She is not afraid of waiting until there is no time to return, nor is she afraid of facing death, but she is afraid that she will miss her entire life by hastily changing her body when she was young.

"I'm sorry." Time and space seemed to be silent for a moment, and Yin Baishuang suddenly spoke quietly.

Balian was stunned for a moment, then seemed to understand what she meant, and said with a wry smile: "I am the one who should say I'm sorry, because I made you wait for me for two hundred years in vain."

Yin Baishuang's fingers on his waist trembled slightly, her forehead pressed against his back, her eyes were slightly red: "If I hadn't gone to Nanze Mountain to say those words to you, you wouldn't have..."

"Xiaoshuang." Balian interrupted her gently and gently, and said seriously: "This is not your fault, all this comes from my cowardice and unbearability."

Yin Baishuang pursed her lips and asked softly: "If you had known back then, I would have waited for you for two hundred years, or even if I had not waited for you for two hundred years, I would have kept waiting. Would you still have made that choice?"

Baili Anjing was silent for a moment and said, "No."

Yin Baishuang smiled sadly, and her eyes suddenly became astringent: "You don't seem to realize how much I like you."

Balian: "..."

Yin Baishuang's fingertips on his waist dug into his skin slightly, and her body finally began to tremble uncontrollably.

"Just now you asked me what I was thinking about when I was preparing to jump off the abyss, and I said I was thinking about you.

But Xiao An, I don’t understand, when you drew your sword and killed yourself on Nanze Mountain two hundred years ago, did you think of me?"

She asked softly, her smile becoming more and more bitter: "You seem to have never thought from the beginning that after you die, I will be able to wait for someone for hundreds of thousands of years, or even a lifetime.

Maybe you just think that I am the fairy lady of Cangwu Palace, with golden branches and jade leaves, and that brief encounter when we were young was just the beginning of love and the budding youth of youth.

You feel that you have passed through my heart, but you are just passing by. After all, it is easy to fall in love at first sight, but it is rare to be with me for a long time to come.

You must have been thinking about me at the moment you died, one day in the future, instead of crying when you couldn't get it at first, you gradually became calmer and began to accept that the lovely things in life are unavailable, right?

?”

Balian didn't speak.

Yin Baishuang's pair of apricot eyes that were once as bright as Shun Hua were stained with moisture, and the crystal liquid rolled down like beads, sliding down from her face as beautiful as mist.

"But you don't know that you are so important in my heart and have become the only unbreakable knot in my life.

We had a surprise meeting when I was sixteen. What I know is... I used a little trick. If I hadn't taken the initiative to express my feelings and forced you to speak, maybe even you yourself wouldn't have known that you liked me.

But I also know that your liking is different from mine, right?"

Hearing this, Balian's eyes flashed twice, she held the hand on his waist, and gently and powerfully wrapped her little hand tightly under his palm.

He said softly: "When I was very young, I heard many people say that I was born with high hopes for all sentient beings. I am a symbol of the long-lasting peace between Zhongyou and Tianxi. In this entire world and all over the world, I will never be the same again."

I can't find anyone with a more noble status than me.

Everyone in the world says that I should inherit my father's legacy and carry forward Tianxi Sword Technique. Hundreds of immortal sects will envy me, and those from the same sect and generation will be jealous of me.

It was not until later that they discovered that I was just a mediocre person, and their envy and jealousy doubled into ridicule and gloating, with everyone secretly wanting to step on me.

My father wanted me to be successful, so he trapped me in that small bamboo-fenced courtyard in the name of love, leaving me in the cold in a desolate house.

My mother hoped that I would be safe and happy. He said that a loving mother would often fail, and even limited the number of times my mother could visit me.

In my memory, my childhood was filled with boring books.

I cannot show too much love for other things, because in this way, my father will be sure that I will become bored with things and destroy the things I love without any threat.

Before I came down from the mountain at the age of fifteen, I had never had a moment of indulgence. My whole life seemed to be trapped in a cage.

Looking through my past life, in my memory, I can't remember whether my father ever smiled at me, let alone when I started to get used to a person and slowly no longer need him.

And in my father's eyes, I gradually no longer see any warmth. He needs a perfect son to inherit his great legacy of swordsmanship, but I am obviously not perfect, or even ordinary, useless and disappointing.

So slowly, when he looked at me, he no longer seemed to be looking at his own child, but as if he was looking at an object, a bad stone that exhausted all his patience but had to continue polishing.

Whatever shape he wants me to take, I should grow into that shape according to his wishes.

If there is even the slightest difference from what he expected, I will use a file to cut off the 'crooked' part of myself before he notices it, and restore the neat appearance in his mind."

"I thought this was how my life should be, but it wasn't until I met you later that I realized there was another way to live in this world.

It's like I walked a long way through the night to see you and walk towards you. It's like a beautiful process of running from darkness to light.

Xiaoshuang, you are right, my liking is different from yours, my feelings are far less pure, simple and direct than yours."

"Perhaps while I like you, I also regard you as driftwood and a warm straw in my life.

I am attached to you, and regard this attachment as a kind of support and parasitism, so that even I myself have not noticed it.

In this relationship, I am weak and incompetent, and I even hope that you can come and save me."

