The mother raised her eyebrows slightly.

She kept looking at me quietly, as if she was waiting for my question. However, when she heard me asking this, she seemed a little confused. After thinking for a while, she said, "He has three children, but I just met and didn't have much impression."

“…”

I was stunned for a moment, and then looked at her indifferent eyes, and suddenly I had the urge to laugh.

Sometimes, some people and things are extremely important to us, as if they fill our entire life, but to others, it is probably just a little coolness blown by the wind, and even memories will not be possible.

Things in the world are so ironic.

My mother glanced at me and said, "Do you still remember him?"

My heart suddenly jumped, and then looked up at her, and she said, "You have gone to play with that child."

“…”

"However, the child is too young and ignorant. When you took him out, you fell down. Everyone was afraid that you would hurt him and would not dare to let you touch him again."

"is that so……"

I was a little nervous and didn't know what else I could say for a while. I don't remember what happened in my childhood anymore. If I could really remember it, it would be better.

It took a long time before I pulled my emotions out of this matter and asked, "Why should mother, give half of the Qiankun map to Liu Shizhou's daughter?"

"That was just a chance."

“…”

"When I was making the Qiankun map, I accidentally discovered that the Kun map looked backwards, like the character "Li". At that time, Liu Shizhou was about to leave Xichuan. Before leaving, he wanted me to name his daughter, so I gave her that character."

“…”

"I gave it to her, and I made up my mind."

"So after that, for so many years, you've been planning this, right? Until I left Nishikawa."

Mother nodded gently.

The sour feeling surged up again, my eyes were hot again, but I stubbornly looked at her: "You, you haven't mentioned a word to me for so many years."

“…”

"You didn't even tell me if you pretended to die."

“…”

"Do you want to hide me?"

After my mother looked at me for a while, she could probably feel my grievance and resentment at this moment. She looked at me with kindness, but she did not feel guilty or apologized at all. She just said calmly: "Because my mother has important things to do, and if she doesn't hide it from you, she can't bear to leave you."

"So, you'd rather give me up!"

“…”

"Aren't you a mother? As a mother, you can bear to give up your daughter?!"

I originally thought that after seeing her, everything would be forgiven and let go of everything, but at this time, I still couldn't help it, and even couldn't control my resentment, and questioned her one by one.

She looked at me for a while and said, "To you, of course I am a mother."

“…”

"But, I am myself."

“…”

"You are already very big now, so you shouldn't have to tell you this."

“…”

"If you limit your identity to others, then you are just an affiliate of others and can never be your true self."

“…”

"You can be a human wife, mother, or even grandmother, but most importantly, you are yourself."

“…”

"Did you forget everything that my mother taught you?"

In an instant, her expression returned to the seriousness she taught me when she was a child. The feeling of being angry and self-righteous again hit my head. I almost thought I was going to cry, but at this moment, even sobbing stopped and I just stared at her blankly.

Under her silent but majestic gaze, I finally sighed and lowered my head deeply.

In fact, what can support me is not a just question.

Just aggrieved.

Just wanting to get a little gentle comfort, I held on for a long time and finally choked up and said, "I...I always..."

I just don't want to give up.

I am unwilling to let her down to me, she is the standard of all right and wrong, and the ultimate pillar in my heart, but I am a person who can be abandoned to her.

I whimpered and murmured, "I always...I..."

A hand gently stretched over and stroked my hair.

At that moment, I seemed to be back to my childhood. After every time I taught me sternly, she would gently caress my hair. Although there was no more words, the tenderness that came out of her fingertips was enough to calm me down.

I looked up at her, and tears fell one by one.

She whispered: "Don't cry, it's so big."

I sobbed and raised my hand to wipe away the tears from my face, but I still couldn't stop the tears from falling. She looked at me and sighed.

"Actually, my mother has selfish thoughts."

“…”

"Mom knows that when you go, you will not be peaceful in half your life. You will definitely go through many twists and turns. If Mom is outside and knows everything, she will worry about you, but can't do anything, Mom will also be in pain. So, in this place, I don't know anything, and when I open my eyes, I already see you now-"

As she said, she reached out and gently wiped away the wetness in the corners of my eyes, and said softly: "At least I can be more grateful."

“…”

"You've survived."

“…”

"And it's up to you."

"Actually, I'm not entirely dependent on myself," I said with a strong breath and a little sob: "Along the way, many people have helped me. The people who my mother stayed in Xichuan are all very nice to me. Even-"

"What?"

"Even Mrs. Yan died for me - for me."

My mother's face shook slightly.

Almost in an instant, her expression looked a little older, and a few strands of snow-white hair fell from her forehead, covering her eyes.

I couldn't see her eyes at this moment, and only heard her breathing hold and sigh again.

I continued, "Master Zhengjue - my second uncle, he has passed away."

“…”

"And Qinghan, he mistakenly thought that the map of the universe in my hand was a secret picture of your sending troops to collect treasures overseas. He went out to sea to search and died overseas."

“…”

"And, there is also aunt, and Mr. Ma..."

“…”

"And Uncle Ai..."

I said one by one, and I couldn't see the expression on my mother's face and her eyes, but only saw that the strand of hair was trembling constantly with her breath.

At the end of the day, my tears came up again and filled my eyes.
Chapter completed!