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If she gave birth to a child, her life would be gone.

She was afraid of Wu Lei's approaching, and even held hands. She was afraid that Wu Lei would suddenly use force on her, an emperor and a man, and she had no room for self-protection.

So she tried her best to make herself disgusted, and within a polite and acceptable range, she made Urey disgusted.

This is really difficult. If Urey thinks she is a waste, she will be deposed and lose her current glory and wealth.

It is really difficult to grasp the degree of survival and wealth.

Later, they all said that she was cautious, gentle and steady, but cold and alienated, making people unable to guess.

Wu Lei must not understand either, and he never understood it until the last moment before his death...

Because she never responded.

When did it start?

Perhaps because the loving couple had been performing for a long time, they often had dinner together, discussed the government affairs together, sat behind a desk, and lay on a bed.

I don’t know when it started, but her heart began to shake.

He certainly didn't know that she had cried while holding his clothes, she had secretly stared at his hands with her own light, and had fantasized about the scene of them hugging each other.

After Urey passed away, her biggest regret was that she had never truly embraced him once while he was alive.

Even if you have a hug?

Although the person I like is closest to each other every day, it was when he died, lying on his body and crying...

When I think of this, regret will ate her heart. I can’t remember anything from glory, wealth, or life.

That was why she rushed towards the fire at that moment.

That was the most impulsive time in her life.

But impulse is impulse after all. After being rescued, she lost the courage to give up everything.

After all, she is really just a selfish person who is afraid of death. How could a person's nature change?

The impulse at that moment was her mistake, right?

Then, she asked the question Shen Liuzhen asked her again, what do you want the most?

She answered herself in her heart: I want to make up for my regrets the most.

She should choose to believe in herself and Urey. When he was alive, he did everything a normal couple could do except not having children, as if there had never been any estrangement, and expressed his feelings to each other.

But time never returns, Wu Lei is dead, and the regrets she wants to make up for will never have a chance, unless in a dream or in a memory.

At that time, she felt that being able to live, recall, and dream was really a good thing.

Maybe I love the house and the Wu, because I love Wu Lei, I love the Wei Kingdom.

Because I love Wu Lei, I cannot make up for the regrets in my heart, so I devote all my energy and wisdom to inheriting his will.

It seems that only in this way can one comfort himself.

Many years later, her hair was gray and she walked on the long imperial road with the little emperor who had just completed the ceremony of worshiping the heavens. Both sides were full of civil and military officials standing.

The sixteen-year-old emperor grandson asked innocently:

"The Emperor's Grandmother, grandson heard that the Emperor's Grandmother and grandfather are very loving and inseparable. They even threw themselves into the fire and wanted to follow him. Do you still miss him now?"

When Feng Boyang heard this, a gentle smile appeared on his old face. The washing of time brought her calmness and there was no pain as before. She said lightly:

"Now? It's been too long, I can't remember much... Why do you suddenly ask this?"

The little emperor looked up at her and smiled, saying:

"The grandson is very envious and wants a queen like that, but the one chosen by the emperor's grandmother has never seen the grandson..."

Feng Boyang turned his head and patted his palm lovingly, and said with a smile:

"The so-called love is very good, it's just that outsiders think. Only the two of us know what the real situation is. Your grandfather devotes his life to state affairs, and his children's personal relationships are not important. But he needs me, and I respect him too. The two of them support each other. In the future, you and your queen will do this."

"... Then why did the emperor's grandmother throw herself into the fire?"

"If this is not the case, the ministers will only think that I am greedy for power, and a Han man wants to try to control the court. At that time, I said, "I am trying to defend my family and country for your grandfather and support your father to rule. Because of that matter, no one questioned my sincerity."

The little emperor showed a little disappointment on his face and murmured:

"Ah...so that's how it is."

Feng Boyang smiled lovingly, looked at the sky in the distance, and said lightly:

“…Of course it is.”

Do your best.
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