There are twelve kinds of suffering in total, the first one that comes is poverty.
Surrounded by darkness, Li Yi was completely immersed in his heart. He suddenly felt a deep pain, as if he was at the bottom of society, not just a single piece of money, hard work only brought about a meager income that could not be filled, with a confused future, powerlessness, and distress. These emotions accompanied by poverty were like needles stomping in his heart.
"Instead of suffering like this, I will not die. The world of the deceased is eternal. I have never done anything evil in my life. I should go to heaven to enjoy myself after death! That is my best destination!" Li Yi actually had the idea of ​​death in his heart.
The miracle infused him with a feeling of poverty a hundred times stronger than he felt, and it had a huge effect in an instant.
A sharp knife appeared in Li Yi's hand. The blade was sharp and the cold air was so cold that it was a tool he used to end his life. As long as he gently wiped his wrist, he would die in the comfortable vein bleeding. Of course, this test would fail, and he would return in a desperate situation, leaving endless regrets.
"This forced infusion of feelings is very realistic, but it is still too fake for people who have truly experienced poverty. Besides, the rich side is not what I want." Li Yi's eyes returned to clearness, and the knife in his hand disappeared.
The second suffering that followed was hunger. Li Yi suddenly felt pain as if his abdomen had been drained, as if his stomach had turned into a black hole that devoured everything, desperately craving for food. His eyes were red and he ran wildly. Suddenly, a sumptuous banquet appeared in front of him, with the best ham, whole pieces of golden roasted goose, exquisite bacon and large pieces of lamb chops, delicious aged dry red, but they were all labeled with poisonous signs, that is, while satisfying the desire for the mouth, Li Yi also embarked on the road of death.
"Ah...ah, what's the point of death if you can eat such a rich delicacy? Is hunger worse than death?" Li Yi's hunger reached its peak at this moment!
He grabbed a leg of lamb, and the strong smell of meat made him feel like he was in a wonderful cloud! He trembled and sent the deliciousness of death to his mouth! It seemed as if a devil was driving his soul.
"Ah!" Li Yi suddenly woke up in a nightmare, screamed and threw the poisonous lamb leg to the ground. "For a little food, he abandoned his precious life. What is the reason? I don't understand! The test of hunger ends here. Life is precious, and some things are still not as good as it, but new emotions follow.
"Weak" and "powerless". Li Yi suddenly felt like he was being taken away, and he couldn't raise his strength at all. He felt that he was small and could only be trampled on by others. His dignity had become a thin layer. His sense of existence was extremely weak. The tide of fate surging, ruthlessly crushed him, threw him up, and threw him on the reefs on the shore. Weakness and humility were everything he had.
"Why am I so weak? What else can I do? I can't do anything, I can only live a life of silence..." Li Yi was depressed and half-kneeled on the ground, with no choice but to do anything, as if he wanted to settle for all this, "It's good to get used to it. I'm destined to be so small. I'm born to be a inferior person..."
"Wait, what nonsense am I talking about? My ambition can emit light even if it is buried in the dust. I came to the world in the lowly state. Why do I have to carry the regret of lowly until death? Power, fame, status, and wealth are all worthy of it! No one can stop me from getting them!" Li Yi suddenly straightened his back and looked down at everything proudly.
The next pain was "humiliation", humiliation that could not resist, slander, contempt of eyes, discrimination in the environment, injustice, disgust, rough treatment, abuse, and accusation of justice. He wanted to argue, but his mouth was sewn on the face of others, and at the same time he had to bear great insults on the ** side.
"What crime did I commit? It is unfair to suffer such humiliation for no reason! I want to appeal!" Li Yi shouted in his heart, but he was facing a group of selfish people and acting as a scapegoat. Even if he shouted, it would be useless. He just added a few more scars to his body and heart.
After being sad and angry, there was no way to do anything, there was despair, deep despair like stagnant water, as if this group of people wanted to mercenate at will, put on various labels, play around with them, and finally leave a dirty mark in the historical records.
