I have always loved you deeply.

After saying this, his eyes seemed to have regained their former glory, and he looked at me intently, as if he wanted to burn my person, my soul, and even my shadow into his eyes. In his heart, he will never let go for the rest of his life.

And I am speechless.

I have known about his feelings for me for a long time, and I have heard his feelings before the battle for the inheritance, but this is the first time I heard such a straightforward confession.

Every word fell heavily on my heart, almost making me breathless.

I never even dared to think that I would receive this man's deep love for the rest of my life.

Thinking of this, a feeling of sadness and guilt came to my heart. It was because of his vain lovesickness all these years, and also because of my ignorance all these years. I choked and said: "Pei Yuanxiu, please stop talking...I, I don't deserve it." , I don’t deserve it.”

As he spoke, I gently pulled my wrist out of his hand, but immediately felt him grabbing me again with force.

Originally it was very easy to break free from his hand, but now I don't dare, for fear that if I break away from him, if he grabs me with force again and touches the wound on my chest, it will be irreparable. In this way, Come on, I could only stop moving when I heard him say slowly: "I don't want to hear you say whether I am worthy or not. I just want to hear you say whether you are willing or not."

I was stunned and looked up at him with hazy tearful eyes.

Are you willing?

What do you want?

He looked at me steadily and said: "Qingying, I never want to force you, but I also know that if I don't force you, you will not be willing to be with any of us princes. So now, I I want to make a bet with you."

"A bet? What bet?"

"If I don't survive today, I will naturally die like a lamp going out. What happens to the world, Jiangnan, and even you, I can no longer see or care about."

"..."

"If I can survive, Qingying," he grabbed my wrist with more force: "Will you marry me?"

My eyes widened suddenly, as if a thunder exploded above my head, shocking me and losing my reaction.

What did he say?

He wants me to marry him?!

No, no!

I subconsciously wanted to shake my head, but when I looked at those eyes, although his whole body was cold due to blood loss, his eyes were so hot that they seemed to be burning with fire.

For a moment, all the words of rejection were choked in the throat, and the movements of shaking the head also froze.

I...can't bear it.

Because I know, those eyes have been watching me and have never given up for more than ten years. Even after I became a married woman, lost my memory, completely forgot about him, and maybe even hurt him due to amnesia, he never gave up.

.

How can I bear to refuse such persistence?

What's more, he is my daughter's savior after all!

But what I know better is that I can’t agree to marry him just because of these things!

I was silent for a long time and said softly: "But I, I——"

"I know," he said, grabbing my attention and saying, "You don't want to be sorry for me."

"..."

"You don't want to enjoy the privileges I gave you and deceive me after I've loved you for so long."

"..."

"Because - you don't love me."

Although he was very calm when he said this, I could clearly see the cold light on his chest vibrating violently a few times. His breathing became constricted at any time, and his brows were tightened, as if he was holding back great pain.

.

Seeing him like this, my heart seemed to have been stabbed hard by a red-hot sharp needle, causing an almost suffocating pain.

and guilt.

Yes, no matter how much he loves me and how many years of deep lovesickness he has endured for me, no matter how he rescued Li'er and how many hardships he went through to raise Li'er, I don't love him after all.

My emotions cannot allow me to marry someone I don’t love at all, and my reason cannot allow me to use my marriage to repay my kindness.

Therefore, he is destined to be disappointed.

At this moment, I even hate myself a little. Why didn't I fall in love with him? Why should I insist on those damn principles? Why can't I lie to him and marry him? Even if I agreed when I was in Jiangnan, he would be exempt from these things.

Pain, even if you agree to him now, it is still a well-intentioned deception!

But no matter how much I blame myself, I still can’t say those words.

I thanked him for saving Li'er, and I was touched by his kindness over the years, but as he knew - I didn't love him.

I have no choice but to agree to marry someone I don't love at all, no matter how kind he is to me, no matter how much he loves me.

Seeing me almost biting the tip of my tongue in pain, he smiled softly, stretched out his hand and carefully pinched my chin, making me loosen my teeth, and I couldn't help but look at those curved lips.

, eyes full of gentle smiles.

"Qingying, don't be like this. I have never blamed you."

"..."

"You can't actually deceive yourself with your feelings, and maybe you can't deceive others. Even if you really lied to me, I can feel it, and the Yue Qingying I fell in love with is not a woman who would deceive those who love her."

"..."

"I just want to tell you something."

"...What happened?"

"I was not born to love you."

I was startled, not knowing what he meant by these words, and without speaking for a moment, I heard him say calmly: "No one is born to have fallen in love with someone, or should fall in love with someone; love must last a day."

One day, little by little, it gradually turns into a life-and-death promise, and it cannot be achieved overnight with just a look or a smile."

"..."

"Even if you really fall in love with a look or a smile, that's just trying to make things happen. That kind of love is not stable in the first place. If the other person is not worthy, then the love will decrease day by day and little by little in the following days.

Fading away until my heart becomes cold and until I no longer love you."

"..."

"I believe that love is alive, just like a seed. If you give it land, water it, and let it bask in the sun, it will grow. Because you are willing to let yourself love someone, you will be willing to feed it.

This seed."

"..."

"I have fed the seed that belongs to you and grown it; but you may still keep the seed that belongs to me because you have fed other people's seeds and don't need it anymore."

"..."

"Qingying, I don't ask you whether you will fall in love with me. I ask you, are you willing to take out the seed that belongs to me and raise it properly?"

"..."

"Qingying, are you willing to try to fall in love with me?"

At this time, I was speechless.

I was shocked and moved. I didn't expect that his view of love was so thorough and open-minded. He saw through the beginning and end of human emotions, and he could accept all the existence and non-existence of human emotions. He didn't even

Looking for a relationship, just looking for an opportunity.

Are you willing to try to fall in love with him?

Can I fall in love with him?

Just when my heart was struggling and entangled, and my heart was in a mess, there was suddenly a loud noise outside, as if someone was coming in a hurry.

As soon as I turned around, I saw the door being pushed open, and a tall figure appeared at the door.

The candlelight in the room swayed wildly due to the sudden gust of wind that came in when the door was opened, illuminating the dark face and the anxiety and panic in the eyes. As soon as he saw the scene on the bed, he immediately tightened his

frown.

I have already stood up: "Yao Lao!"

The person who came was none other than Pei Yuanxiu’s father, Yao Lao.

Those who went to invite him moved very quickly, and it was indeed because the current situation was critical. If something happened to Pei Yuanxiu, these people would probably not be able to escape the fate of being killed. The appearance of Yao Lao also made me feel relieved.

After a while, he breathed a sigh of relief and said: "You are finally here."

Yao Lao's medical skills were already glimpsed when he detoxified me. With such a master, Pei Yuanxiu should be able to escape this disaster!

He didn't say anything and walked in quickly.

As soon as he approached the bed, the cold light on Pei Yuanxiu's chest immediately pierced his eyes. Yao Lao narrowed his eyes slightly, then immediately turned around and put the wooden box on his back on the table.

As soon as I opened it, a cold light seeped out, and the aroma of medicine overflowed. It was filled with all kinds of life-saving elixirs, rows of knives, and bags of silver needles.

He first picked up a small bottle, poured out three red pills from it, and handed it directly to Pei Yuanxiu's mouth: "Take it."
To be continued...