438. Separation, farewell to death(1/2)
At midnight, Tianzhao City was silent.
The subtle sound in the yard made Mu Yan suddenly open her eyes, and she saw Xiao Xinghan awake, and a cold light flashed in her eyes.
"I'll go out and take a look, don't come out." Xiao Xinghan got up, covered Mu Yan with a quilt, and walked out without lighting the lamp.
The night was dark, and Xiao Xinghan opened the door and closed it quickly to prevent the cold wind from blowing in. He turned around and saw a silver thread that was still conspicuous in the night, and his face immediately became dark.
There was a dim lantern hanging under the corridor, with eyes facing each other. Xiao Xinghan looked at Ming Yufeng and said coldly: "What are you here to do?"
"I..." Ming Yufeng still had tears on his face and his eyes were full of sorrow. He knew that he shouldn't have disturbed Xiao Xinghan. He was not qualified to be Xiao Xinghan's father, but he really couldn't control himself. He felt so uncomfortable. He wanted to find someone to tell him, so he came here. He wanted to talk to Xiao Xinghan. No matter what he said, even if he didn't say anything, he would just be able to see Xiao Xinghan, otherwise he would really be unable to hold on. When he learned from Xue Rouer the truth about Ye Ningxiang's departure, his heart was filled with great regret and pain, which made him breathless.
"Leave here immediately!" Xiao Xing said coldly, turning around and going back to the room. Of course he saw Ming Yufeng's strangeness, but he didn't want to know why Ming Yufeng was sad. Whether he was cold-blooded or ruthless, what he could do now was not to hate Ming Yufeng, and he couldn't do anything else.
Ming Yufeng couldn't help but walk forward two steps, and then stopped again. Seeing that Xiao Xinghan was about to enter the door, Ming Yufeng blurted out in a strange way: "Can I want to talk to Ajiu?" Ming Yufeng knew that Xiao Xinghan didn't like him and could not listen to him, so he thought of Mu Yan.
Xiao Xinghan frowned, did not look back, and said three words: "No."
Xiao Xing finished speaking, and Mu Yan, who heard the movement, had already got out of bed and walked in front of him. Mu Yan looked out, shook Xiao Xinghan's hand and said, "You go back to sleep first, I'll talk to him." Mu Yan felt a little strange. Ming Yufeng was not such an impulsive person. He came here in the middle of the night and must have encountered something big.
Xiao Xinghan frowned and looked at Mu Yan, but did not stop him. Instead, he went to take the cloak, put it on Mu Yan, and said to Mu Yan: "Come back early."
Mu Yan nodded slightly, closed the door after going out, looked at Ming Yufeng, then walked towards the pavilion in the yard, and Ming Yufeng followed silently.
The two sat in the pavilion without lighting the lights. The snow around them had not melted yet, and there was still a crescent moon hanging in the sky. The moonlight was as cold as frost, which was enough for them to see each other clearly.
"What you are looking for is not me, but Xiao Xinghan." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said with a faint expression.
"I'm sorry," Ming Yufeng sighed deeply, "I came here to see him, but I actually can't face him now."
"What happened?" Mu Yan felt that Ming Yufeng was covered with huge sadness. She was a little curious about what happened. Ming Yufeng was in a good mood when he secretly escorted Tuoba Yan back today. After all, he had a big grandson who had been picked up for free.
"I'll listen to you and go and ask Xue Rou'er." Ming Yufeng looked at Mu Yan and said, and a light of water flashed in his eyes as soon as he finished speaking.
Mu Yan was stunned for a moment. She told Ming Yufeng that Xue Rouer had a problem, but her intuition was not evidence. But now it seems that her intuition was fulfilled. Xue Rouer must have a problem with what she could make Ming Yufeng like this, and there was a big problem, and it was about Ye Ningxiang.
