meet.

look.

Holding hands.

Embrace.

kiss.

Go to bed.

make/love.

And then... form a family.

"Marriage is the product of private ownership. Private property is divided into family units. The family guarantees the stable operation of the social system. Since the emergence of the concept of 'family', people have reduced their 'aggression' and become more stable."

"Deviant aggression is itself a form of bestiality."

"Family is like the pot of a potted plant, like the roots of a tree. There is another meaning of its existence. It makes people forget their own existence as an individual. It makes people take root in the depth of the relationship between two people like a cactus taking root at the bottom of the desert.

Treat the family's goals as your own goals, revise your own concepts to the concepts of the family, and 'let your wandering heart rest', thereby achieving the ultimate effect."

Yi Wan opened his eyes. He saw himself standing on an endless snowfield. Behind him was a safe house with a bonfire burning. He was carrying a bow and arrow, and the front was unknown.

Someone said to him: "Just go here."

But he took the arrow and set off towards the unknown front. Deep in the snowfield, there might be an aurora, there might be a lake, or there might be nothing. Finally, he saw a blue lake. A tall man stood beside the lake.

, he walked all the way to that person.

Then he remembered that that man was Homo sapiens. He was the only Neanderthal left in the world, and was almost wiped out by Homo sapiens.

He drew the bow string and nervously fought back, but realized that there was nothing on the bow string. Homo sapiens reached out to him, and the atrocities against the last Neanderthal in the world were finally about to begin. He was going to die. This theorem is like evolution.

It is an iron law like natural elimination. Although he is afraid, this is the ending. Because he remembers that this is how the Neanderthals were exterminated. This is how things are. He can only accept that his death is also needed for the birth of the new century...

But the man pushed him down by the lake and kissed him.

Yi Wan's eyes widened in horror during the kiss. His eyes were cracked, even wider than when he was scared before being killed. A line of trembling words floated in the sky: "The leader of Homo sapiens fell in love with the last person in the world."

A Neanderthal. They formed a family. The war ended. The family made them forget their hatred, and the world lived a better life."

that's all?

Is just one family enough for people to reconcile with all misfits?

Yi Wan looked down at himself. He suddenly realized that he was not a Neanderthal, but a giraffe. The giraffe's long neck was elevated by circles of silver rings. People looked at him and pointed at him.

The high place was the fruit he wanted to eat. But he couldn't reach any longer. He stood there until he died.

…

Yi Wan woke up from a nightmare. When he woke up, he found that he was covered in cold sweat. Yu Rongshi was sitting on the bed next to him, smoking a cigarette, his face illuminated by the flames.

.

He felt that Yu Rongshi's expression at this time was different from usual, a little complicated, a little dark, as if another version of him had awakened in his body.

"Are you awake?" Yu Rongshi said, putting out the cigarette butt next to him. Yi Wan looked at him intently and said, "...you don't usually smoke."

"Hmm. Did it hit you?" Yu Rongshi said.

Yi Wan said: "No."

He slept with his face against Yu Rongshi's finger door, which smelled faintly of tobacco. Yi Wan took ten days' leave, and Yu Rongshi also took annual leave. This was the seventh day of the vacation. He had nothing to do in these five days.

Qian, just stay at home and stay with Yu Rongshi.

The air conditioning is always on in the house. When Yu Rongshi makes breakfast these days, he only wears one of the other party's shirts and sits on the bar chair in a daze. Then they watch TV in the living room and start watching.

Doing it, or in bed. Yi Wan's lips became very red and plump. It was not easy to squeeze this color out of his body, like flowers blooming in the snow.

You don’t have to think about the past, you don’t have to think about the future, you don’t have to think about whether what you are doing now is meaningful, you don’t have to think about the life you have worked so hard for, how it compares to others, and what others are doing. You don’t have to think about where you are without it.

Clues, looking for threads of possibility in the desolate snowfield, and thinking about what will happen to me in forty years if I continue like this.

I have never been addicted to sensory experience. I am very happy.

