Chapter 20 The Secret in Heart

When the genius was dawn, Xiao Xia suddenly woke up because she suddenly felt empty, and it seemed that Ruan Zhan had left again.

When he opened his eyes, he saw that he was empty beside him. Apart from the messy bed sheets, his body temperature and smell did not remain. Xiao Xia burst into tears in an instant, put on a piece of clothing and ran downstairs to see, but before he could reach the bottom of the stairs, he saw that the entire bar was empty and there was not even a shadow.

Has he left again? Are he going to give up on her again? When she just hints at him, he stayed away. Now that she has such an intimate relationship with him, will she lose him forever? Thinking that she might never see him again, Xiao Xia heard her heartbreaking voice.

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But is the heartbreaking voice so loud? This is too exaggerated!

Xiao Xia looked in the sound in a vague sense, but happened to see the door of the bar open. The man who had left forever in her consciousness appeared there and looked at her in astonishment.

"Xiaoxia, why are you standing here? Go upstairs, you will catch a cold!" Ruan Zhan hurriedly closed the door, blocked the cold wind outside the door, walked to the stairs in two steps, and hugged her horizontally in his arms. He didn't know how long she had been standing, but he saw that she was only wearing his shirt, barefoot and legs, and it would be frozen if she continued like this.

"I thought you disappeared again." After crawling into the warm quilt, Xiao Xia's fear and anxiety continued to diminish. Although she loosened Ruan Zhan's neck, she pulled his clothes instead, which made Ruan Zhan sit by the bed. He was covered with the cold outside, but hugging him made her warm to her heart.

Looking at her hidden tears, his heart was filled with indescribable tenderness, "I won't disappear, but you will definitely regret it."

"I don't regret it."

Ruan Zhan didn't say anything, but just smiled bitterly. He shouldn't have done it last night, but he couldn't control it, and his heart was so hot that he was crazy. It was too late to say anything, so he could only find a way to solve the destined death. Nothing else, just for her!

"I went to buy something." He took out the small box in his pocket. "Now I can't give you a wedding, but I want to marry you as my wife."

Oh, he actually proposed!

Xiao Xia felt confused, then a little ecstatic, and didn't even think about where Ruan Zhan could buy a ring so early. He never expected that he had used Taoism to break into the jewelry store, put down his money, took the ring and left.

She did not hide the happiness in her heart at all, and quickly let go of her hands that had been holding Ruan Zhan's clothes, and raised all ten fingers in front of him, "I promise, I promise, wear the ring quickly!"

Her anxious and serious expression made Ruan Zhan laugh, and the depressed mood in her heart sootheed a little. He was always happy, satisfied, and had a little peace when he was with her, as if she was his home.

He kissed her palm, but did not put the ring on her hand.

"Xiaoxia, I want to tell you something about me, and then you decide whether to accept my proposal." He forced himself to come out of his gentle and affectionate emotions and face the cruelty of reality. "I'm sorry that I can't give you a certain future, because I have a last resort. This is why I can't accept you, not that you are bad. A long time ago - I loved you."

Xiao Xia looked at his face with a little pain, and automatically ignored what he said to him and chose to accept it in his mind. He ignored the "defense" matters completely. He only heard him say that he loved her a long time ago and was so happy that he forgot everything. He loved her! He loved her! He loved her a long time ago! In the heart of a woman in love, as long as her lover loves her, what difficulties can't be solved? If you have a love, drink enough water!

Thinking with a smile, Xiaoxia took the ring by herself and put it in Ruan Zhan's hand. Then, before Ruan Zhan understood what she was going to do, he asked him to put the ring on himself.

"I officially announced that you are mine now! Come and stamp it!" She wrote a loud kiss on Ruan Zhan's lips, and then began to admire the ring on her hand, even ignoring Ruan Zhan's existence.

Ruan Zhan had long experienced her childishness and knew that if she was not stopped, she would be unable to talk. After last night, he could no longer give up on her. The question was whether he had the ability to ask her, so he had to confess everything to her.

