It will take six days later that Chen Long was back to Xi'an with a quick horse.

With a panic heart, Chen Longzheng returned to Xi'an and returned to the locust control office. When he arrived, it was lunchtime. The main course should be meat at noon today. Chen Longzheng smelled the smell of meat in the office from a distance.

The Xiao Qin Empire treated his ministers at least much better than the previous Ming Dynasty, whether it was salary or daily welfare, especially when central officials left the capital to work in other places, additional subsidies and business trip bonuses, etc., and the most humane among them was Chen Longzheng's view of the work meal at noon.

This old saying goes well. The emperor is not short of hungry soldiers. As the emperor, Xiao Ruxun is very concerned about the food issues of his ministers. Officials at all levels have different meal subsidies, and the best treatment is the central officials who go out to work.

It was just the meal time when Chen Longzheng came back, and the officials he met were rushing to have dinner. When he saw Chen Longzheng coming back, he said hello.

Chen Long is the deputy of Xu Guangqi, the governor of Locust Control, and is also the old man whom His Majesty has followed when he was still in Myanmar. Xu Guangqi is regarded as the successor of the empire's chief minister, so Chen Longzheng is also regarded as Xu Guangqi's successor.

There are quite a few people who want to have a good relationship with Chen Longzheng.

However, seeing that Chen Longzheng's face was not very good, these people did not go forward directly to Chen Longzheng to wander, but instead said hello and avoided it decisively, while whispering to communicate their opinions.

Chen Long was returning to his office in a little panic, closed the door, sat down, and kept gasping.

As he walked back, his heart was filled with fear and panic. He could hardly think about what he had done. However, after arriving in Xi'an, when he smelled the familiar smell of meat, a strong sense of guilt suddenly surged into his heart.

I……

Betrayed my teacher?

I……

Destroy your promise?

I……

Blame my ideas and personality as a person?

What did I do?

Chen Long was reaching out to cover his face, but he felt extremely painful in his heart, his heart was like a knife, as if he had lost something important that he could never get again.

He recalled the earnest teachings Yuan Huang had given him when he was still young, the scene of stealing food with Yuan Yan when he was young, and the intimacy and lofty ambitions he had once been.

But now he realized that all this had gone far away from him and would never come back.

He betrayed the teacher and friends and betrayed his promise. Such an self is no longer the familiar self. He feels that he doesn't know himself very much now, and he is a very strange existence.

Why were you so decisive and so panicked when you left the capital?

Why?

Chen Long was in deep pain.

And suddenly, a slight knock on the door sounded.

"Tilong? I heard that you are back, why don't you come to me?"

Xu Guangqi's voice sounded outside the door. Chen Longzheng was stunned. He immediately reacted and stood up and walked to the door, opening the door of his office.

"Tilong, what's wrong with you?"

Xu Guangqi was shocked when he saw Chen Longzheng, whose eyes were red and tears just now.

"I……"

Before Chen Longzheng could speak, Xu Guangqi quickly looked around. Seeing that there was no one around, he pushed Chen Longzheng into the room: "Go in and say."

After entering, Xu Guangqi closed the door and looked back at Chen Longzheng with red eyes.

"Tilong, are you... Is something wrong at home? Something happened to your relatives and friends at home? Are you sick or injured?"

Chen Long was looking at Xu Guangqi's concerned eyes, hesitated for a long time, but he still spoke up to Xu Guangqi about what he encountered in the capital. He felt that if he didn't ask someone to talk to him, he would go crazy.

As Chen Longzheng told the story, Xu Guangqi gradually learned the whole story of this matter.

"...I don't know how I left the capital. I felt that as soon as I came to my senses, I had already reached the boundary of Shanxi, but I didn't even have the courage to look back at the way I came from. I always felt that something was chasing me behind me. Once I stopped, I was about to die.

I didn't want to die, so I kept rushing. But when I was about to arrive in Xi'an, I suddenly remembered that I seemed to betray the teacher, I abandoned my teacher, I abandoned him, I also abandoned my childhood friends, and I abandoned them all.

I was scared, I was really scared. Governor Chen Chong told me that when I would be implicated, I was almost scared to death. I sat in the restaurant for a long time, and then I stood up and ran outside. I didn't want to stop at all.

When I ran away, I didn't even think about the teacher and Ruosi. When I just sat down, I realized that I had done such a shameful thing, Governor, I...what did I do..."

Chen Longzheng cried in front of Xu Guangqi, crying very quietly, as if even crying made him feel ashamed.

Xu Guangqi looked at Chen Longzheng who was crying and suddenly remembered himself who was moved by a letter from Xiao Ruxun and ran to Datong to find Xiao Ruxun regardless of danger.

Will I think of today at that time?

The world changes, things change, and people change. Since ancient times, everyone has said that being with the king is like a tiger. He understands it.

As long as you sit in that position, no matter who you are, you will not be the same as before.

Xiao Ruxun is still the same Xiao Ruxun, but not the same Xiao Ruxun. Chen Long was too idealistic. When he was with him, Xu Guangqi even felt like reading the Book of Songs, free and easy, romantic, elegant and beautiful.

But now, this romantic person is crying like a child in front of him.

Perhaps after crying, the romantic Chen Longzheng would not exist anymore.

My Majesty, you are a little too cruel.

Xu Guangqi closed his eyes in pain.

Although he knew that from the day Xiao Ruxun became emperor, he knew that this moment would come sooner or later, he did not expect that it would start with Yuan Huang.

I remember that in the past, people in the Ming Dynasty officialdom said that the Ming Dynasty was harder to do than the previous dynasties, but now it seems that the Qin Dynasty seemed to be a little more difficult to do than the Ming Dynasty.

At least the officialdom of the Ming Dynasty could tolerate some young men and some romantic guys, but the Qin Dynasty seemed to be unable to tolerate them.

Are you a Legalist? Are you a Mohist? Are you a Confucianist? Are you a Taoist?

Xu Guangqi didn't know which theory Xiao Ruxun used to govern the Qin Dynasty, and what orthodox official ideas did the Qin Dynasty have. The Qin Dynasty seemed to be different from previous dynasties, but the Qin Dynasty seemed to be the same as all dynasties.
Chapter completed!