"You have disturbed my Qingmeng. Now I'm not sleepy anymore. I'm here. Just say whatever you want." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said. Mu Yan was not full of sympathy, but even though Xiao Xinghan still did not recognize Ming Yufeng as his father, objectively speaking, the blood relationship between Ming Yufeng and Xiao Xinghan cannot be erased. The matter has developed to the present, and it is meaningless to simply talk about right and wrong, and insist on distinguishing black and white.
Mu Yan can give Xiao Xinghan enough time to accept and face all this, and resolve the hatred that has been accumulated over the years because of Xiao Xuan's death. But Mu Yan himself will choose to look forward. Since they are no longer enemies with Ming Yufeng, they can only be friends. Even for the benefit and future of Shentiao City, Mu Yan will not push Ming Yufeng away.
Ming Yufeng was silent for a moment and slowly told Mu Yan about the content of his conversation with Xue Rouer. Speaking of the reason why Ye Ningxiang left in the end, Ming Yufeng choked and couldn't continue to say it.
Mu Yan sighed slightly. The facts were even more bloody than she thought. She still looked at them from an outsider's perspective. For Ming Yufeng, there was only cruelty left. He tried hard to be a good person and a responsible man, so he never abandoned Xue Rouer and his son. Ming Yufeng fell in love with Ye Ningxiang. Both of them were kind people, but they still didn't understand how dangerous people's hearts could be. Qing Yu's evil is obvious to them, and they will be wary of them. But Xue Rouer's evil is secret and they didn't notice it, so how can they be wary of it?
Ming Yufeng underestimated the jealousy of women too much. No woman was willing to share the same man with other women. Xue Rouer was like this, and Ye Ningxiang was actually like this. But the difference in character between them will inevitably lead to completely different ways of dealing with this matter.
Ye Ningxiang's choice from the beginning was to reject Ming Yufeng, because Ming Yufeng already had other women. Even though she liked Ming Yufeng in her heart, she still chose to be herself, rather than abandoning the principles for love and hurting other people. Even though Ye Ningxiang later chose to reconcile with her obsession in her heart while loving Ming Yufeng deeply, and opened her heart to accept Ming Yufeng, she was not jealous of Xue Rouer, but was more guilty.
Ming Yufeng swore to Ye Ningxiang that he would not touch Xue Rou'er again, it was not Ye Ningxiang who forced him, but this must be what Ye Ningxiang wanted at that time, because she was also a woman, and she could accept Ming Yufeng's past, but in fact she could not see Ming Yufeng with other women after accepting Ming Yufeng. Because of love and caring, it would inevitably lead to selfishness, but selfishness is not wrong sometimes, because even if the relationship between Ming Yufeng and Xue Rou'er was not good without Ye Ningxiang. If Ye Ningxiang generously shared Ming Yufeng with Xue Rou'er, it only means that she did not really fall in love with Ming Yufeng. Ye Ningxiang did not let Ming Yufeng abandon Xue Rou'er and Ming Xu, but in fact he was very tolerant of Xue Rou'er.
But Xue Rouer was different. When she was with Ming Yufeng at first, she knew that Ming Yufeng didn't like her. She was just a gift from Ming Yufeng to Ming Yufeng. She chose to be with Ming Yufeng, so she had to bear all the consequences caused by Ming Yufeng because she didn't like her. But she was too greedy after all, and jealousy made her lose her conscience. She became useless and even took action to harm Ming Yufeng just to break up Ming Yufeng and Ye Ningxiang.
Mu Yan felt that Xue Rouer really loved Ming Yufeng, but this love later turned into a twisted possessiveness. Xue Rouer could accept Ming Yufeng with other women because she knew that Ming Yufeng had no love for those women, but she could not accept Ming Yufeng and Ye Ningxiang being together. Xue Rouer was hateful, hateful, but also sad. She had been working hard for 30 years, but she had never got Ming Yufeng's heart. She hurt Ye Ningxiang, but what she got was just Ming Yufeng's body.