Yin Baishuang lowered her eyes for a moment, and when she raised her eyes again, the mist in her eyes had not dissipated, but her face was smoother and clearer, and her bright eyes seemed to contain a layer of light.

She said: "I must be terminally ill. When I saw you in that small temple having an attack of Wan Ming Dan, I felt that I couldn't leave you alone.

This chapter is not finished yet, please click the next page to continue reading the exciting content! From that moment on, I had the desire to grasp the vastness of this life, and I must give you a sky full of stars. So no matter when, you need me to save you

You, I will definitely come."

"You don't know how much I like you. I don't blame you, but I want to tell you now..."

Yin Baishuang placed her chin between his shoulders and neck, and leaned close to him, her chest pressed against Bai Lian's back, squeezing against him shyly.

Across his chest, there was a clear beating and vibration sound from a calm and blazing heart.

Every stroke seemed to want to melt into his bones and blood, making him aware of the pain and coldness deep in his soul.

"This heart cannot be easily provoked, because once it is handed over and yearned for you, it will no longer be mine.

I can afford it, but I can't take it back. If you give it up, I can only guard this feeling miserably. My heart is not big, and I can only love one person in my life."

"Two hundred years ago, my encounter with you was destined to be an endless fireworks, fleeting, but what I want to say is, thanks to your appearance, I will be happy for many years."

It's like that year comes again.

The flowing water ruffles the clothes, and the shadows are still reflected.

The sky and the earth are vast, and all living beings are vast. In this great world of Nine Burns, a girl said that she would give her a sky full of stars.

What Balian said is right, she is a warm straw and a burning torch.

It illuminated a path for him in the endless darkness, which he will never forget.

After a thrilling confession, Yin Baishuang did not feel relaxed, but instead became more aggrieved and heartbroken.

"I have always believed that if we can meet each other in front of the mountain, we will definitely meet again behind the mountain.

It’s true that you like me, but it’s also true that you don’t understand me. It’s true that I like you, but it’s also true that I don’t understand you.

The time we have known each other has been too short. If we really count, we have known each other for less than seven days.

But you have been with that lunatic Su Jing day and night for two whole years.

So you see, two hundred years later, your appearance has changed so much that I can't even recognize you, but she can recognize you at a glance and keep me in the dark. It's so miserable!"

Balian laughed out loud and couldn't help but tilt his head and rub her forehead with his cheek: "Speaking of which, when we first met in Kongcang Mountain, you stabbed me?"

He joked: "Is it possible that you really don't like this skin, and you prefer the original one?"

Yin Baishuang said: "It's not that you have a look that I like, but I like all your looks. However, after being troubled by Ying Xiu for two hundred years, your handsome and beautiful eyebrows are really not that big now that I think about it.

I miss it so much.

When I stabbed you at Kongcang Mountain, thinking back on it now makes me feel really uncomfortable.

Later, I was desperately wary of you, and I did not hesitate to compromise for fear that you would take Shou away from me. I was really stupid. Shou was originally yours, and it is so close to you. Why couldn't I have thought of it."

Baili listened quietly to her words and said softly: "It's not that I can't think of it, but that I don't dare to think about it. I'm afraid that my joy will be empty, and I'm afraid that my old friend's heart will be too much, and it will be empty in the blink of an eye."

But the fact is that the two of them crossed the ark because they were old friends.

The mist in Yin Baishuang's eyes was like a wrinkled clear lake.

She laughed, the ends of her eyes slowly raised, and her whole body became energetic again, just like the beautiful appearance she had when they first met.

The girl, whose face and eyes were as beautiful as before, said to him: "This is the first time we met, let's get to know each other, Cangwu Palace, Yin Baishuang. I will only tell the friends I recognize this name. The young lady was so happy that the man was born so handsome.

Sir, you can just call me Xiaoshuang."

Seeing her smile, Bailian couldn't help but laugh too: "I first met you when I was in the imperial court of Zhongyou Dynasty Bailian, whose name is Zangjian. It is a blessing in my life to be able to meet the girl and not be my friend. I wish I could play drums and drums."

The harp is a perfect match for music. I have wine to drink with the heart of a happy guest."

Yin Baishuang hugged him gently: "Now, we have gotten to know each other again. I don't blame you if you don't understand me. I have always been very patient and I will teach you slowly."

It only takes a moment to like someone, but it is not easy to fully understand someone's heart.

Just like how could Balian know that she was the stubborn and bright girl who was as blazing as the sun?

One day, I will end up being drunk all day long, dreaming about the old person before I die.

If it hadn't been for the arrangement of time, how would Yin Baishuang know that such a meek and unyielding young man in her memory could deeply carry out his determination to die rather than live in ruins?

The sky and the earth were filled with fire, and those long-lasting memories that had been sealed in the heart seemed to be carefully treasured by the two of them at this moment, tacitly and tacitly.

Hearing about the past again feels like a wind has passed through my heart, and I am suddenly open-minded and indifferent.

Just because both of them know that we are not as young as before, and it is not up to you and me to get together and separate.

Destinations come and go, and the horoscope becomes tangled up into a mess, which has long been difficult to sort out.
To be continued...