182. Fear or not
Zhou Chu walked over and walked side by side with Fangzi towards Silent Hill High School. Fangzi then asked curiously.
"Zhou Chusang, do you have night vision?"
Zhou Chu knew that she was asking why she could see and walk in this darkness that was like a substance, so she answered her.
"Well, some are, but in such a rich darkness, I was affected too much. Even I could only see a range of less than a hundred meters."
There is nothing to hide at night vision, nor is it a great ability, so there is no need to hide anything. If Zhou Chu doesn’t say anything about it, Fangzi can’t confirm it even if he perceives this.
"What a good ability, I think it's very convenient," said Fangzi.
"What is Fangzi's ability? If you can say it." Zhou Chu took this opportunity to ask this question.
"Have you told everyone before? Negotiation, negotiation, and comfort are all considered auxiliary abilities," said Fangzi. "If you have to say that it is a psychological abilities, it should be a psychological abilities, and I don't know much about it."
Psychological ability... is hard to judge. Zhou Chu thought, really, can't you know how to use it if you don't fight? He remembered the fight between Fangzi and Scarry that day. The two of them just stood with each other, looked at each other, and then decided the outcome.
"After that being said, Zhou Chusang, do you have any fear?" Fangzi suddenly asked an irrelevant question.
"fear?"
"Yes, it is when Zhou Chusang is afraid or afraid. When will it usually happen, or what will Zhou Chusang be afraid of? For example, such an environment and those twisted monsters will make many girls feel terrified and scared."
"It seems that there is really not." Zhou Chu thought about it, and it seemed that there was nothing that could make him afraid or fear.
"No, Zhou Chusang." Fangzi denied Zhou Chu's statement, "Everyone has his own fear and fear, sometimes it is certain environment, sometimes it is certain things and people, sometimes it is certain situations, and there is no fear. It cannot be called human beings, so Zhou Chusang said no, it is just because Zhou Chusang is unwilling to think about and find it, and he just conducts self-protection avoidance and forgetful avoidance in his subconscious."
Is that true? Maybe... Zhou Chu did not answer again, because a name suddenly flashed through his heart, so he was unwilling to continue discussing this topic.
"Why did Fangzi suddenly think of this?"
"Because of the Silent Hill," said Fangzi. "Silent Hill is a concrete twisted world between fear and the dark side of the heart. But if it were just these monsters, I always feel that it seems a bit too pediatric, at least I am not afraid of these monsters."
This is also Zhou Chu's confusion. Until now, the power displayed in the Silent Hill is just some monsters and some strange things, but when it comes to completely despair or fear, it seems to be a bit unreasonable. But there seems to be nothing wrong with such a Silent Hill. But I always feel that some things are unreasonable.
While Zhou Chu was thinking, Fangzi raised the searchlight.
"Here is here, Zhou Chusang."
In the faint aperture, the school gate of Jingling Middle School was vaguely visible. Zhou Chu looked at the outline and asked Fangzi.
"Have Fangzi decided where to go?"
"Yeah." Fangzi nodded, "But I want to apologize to Zhou Chusang first."
"Well, what?"
"In fact, when I came here, it had nothing to do with Silent Hill, or the whole incident. I just suddenly wanted to come here and see. When there was no one, when I first came here, I kept having such thoughts in my mind. So today I came here just to satisfy my wish, my private wish, so Zhou Chusang could not accompany me in."
"There is no need to apologize." Zhou Chu shrugged, although Fangzi couldn't see his movements, "Anyway, I'm just a little bit of a loop, and the monsters didn't show up, so it's nothing wrong with just accompanying Fangzi for a while."
"Okay, let's go."
The two walked into the campus and walked on the school road in the dark. Fangzi seemed to have no purpose, just walking slowly. It seemed that the two of them were really just coming out and taking a walk here.
"Why did Fangzi always want to go around here alone?" Zhou Chu asked his doubts.
"Ah?" Fangzi was a little surprised in her tone, "Because this is a school. Shouldn't the school have countless beautiful and memorable memories when we were young?"
