whether this definition is correct or not, we all use it to comfort ourselves. Well, everything in this world is within the scope of my explanation. You must know that no matter you or me, they are all humans and humans, I think they are immature. Don't talk about this vast starry sky, even in every corner of the land in this world, no one dares to say that the deep sea is finished? What about the underground? You also know that if the earth is an apple, we are just staying on the apple skin."

"Lao Lao, are you going to go home with me to watch the National Geographic Channel tonight? Why did you suddenly start this for me?" Lao Zhou finally asked impatiently.

"Well, I don't mean that. I just heard that some people will begin to doubt their lives after their three views are destroyed, and even have serious personality disorders, and even tend to commit suicide. Lao Zhou, isn't I going to do some psychological construction for you first?" This is indeed my purpose.

After saying this, Lao Zhou's face suddenly became serious. He turned to look at me and said, "Lao San, do you really don't understand me, or do you pretend not to understand me? Do you think I, Zhou Zheng, have three views? Don't forget what we experienced together when we were a child."

"You, what do you mean?" I felt like I had met Lao Zhou again. In fact, I could vaguely guess what Lao Zhou was going to tell me? But for me, this was even more shocking than the first time my master took me to see the soul.

"You know I have obsessive-compulsive disorder. I just want to work hard to live like a normal person, including studying medicine. Don't people say that doctors are the most rational? Although after I worked in the hospital, I found that some doctors rely more on faith than ordinary people, do you know that it is the feeling? The more you escape a thing, the more indelible seeds you planted in your heart, and the more extreme it forces you to go. There are many painful things in life, and there is a kind of pain that happens to you. You can't find the answer no matter what. Third brother, have you not noticed over the years that I have been escaping? Now it's just that fate has used another way to make me unable to escape." After saying this, Lao Zhou seemed a little tired, leaned on the back of the chair and took out a cigarette again to light it.

"I guess this is what you are. But over the years, the extremes you have shown have made me, as a brother, not want to deliberately expose them. After a long time, I think you are like that." After that, I laughed.

Lao Zhou also smiled.

In fact, this conversation once again brought us closer together, and this kind of heart-to-heart feeling is very good, at least diluting some of the tense atmosphere.

"Last brother, I actually have many questions to ask you, just like, you have since that year." Lao Zhou tried to speak. In fact, he had never asked me for so many years.

At this moment, I suddenly mentioned the handbrake and said, "When this matter is over, I see if I can try to tell you."

The car started, and the roar of the engine seemed to cover up some of my heartache after many years. I can never forget the sadness that I can never forget, even though it was a turning point in my destiny.
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