Competition is friendship.

Effort is freedom.

Obedience is strength.

Three lines of clear words were written on the peeling white wall. The boy stood in the office, looking at the white wall outside the window, in a daze.

The boy's name is Yi Wan. He is ten years old this year. As early as three years ago, he was diagnosed by the hospital as having some kind of functional disorder. Autistic, high-functioning, or something else? His parents were really frightened when they got the result.

They rushed Yi Wan to the corridor outside the door and asked the doctor. A few words leaked from the crack in the door:

"Actually, most of the time, there is nothing unusual about him..."

"Will this disease affect his college entrance examination in the future? High functioning... does it mean that the IQ will be higher than others? Will it affect the continuation of the family line?"

There is one last sentence.

"...Actually, Yi Wan's mother is still young, so it's not too late to have a second child at this time."

Just like what the kids in elementary school said to Yi Wan.

"Yi Wan, I heard from my mother that you have high-functioning autism. Does high-functioning mean high IQ? I'm not ashamed to brag."

There are also nicer things to say.

"Yi Wan, are you able to concentrate more on your studies like this?"

"High functioning... IQ should be very high. Yi Wan, can you do this math problem?"

They gathered around Yi Wan to inquire about his welfare. In Yi Wan's mind, they turned into a group of little people dancing hand in hand by the campfire. Among the little people was a doctor who was absentmindedly examining him, and the doctor's mouth

Zhang Yihe spoke terms that he did not understand to his children; there were parents who started quarreling after leaving the clinic. Before the divorce, they talked through the genetic genealogy of eight generations of the two families in court just to explain "Yi Wan"

The abnormality is the fault of the other party, so as to divide more property; some parents tell everyone about Yi Wan's symptoms, and at the end of the gossip, they cover their mouths and say, "Oh, I don't mean anything else, I'm just so pitiful..."

To give themselves redemption for exchanging gossip; there are also some teachers who ask Yi Wan to collect homework from problem students, because Yi Wan is very well-behaved, and he is the only one who has to stubbornly finish the work even if he is pushed into a puddle by the problem students."

They asked Yi Wan to participate in some puzzles or elementary school math competitions; and there were those who spoke loudly in the office: "It is said in novels that high-functioning autism is a genius. I think our class

That Yi Wan's performance was just average..."

When they think about this "disease", they seem to first care about whether someone can benefit from it. Yi Wan said that when they pay attention to a disease with a long name, they first pay attention to the ones that can benefit themselves.

, the attribute part that can function in society. For example, with high-functioning autism, they will think wishfully: "Ah, high-functioning, high IQ? That's great. It sounds very fashionable to have such a genius to admire/listen

He can get up and do some things." This is what they are looking at when they pay attention to this type of disease. For them, compared to this "genius", the attributes related to "autism" are no longer important. Even this

It is a bit "cute", because this makes the "genius" no longer high and can be bargained, they can "buy him" at a relatively low price, the main function is better than other similar products and is not damaged, so

A sense of superiority and intimacy arises spontaneously. This is even done in many movies and TV shows about love, and people live and die about it. But compared to discrimination and sex, this is much better.

But doesn’t this so-called “genius” have a kind of despair in his heart? The lack of a certain function does not mean that he cannot feel it. The people around him seem to be doing it for the benefits he/she can create.

Tolerating him/her like a freak. Yes, they are always freaks. No one regards them as people from the same country as them. They just think that the functions possessed by freaks are cool. These "coolness" make up for the freak's

Their shortcomings made them suffer. Freaks lived in a transparent shell and could not handle these complex emotions, and could not even feel their own despair. So later, people called the story between them "love".

Yi Wan wanted to say that it was not my fault that I got sick. But Yi Wan probably didn't want to say this because he was only ten years old and could not handle such profound emotions.

All he could see was that the head teacher who was talking to him raised his eyebrows high - it seemed that he was distracted. Yi Wan was always distracted. This was not because of ADHD or other diseases, but because for him, he was distracted.

