"At the beginning, my first reaction was to seal them and stop touching them." Feila sighed and said, "But those are not machinery and matter, those are knowledge, the knowledge hidden in the brain, not that you can do it just by putting them aside. I can control myself not to use them, but every minute, every second, even when dreaming, my consciousness is filled with these known and unknown things, and new ideas emerge from my mind every day. You can't imagine that as a wizard scholar, facing a topic that has broken through the most critical difficulties and can obtain the final result at any time, but having to give up for various reasons is simply the most terrible torment from the depths of the soul."

"Should I say it's good that I'm not a mage?" Panis really couldn't understand the pain described by Fella, but if I think about it from another perspective, if I could not interfere with the injustice and evil, but for various reasons, I could only watch it, that kind of anger was indeed emitted from the depths of my soul. For this empathy from another perspective, Panis could only smile bitterly: "So, in the end you still couldn't hold it back?"

"It's not a problem that I can't help but cannot help." Feila shook her head and said, "Every day I think about this directness. As a result, I found that although I can control myself not to conduct experiments, after I fell asleep at night, in my dreams, I would uncontrollably study the knowledge I insisted on not touching during the day. So, instead of wasting more time in the dream but not getting any results, it would be better to just unseal and start researching directly when I was awake."

"Actually, you just need not use those expensive magic." Panis said: "Why do you have to use the way of splitting time to increase your consumption?"

"I am using this to peek at the rules of time, and I have made a breakthrough, so how can I not study it?" Feila shook her head and said, "And these studies all require experiments, and the object of the experiment is myself, so even if I intentionally control it, the aging speed is amazingly fast. Fortunately, the efforts still pay off. About ten years later, ninety years ago, I got another breakthrough, and I can split my time into three different timelines and make the three lines

I appeared in the same world. Although I was less than sixty years old at that time, I looked no different from a 10-year-old man. I was lucky. Before I died, research made new progress, but I was also unfortunate because I found that when I split my time a little bit, the price was not the double time I imagined, but the consumption was more than ten times. If it was two to one in the past, now it has exceeded twenty to one, and sometimes more."

"But overall, I am still very happy because in my lifetime, I was one step closer to the secret of time. Even if I was aging countless times faster than before, I still felt it was worth it." Feila seemed to be trapped in memory, and her originally calm voice became low: "But, not long after, I had to terminate my experiment."

"Because you are sick?" Panis asked tentatively: "I remember you said just now that if you get old, you will see your state in between. You probably knew it from then on."

"Yes, I only knew it from that time." Feila said with a cold smile: "The movements are getting slower and slower, and the limbs are trembling violently involuntarily. The viewing is getting blurry, and even the voices of speech sometimes become vague and unaware, unable to walk by himself, unable to eat by himself, let alone conduct some precise experiments. I only knew that I thought I could see a lot of things thoroughly, but in fact it was just an illusion, and I was thinking wrong about many things. For example, I thought that in order to pursue knowledge and truth, I could face death without fear. This is actually nothing wrong, but I was wrong that I didn't know at all. There are too many things that are far more terrifying than death and far more unbearable than death."

"We are people from the same era, Kyle." Feila paused for a moment, calmed down a little before continuing: "However, the forced reversal of the curse of death before her death made you unable to understand these greater horrors. You will not understand the meaning of aging, nor can you understand the pain of disease. These are actually second-hand. The most unbearable thing is that you see that the rules of time are already looming in front of you, but you can no longer move forward to this last one.

One step. You cannot understand this kind of unwillingness and despair that you have never experienced. If Christo is still alive, he must be very clear about what I am saying. The most reasonable sentence of the lion Dilly once said is that as long as you have heard the truth during the day, it is worth it even if you die at night. I agree with this sentence very much, and it simply expresses the voice of all the wizards and scholars. But if you look at it from the opposite side, you will know that you can see the truth at night, but you will die in the daytime, haha..."

Panis twitched, not knowing what to make for the comments. He could not agree with what his old friend did to plunder others to meet his needs. Both sides knew the purpose of his visit today, just to draw a termination sign for this matter. However, as Phella told him little by little about what happened in the past, he felt more and more helpless. It is undeniable that these things are absolutely wrong, but if it were him, watching himself lying on the bed day by day, the truth he pursued for his life was right in front of him, but he could only look at the truth from afar and die step by step, could he really resist the temptation? In the last battle that year, wasn't he defeated in front of death?

"Look, you hesitate too." Feila blew the heat coming out of the teacup and said lightly: "This is indeed a question that is difficult to answer correctly, right?"

"Indeed." Panis took a deep breath, stared at Fera's eyes and said, "But, although I don't know what the answer is correct, I can be sure that your method is wrong."
Chapter completed!