It's not like cooking, it's more like fighting.

The plates, bowls and chopsticks were all piled on the table by Chen’s mother. The door of the disinfection cabinet that has been purchased only once in two years has also been opened.

"Chen Yi, come and see how it is used."

The operation of the disinfection cabinet is not complicated. Although Chen's mother has been in this city for several years, she is still unfamiliar with electrical appliances and cannot adapt to it. She has never graduated from elementary school and has not read much.

Chen Yi put the kitchen utensils into the disinfection cabinet one by one, and Chen's mother said aloud.

"Don't touch the things your dad and I use in the future. The towel and toothbrush are all separated. The rice bowl and your sister must be placed separately, and the chopsticks are the same. Don't put clothes and pants in the washing machine with your dad's..."

Chen Yi realized that something unusual had happened, but did not ask, just nodded and agreed while listening.

Chen’s mother asked Chen Yi to make dinner.

When Chen Yi was in the first grade of elementary school, she learned how to cook rice and cook noodles. When she was three years old, she could already cook a lot of home-cooked dishes. When she was cooking, Chen's mother sat blankly in the living room.

The dinner happened to be that Chen's father went home unexpectedly. Since he moved to this residential area, Chen's mother and Wenwen came to the city for the pre-order, Chen's father had rarely returned home before 10 o'clock in the evening.

Wenwen wanted to add rice to Chen's father, but Chen's father said he had eaten outside.

Chen's mother suddenly had an attack and cursed her when she looked up.

"What kind of food is added to him? He doesn't want to eat!"

War is about to break out.

From the initial endurance of his anger to the end, the two of them started arguing back and forth.

Wenwen lowered his head in fear and did not move the chopsticks he was holding.

Chen Yi signaled her sister to pick up the food with a numb expression, and she quickly finished eating and left nothing else.

The war was spreading, and the heat was burning more and more fiercely.

Chen's father was furious and grabbed the tea cup and kept smashing the tea table.

"I'm late when I come back, you say unjustly. If I come back early, you also say, what do you want, your wife? I'll let you live and don't let you live..."

Chen's mother suddenly burst into tears and cursed sadly.

"You bastard! You pretend to be your X. Recently, I felt uncomfortable and went to the hospital for examination and said that you had gonorrhea. You bastard were fooling around outside and got sick and hurt us... You are simply not a human... Why did I blindly marry a man like you?..."

Chen's father's arrogance suddenly faded, and his face was gloomy. Hearing Chen's mother crying and screaming, he suddenly stood up, rushed over and dragged Chen's mother into the room.

Chen's mother shouted in shock and struggled.

"You bastard is a traitor and you have to beat someone..."

Chen's father, who had not made any sound for a long time, was furious.

"Also say! Can you tell this kind of thing in front of a child? Do you have any brains..."

Chen's mother gave up her struggle and was dragged into the bedroom by Chen's father, and the door was closed immediately after following her.

Chen Yimuran ate the last bite of rice in the bowl, and Wenwen had already finished it.

"Brother, is gonorrhea a STD?"

"Don't think too much. Mom has been to the hospital, and the doctor will definitely tell her how to avoid infection."

Wenwen silently took the bowl into the kitchen, Chen Yi cleaned the dining table, and washed the dishes quietly.

Chen's father's door did not open until 10 o'clock in the evening. Chen's father walked out of the living room alone, and the door was tightly closed again.

Wenwen has already gone to bed, and Chen Yi has very little sleep needs, so she is still sitting on the windowsill of the living room to look at the stars.

Chen's father leaned on the sofa and stared at the ceiling in a daze.

After a long time, Chen Yi heard sobbing.

On Chen's father's face, which was shrouded in the dark night, the face that was still not old until his forties.

Tears are everywhere at this moment.

This was the first time in Chen Yi's memory that she saw Chen's father crying. She was inexplicably touched and walked closer to sit down.

The silence in the living room was as dark as the night outside. Chen's father burst into tears, but there was no sound and he would not wipe it.

"Chen Yi, you are old, and you may know some things. I was assigned to this from the army alone. When I first came here in 1980, I had a small salary and my family was old. My mother's stupid brother also needed money to take care of it. At that time, when I was thirsty at the construction site, I never wanted to buy soda and drink it. I just found a water pipe to fill it with it. In order to save money, I also wanted to vomit. I didn't eat it and didn't have the energy to work. I ate raw chili rice. After eating, my stomach hurts after eating it, and I have to go to the construction site."

Tears may play a role in conveying mood. These experiences that have clearly heard of have made Chen Yi feel uncomfortable at this moment.

"It was not until 1987 that we were assigned to our current unit, and the situation was better. At that time, I took you over to school first. You also know that money was still tight at that time, and I didn't have the money to buy you fruits. As a man, he had to take care of his family when he got married. It was nothing to suffer. In 1990, he finally got all your household registration and became financially prosperous. At that time, I worked alone here, and said that you might not understand now. I was really sad. I couldn't even find anyone to talk when I got home for a day."

Chen Yi did not understand very well, but he felt that the woman was indeed not a good person, and he felt that no reason could be covered up. He wanted to ask Chen's father, why could he survive the suffering at the beginning, why could not be done with this matter? But he did not ask, because he knew that Chen's father just needed to talk, just like Chen's mother talked about him every time she quarreled with Chen's father.

"In such a place, it is normal for your mother to find a woman, and every man will. I can't imagine that I'm sick, at least I'm a man with a family, right? When your mother comes, I called Xiao X away. I never thought that because of other women, even if she has been making noise in the past few years, it's annoying that I'm considering that you two young people cannot have a mother."

Chen Yi disagrees at least.

At least there is no standard, at least there will be at least thereafter, and at least there will be at least thereafter. At least the standard can be infinitely low.