"Xiaoxia, listen carefully to me." He pinched her chin and forced her eyes to his eyes. But even facing her like this made his mind almost lose. He quickly calmed down and said seriously: "I'm talking about serious things and our future. You said we're going to face it together, so you have to understand what I'm worried about."

"What's so serious?" Xiao Xia asked when he saw Ruan Zhan's serious look, his intoxicated heart suddenly became a little nervous.

Ruan Zhan opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything for a moment. He closed his inner world for too long, and now he had to stretch his arms to hold her in his arms before he could speak out.

"I-maybe I will do something that endangers my life soon." His words came from Xiao Xia's hair. The sentence itself and his painful voice froze Xiao Xia, but Ruan Zhan hugged her and refused to let her look at his face.

"This thing was destined to do since I was born. I can't escape it, nor can I not do it. This is my destiny. Even if I can resist, I cannot allow myself to do it. Because it is related to my father."

He suddenly couldn't say anything anymore. Xiao Xia gently stroked his back with his hand around his waist and comforted him, "What's the matter? Tell me, what's the matter putting so much pressure on you, tell me, I can share the burden for you, really, I can share the burden."

"My destiny was destined thirty-three years ago. I was born for the day of death."

"Nonsense, people will certainly die when they are born." Xiao Xia patted Ruan Zhan and tried to look relaxed.

"I'm right, but that's a natural thing, unlike me. What do you want me to say? I can only say that I was not born for life, I was born for death. If I were not for the day of the three difficulties, or for the strange celestial phenomena on that day, I would not have been born."

Ruan Zhan wanted to say it calmly, but he couldn't do it. And his words like a tongue twister made Xiao Xia confused for a moment, but she didn't interrupt him and waited for him to continue talking.

"My father - Ruan Tianyi, is a Taoist practitioner, and he has a sincere mind and respects and obsessiveness for Taoism and Taoism. In other words, he is not close to women. In the past, when he appeared in front of me as a foster father, I could understand that his raising me was kind to me. But when I knew that he was my biological father, I always wondered, how could a person like him marry and have children? He could not find a woman because of a moment of impulse. If he had a woman, it must be because he was really moved.

Love. So what kind of person is my mother who can make him emotional and love her so much that she can give birth to a child? Where did my mother go? I died? Or can't stand his indifference? From childhood to adulthood, I didn't find any traces of women around him. This is illogical. Because a man who has touched true love will never endure the pain of lovesickness. I have a deep understanding of this. But when I recalled carefully the more than ten years I lived with him, I really couldn't find any clues."

"Or he put his feelings in his heart and did not show it?"

"No, I know very well that he has never loved any woman in his feelings. But since that's the case, why am I born? Also, why is he pretending to be my adoptive father even though he is obviously my biological father? Why does he die so bizarrely? These things have been pressing on my heart until I went to Jinshi Town to see him this time, and I didn't understand everything." Speaking of this, Ruan Zhan lets go of Xiaoxia, "Look at me, Xiaoxia, the person in front of you now is not regarded as a human being from the moment of birth, but a tool, a tool to stop disaster. Do you understand? I was not born because of my parents' love. I am not even a product of impulse, I am just a tool!"

"Slow down, slow down! I don't understand what you mean!" Xiao Xia was a little surprised, looking at Ruan Zhan's self-denial and self-deprecating expression, and felt particularly distressed.

Ruan Zhan let out a long sigh, as if to express his depression in his heart, "My biological father, Ruan Tianyi, did something thirty-three years ago. This incident caused serious consequences, which were so serious that he could not solve and bear it himself. After this evil result, it would hurt many people, including himself, and the harm was even unimaginable."

"What did he do?"