"I'm not wrong! It's you dirty people who have put me on all kinds of charges!" Li Yi suddenly burst out with powerful force, and his slit lips were broken away, blood was pouring on him. After he roared this sentence, the audience was silent.
The pain after humiliation is injury, followed by cold, burning, sleepiness, loneliness, fatigue, suffocation, bereavement... Every time Li Yi faces spiritual collapse, he will burst out with strong willpower deep in his heart, invincible. He found how fragile he is, but he is extremely powerful in his heart. After twelve times of suffering, his will becomes stronger and stronger, as bright and hard as a diamond, and every section reflects brilliant light.
"I have passed the third level, which is really good. The reward for this level is four times the reward for the first level. If it is converted into a devil stone, it will be four, seven in three levels in total. It is priceless treasure. Although this level is extremely difficult and almost sinks into it a few times, breaking one's confidence. If you fail, you will be in a life of unrestrainedness, which is equivalent to a useless person and never making progress. However, sticking to your original intention and passing the hardships, in addition to the open rewards, you will also get tempered in your heart." In the past, although Li Yi was full of wisdom and deep scheming, he was too extreme and led to a heavy murderous aura, and he often bleeds. The strategies he used were to live to the death and not leave a way out for himself. Now he seems to be a little mature.
"I suffered many injustice in the past, and my heart was full of distrust and hatred for others, indifference to life, despise morality, and being too sinister and cold. These are not the correct way." Li Yi reflected on his experience, and did some things too sinister and purely to vent his own injustice.
However, the miracle did not give him too much time to think, and the fourth level also began.
The fourth level tests "wisdom".
Li Yi suddenly broke away his eyes, and the bright sunlight projected from the window covered with green vines on the felt covered with felt. The gray-brown felt was warm and thick, and it was the best place to resist the autumn cold.
Next to me is a red copper wall clock, and the time shown on it is six o'clock in the morning.
With a meager sleepiness, Li Yi got out of bed. He was wearing a white pajamas and a bright purple tulip embroidered on his chest. The collar was very open and the materials were used with great care.
"Oh, dear son, you woke up and prepared to come to the dining table for breakfast. After you finish eating, you still have to go to the public college to study. The reason why you didn't send you to the school was because you were afraid that you would lose weight." The mother called Li Yi's name gently and lovingly.
"Court?" Li Yi suddenly felt a strange feeling when he heard this word, as if he had forgotten memories, but instinct and memory told him that he is now the child of a middle-class family, his father is a respected police officer, and his mother is a lawyer. He should be quiet and well-educated to go to the public hospital for breakfast after breakfast. Mathematics and sects are the main courses. He likes sketching very much, has a good relationship with art teacher Aleutian, and there is also a little secret that he doesn't want parents to know. He got along with a girl named Elsa in the hospital. They even secretly kissed each other and touched each other's youthful bodies.
The milk for breakfast was warm and fresh, the butter fried egg was crispy and delicious, and the mouth and stomach were immediately filled with sweetness and heat. These happy feelings drove away all the unnatural doubts in his heart, as if life should be like this.
For some reason, he thought about many problems today, such as ideals, love, and some strange little things. These thoughts made him unable to help but look, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. The flower bed made of red bricks was filled with camellia leaves, but the roses were still green, but the flowers had withered, leaving behind smooth oval fruits, which was very attractive. Li Yi always wanted to pick them off and play, or give them to the little lover in the courtyard, to test out some secrets hidden inside, and finally cut them with broken glass pieces. Perhaps there was a small insect that could smoke cigars, with a fat link-shaped body, soft like a silk pillow.
Turning around the corner, the grocery store was his favorite place. On the dark yellow counter, there was always a box of square candy. Each piece was as big as a thumbnail, hard as ice cubes, covered with clean and transparent glass. The red one was cherry candy, the blue one was blueberry candy, and the purple one was gardenia candy. Although you could see it through the glass, you still had an inexplicable sense of mystery.