At least Chen’s father’s sadness that had been touched disappeared without a trace, perhaps just because Chen’s father’s sadness has faded from the beginning of saying at least two words.

But he said nothing.

I have heard too many quarrels between Chen’s father and Chen’s mother.

When Chen's mother said that so many people would go home to work with their wife and children every day after work, Chen's father said that so many people didn't even care about their living expenses at home and only paid attention to eating, drinking and having fun every day.

The right or wrong of this dispute is determined by subjective understanding. Objective conditions and facts are ignored and no dispute will result in a result.

Chen Yi has read Sun Tzu's Art of War and believes that this is a verbal way to avoid the real and attack the weak, and to use one's own strengths to attack the other's weaknesses. Everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. This comparison and "at least" have become an infinite number of things that cannot be distinguished, because both sides are not in a head-on decisive battle, and always compete with different angles.

As he listened, he gradually became distracted and began to daze unconsciously. Chen's father didn't notice it and still talked endlessly. Chen Yi always looked like that, and daze was difficult to detect.

...

On the second day of August 15, he came to the library with anticipation. From waiting in the morning to noon, he went from anxiety to disappointment.

Just when he was about to despair, the girl finally came. She still had her hair yesterday, but her hair accessories changed slightly. She was a pink dress yesterday, and today she was as white as snow.

Chen Yi noticed strangely that the girl was still walking on the bookshelf shelves she had read yesterday, and the last ones she picked out were the books she had yesterday.

Her memory seems to be bad, and she still searched a lot today before finding the books yesterday.

Chen Yi was very nervous. Last night he made a secret decision that if the girl came today, he must be brave enough to get to know her. Now he still wants to do this. After experiencing the disappointment in the morning and noon, he feels that he must do this. He can no longer place the opportunity until tomorrow. Maybe this is the last chance.

But he was too nervous. An hour passed and he had not yet saved enough courage. The girl was too beautiful, and she was extraordinary, giving people a sense of solemnity and nobility, and then making people feel unattainable. Although she wanted to get close, she naturally felt inferior and subconsciously denied the possibility of closeness turning into reality.

‘You can’t hesitate anymore. There is nothing scary. The fear of the pistol can overcome this. At worst, you can be rejected. You will never regret it if you try it. You can’t even be inferior to the female squad leader!’

Finally, when he breathed calmly and nervously, he walked straight to the opposite side of the girl. Regarding his arrival, the girl raised her head and smiled, and then lowered her head to read on her own. Chen Yi kept staring at her, writing on the piece of paper with a pen in her hand. She felt that he was a little different from yesterday, and she couldn't imagine what it was. She seemed to be cold and gloomy yesterday, but today she seemed much simpler and more beautiful.

"This is my name and the phone number at home." Chen Yi suppressed his nervousness and slowly pushed the paper into front of the girl. The girl was stunned and stared at the paper for a moment, looking up. Chen Yi subconsciously wanted to escape from the sight of each other, but forced herself to cheer herself up. "There is nothing scary, you can't just look at it secretly."

Facing the girl's gaze, he remained silent.

"I heard someone talk about something that strangers want to know, but how old are you?" The girl's tone was filled with incredible surprise.

"The birthday of July 18th, 1982." At this time, Chen Yi suddenly became less nervous. Such a thing is probably the most difficult step to take.

The girl stared at him and thought quietly for a moment, pressing the piece of paper gently, as if she was about to push back and refuse.

"If I don't take this step today, I may regret it for the rest of my life; if I take this step, if I can't attract you to get closer to me, you may not regret it, but I will definitely not regret it." Chen Yi didn't know how he said such words, and at this time he didn't have time to figure out if he had seen it.

The girl stopped pushing the paper and stared at him quietly for a moment, then suddenly smiled. "As long as you take this step, you will definitely not regret even if you are rejected?"

"Yes, I'm sure."

"I don't believe it, so I'm more determined." The girl stopped and pushed faster, and the paper rolled in front of Chen Yi. The silent frustration spread across his body and mind, but he refused to show it on his face. He clearly felt so depressed that he had nothing to think about, and he could only rush to escape quickly, but he said something he would never imagine.

"Will you come tomorrow?"

The girl lowered her face and even seemed unwilling to raise her head.

"You have already taken this step. Since you are sure that you will not regret it again, why do you still ask this question?"

"I just worry that goodbye will make me impulsively lower my eyebrows. If you are still here tomorrow, I won't come."

"I'll come tomorrow, or today's time, I hope you won't have any more problems."

Chen Yi was gone, and got up and left to read. Although she knew it was impossible to read, she was unwilling to leave just like this. Although she was eager to look at the girl again, she suppressed this hope. The frustration of being rejected was no big deal. If he slapped himself, he could almost imagine the contempt and contempt of the other party, that would be the real shame.

He made up his mind, no matter how he thought of saying those words just now, since he said it, he could not slap himself in the face!

The girl sat from one o'clock to five o'clock, got up and left.

Chen Yi knew that it would be a farewell from now on, and she could hardly suppress the urge to look at it a few more times until the girl's back disappeared and he finally didn't look at her.

'You probably won't regret it, but I must not regret it either. I took that step. Since you can't get your willing response, since the flowing water is ruthless, I can't be the falling flowers willing to banish the ends of the world with the flowing water."

...

"...You are still young after all, and you can't understand much about these things, and you can't even understand my mood and feelings. Forget it, go to bed quickly. It's so late, and you have to go to school tomorrow."

Chen Yi was beaten back to reality, and was confused for three seconds before she realized that she was stunned and was having a strange daydream just now.

Chen's father had not planned to go back to the room, so he still sat on his back with his sofa lying on his back and stared at the ceiling.
Chapter completed!