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17 My Will

When the sun sets, Black Cat, Ayanami Ri and Chu Xuan are shoulder to shoulder, carrying many bags in their hands, walking home with a load of back home.

After savoring the fun of the past in the game center that was actually very outdated, the three of them purchased a lot of fresh ingredients in the supermarket underground in the department store as if they were a family, and they were preparing to celebrate the official start of their cohabitation life with a seafood hotpot feast tonight.

"Li, do you find it interesting today?"

On the sidewalk where the abortion was slightly sparse, the black cat's eyes looked at the shadows that had been stuck together by the sunset, and asked Ayahara in a gentle and natural tone, as if an old friend she had known for many years.

“…”

The blue-haired girl who had just met and Chu Xuan turned her back to the sun that was about to set, which made her face blurry and she could no longer tell the expression on her face, but her red eyes, which lacked more gloss than ordinary people, looked slightly brighter in the shadows.

"Somewhat weird."

Ayanami Ri, who had not yet learned to be polite, thought seriously for a while, and then honestly expressed her confusion.

"Why play 'games'? What are the uses of those 'games'?"

"Many animals in nature also play games. Games are a spontaneous activity in which animals are familiar with the living environment and practice survival skills.

As the most advanced animals in nature, humans play games with the consideration of intellectual cultivation and survival skills training.”

Chu Xuan raised his hand and pushed down his reflective glasses, answering the girl's question seriously. However, his words turned the black cat's face into a embarrassing look.

Although Chu Xuan’s definition of the game is extremely correct, she always feels that the expressionless Ayanami Ri doesn’t need such an explanation or such a “meaningful” game.

"Understood."

Ayanami nodded gently, but the black cat hurriedly said to her:

"No, that's not the case...Li, it's not for the sake of anything, it's just for... entertainment.

Yes, it’s just for entertainment, because the game is very interesting, and real life is boring—at least not as interesting as the game world. That’s why everyone plays games and finds fun in games.”

Black Cat said with confidence that it was very consistent with her otaku identity. Although this was not great, bright, and correct at all, it was not a reason to be on the table, Black Cat instinctively felt that what Ayahari needed was this very ordinary, very ordinary, and very personal reason.

——When people live in the world, they do not have to do anything meaningful. Some things are boring, idiots, and even if they do not help them in their future life, they can bring happiness to people, which is an extremely precious wealth in itself.

It’s more valuable than spending a valuable life hard and hard, it’s true that you’re still more... valuable?

"Fun? I don't understand.

What exactly should be done to be interesting?”

Rei Ayanami looked at the black cat who wanted to convey something to her but couldn't say it clearly, then turned her head and looked at Chu Xuan's face that was as expressionless as her with a calm gaze.

"You are wrong to ask Chu Xuan about this kind of thing. I have never seen him laugh since I came here."

Black Cat almost let it go. In terms of "setting", she and Chu Xuan had never met before. But she seemed to have known Chu Xuan for a long time, but her brain, after being strengthened and adjusted, became much smarter. She immediately changed her mouth perfectly.

"That's how my face is."

Chu Xuan turned his head, pushed down his reflective glasses expressionlessly, and then corrected the black cat's wrong view of him with a smooth and unabashed voice as always.

"And although I'm not interested in ordinary things, I also have my own fun in life."

"Really fake?"

The black cat, who was already an "old husband and wife" with Chu Xuan (although he hadn't done anything H) raised his left hand holding the shopping bag and covered his mouth with a little exaggerated look, opening his eyes like a ruby ​​wide, and looking at Chu Xuan in surprise.

Of course, Black Cat knew... No, as a lover who shared destiny, she could certainly feel that under Chu Xuan's extremely calm and calm appearance, even like a robot, she actually had the emotions that a normal person should have, including a heart that can love others. Otherwise, she would not have liked this uninteresting man with facial paralysis and glasses.

——For Ayanami Ri now, what she lacks is probably the kind of thing Chu Xuan hides in the deepest part of her heart. Although Black Cat doesn’t understand, her intuition tells her this.

"certainly."

Chu Xuan nodded seriously to the Black Cat, and then said words that would make countless otakus who were actually just to wipe out their empty life and died of shame.

"For me, exploring the mysteries of the world and discovering the truth of the universe is a pretty interesting game."

"Woo... OK, so dazzling, I'm about to be burned..."

Sure enough, facing Chu Xuan, who was emitting circles of halos behind him like a Buddha, the black cat immediately raised his hands to cover his face, just like a vampire thrown into the sun.

“…”

Ayanami Ri, who had no expression on her face, kept quietly watching the black cat and Chu Xuan who had "flirted" her. Their voices and figures reached the girl's almost completely blank heart through her ears and eyes, and left a clear shadow on it.

However, this little mark is only equivalent to an unobtrusive tiny black dot on an A4 paper. Even Ayahara herself cannot be sure if there is really something special in her heart if she doesn't look for it carefully with a magnifying glass.

"Don't care about the concept of 'interesting'. When you have what you want to do, you will naturally understand what 'interesting' is.

Spontaneous Action - Humans only play games because they want to play games themselves, whether they are looking for fun that belongs only to themselves or practicing some survival skills, they are all done out of their own will.

It is of course difficult for you to understand what "interest" is, because you are just following other people's orders and walking on the path that others have planned for you. Everything you do is based on other people's wishes.

Frequently try to experience all kinds of things that others find interesting will help you discover some kind of fun and find your own wishes."

Perhaps seeing the confusion in Ayanami Ri's heart, Chu Xuan pointed out the way forward as a guardian and instructor.

Although Chu Xuan just guided the girl with a blank heart to the direction he hoped, who in his life did not move in the direction he wanted? Many children have even been asked to follow the rules and strictly follow the route designated by their parents, and must not deviate from the "right path" at all.

But as long as you absorb enough knowledge, learn how to survive, explore, and think, people who once just move forward in a daze according to other people's wishes will naturally begin to rethink their own wishes and start to find their own direction and path.

This is a process that everyone must go through. Without this process, people cannot be called human.

In fact, there is not only Ayanami Rei in this world. All the children were once parents and social matchmakers. Ayanami Rei just had the intention to break these lines because the amount of information she obtained was too limited.

When children start to break the lines that control them, they are not just a doll without self-expectations; and when they finally break the lines, they become completely independent humans.

But if these lines are too tough...
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