Two days have passed, but I still can't let it go.

In the past two days, I have never left my room for a single step, and even the food was almost always brought to me by Xia Wanyu or my cousin.

I could feel that my whole body seemed to have changed, and I also understood very well that such changes were very bad and unfavorable to me. But even if I understand this truth, I could not get out of the deep sadness in my heart.

I think no one is more sad than me at this moment, right? I am a sad person.

For the sake of my own child, I stabbed the knife into the belly of my beloved woman with my own hands. I had no idea why I did this at that time.

Now that Jiang Qingqing hates me, that's sure. Jiang Qingqing was stabbed by me for no reason. It would be strange if she didn't hate me.

But thinking about the situation at that time, what else can I do besides doing this? Even if I was awake, if I didn’t take action against Jiang Qingqing, would the Jiang family return the child to me?

I'm afraid not?

Do I want to give up my own biological daughter for the sake of Jiang Qingqing?

This was originally a difficult multiple-choice question, and my irrationality made me choose my daughter, which hurt Jiang Qingqing.

There is no answer to whether such a choice is right or wrong, and I can't think of an answer.

No matter whether this choice is right or wrong, I am really deeply in deep guilt and can't extricate myself.

I am also very afraid to face others now. I am afraid of seeing the look at me from my cousin, Xia Wanyu and others. Do they feel that I have become a demon now? Are they afraid of me when dealing with women I love so much?

After having such a thing, all the negative emotions appeared in my mind and were lingering, and they were about to drive me crazy.

I have thought countless times about what this result was, but after thinking about it, it seems that no one can blame this matter, and if you want to blame it, you can only blame me.

If I could return to the Demon City earlier, wouldn’t all this be born?

Thinking that when Jiang Qingqing sees me again in the future, her face may be filled with various hatred, and I feel pain in my heart as if it is cut by a knife.

Although Jiang Qingqing had been treating me in this state before, although I was angry at that time, I did not feel as painful as I am now.

Because at that time I always felt that Jiang Qingqing was sorry for me. Some of the things I did made me feel that this is the right thing to do. It is normal for Jiang Qingqing to have such an emotion.

But now I hurt Jiang Qingqing, and Jiang Qingqing did nothing and got involved in this matter. I even said it well before, I won’t hurt Jiang Qingqing.

However, I still forgot what I said. Jiang Qingqing was still hurt by me, and in a very cruel way.

This made me feel even more guilty. I couldn't imagine what life would be like in the future. I only felt that I had lost something, the most important thing in my heart.

Looking at the prosperity of the city outside the window, I had no expression on my face sitting on the windowsill. Maybe I don’t have the strength to make other expressions now, right?

This time I took action against Jiang Qingqing. I knew she was the most unforgettable woman in my heart, but I still took action and I hurt her.

So will I treat Xia Wanyu, Wu Wu, and my cousin the future as well?

Whenever I think of this, I feel inexplicable panic in my heart. I even feel that I have become a scourge now, and it is possible to explode and hurt the scourge of the people I am closest to.

If it weren't for me, Jiang Qingqing wouldn't have been hurt. Without me, my daughter Xiaoyu wouldn't even fall into the hands of the Jiang family.

Isn't this a disaster for me?

I know how terrifying my idea is, but the more I think this way, the more I feel that my idea is very correct. This is the most terrifying thing.

I reacted and slapped the back of my head hard.

What happened to me? I am already in this state now. What will happen to me in the future? At the slaughter of others?

There was a sound of opening the door, and I turned around and found that my cousin walked in with a bowl.

My cousin looked at me, put the porridge in her hand on the osmanthus on the bedside, and came to me to sit down.

"What are you thinking?" asked my cousin.

I looked at my cousin in surprise. Every time I came to deliver food to me these two days, I wouldn't talk to me. I guess my cousin also wanted me to think about it alone, right?

Now my cousin wants to talk to me. Is my cousin going to enlighten me?

"I didn't think of anything." I said, maybe because I haven't said a word for several days, my voice was very strange at this time, and there was a bit of a mechanical sound in the hoarseness.

"You have been thinking about some questions these days." My cousin smiled and said.

"Actually, it's useless to think about it. Things have already happened, and... you didn't know what you were doing at that time, so it's not your fault."

I shook my head in pain, stretched out my hand and grabbed my already messy head.

"How can I not blame this? I did this. Even if I lost consciousness at that time, can this deny the fact that I hurt Jiang Qingqing?" I looked out the window and spoke.

When talking about this incident again, my heart still felt so painful that I couldn't stand it.

"That's nothing to do." My cousin sighed slightly.

"At that time, there was no way for Xiaoyu. Even if you were awake, if you didn't do that, Xiaoyu would be given a crazy Jiang family... In short, don't blame yourself for what you did, because it is useless to blame yourself."

I glanced at my cousin blankly. What my cousin said to me was the same as what Master Ku said to me. At that time, Master Ku reminded me like this before I did that thing, and now my cousin said the same thing. Can't I really feel guilty for the wrong things I have done?

"It's impossible for me not to blame myself." I grabbed my head again.
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