Mu Yan believes in cause and effect, so she never boasts of goodness, but she never does evil for no reason, because the evil she has done will one day be repaid to herself.
Xue Rouer had gone crazy many years ago for her own selfish desires, but Ming Yufeng didn't know. Now look at the ending of Xue Rouer and Ye Ningxiang. Even though Ye Ningxiang died early, her bloodline was still in this world and she lived well. Even if Xue Rouer was still alive, she was not as good as death. Her only son Ming Xu was dead when she didn't know. She died miserably, but she was extremely ugly because she died for a man.
"Do you think I'm stupid?" Ming Yufeng looked at Mu Yan and asked.
"Well, it's a bit." Mu Yan nodded slightly, "But it's understandable. You are from a noble family and have been spoiled and respected since childhood. You are inevitably a little simple when you were young. It's not that you are not smart enough, but that you have to learn some things, have to experience, have fallen, have hurt, and have been hurt."
"You are young and seem to have experienced many things." Ming Yufeng looked at Mu Yan and said.
"Well, that's true. In terms of misery, I should not be as miserable as you, but I may not have experienced less than you." Mu Yan said with a faint expression, "Your miserable experiences may only be compared with Xiao Xinghan. From this perspective, you are really like father and son, and no one has been better in these years."
Ming Yufeng smiled bitterly: "It was me who harmed A Ning and Xiu'er."
"It's normal for you to think like this. The experience of their mother-son is indeed unrelated to you. Although my mother-in-law is gone and some things cannot be confirmed, in my opinion, she chose to leave you back then, not necessarily because of Xue Rouer's scam." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng thoughtfully and said.
Ming Yufeng looked slightly stunned: "What do you mean..."
"I just think she must be smarter than Xue Rouer, and she doesn't trust you so much." Mu Yan said to Ming Yufeng.
Ming Yufeng suddenly widened his eyes: "You mean, A Ning knew that Xue Rouer was lying to her back then?"
Mu Yan nodded: "This is just my own guess, it may not be true, but it may not be true."
"If what you said is true, she has seen through Xue Rouer's trick, why do she still have to leave me cruelly?" Ming Yufeng said with a little difficulty.
"According to what you said, her health was getting worse and worse at that time, and she could not relieve the poison, and she had your children in her womb. I believe you all know that having a baby was almost impossible for her to survive. This is the fact. She knows her own physical condition better than you." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said.
Ming Yufeng's tears flowed down: "I know... it's my fault... I didn't want that child at all..."
"But she wanted to have predicted that the death separation that would inevitably come, so she chose the separation of life." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said, "Which one is more painful, life separation or death separation is more painful, everyone has different feelings. When she left, you don't know her news, and at least you can fantasize about her being alive. In fact, that's what you did. Just imagine, if she really died in front of you, even if you swear to her, can you really cheer up and live a good life?"
Ming Yufeng looked sobbing, and he shook his head with tears in his eyes: "I don't know... I only know that even after so many years, when I learned how she died from Yin Jian, at that moment, I still wanted to end myself and go with her..."
"That's it. Maybe there is another reason. She left for the freedom she wants." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said.
Ming Yufeng was stunned for a moment: "Free..."
"No matter whether you can face it or not, for her, death may not be a kind of freedom. She may not want her child to be born in this land, because it means that her child may also lose freedom. Although I don't know why Qing Yu treated Ye Ningxiang like that, one thing is certain. If Xiao Xinghan had grown up by your side back then, you might have tried your best to protect him, but Qing Yu would never let him go. Otherwise, after so many years, Qing Yu insisted on finding him back and forcing him to marry Baili Qing. In fact, it is very simple. Qing Yu's purpose is to continue to control Xiao Xinghan like he used to control Ye Ningxiang. Can you really protect your and Ye Ningxiang's son at that time? You may be able to, but you should admit that he might have a worse ending after living with you in the Tianyuan Continent." Mu Yan looked at Ming Yufeng and said.
