"I want you."

After saying that, he slowly lowered his head and slowly kissed my lips through the thin layer of gauze curtain as thin as a cicada.

I watched him close his eyes almost intoxicatedly, and his hot breath and hot lips were ironed together, as if he was going to pull me into the flame that burned his soul and reason.

He kissed me lingeringly.

But the next moment, I saw those eyes that were so close to me opened and looked at me.

The eyes reflected my appearance - a layer of transparent veil, the pale face that could not be concealed at all, the hollow eyes, and some cold breath lingered around me, as if a layer of frost was condensed. This made him feel a little panicked, even a little helpless, and seemed to be unwilling to give up. He pressed my hand that had never struggled and resisted again, pressing it on me with force, as if I was trying to suppress me so that I could not breathe or think.

His lips kissed him hard again.

My lips and breath fell immediately, and he crushed and bittened hard, and didn't even let go of the tip of his tongue. He was sucked and sucked so hard that it hurt. But even so, my breathing was not messy, and my lips, which were tortured to the point of swollen and numb, did not feel any heat at all. I just looked at him so calmly.

Finally, a hint of anger rose in his eyes, and he couldn't control his strength for a moment. I heard a "sweet" sound on my lips.

The stinging pain spread all over the body.

He bit his lips.

The tip of my tongue immediately tasted a salty smell, and the bloody smell spread in my mouth. The original charm was dispelled by the bloody smell. I was as clear as before, and his breathing suddenly became cold.

His eyes also became cold.

The cold gaze looked at me, and there was no time to identify the anger and cruelty inside. I just felt his hand slowly let go of me, and the strong and hot body that was close to my body slowly retreated.

Finally, I found my breathing back.

I was still as calm and calm as when I just endured his kiss, slowly lowered my head. I couldn't see what my injured lips looked like, but I saw the gentle veil covered on my face blowing gently by his breath, and a ball of blood was slowly dyeing open.

Is it my blood? Or his blood?

I subconsciously wanted to use the hand that I had already escaped from his shackles to stroke my lips. As soon as I touched my fingertips, a burning feeling came, and the stinging pain made me tremble.

And his voice also rang coldly at this moment-

"What do you mean?"

“…”

"explain!"

He didn't get angry, nor even roar, but the sound that was so low that it seemed to be coming from his chest made me feel his collapse. Just as he kissed me like that, I did not resist and struggle as usual, retreat and refuse, and not even move at all.

There was no reaction at all.

No matter how he kissed me or how he lingered, my lips and breath were cold.

This is what makes him most uneasy.

His eyes were staring at me, as if they were going to turn into nails to hold me in his eyes forever and confined me in his range, although at this moment, he did not touch me at all.

I took a deep breath and finally said softly: "Your Majesty forgive me."

“…”

"My background and identity have not allowed me to change my own mind. In fact, no one can change my mind unless I am myself. Over the years, I have not changed. No matter what happens, as long as it is good, I will do my best to do it. If it is bad, I will try my best to stop it. This is a belief that I have never changed since I was born as a human being."

“…”

"But, although my heart has not changed, my heart has long changed."

His pupils suddenly contracted, and he couldn't see the appearance of me in his eyes for a moment. He could only feel his breathing and heartbeat stop at this moment.

His voice trembled slightly: "What do you mean when you say your heart has changed a long time ago?"

I looked into his eyes and said slowly: "It's... I've changed my mind."

“…”

His breathing suddenly became chaotic, and his eyes seemed to be swept into a turbulent vortex. For the first time, I saw his helpless and panicked expression. Looking at me, he looked around in chaos. When he looked at me again, his eyes were already bloodshot and red.

He gritted his teeth: "What did you say? Have you changed your mind?!"

I had the illusion that I was facing a trapped beast that was forced into a dead end. Maybe the next moment he would pounce on me and bit off my throat. But at this moment, I was calmer and more calmer than ever before. Looking at my red eyes, I slowly said, "Yes, I have changed my mind."

At this moment, I seemed to hear Pei Yuanhao's heart sinking violently.

However, I heard my heartbeat finally calming down.

I finally said it.

I don’t love the person I once loved anymore.

I thought I could finally tell him clearly what I didn’t dare to say or say in my life.

It turns out that it is not difficult.