The focus of attention is often different from that of ordinary people. Moreover, the head teacher did not tell him this time that he should come to the office and watch him at the same time. He did not say that he could not do this.

In fact, Yi Wan couldn't distinguish the emotions on people's faces. But he heard the head teacher say: "...Yi Wan, I don't think you are suitable to stay in this class. You are not even suitable to be in this society."

It's time to get off work. Yi Wan can leave.

In the classroom, he found his things scattered all over the floor, as well as traces of graffiti on his desk. In fact, Yi Wan didn't understand why those children were excited about graffiti on his desk. They would be in Yi Wan.

When I stood at the graffitied table at night, I raised my hands like a group of little savages, running and spinning around excitedly, just like primitive societies circling around a campfire.

Yi Wan thought of another saying in the sketchbook. Human genes are exclusive. In ancient times, there was a protracted war between Homo sapiens and Neanderthals. Neanderthals and Homo sapiens looked very similar.

, so the concept of the "uncanny valley" was born - for Homo sapiens, it is a creature that looks like you, but is not you, but will tear you apart. Thousands of years later, Neanderthal

Human beings have disappeared, but the instinct of rejection is still implanted in the DNA of Homo sapiens. People will subconsciously stick together and reject creatures that are similar but different from themselves. Therefore, these children are running, which is this kind of excellent nature.

Baoji is at work. The way they run and circle to watch him is in the same vein as the movement around the campfire in the primitive world. It is an interesting coincidence. This shows that people have never changed from ancient times to the present, even if the environmental technology changes -

In a society where everyone always emphasizes that "turbulence" is bad, is this something worth celebrating?

Yi Wan should be happy for them. Just like the head teacher said: "You must have this society in your heart, and this society will accept you. If you don't have this society in your heart, don't blame this society for executing you."

He picked up his own things one by one on the ground. In the process, a little boy came over, and he told Yi Wan that something had been thrown "somewhere" by them, and Yi Wan could follow him to get it.

In fact, Yi Wan saw him being pushed out by the group of laughing boys who always threw away his things outside the door. He also knew what would happen next: the little boy would take him to "somewhere".

New pranks were played on the party there - such as being caught touching the genitals of the "David" statue, and then they would laugh and say that Yi Wan had a dirty mind - a taboo that could be used again

Words that humiliate people. They have done this many times and it always works.

But Yi Wan can also learn this trick. This time he shook his head no.

The children left. Yi Wan didn't know how they could always get happiness from this kind of activity. Yi Wan obviously showed no expression at all most of the time. So he started thinking about the Neanderthals again.

Several things were not in the classroom. Yi Wan found that the classroom window was open. He poked his head out and found that things had been thrown down, such as his empty schoolbag.

Yi Wan didn't like things being thrown down. There was a flower bed downstairs, and his schoolbag would be stained with mud. When his aunt saw it, she would scold her again - yes, Yi Wan's parents were still divorced. In the name of working out of town, his father first

From Monday to Friday, Yi Wan was left at his uncle's and aunt's house. Later, he simply didn't come back until holidays.

But many times there is nothing we can do about it. Whether it is the father who just came back during the holidays or the children who have been contributing to the stability of society.

Yi Wan decided to go to the library to read. The library was not far away, just a few hundred meters away from the elementary school. The schoolbag was carried on his back, which was wet, but everyone carried schoolbags to and from school, so it didn't matter. This was Yi Wan's.

Imitation of late integration into society. But he still thinks about the Neanderthal story. Would other people in society want to know the Neanderthal story?

The reading room is small. But Yi Wan likes it here because there are not only old books but also computers. Yi Wan likes to use computers, which bring him a different world. He even learned typing and handwriting without any teacher.

The speed was very fast. So the head teacher once said, "Yi Wan is indeed a high-functioning autistic person" and asked him to do some inputting work for him.

Why did he start thinking about it again?

