The whole room fell silent, leaving only Ruyue's soft voice echoing in the room. What the notepad recorded was not anything else, but Fu Yuan's own mental journey.

The beginning of the first article is written like this.

X, month, x, 19XX.

I was bullied by Wang Hai and his group again at school. They took away the three dollars I had for lunch and laughed at my mother for being a broken shoe and my father for being a bastard. I endured it silently. Compared with the pain in my heart, Wang

The fist that the sea hit me on the face doesn’t hurt that much anymore. My mother is just a broken shoe, right?

My dad is a bastard, I've heard some of those things. When I went home, don't think that I didn't see those hateful women pointing, and don't think that I didn't hear their whispers. I hate my mother.

, I also hate why my father didn’t leave her and take me away!

"It's a bit pitiful. Is this psychological distortion related to this?" When Ruyue read out the first paragraph, Chengzhen commented while holding his chin, but I didn't say anything. There are too many poor people in this world, but

Poverty brings some people the motivation to rise, but why does it bring others endless extremes?

In fact, I know the answer. It’s just a thought. Just like the old village chief, if he doesn’t let go of his hatred or if he doesn’t let go of his hatred, he will write two endings. Just like the people on the boat, if they stretch out their hands or don’t stretch out their hands, they will get the same thing.

Two fates.

Some choices are not given to you by God. It just places the road ahead in front of you. The choice is in your own heart.

Faced with Cheng Zhen's words, Ru Yue just "shushed", and then said: "Listen to me before I finish reading." Then, the picture of Fu Yuan's life slowly appeared in front of everyone with Ru Yue's voice.

Fu Yuan, born in the 1970s, was born in a small town not far from this county. He is a boy with a somewhat introverted personality.

His father was an honest factory worker with a somewhat cowardly personality, and his mother was an English teacher at a local school. She was famously beautiful. She married the honest father Fu Yuan for a city residence permit.

Judging from the records in Fu Yuan's notebook, when Fu Yuan was a child, his personality was not that introverted. He was also an ordinary naughty boy. He even had many friends and was the king of children among a group of children, which made his life

What changed his trajectory was an incident that happened when he was 6 years old.

What kind of thing is it? Because Fu Yuan is young, he doesn't know too much. He just knows a little about the rumors from some adults and children around him. The specific content is probably that his mother seems to be involved with other men.

Qing, and his father cowardly endured it.

"I will never forget the day my life changed. It seemed like just overnight, all my friends abandoned me. They ignored me and stayed away from me! They were very good to me at first.

My parents looked at me strangely. Even the teacher, I think about it now

, I could also feel their alienation from me. They never called my name when asking questions in class, and my seat was also in the corner of the class. All of this happened overnight. I vaguely knew that something big had happened.

Horrible things! But no matter how terrible things are, what’s wrong with me? What’s wrong?!”

This is the description of the situation at that time in one of Fu Yuan's diaries, but he never said anything terrible happened, from beginning to end, as if he was avoiding something or deliberately not writing about it.

Under this "dramatic change" in life, Fu Yuan's personality changed, from extroversion to introversion, and from introversion to an escape-like silence. Sometimes he could even go without saying a word for a whole day.

All his confessions were written on this black notepad. He would not write for several days in a row, and occasionally he would write several paragraphs a day, but all the contents written on it were extreme, and a subtle

The change happened one day after he entered high school.

"On the way out of school today, Wang Hai came to me again with a few so-called classmates and reminded me that I should give him the 10 yuan protection fee once a week. He said to me very proudly, don't underestimate this 10 yuan protection fee.

The role of the yuan is because it is paid in every week

Only 10 yuan can save me from the danger of being beaten many times. He told me that people like me, born from my mother, should not have retribution, so it is natural that many people want to beat me.

Yes, he helped block it. He was also very surprised that I

Why is there no retribution for my mother? She can still teach well in school, and he said that bullying me is justice for God! What can I say? I gave him 10 yuan in advance! After all, I have no shortage of money, and that hateful woman can do it.

Give me more than my classmates get, every day

There will be some leftover, but what's the use? I still won't talk to her. I wish she would die. If it wasn't her scandal, how could others say that bullying me was an act of justice? Why didn't she die? No

Go to death? If she dies, my world will be peaceful.

No one came home at night. The woman was probably making up for classes at school. My father was not at home, so he was probably going to drink again. I was very hungry, so I gave all 10 yuan to Wang Hai and the others at noon. It was the money I had saved for several days.

, including tomorrow’s lunch money. If nothing happens, I will be hungry at noon tomorrow. The house is very dark and quiet, and I don’t know why I feel a little scared. I’d better go out for a walk.”

This record is the beginning of the transformation. In fact, we did not notice this record at the beginning because it was not much different from other records. However, after contacting it, we realized that this was

The beginning of real change.

That night, Fu Yuan went out, that is, that night, Fu Yuan met a woman. Judging from his records the next day, that night, he got a box from the woman and risked it.

He received a warm lunch box and received a gentle explanation. It was the first time someone spoke to him so gently.

In Fu Yuan's description, the woman was extremely beautiful, gentle, considerate, and considerate, with almost no flaws. She showed her obsession with that woman from the first time she met him.

"Could this woman be a Ghost Rakshasa? To confuse a person is an extremely simple thing for a Ghost Rakshasa, what do you think?" After hearing some of the subsequent descriptions, Xiao Chengqian began to express his opinions.

Yes, from Fu Yuan's description later, that woman has appeared frequently in Fu Yuan's life since she first appeared. Fu Yuan would meet her almost every once in a while. From Fu Yuan's records

Between the lines of ", we see Fu Yuan's deeper and deeper psychological dependence on her, gradually evolving into the trend that she is Fu Yuanyi's whole world.

Originally, if this incident happened to ordinary people who had the same experience, it would not be surprising. After all, a silent boy who had been bullied for many years and lived in the strange eyes of others met a beautiful and gentle man who was willing to listen to him.

Is it strange for a woman to have such dependence? The strange thing is that in Fu Yuan’s words, when mentioning this woman,

With a sense of mystery, he didn't know her identity, where she lived, when she would show up, and he didn't even know her age, nor had he seen any of her relatives or friends.

I have never mentioned it before. The way Fu Yuan met her was to wait in the alley where she would appear every time. That was the alley where he first met her.

From the perspective of the interaction process of ordinary people, is all this normal? It is absolutely abnormal! That’s why Xiao Chengqian made this judgment, and we agree with this judgment, but we still need to listen to what the facts are.

After being silent for a while, Ru Yue continued to read Fu Yuan's notepad, and the text recorded in the next long period was the same as the previous paragraph, all talking about some trivial matters between him and the woman.

thing.

The bullying he had recorded in the past by his classmates was no longer there, the extreme psychological hatred was gone, and all the trajectories of his life were gone. The whole article was filled with that woman.

"I said to her, I don't know your name yet, but I want to treat you as my mother. I think a mother should be like you, not only beautiful but also gentle, willing to listen to me, and not so unpleasant.

Reputation. She looked at me and smiled. I had never seen her smile like this before. It was a little strange.

Ah, I felt nervous. She was so young and beautiful, how could she have an eldest son like me? Was she angry? Or did she know my deepest thoughts? Not only did I regard her as my mother, but I also found that I had

I fell in love with her, I fell deeply in love with her, and I would die for her."

Ruyue stopped reading here, and my heart tightened inexplicably!
Chapter completed!