Before Lin Qin saw Xiaoxue, she first saw her grave.

Strictly speaking, it is not considered a grave, it is just an inconspicuous small earth bun in the wasteland. The village is very close to a quarry, so the stone is very cheap. Other graves have stone tablets on them, but Xiaoxue's ones are not.

"Although she has married, she has not been able to support her children. According to the rules, such a woman cannot erect a monument. This is a rule passed down from generation to generation in the village."

First, I took a plane for 4 hours and drove 70 kilometers to the remote mountain village where Xiaoxue once lived. Lin Qin only heard the answers from the villagers.

Lin Qin, who was only 15 years old at the time, stood in front of Xiaoxue's grave without a tombstone for a long time until the bright stars she had seen with Xiaoxue appeared above her head, but it was not midsummer but winter.

"This listener's letter talked about such a thing. A very kind and hardworking girl, who only suffered such a fate because her family favored boys over girls..."

Lin Qin's dreams are rarely completely illusory, but a large part of them comes from the recreation of "reality". When she heard the radio host read a letter from the audience while half-awake, and heard a teacher crying in the letter to accuse a student she had helped, she could not forget it for a long time.

Like other unforgettable things, Lin Qin would enter the world recorded by time when she pretended to die and become a witness in the "real" world. In Xiaoxue's life, she became the cat "Xiaohei" mentioned in the letter of the teaching teacher.

The stars on the dome are like time capsules. Every time Lin Qin dies in "reality", she will enter another reality constructed by her dreams and shuttle back and forth between the stars. Although most of her life was spent in treatment and recuperation before the age of 15, she has experienced more joys, anger, sorrow, and happiness than anyone else.

After going through the vast ocean of disasters, it has been a thousand years since I looked back.

Lin Qin transformed into a cat more than once, accompanying Xiaoxue through those lonely but hopeful short years, doing her best to make Xiaoxue happy. However, no matter what Xiaohei does, the final outcome will not change.

On the day of the high school entrance examination, although Xiaoxue had excellent grades, she heard from her grandmother that her father had snatched the tuition fee and took her brother to flee fare. Her father, who had never taken responsibility, only cared about remarrying himself and going to school for his brother with poor grades. In his eyes, his daughter's future was worth nothing at all.

That was the tuition fee that the teacher sent to him from his meager salary. Now not only the tuition fee has been taken away, but grandma was also injured while her father robbed the money. Her original wish to go to the city to study in high school instantly turned into a bubble.

In despair, Xiaoxue rushed to the backyard to drink pesticides. Lin Qin, who turned into a cat, could not stop her. She tried countless times, but she could not change what was about the ending in advance - even in a dream.

The tragic fate of the 15-year-old girl did not end there. Xiaoxue was rescued by the village health center, but the toxin caused permanent brain damage to her. The girl who was once very intelligent became a "silly woman" among the villagers.

Grandma passed away a year later, and it was not until then that my father came back to attend the funeral. After simply dealing with the family's land, she married Xiaoxue, who no longer recognized him, to an old bachelor at the entrance of the village. She was more hasty than dealing with the land.

Lin Qin's dream often ends here, because the letter of the teacher did not mention what Xiaoxue's situation was after she was married to an old bachelor. Although Xiaohei was so sad that she wanted to continue to accompany this poor girl who only recognized herself, for Xiaoxue in her dream, Xiaohei would probably always disappear on a cold winter night, right?

It was a dream, and it was true. Xiaoxue's affairs were in my heart. When Lin Qin finally found the village where Xiaoxue lived through the radio and the teacher, she only saw her small grave.

Reality is even more miserable than dreams. After Xiaoxue married the old bachelor, she did not "not feeding her children" as the villagers said, but failed to raise the children. After getting married, her brain damage sequelae became more and more serious. She became pregnant three times, one of which died in the womb, and the other two times she became stupid because there was no one at home and she couldn't take off her pants, and she even suffocated the child to death.

"The Wizard of Oz" is a fairy tale after all, and there is no magician or Santa Claus in reality. Although Lin Qin is willing to act as Santa Claus to change Xiaoxue's fate, they are separated by the cliff of time. Two 15-year-old girls only meet and know each other in their dreams, one of them is still in the image of a cat.

But there is no doubt that the relationship between Xiaoxue and Xiaohei is pure and not mixed with any filth. Even if it is only one-way, Lin Qin regards Xiaoxue as her relative - after all, they have lived together again and again, until today.

"Just because you are a girl, you are treated like this unfairly, ruthlessly trampling on your dreams. Even if you have lost the ability to live normally, you will not let go of the last value of squeezing your body... Why, why do you treat you like this!?"

It seemed as if Xiaoxue sensed Lin Qin's arrival in the dark, so snowflakes fell in front of her grave. The snowflakes fell on Lin Qin's black skirt, black hair and black eyelashes. The bodyguards saw the eldest lady in deep thought and did not dare to force her away.

On a cold winter night, Lin Qin covered her face and cried in front of Xiaoxue’s grave, not only for Xiaoxue, but also for the millions of girls with the same fate as Xiaoxue, whom she doesn’t know yet.

Finally, after a vent of emotions, 15-year-old Lin Qin lifted her face from her hands, and tears were frozen by the cold wind along her cheeks, which was very painful on her face, but she didn't care.

"It's better to give it to me instead of giving it to a man like that..."

"Instead of being dominated by irresponsible men, and rather than marrying men who will definitely bring you pain, it is better to stay with me, whether it is my sister or my wife, at least I will strive for happiness for you!"

That night, Lin Qin established a systematic aid fund for rural female students and threw the money into the village chief's face, allowing him to change the tradition of women who had not given birth to children and erected a tombstone that was several times larger than men, and erected a tombstone comparable to a monument for Xiaoxue.

With the power of the Lin family group, Lin Qin could easily punish Xiaoxue's father and the old bachelor, but she didn't do that because it was meaningless to do so now.

As long as the oppression against women does not disappear from the world for a day, people like Xiaoxue will not be able to escape their cruel destiny, and they will not be able to get happiness even in dreams.

All the dead people that Lin Qin cannot forget continue to live in her dreams. From this perspective, Xiaoxue has never died or grown up. The innocent dreams and joys, sorrows and sorrows of a 15-year-old girl will always have a little black cat to accompany her and bear it with her.

Lin Qin has difficulty changing the natural laws in her dreams, but she has tried to make Xiao Hei speak more than once. In addition to comforting Xiaoxue, she has another more important sentence to say:
Chapter completed!