"He refused to tell me about this!" Ruan Zhan shook his head, "But I can see that it was the thing he did that caused the evil spirits to linger on his body, and this evil spirits would slowly erode into the human body and soul. Thinking of this, his bizarre death may also explain that his body could no longer control his evil spirits. If he did not go into seclusion, the evil spirits would confuse his mind, causing him to hurt others without knowing it, and even cause trouble. He was a Taoist practitioner, and his cultivation was still very deep, and his soul was much stronger than his body, so he pretended to die for more than ten years and lay in the coffin and used the crystal knife to vent his anger. Obviously, he did not succeed, so he broke the coffin with the help of a mysterious man. The question was who was that mysterious man? Also, he said that he didn't know that I was following Sima Nan's guidance at that time, but because even in a state of fake death and seclusion, he could not control himself."

"Is it so powerful?" Xiao Xia didn't know much about Taoism, but looking at Ruan Zhan's expression, he knew that the consequences of Uncle Ruan's actions were indeed quite serious. Before they could be discovered, they had already made him look like this. If he couldn't suppress it, it would be very terrible.

"In his real death, we mistakenly blamed the pair of demon children. My father, after coming out from the ground, wanted to come and see me quietly, but he found that we were worried about the demon children's affairs, so he also went to Xi'an to take a look. But when he pretended to die, he could not control his anger, so how could he withstand the long-distance running and the turbulence of yang energy? There, his anger broke out and had to really abandon his body and become a soul body from a person. The reason why he went to Tietou Mountain in Jinshi Town was to release the evil energy that had plagued half a lifetime."

"Is it still not possible?"

Ruan Zhan shook his head with a wry smile, "It has not improved at all. In fact, it is intensifying every day. I don't know what he did, but the anger is like cancer. He has used various methods to treat it, but it is still spreading. Until - on my thirty-third birthday, midnight that day was the last moment of a kind of exercise he practiced. At this critical moment, his control over the anger will be minimized, and that day is a total lunar eclipse, without the suppression of the essence of the moonlight, all evil and darkness in the world will burst out with the strongest power. Two times, he will become a demon on that day, no longer recognize relatives and friends, and no longer be able to tell good and evil, good and evil. If - he could not find a better way before."

"What method? It's not related to you, right?" As if realizing something, Xiao Xia's face suddenly changed. He grabbed Ruan Zhan's sleeve with both hands. Due to excessive force, his knuckles turned white.

Ruan Zhan looked at her face, feeling tenderness and reluctance in his heart, but he had no choice, "It's me, I'm the solution to the problem, I was born to stop this."

"Is this dangerous?" Xiao Xia asked in a low voice, as if the voice was louder, Ruan Zhan was more dangerous, "You just said it would endanger life-"

"This is my three-dimensional difficulty. When I was very young, I knew that this difficulty would kill my life. Only today I understand why this is for. I want to stop my father from becoming a demon that day, completely eliminate the anger that entangled him and fulfill the mission I was born with. If someone must help me, I would not pay attention to it at all, just keep you. But that is my father. No matter what he gave me life, after all, he gave me life and raised me. At least, I want to repay him, even if I use my life to repay it!" Ruan Zhan gently stroked Xiaoxia's face, his eyes gently as if water dripped out, hiding deep attachment and reluctance, "Wanli and Bao Datong both know this disaster, only you don't know, so I will avoid you. It's not that I don't love you, it's that I can't afford to love. I am not a man with my own life, I am just a tool to eliminate demons and defend the way."

Xiao Xia rushed into Ruan Zhan's arms, "Don't say that to yourself!" She hugged him with all her strength, "No matter what your past is, your present and your future belong to me. As long as I care about you, you are the most important person in the world! Don't you understand? You are more important to me than life, and more precious than everything!"

"I know! I know! With you, my life is enough. Even if I really die here, there is no regret, but what should you do? If I really can't survive this death disaster, Xiao Xia, what should you do?" Ruan Zhan said with heartache.

"I will not commit suicide to commit suicide, otherwise my parents will die of sadness. I will not do such irresponsible things." Xiao Xia let go of his hand and said to Ruan Zhan's eyes, "But I don't allow you to die, because you are mine, I have stamped the seal, you must be with me. If you dare to die, go to the qiongbi and fall into the underworld, I will chase you back, and you must live!"
Chapter completed!