Speaking of this, the atmosphere in the car was a bit heavy. Xiangnan did not speak again for a long time, and Tongxin never continued to say anything. They just chewed their own sadness and sadness. At this moment, a car, two people, tens of millions

The emotions are intertwined, messy, and it's really messy.

Xiangnan sighed again and then spoke again. His face was indifferent but itchy but heartache. It seemed calm but his heart was very complicated, just like his entangled, twisted, and contradictory.

, awkward psychology.

"The two years I married you were very painful for you and for me, and for me, I live in torture every day. In other words, facing you is actually a kind of torture, I think

You also feel this way, that is, the feeling of a strong love being impacted by a strong hatred.

It's very deep, but love is very strong, and it cannot be broken or broken. When these two repulsive emotions are intertwined at the same time, it often makes people's character split, just like me, to be honest, for the past

I can't even understand a lot about you. I'm so hot and cold to you, and I'm completely like a crazy man who is distorted, but this is the contradictory mind. I want to torture you hard to vent, but I see

When others bully you, they can't help but want to help you, which leads to a very twisted mentality.

I can't say what kind of psychology it is, because hatred sometimes makes it distorted, but love makes it occasionally normal. It's this state, and because of this, your influence on my life is getting more and more.

The deeper we get married, in addition to having such a tangled relationship with you, there is also Nuoer. Many times, I dream of her coming back in my dream. I am very excited in my dreams, knowing that her love for me has not changed.

The love for her did not change, and then the misunderstanding was resolved and we returned to the starting point.

I had such a dream dozens of times in those two years. It was all like this mentality and the ending. But when she really came back in reality, I was not as excited as I imagined, even...

...There are even some resistance and don't want to face it, and she is just like in her dream. She has not changed to me, nothing has changed. She is still waiting for me, but I find that I have changed my mind in reality.

She advised me to divorce you more than once. I thought I would agree immediately if she spoke, but the reality is that I refused to give up this marriage. You said that this is because the shackles given to me by the Tong family are too heavy. Many

I always wonder if this is really the reason? I don’t deny the importance of the Tong family to me, and the burden I give me is also very heavy, but it can make me give up my beloved woman once for the Tong family.

Can you give up the second time without wanting to be free in such a painful life? I can't find the answer to this."

Speaking of this, Xiangnan pursed his lips tightly, and the expression in his eyes changed again. The soft and extreme gaze scattered on the childish face, as if he had hesitated at this moment and continued to speak.

But the tone of voice changed a little, and it became a tone that was warmer than affection.

"There are many incidents that I can't understand. Later you told me that I only care about my child's mother, not my wife. This sentence made me think for a long time, but I think

It's not like that. I was really happy when I knew you were pregnant. That kind of happiness could not be described in words, but when Noor told me we..."

Speaking of this, Xiangnan's face changed, and he bit his lip tightly. It was difficult to speak, and he looked even more guilty. He continued, "But all I have is fear and anxiety, I don't know.

What does this gap mean? Later on, your fake pregnancy incident, now I may be quibbling no matter what I say. I also know that because of that incident, I caused irreparable harm to you, but my mind was too messy at that time.

I was so happy to be pregnant, but they all pointed at you and said you were fake pregnant.

My mind was really stunned. Maybe at that time you thought I believed in Nuoer but not you. Actually, it wasn't. At that time, I didn't believe anyone, and I didn't even believe in myself. I just wanted to avoid you and find someone.

Calm down on the human place, and Nuoer also happened to say this to me, so it hit it off and it led to what happened later. After knowing that you left, I felt that my whole world was dark, and I had gone to find you, really."

Speaking of this, he suddenly became nervous, and his sudden nervousness scared his child's heart.

"But later I found out that you and Yan Jinmin had left, but continued to inquire, but you were no longer in the whereabouts. I gave up. In the three years you left, I almost sold it to the company. If I said these three years

Do you believe that you don’t go home more than three times?”