The boss's wife seemed to get up very early today, and she sat on the chair wearing a loose orange dressing gown, looking at a thick stack of morning newspapers through the lenses. On the triangular table in front of her were cookies and half a cup of cherry soju.
Li Yi was concerned about the box of candy on the counter. Although he could buy a lot of it with just a few copper coins, his mother always told him not to eat sweets, which would cause great harm to his developing teeth.
The courtyard is very close to here. After walking uphill, I saw a wooden sign saying "Nearby courtyard, passing vehicles slowed down" and the rainwater soaked the joint part, so the teachers used iron wire to fix its head on their necks, thanking it for working for decades.
Sitting in class, he was always absent-minded, as if he had forgotten something, that was a very important thing - why was he here? Who was he?
"How could I think of these strange things? Are they crazy about puberty and random thoughts? I am Li Yi, and I am studying in the yard. What is there to be doubtful about?" Li Yi tried hard to squeeze those thoughts out of his mind. At this time, his little girlfriend Elsa smiled and looked back at him.
Oh my God, she is so bright and charming, with her lips rosy and crystal clear, as if she was rising from the sea, with the morning glow of misty water vapor, her eyelashes were black and bright, and her neck was as white as a swan.
"Li Yi, please answer this question." The teacher in the mathematics class was a rigorous old man. He had big bags of eyes, a pair of black-framed glasses on the bridge of his nose, and a blue-gray striped shirt under his gray tweed jacket. He held a mahogany whip in his hand and gently tapped the blackboard.
Li Yi was a proud man and has always attracted much attention for his intelligence and cleverness. It is a pleasure to listen to him answer questions in rigorously logical language.
After class, Li Yi came to the corner of the courtyard garden alone. A thick banyan tree blocked his figure. This was where he and his girlfriend often had a secret meeting. The sound of birds chirped around him and the leaves rustled in the wind, quiet and peaceful.
Elsa wore a pure white dress with pearls, and compared to her beauty, these flawless pearls all looked dull.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
The conversation is concise, but full of unsolved feelings. The two hugged each other and leaned against the rough trunk of the banyan tree. Time seemed to have lost its direction of flowing.
"What is love?" Li Yi suddenly had this thought for no reason, "Love? I know that I love her. The happiness and trust brought by this love are so clear, but the love itself is pale. Why am I just content with this form and unable to confirm whether my love for her comes from instinct or from the heart?"
Li Yi fell into deep thought. After a long time, he raised his head, "Who am I?"
"I am Li Yi, I am an orphan. From Mies, I am too miserable. I have never loved anyone, nor have anyone loved me. So love is empty and pale in my heart. I have no love. These illusions and hints in my heart are flawless. But the fantasy is magnified by reality. I have no love in my heart, so the illusion cannot be produced. What a pity, goodbye, Elsa." Li Yi woke up from the environment and restored his memory. In this way, the fourth level passed.
"Haha, maybe only someone like me who has a broken heart can pass this level!" Li Yi smiled sadly. The third and fourth levels are both tests on the soul. He found that his heart was so distorted. Sadly, it was difficult to correct it.
"The miserable life in the past turned me into a distorted person, but I am not the first or the last. The world is balanced. This distorted world has created me. My existence is the truth." Li Yi suddenly understood this truth. The whole human being was distorted, and he was just a composition in the distortion.
"This is the beginning of destruction!"
The fifth level is perseverance.
The environment around Li Yi changed. He was actually in a dark cave with rock walls on all sides, and there was only a small chisel beside him. He had to slowly drill through several kilometers of rock layers to see the light of day and night again. At this speed, he had to chisel day and night for more than ten years!
Of course, you can also choose to give up, so the fifth level, that is, the last level, will fail.
He was digging like this. In this environment where there was no comparison around, the time was terrifying. Sometimes, digging had become a mechanized action. He wanted to give up. After all, the rewards of the fourth level were already extremely generous, but he knew that if he gave up, it would be his biggest regret and stain. Once he escaped, he would never be able to untie this knot in his heart.
Chapter completed!