Mu Yan was not looking for reasons to comfort Ming Yufeng, she was just thinking about what kind of mood he would be when Ye Ningxiang left. Mu Yan really didn't think Ye Ningxiang would be deceived by Xue Rouer's secret tricks, so she immediately distrusts Ming Yufeng because she and Ming Yufeng had experienced many hardships before they got together. She should know Ming Yufeng better than anyone else. She is not the kind of person who loses her own judgment for love and wants to leave the country if she is sad.
Ming Yufeng looked at Mu Yan, his lips moved, but no sound came out. Mu Yan was just speculating on the possibility based on the information she knew, but Ming Yufeng really understood Ye Ningxiang, so Mu Yan's words were like a slap, hitting him hard on the head, making him finally wake up until this moment!
Ming Yufeng finally understood why Ye Ningxiang had to leave back then... It was definitely not because she didn't love him, nor because she didn't believe him, but because she wanted to find a way out for Ming Yufeng and their children, even if it meant that she had to bear the deepest and most painful pain. Because even though she knew she would die, why didn't she want her husband Ming Yufeng to accompany her until the last moment of her life? If she had other choices, how could she choose to die alone in a foreign land?
As for Yin Jian's betrayal later, Ye Ningxiang did not expect. She had done her best and did everything she could. Judging from the results, Ye Ningxiang's choice was really correct. Because Mu Yan could not imagine what would happen if Xiao Xinghan was born in the Tianyuan Continent? Will he become the second Ye Ningxiang? Because Ming Yufeng could not compete with Qing Yu at that time, and could not protect Xiao Xinghan.
Xiao Xinghan suffered a lot in that continent, but because of Ye Ningxiang's choice, he also had another truly warm home, a relative who loved him, and the freedom that Ye Ningxiang dreamed of.
"A Ning..." Ming Yufeng called Ye Ningxiang's name again, but he seemed to have used all his strength in his body, and was extremely sad. He squirted out a mouthful of blood and poured down toward the side.
Mu Yan reached out to hold Ming Yufeng, took his pulse, and frowned slightly, because Ming Yufeng's physical condition was extremely poor, and if this continued, he would be sad to death.
Mu Yan took out a pill made of ten thousand years of ice lotus, pinched Ming Yufeng's chin, threw it into his mouth, and then turned around and left the pavilion.
When she walked to the door of the room, Mu Yan reached out her hand, the door in front of her opened. Xiao Xinghan stood there, not knowing how long she had been standing, and Mu Yan knew that Xiao Xinghan should have heard the conversation between her and Ming Yufeng just now.
Mu Yan reached out, hugged Xiao Xinghan, leaned against his chest, sighed slightly and said, "Don't be sad, I will feel at ease when I see you now in the Spirit of Heaven."
Mu Yan knew that although they always blamed Ming Yufeng, it was because Ming Yufeng was still alive, which was really affecting their people. But Ye Ningxiang was not meaningless to Xiao Xinghan. On the contrary, as Xiao Xinghan's biological mother, even if she died, Xiao Xinghan should know what kind of person she was. Xiao Xinghan once said that he did not recognize Ming Yufeng because he had Xiao Yuanqi, but Xiao Xinghan never said that he did not recognize Ye Ningxiang's mother.
Xiao Xinghan hugged Mu Yan, and after a moment of silence, he said, "I'm fine." But he suddenly felt sad because of the mother he had never seen before...
Mu Yan didn't want Xiao Xinghan to be immersed in the sadness. She let go of Xiao Xinghan and pulled Xiao Xinghan out: "I know you don't want to recognize him, but we can't watch him die like this. You carry him into the house and I'll give him a few injections."
Xiao Xinghan frowned, but was still pulled into the pavilion by Mu Yan. When he saw Ming Yufeng lying there in a coma, the silver thread was very eye-catching, while his face was as white as paper, and there was still a trace of blood hanging on the corner of his mouth.