Is this true? Zhou Chu smiled. His school, to be precise, his junior high school and high school life can not recall and recall too much. Even his own time in school is extremely scarce, so...
"I really have no memories." Zhou Chu smiled bitterly.
"It's a pity for Zhou Chusang." Fangzi said, "Let's go to the stadium for a walk."
"Um."
The two turned to the court and walked along the track one after another.
"Zhou Chusang, when I was in middle school, I fell in love with a boy. He is from the track and field team and trains here every day. I will also watch him on time every day. At that time, I just felt that looking at him like this was the most beautiful and happy thing. During that time, I felt that every day was sunny and sunny."
"What then?" Zhou Chu knew that this was just the beginning, so he asked.
"And then, my love deepened day by day, and then one day I couldn't help but confess to him." Fangzi paused, "At that time, I was very frightened, very uneasy, afraid of being rejected, but... he agreed, so we were together."
"Well." Zhou Chu didn't ask this time, and because his intuition told him that the next story would begin to develop in a bad direction and end. So sometimes, the reason why fairy tales are beautiful is that they end when they stay at the best.
But Fangzi still planned to continue talking.
"After being with that boy, that period of time may be the most beautiful and wonderful time for me, but such time did not last long." Fangzi sighed, "We separated, Zhou Chusang, you said, if I had not confessed impulsively at the beginning, would it be that there was no beginning and no end? I could keep the simplest love and beauty as the best memory?"
"I don't know." Zhou Chu replied. He really didn't know, because there is no if in the world, and he couldn't guess Fangzi's true thoughts. At this time, ask questions such as whether you regret it or do you hate him, that's really stupid, so he could only vaguely say.
“There is no right or wrong in love.”
"Really?" Fangzi asked, "The person who left first was because he didn't love him anymore, but the one who stayed behind was still in love. Who is right and who is wrong?"
Zhou Chu did not answer because he didn't know what to answer, or rather, he remembered the past.
He used to be a scumbag, right? Every lover in the past, whether he spoke or the other party asked, did not have too much sentimentality or emotion every time he separated, but just felt plainly that since that's the case, then that's it. So for a while, he thought that he would never really have the so-called love.
Just thought.
Until he met her, it was difficult to describe such a feeling, but after Zhou Chu met Qin Qing, his feeling in his heart was telling her that it was her, either someone else, or she, and then he quickly fell in love with Qin Qing.
It’s not someone else, I don’t know why I can’t be someone else, I only know that it’s her, it’s only her. It was only after Qin Qing that Zhou Chu knew that the so-called love, the language and description of the whole world, could not describe its complexity and simplicity, so complex that it cannot be described in all languages, and so simple that it can be summarized in one sentence.
So...If you have anything to fear or something, then there is no doubt that losing Qin Qing or the two of you is no longer together is what he fears the most, so frightened that he dare not think about such a possibility, so frightened that he doesn't know what he would if this day really happened.
If it was Oucheng, he would probably sneer and say, "Hey hey, is it just a woman, is it necessary to live and die? It seems that the same is true, but... some things are really not like this. He cannot explain or say anything. He only knows that his own fear, or his biggest fear, is losing her.
But what if it is really lost? What about it?
Suddenly, such a voice sounded deep in his heart, constantly repeating and tempting him, asking him to think, guess and assume in this direction.
No, I don’t want to think about it, another voice in Zhou Chu’s heart said this, and I will talk about it when something happens.
When things happen, everything is too late. This is very likely. It is really possible. Think about it, are you still in contact recently? Are you still meeting again? Are you still dating like an ordinary couple, and still telling each other and relying on each other?
That's because...
Because what?
It’s just that we have a different idea, so we have some misunderstandings.
Misunderstanding? If such misunderstanding cannot be eliminated and always arises, what you think is always different, what she agrees with, you deny, what you want to tell her, but she understands it wrongly, and you have never been able to reveal your heart to each other? It has been like this all the time because of constant misunderstanding and incomprehension, and finally part ways?
No, it can't be like this...
Look, you can't convince yourself...
No……
Chapter completed!