Chapter 40 Doomsday (1)
The eighth year of Shunzhi.
A new tombstone was erected outside the wilderness. There was no word on the monument, and it seemed particularly lonely among the green mountains and blue fields. It was said that life was like this, and it came quietly and would eventually leave lonely.
A young man in white stood in front of the tombstone for a long time and almost became a clay sculpture. His voice was as light as a breeze, and it disappeared between heaven and earth in a blink of an eye. Perhaps there was still a lonely ghost passing by that and heard him say, "Yun'er, I once advised you in every way, but you never wanted to see you take this step today. But you never refused to listen to my advice, and finally fell into this situation... Well, only you are qualified to control your choices. It will be useless for others to worry too much. Maybe this is the destined destiny."
There was a sudden "sand" sound in the grass behind it, and it seemed that the wind was also weeping for the unknown woman in the grave. The boy ignored it and knelt down on his own, put the bundles of white flowers in his hand tightly in front of the tombstone, murmured softly, as if he was talking to himself, and as if he was whispering in a low voice, saying, "However, life may not be a blessing, and death may not be a misfortune. When you are alive, you are always troubled by the obsession with revenge, and are deeply involved in the palace struggles. You have never enjoyed a real day.
Happiness. Now that you have arrived in another world, you can finally get the freedom you are pursuing. I think that when you go there, you will never have any pain or troubles and are truly liberated. I wish you blessing you. You will be happier at that time than before. If you have not seen you for the last time, then now I will tell you in person that I have never blamed you. All kinds of life experiences will be rare experiences and precious wealth. Since it is given by you, I will cherish it forever.
I don't know what kind of person can be considered the final winner. A few days ago, Prince Cheng led his troops to quell the war. The emperor imprisoned Prince Ying, and thought that he would be punished for the death penalty. After the funeral period of the Regent, the rest of the rebel leaders who confiscated the houses and those who were exiled the army on that day were exiled. The empress dowager was too tired and did not want to interfere in the palace affairs too much. He finally had the ability to rule and reach the peak of truly supreme power. On the surface, he had won a great victory, but he was not happy. Although he took Dong E back to the palace and restored his title, he often rested in her bedroom. On the surface, the two of them were so good that they were so happy that they were so sweet that they were mixed with oil.
, but only those who were insiders at that time understood that Dong Efei was just your substitute. I know that the emperor would always have your place in his heart, which no one could replace. I don’t know how to define a person’s life and death. For example, it depends on his own consciousness, and how to explain the formation of the soul? If he can always have a place in the thoughts of another person, does it mean that his existence has never disappeared? The emperor and Dong Efei were laughing, but he was really unhappy. Whether he was happy or not was not determined by simple crying and laughing, right?
There is no absolute win or loss in the world, perhaps because it does not have a single judging standard like a chess game. Perhaps in the eyes of the bystander, someone has nothing, but in his own eyes, he is the happiest person in the world. I don’t know what to say, the emperor and you are the missed cause and condition in fate. If it weren’t for all these disasters, you might be a very happy couple who can live a harmonious and beautiful life. But if it weren’t for those tests, how could you reflect the preciousness of your feelings? Things in the world always have both positive and negative sides, and how many things can be explained by people?
In a short time, I will leave here. Being an official in the court is not my lifelong ideal. Some ignorant ideas, which have been passed down for thousands of years, cannot be changed by my efforts. If I refuse to follow the times and have to challenge traditions, wouldn’t I also become a pedantic and stubborn person? The knowledge in books cannot bring us all, but my own experience may not be correct. Therefore, I am still far from what you said about knowledge.
Yes, Yun'er, I'm talking to you so much, I'm afraid you'll get bored. I may not be able to see you for a while now. But I will keep you in my heart, that feeling... it's like you're always by my side, very stupid, right? Let's make an agreement, and when we meet again, we'll live happier than we are now."
The young man finished a series of wild narratives, straightened his legs, stood up. The soft look on his face was quickly replaced by indifference, and said lightly: "You are here to pay tribute to the dead, right? Why don't you come out? This shouldn't be something shameful."
There was another rustling sound from the grass that was exactly the same as before. A girl in green walked out with a smile and said, "Oh. Your ears are still so sensitive. It's a pity that you don't practice martial arts."
The young man smiled faintly and said, "I don't have this ambition. What's more, no matter how high my martial arts are, what can I do? It's just used to fight and kill, and you can win a move and half a stance. After learning martial arts, you have too many things to do. When you don't have a reputation, you will either bully others or come to ask for advice. Being a master is destined to never have peace of mind. In fact, what's the great thing about the reputation of the world? The level of martial arts is constantly evolving every day, so what?
