The nights in the snow-capped mountains are beautiful, but the same nights feel so different from those experienced by the snow and those walking with the road mountains.

With Ruxue, any beautiful scenery can evoke the infinite thoughts in the heart. With Lushan, the two people are not concerned about the beautiful scenery. The grass rusts under their feet. The two people walking silently feel a kind of lonely support between men.

We still stayed at the lake where Ruxue and I were last night. Lushan and I jumped up at the same time and sat down on the rock.

The light night wind of the lake filled with stars, I took out a pack of cigarettes from my robe on the way and gave me a piece of cigarettes. We lit the cigarettes silently together. The light blue smoke spread out, and Lushan finally spoke: "Actually, I have always wanted to tell you my past several times, but it was not a pleasant thing. I even doubt whether I have the courage to tell this story."

"Everyone has things that cannot be forgotten, and it is definitely a good thing, right?" I comforted Lu Shan. In fact, life was like this, and the sadder it is, the more regretful it is, and the more difficult it is to forget it.

"I am an orphan from a Tibetan area." He said on the way and suddenly looked at me and smiled.

I was surprised, but when I think about it carefully, Lu Shan had hardly mentioned his relatives except for his careful care of Tao Bo. It turned out that there was such an allusion.

I didn't interrupt, but Lu Shan continued: "But it's not entirely that I just don't have parents, but I still have grandparents and an uncle, of course, this is the name of Han people. In short, you can understand this relationship."

"If this happens, your childhood is not without support?" I have lived a warm life since I was a child. My parents, sisters, and masters all love me very much. I cannot empathize with Lushan's life experience, but I subconsciously hope that Lushan can also be relied on and loved.

The mountain was covered with smoke, looking at the lake in the distance, and did not directly answer my questions, but smiled slightly, with a distant memory and a meaning of looking back: "I have never seen my parents before. My grandmother told me that they were missing in the depths of the snow-capped mountains to find a mysterious existence."

"Ah? Your parents and the others?" I looked at Lushan in surprise, always feeling that there is always an amazing story behind it. If an ordinary couple lives an ordinary life, how could they go deep into the snow-capped mountains to find a mysterious existence? There is still a small child left? Does Lushan's parents have a story?

Facing my questions, Lu Shan looked at me and smiled bitterly, and then said, "Chengyi, if I tell you, I have not only never seen my parents, but I rarely hear about my parents' affairs. Do you believe it?"

"I naturally believe it." I felt a little bitter in my heart for some reason, as if Lu Shan's bitter smile was also engraved into my heart. Losing parents was originally a very sad thing. Even I knew very little about them. What kind of sad childhood was that?

"But I don't know at all." Lu Shan suddenly lay on the big rock, holding a cigarette in his mouth, and then squinted his eyes and said, "When I was a child, my grandmother once told me that my father was a respected person, and my mother was very beautiful. They all loved me very much. My mother lacked milk. My father would squeeze me milk every day and in the snow, and never stopped. When I was a child, I was weak. My mother hugged me all day and night, refusing to let me leave her arms. My father even took her herbs for me, but I don't remember these memories at all. I just regretted that I was too young at that time."

I also lay down side by side with Lushan. I understood his sadness. I couldn't remember the beautiful memories. I couldn't even remember the appearance of my parents. It turned out that this was Lushan's childhood.

And I also know that there is no reason for anything. Lushan is an excellent and mysterious cultivator, and his talent must have something to do with his parents, even if he doesn't know about his parents.

"Do you think I'm very miserable? Chengyi?" He suddenly asked me with a smile, but before I could answer, he continued: "Actually, before I was seven years old, my grandparents pity my parents. They loved me very much and always protected me. Our family is a herdsman. Although the family is not wealthy, there is still a group of sheep who have no worries about food and clothing. The only thing that doesn't like me is my aunt. Since she got married, even my uncle has never given me a good face."

"Hmm? What happened later?" I continued to ask.

"Later? I said that because of the existence of grandparents, my uncle and aunt would not do anything to me. Besides, when they split up at that time, they also had their own flocks. The herdsmen followed the flocks, and actually did not have much intersection. However, human life is limited, right? After all, my grandparents are old and missed my parents too much, their bodies are weak very quickly. I often see grandma crying at night and talking about my father's name." Lu Shan said this, the smoke had burned to the end.

His side face looked a little sad. Although he said it lightly, I know how deep his feelings for his grandparents have been, as he has been helpless since childhood.

Lushan lit another cigarette and was silent for a long time before saying, "I remember it was a winter when I was seven years old. It was particularly cold in the winter that even the grassland was covered with snow. It was not dispersed for a long time. My grandfather and grandma passed away one after another. What happened afterwards was actually very bloody, in short, you don't need to know so much. Maybe I started to live with my uncle and aunt, and the flock of sheep left to me by my grandparents also belonged to them."

When Lu Shan talked about this past, he felt even more relaxed as if the suffering he had suffered was not worth mentioning at all.

"Do you hate them?" In my eyes, there is an endless sky. The brilliant starry sky is actually under this sky. How small we are. When you think about it carefully, it is also so unworthy. If you take it in your heart, it is hatred. If you don't take it in your heart, then everything has nothing to do with your life and your happiness.

“之前有恨的,在他们家里,是吃不好的,还有沉重的家务事压在身上稍微大一岁,就去放羊了而且什么都要让着弟弟,弟弟一个不开心,我就会被揍,我想爷爷奶奶,也会在晚上一个人抱着最心爱的羊,哭着喊爸爸妈妈你说小小的我,如何能不恨?”路山望着星空,也是悠悠的叹息了一声.

"I stopped hating me later?" I asked.

"I won't hate it anymore. Without them, a seven-year-old child, I would not have been able to grow up smoothly in the vast grassland. After all, I would not have been able to herd sheep at that time. There were wolves on the grassland, and there were all kinds of unknown dangers. They treated me badly. At least let me grow up, just like even if I don't eat well, I can still eat enough, right?" Lu Shan said leisurely.

"You are very open-minded." I commented briefly.

"Chengyi, if you had your personality, you might have figured it out earlier than me, just because if you remember hatred, you would live a very painful life. When you look at the kindness, you would live a relaxed, happy and open-minded life. They raised me for a few years. At that time, I thought my life would go on like this and wait for me to grow up and get married. My uncle and aunt would also give me some sheep. Even if not many, I could live my own life. I think as long as I work hard, the flock of sheep will gradually grow bigger and my life will get better. At that time, the thing I longed for the most was to grow up." Lu Shan said this with a smile on his face, as if it was a very beautiful dream. I can understand that if I could really live like this, it would be a kind of happiness?

"What happened later?" I couldn't help but ask.

"What can happen? You can probably guess it, right? But what you can't guess is the details." Lu Shan smiled faintly again and the smile seemed to be immersed in memories and was unwilling to extricate himself.

"Then you just tell me." In fact, I should be able to guess that there had been a certain turning point in his fate, and this turning point may be related to the temple full of mysterious and evil.

"That year, I was 11 years old and I was already a mature herder. I was familiar with the grasslands and the sheep were used to the life of herding sheep. Even so, I could not guard against the elusive grassland wolf. In that summer, I went out to grazle for some reason, but a small group of grassland wolves came to the pasture that was always calm. At that time, I was in trouble, and I couldn't bear to leave every sheep. During the days when I lived with my uncle and aunt, I had such deep feelings for every sheep." Lu Shan glanced at me and asked, "Can you understand?"

"Yeah." I nodded.

"It was that time that I met Baima, the woman who changed my life, while I was driving the flock of sheep and confronting the wolf and running for life, I met her."
Chapter completed!