Speaking of this, his face was filled with indelible pain, "That feeling is so terrible. When I got home, I always felt that you were still there. I finally took sleeping pills and went to bed, but I couldn't wake up and see you still.

Empty, I have worked in the past three years, and I basically couldn't think of anything else in my mind. I was like a machine that only knows how to work, because only then would I not think randomly until you appeared..."

Speaking of this, the painful expression on his face disappeared, as if he suddenly caught a life-saving straw, and the corner of his mouth unconsciously smiled: "That feeling is very wonderful, just like I did twenty-one years ago.

Once I saw you, my originally gloomy mood suddenly became clear, but things changed, you hated me that way, but the deeper you hated me, the more I could feel your love for me before, just like

I found a resonance in you that belongs to me but I don’t know. That kind of emotion will really make people crazy, will make people desperate, and will want to recover you all the time, and you have no other thoughts.

The more I tormented me, the more I want to get closer. Just now, you asked me if the beginning of my love for you is based on Ru Xi? I can answer you with certainty, no!"

no?

After hearing the answer to this question, Tong Xin felt much more comfortable. Xiang Nan was stunned for a moment and said, "Just like the heart of the South China Sea I gave you, that is our love, that heart has

It will hide very deeply, so deep that you can't even find its depth, and it will often be out of touch with your consciousness.

Sometimes I can't imagine that the eager heart has already prompted you to do it, just like all the awkward and conflicts I had with you before, but it was actually a pull of love, but I never thought about it, even

After thinking about it, I refused to admit it. I would admit that one day I could fall in love with my sister. I would also have a day of affection for others. I am really a bastard like this. Even I am myself.

I hate myself, but what can I do? That disobedient heart eventually betrayed my consciousness."

Speaking of this, Xiangnan suddenly grabbed the childish hand tightly, with a strong confession: "I'm really sorry, Xinxin, this love has made you wait for so many years, I really can't give you a certain time

Let me tell you when I fell in love with you, and I can't explain clearly the difference between you and Noel from beginning to end. I think maybe this question is very simple. Noel is my youth that is about to be moved.

The person who appeared, and you were always there, I think this is the most essential difference.

As for Su Yan you mentioned, I am really sorry. I feel really guilty for her. I can't get out of the shadow of her dying for me now, but it's certain that that emotion has nothing to do with love, I said

I don’t know which sentence is the key point, maybe I didn’t mention the key point at all, but this is really my feeling, the most real feeling in my heart.

I don't know if you will be satisfied if I explain this, but what I can guarantee you is that you will definitely be my last woman, and there is nothing else, and I will not allow any woman to intervene. I can swear with my life to do this.

,Really, I will use my actions to prove it to you in the future. I believe in my heart, I cannot erase all the harms that have been used to you, because those are

The facts exist, and they cannot be erased. The only thing I can do now is to use all my love, my love that belongs only to you, and that heart, that one can no longer hold Noor, or Su Yan

, I can't hold any woman's heart to love you, I will make you happy, I will make you happy and I will make you happy and slowly pass everything, okay?"

I don’t know when, nor do I know where I heard it, and when I heard it, my child’s eyes were wet. After hearing it, she didn’t know how many lines of tears she had shed. She hurriedly wiped away the tears with her hands.

Yes, this is reality, it is not a beautiful love story in fairy tales. The prince and the princess can give each other a unique love from beginning to end. In reality, he is your first love, but you are not him

The first one is that there is no way to blame for things like this. Everything in this world is not perfect, and there is no love without regrets and perfect points.

Like this, after experiencing storms, some love that is not only beautiful, but also the most valuable thing to cherish. I don’t know if I am satisfied with these childlike innocences, but I believe his last words.

Her love was not perfect before, and she was not the only one in his past, but in the future, it is worth it. Those pasts should be relieved...

Should she think so?

"Actually, there is one thing you don't know." Before Tong Xin could answer Xiang Nan could suddenly say this again. Tong Xin was stunned. There is something she didn't know?

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Chapter completed!