Can you really set up a list of unchanging? People today are too impetuous and have long distorted their original intention of learning martial arts. Strengthening the body is not enough. They still want to compete with others and taste the pleasure of victory. This is fine, but the saddest thing is to use martial arts and bully people with power. Why don’t you think that what you can do, others can do it, and maybe it’s better than you. A sword holder will die under the sword. Even if you practice martial arts at once, there will be heaven outside the sky and people outside the sky, sooner or later, someone with higher martial arts will come to deal with him."
The girl pouted and said, "No, I know he is a real master, and no one can defeat him. OK, okay, you idiot, I just said one thing, you ran out of this big call, don't put on your husband's airs at any time! Hello, isn't there any news about Xuanshuang recently?"
The young man shook his head and said, "The Emperor is also looking for him. But you know that the world is great. If a person is determined to hide, he will be able to find a needle in a haystack, no matter how high the power is, he will never be able to cast a net. Xuanshuang, a child, has a strong self-esteem, which is both his advantage and his disadvantage. He once made such a great vow in front of the emperor, but I am afraid that he will not return to the palace until he achieves some achievements."
Regardless of the girl's worrying expression, he continued: "Actually, this is good. Sometimes people cannot grow up because they rely too much on external support. Only by learning to face difficulties by themselves and trying to solve them can they grow up. Let him calm down for a while, and only by looking at some problems that he can't understand can he look at and have a new understanding and cognition. If he succeeds, he will be reborn when he comes back. If he can't pass this level, he can only stay in place. However... Xuanshuang was such an outstanding child in the palace before, and I think he will not be able to overcome this challenge."
The girl sighed and said, "Although he was not spoiled since childhood, he grew up with a golden spoon in his mouth. Now he is alone outside, I'm worried..." The boy smiled and said, "He is the deputy leader of the Demon Cult. Instead of worrying about others bullying him, it's better to worry about him bullying others!" He seemed to be unable to bear to see the girl frowning, pointing to the tombstone and said, "This child is still a bit filial. Look, he actually came to worship him."
The girl exclaimed, and looked at the tombstone for a while, but still couldn't figure it out at all, and said, "How can I see it?" The young man said, "Concubine Yun was buried a month ago, but now it is still bare and there are no weeds in front of the tombstone. Don't you think it's strange? I guess it was Xuan Shuang who came to worship, and she was also responsible for her self-esteem, and she didn't want to show that he had been here. She didn't put some bouquets like ordinary people, but she did the opposite and pulled out all the weeds in front of the tombstone."
The girl laughed and said, "So that's it. It's indeed Xuanshuang's style! I don't know if the weeds in his heart can be pulled out again?" The boy glanced at her and said, "Don't just talk about others, have the weeds in your heart been pulled out?"
The girl was slightly stunned and looked up at the sky. It seemed that the topic shocked her heart. Her voice was as gentle as a breeze floating in the forest. She said, "Me? What else do I have... This month, I have lived in Yuelai Inn in the east of the city. If I were to say that in the past, I really didn't like to do things for my adoptive father and Concubine Yun, but when I saw them with my own eyes... I felt very sad. I would rather return to my previous situation in the cracks, and even don't know where this inexplicable sympathy came from. Perhaps human inertia is indeed so strong. Everyone has a special feeling for what he once had and then lost. Therefore, even though I finally got the freedom I wanted, I always felt strange and had never hoped for it at all... or the feeling that I finally dreamed of came true." The young man snorted, obviously not satisfied with her answer.
The girl sighed softly, and raised the topic hard, saying, "My brother is determined to pursue his career and promotion. Now... he finally makes him happy. He made great contributions because of his last rescue, and now he is a celebrity in front of the emperor. I heard that this time he subdued Prince Ying's rebellion, his contributions are indispensable. But it is conceivable that he must have neglected his sister-in-law again. Alas, everything has advantages and disadvantages. This time, my distance from him is getting farther and farther away. I am no longer the adopted daughter of the Regent, nor do I know that he is still impatient with a young civilian girl continuing to catch up with him."
The young man snorted and said, "Okay, you know what I'm asking! You're shirking your responsibilities, but when do you want to escape? Have you really let go? Why don't you even dare to face your true thoughts?"
The girl was suddenly exposed by him, and her face looked a little embarrassed, and she said, "It's not that she dared not face it, but... I know I will never give up! I still think about him and love him. As long as I am still alive for one day, I will love him forever. But these words will make you unhappy, and you will not understand, so I simply don't say it. But why can't I choose to let go? Can't I finally discover my goodness through continuous efforts and fall in love with me?"
The young man said, "You are too worried. I am not someone of you, why are you unhappy? Why do you interfere with your decision? You don't have to hide it just to care about my feelings."
Chapter completed!