There are books about Neanderthals in the library. But they are too obscure, and they are in English, so Yi Wan can't understand them. In addition, Neanderthals appear in "The World's 100 Most Horrifying Unsolved Mysteries"

Among similar books, they sell better than the previous books. I can’t tell whether it’s because of the sensational title or the content, or whether the words “World” and “Top 100” give people a sense of indifference after reading it.

The illusion of being able to understand the world better than other people. Yi Wan read this book about Neanderthals. One page discussed whether Neanderthals were reproductively isolated from humans and how their women were.

Sexual intercourse, what is the difference between their women's vaginas and those of Homo sapiens women? Yi Wan looked at the page next to this book and told about another "horrifying unsolved mystery". Women from a certain tribe in Africa will

They put silver rings around their necks one after another to elongate their necks to make them more beautiful. As they grow older, they add new silver rings around their necks until the skin on their necks is worn.

Stretched to the limit, it is as thin and fragile as paper. The last paragraph of the book says in a sensational tone that these women who grew up from girls will not be able to take off the silver rings around their necks. These once restraints and tortures have now become

The support of life. Once taken off, their necks will break like paper. Then their heads will roll down like bones. In other words, they will die. Take off the shackles they are wearing.

It seems that after using the silver ring to transform them, they will die.

For most people in society, isn't death a very scary thing? Yi Wan still remembers that during the flag-raising ceremony in the morning, because she didn't cry or show sadness when she heard the news of the principal's death, other children said, "

Yi Wan will definitely be an antisocial bad guy when he grows up. But the tone in the book is very exciting, as if this is a very interesting thing. This time no one criticized the book. It has also been published. Can

Published things, like textbooks and student regulations, are all good things that can inspire people. Yi Wan doesn't understand why there is such a difference.

Excited, maybe excited, Yi Wan doesn't feel much emotion.

Are they trying to imitate giraffes? But they can't eat leaves. Why do people add rings of silver rings around their necks to turn themselves into a giraffe as they grow up?

Yi Wan began to fantasize about giraffes again. Giraffes replaced Neanderthals and became the theme in his mind today. But he did not forget Neanderthals. Before leaving the library, he used the old computer in the library to surf the Internet.

Search for Neanderthals. The terms associated with the search engine are "Neanderthal reproductive isolation", "Neanderthal female prisoners of war" and "Neanderthal sex\/intercourse".

A bit absurd, a bit monotonous, a bit like a whale seeing Spongebob in the deep sea. It is the same as the book, there is no difference.

The library is closed. There is only Yi Wan among the bookshelves, just like there is only one elephant in the aquarium of the zoo. The old lady manager said: "Little Yi Wan is alone again."

Yi Wan said: "Yeah."

Yi Wan was very polite. He felt that he should respond to the kind old lady's greetings. But he didn't know what to say, and he couldn't talk to the old lady about Neanderthals and giraffes. So many times he would only say "hmm".

But the old lady seemed to like Yi Wan's quietness very much. She said, "When are we going to bring other children with us? Look, you are not like other children who play with friends in the yard after school. You look very lonely.

, this is not good.”

Yi Wan said: "Yeah."

He slowly walked out of the library, thinking about giraffes. Soon he discovered that he was no longer alone.

Because the children around the campfire obviously didn't have enough fun and followed him again.

…

"Is Yi Wan so shy? Like a little girl."

"hahahahahahahaha!"

Yi Wan was cornered by them, and several children were scribbling on him with colorful chalks. He reached out to block him at first, but this seemed to make the boys even more excited. They pressed down on Yi Wan,

Continue to paint on his face, pink and white, red and green, yellow, yellow and blue.

Yi Wan then began to think about it again. He was thinking that primitive people used shells as currency, and the Mayans used cuneiform writing. They would use the fruit of a wild flower to squeeze out red juice, and use the juice to draw pictures on the stone walls...

Blue is the most precious color, so before the Renaissance only religious paintings would use a lot of blue, because God is supreme and should be worshiped with the most expensive color...
To be continued...