I changed my mind. After seeing him again, I was afraid, afraid, confused, and all my emotions were entangled. I thought I had hatred, and I did hate him, but in the end I couldn't even understand what it felt like. Until this moment, when I found that I didn't even hate, I stopped tormenting myself.

Just--I don't love anymore.

"Love comes and dies, and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause and cause to be destroyed."

I looked at him and said calmly: "Your Majesty, I have experienced it all in you."

“…”

He seemed to have suffered some heavy blow, and he trembled and staggered back two steps. The curtain covering me suddenly floated with his departure. I looked at his pale face, almost unsteady, but did nothing, and said nothing, just leaning against the cold door and looking at him quietly.

The two of them fell into a deadly silence.

I don't know how long he raised his eyes, and even his eyes were red. The beast-like aura made people tremble. He gritted his teeth and said word by word: "Are you afraid that I will kill you?"

I shook my head: "Not afraid."

"Why?"

"Your Majesty won't."

I looked at him and said slowly, "Your Majesty just asked me to say that you will not hurt me. And I believe that Your Majesty will not act irresponsible."

“…”

"Although I have changed my mind, my intentions have not changed."

He looked at him and slowly stretched out his hand to stroke my cheek. At this moment, I was a little confused whether he was going to caress me or to strangle my neck, but at this time there was no way out. After saying that, I handed all the decision-making power to his hands. Only he could decide how his hands would treat me.

The hand was just holding my wrist and kissing my hand. The palms were so hot that they almost sweated, but at this moment, there was only cold sweat left. As soon as I touched my face, I shivered.

He gritted his teeth: "So, after you know your life experience, you decided to confess this to me?"

Perhaps, even he understood that I was such a hypocritical person.

Among my ten words to him, there may not be one of them true. Before I can fully protect myself, I will not say anything unfavorable to a person who controls my power of life and death. But now, after knowing that he has not killed me even if he has known my life experience, I understand that he will not kill me, and he needs me.

So, I tell the truth.

I looked at his red eyes silently. After looking for a long time, I slowly lowered my eyes and said, "Yang Yunhui was not wrong back then."

“…”

"I'm the one who came out of Hongyan Tower."

“…”

"The best time in my life should have been spent in that place. I didn't learn anything there, I just insisted on one thing-"

“…”

"I want to survive."

I want to survive, no matter what I have experienced or how many difficulties and obstacles there are, I want to survive. This is almost a belief engraved into my soul.

His eyes flashed slightly.

He also remembered the words Yang Yunhui said in Yangzhou Prefecture. At that time, I lost my memory and became a person who had no past and only knew that he could only rely on him. But even so, there was still no long-term peace and joy between me and him.

He sneered: "So you want to tell me that in fact, you entered Beijing and the palace had a purpose. Everything you did was to get close to us princes. When one day any of us ascend the throne, we will be like I am now. We can't bear to touch you, can't bear to kill you, and have to do it for you-"

"Your Majesty, you are wrong," I looked at him and said with some difficulty: "My goal is not you."

“…Who is it?”

"It's the Supreme Emperor."

“…”

His eyes widened.

It was like a bolt from the blue that exploded above his head. At this moment, he was completely confused. It took him a lot of time to hear his gasp in chaos.

He couldn't believe that Pei Ji, he was my goal.

If there was no Queen Yin and others who poisoned him, if there was no sleep for more than ten years, if there was no stubborn desire to get rid of the fate arranged by others, then after entering the palace, I should have been more than a little bit of youth, not inferior appearance, and the ways to seduce men in Hongyan Building, perhaps, with the shadow of the princess in my country, I would have been favored by Pei Ji and become his concubine.

As for Pei Yuanxiu, Pei Yuanhao, and even Pei Yuanfeng... we will definitely not get to where we are today.

They will become my juniors. If we meet in the palace, anywhere, we will salute the rules. In order to avoid suspicion, we will not have too many interactions. I will not understand his ambitions and Pei Yuanfeng, I will not know the mystery of Pei Yuanxiu's life experience, and I will not be entangled with any of them. If Pei Ji died early, my ending would be like the Empress Dowager, who would avoid the world and practice, or...

Thinking of this, I smiled faintly, and felt a hot wetness overflowing from my eyes and suddenly covered my cheeks.

Pei Yuanhao looked at me and froze.
To be continued...