Xiao Xinghan reached out, picked up Ming Yufeng's belt, picked him up, and then went back to their room with Mu Yan. As soon as he entered the door, he threw Ming Yufeng directly to the ground, then frowned and sat aside, not knowing what he was thinking.
Mu Yan didn't care about Xiao Xinghan. After placing Ming Yufeng flattened, he took the Xuanxin Golden Needle and focused on Ming Yufeng's needle.
Tuoba Yan rubbed his sleepy eyes, appeared at the door in his coat, and walked in: "Dad, mother, why are you not sleeping yet?"
Tuoba Yan lowered his head and saw Ming Yufeng lying on the ground. He was stunned for a moment, not daring to disturb Mu Yan's needle. He walked around silently, walked to Xiao Xinghan, and asked Xiao Xinghan in a low voice: "Dad, did you beat him like that? Are you too cruel? Actually, others are not bad."
Xiao Xinghan looked at Tuoba Yan coldly: "Shut up."
Tuoba Yan sat silently beside Xiao Xinghan, and did not shut up: "Dad, can I give you a suggestion?"
"No." Xiao Xinghan snorted lightly.
"Then I have to mention it too." Tuoba Yan said softly, "Dad, you have to smile more, otherwise you will like your younger brother."
Xiao Xinghan frowned: "Small brat, shut up!"
Tuoba Yan said that what he said was the truth. His little brother is so beautiful and cute. He looks like his father. The cute and smiling child is even more likable. His father just deserves a beating, nothing else...
Mu Yan finished applying the needle to Ming Yufeng. Although Ming Yufeng did not wake up, his pulse became much smoother.
Seeing Mu Yan get up, Tuoba Yan asked, "Mom, what's wrong with him?"
"I'm so sad that I'm broken." Mu Yan sighed.
"What should I do?" Tuoba Yan asked.
"He has to come out by himself, otherwise no one can save him." Mu Yan said.
"How can I get out?" Tuoba Yan continued.
Mu Yan looked at Tuoba Yan, and saw that Tuoba Yan felt irritated. Then he heard Mu Yan say, "It is best if someone is with him for this kind of symptom. It must be someone he cares about and someone who can make him feel happy."
Tuoba Yan pointed at Xiao Xinghan: "I think my dad is the most suitable!"
"Your father is too cold and inappropriate." Mu Yan shook her head.
"Then I am the most suitable, I am the sunniest and the most love to laugh." Tuoba Yan said, "But I don't agree to send me here!"
"Well, we don't agree, so the most suitable person at the moment is your son." Mu Yan blinked at Tuoba Yan.
Tuoba Yan shook his head: "Although I sympathize with him, I don't want to be thrown here."
"Then let it go." Mu Yan said very simply, "I don't want to leave you here either. We will leave tomorrow morning. As for what he will do next, it depends on his own luck."
After hearing Mu Yan say this, Tuoba Yan's little face became a little entangled again. He glanced at Ming Yufeng, hesitated for a moment, and asked Mu Yan: "Mom, will he really die?"
"This is really hard to say." Mu Yan said very truthfully, "It is hard to cure my heart. But this is the disaster in his destiny. It has passed and there is still a future. If you can't get over it, you will be abandoned even if you don't die."
Mu Yan said the truth. Ye Ningxiang is the disaster in Ming Yufeng's fate. Many years ago, because of Ye Ningxiang's departure, this great disaster came many years later, but what should come finally came. Ming Yufeng learned that Ye Ningxiang left for him and for their children, Ye Ningxiang always loved him and trusted him, but such cruel facts made him even more unbearable. Now, what Ming Yufeng faces is the death separation that Ye Ningxiang didn't want him to face back then...
"Mom, should I stay?" Tuoba Yan frowned and said. He had a good impression of Ming Yufeng. When he thought that Ming Yufeng might die after they left, he felt a little reluctant.
To be continued...