But something was a little different about Yu Rongshi today. Yi Wan closed his eyes and slept for a short while, then woke up again. It was snowing outside the window, and Yi Wan said, "Today is December 22nd. I'm so cold."

There is clearly enough heating on in the house.

"Wait six months," Yu Rongshi said, "wait six months, summer will be here. The warm season will come. We will find it."

Yi Wan said: "...It's also very warm now."

He leaned into the other person's arms.

Yu Rongshi said nothing. He also lowered his eyes and played with Yu Rongshi's fingers. Finally, he heard the man say: "Do you like the food I cooked?"

"like."

"Do you like me taking care of your life?"

"like."

"Do you like my taste in picking out your clothes?"

"like."

"Do you think my...that technology is okay?"

"Um."

Yi Wan was surprisingly candid in this regard. He never minced words. So he heard the man's next question: "Then do you want to... go with me?"

"Where to go?"

"The company sent me to develop business abroad. It's time for us to establish branches abroad." Yu Rongshi said, "Your laboratory has some confidentiality agreements. What you are doing now may not be done anymore. But you can

Go do something else, and we will continue to live as happily as we do now."

"..."

"We will have a house with a two-car garage, a front yard and a back yard. I will plant flowers in the front yard, put a holly leaf wreath and deer at Christmas, and put a bench in the back yard to watch the stars. We will also

There is a puppy you like. In the summer, you go to the beach and in the winter, you go skiing. At night we light a bonfire at home, just the two of us. If you don’t like the excitement, no one will bother you," he said.

"..."

Yi Wan remained silent.

His finger was lifted, and Yu Rongshi picked up a ring from the bedside. The diamonds were like his eyes. He said, "Yi Wan, will you wear my ring?"

Put on my ring and form our family.

Let’s spend the spring together, the summer together, the autumn together, and the winter together. Consider our two lives as the new goal of life. Reconcile yourself with your ideals and nightmares, enjoy life, use your ideals as an embellishment of your life, and make your family yours.

"Thread", just like every mature person.

But the ring got stuck on Yi Wan's knuckle.

Yi Wan flexed his knuckles to keep the ring from wearing it all the way. He didn't speak, but his knuckles were faintly resisting... At the same time, he noticed that Yu Rong was using a lot of force.

It's never been easier to explain, like a confrontation.

Yu Rongshi lowered his eyes and did not look at him: "Do you love me, Yi Wan."

"My favorite among everyone." Yi Wan said, "I just... it's not a question of whether I love you or not."

"What's the problem then?"

"Is that kind of life happy? If my current life is going to be destroyed, that kind of life is also easy to be destroyed. I can think of dozens of reasons why it will be destroyed at once. Unemployment wave, economic crisis,

Export controls, conflicts between countries, and conflicts between races." Yi Wan said, "Every world will have its own troubles."

"But I will always love you."

Yi Wan was silent.

"Then where do you think the answer to happiness is? This kind of life doesn't work, and that kind of life doesn't work either. Where are you going to find it?" Yu Rongshi said, "Yi Wan, there is no absolute freedom in this world, and no one can

Can give you absolute freedom, even if it is God."

Yi Wan was silent again.

He finally said: "Have you ever seen a giraffe? You remind me of a giraffe."

Yu Rongshi stopped talking.

Finally, he left the ring on Yi Wan's last knuckle and said softly: "Yi Wan. Yang Huan left a voice message for you. He said he went to the college to look for you but couldn't find you. He will be in the office this afternoon. You

If you have time, you can go and find him."

Yi Wan nodded as if he had expected it.

He still put on the white down jacket and the avocado green scarf. When he went out for the first time in a few days, Yu Rongshi stood behind him and said in a tired tone:

"Yi Wan, actually you are very tired...Actually you are just very tired. There is nothing wrong with you. People always want to escape sometimes. You are already very great."

"...But will anyone really have the strength to spend their whole life chasing a summer that may never happen in the future?" He said, "If God had not stopped here, this place would have been destined to be an ice age."

Yi Wan's hand holding the doorknob paused, and he said, "I'll be back."
To be continued...