ten years ago.

In summer, it is five o'clock in the morning when the sky lights up in X City, and in winter it is later, at seven o'clock in the morning. Qin Xuexin knows this because she has to get up every morning to empty the toilet.

Once in the morning and once in the evening.

Leaving the main room, there is a narrow path, and the same dilapidated and crowded houses on both sides. This is the very edge of the city, where migrant workers gather, and a bad security area that gives government workers a headache. Qin Xuexin once lived in a nearby mountain

Looking down from here, it looks like an island made of garbage floating in the city.

Because after leaving the isolated island, you can walk a few steps to the busy streets and the newly built properties a few years ago.

They look like they belong to the big city, but in fact they are part of the city that has been abandoned.

Qin Xuexin's family lives here.

Qin Xuexin often pulls the collar of her school uniform high when she comes back carrying the toilet, hoping that it will cover her face. Such embarrassment occurs twice a day. What young girl would want to be seen carrying a bucket of filth?

Woolen cloth.

Besides, she is quite good-looking.

But she didn't today. Her eyes were red, absent-minded, and indifferent.

There was breathing and breathing in the room, and there was the sound of men drinking porridge. Yesterday, my uncle brought his cousin Qin Xing to the city to see a doctor, so he stayed at home overnight. Qin Xuexin didn't go in immediately because they were talking inside.

"...So the matter of student status is still not settled?"

"No way. She was left in the countryside when she was little. She doesn't have a household registration here."

"A few years ago, when the control was not strict, we didn't have such an opportunity. I told you about the Qiangzi real estate project. At that time, there was no subway in this area, and the housing prices had not increased. At that time, I advised you to grit your teeth and get on the bus and forget it.

, if Qiangzi gives you more connections, Xiaopan’s study matter will be solved."

Qin Nian'er. Nian is the thought of missing his son.

Xuexin was her later stage name.

"What you're saying is, there's only one girl in my family, so what's the point of buying a house? In the end, it belongs to someone else's house. It's better to smoke a few more packs of cigarettes. It's not like having Qin Xing in your family, that's what I hope..."

Breathe in and exhale.

There was the sound of eating noodles again.

"My mother-in-law's belly is not up to par either. She lost one child and never got pregnant again. When I die, I will have to rely on your Qin Xing to break the pot, otherwise there won't even be anyone to break the pot..."

Teeth are shaking.

"What about the college entrance examination? I've been studying for so many years."

"I'm too lazy to run away. I won't take the exam. She belongs to someone else's family anyway. Li Jiajuan has already entered the factory at this age. In the past two years... the bride price... 120,000 yuan... this girl can make her money back..."

"Juanzi is not as good looking as Nian'er. Your Nian'er can ask for at least three hundred thousand..."

No more exams.

So I didn’t take the exam.

Qin Xuexin has never doubted every word of her father. Because she knows better than anyone else that this man will not change any decision for her.

Then there was a woman's voice, coming from her mother.

"She's just a girl. She deserves to be raised like this."

The final word.

"Sister, what are you doing standing here?" A confused voice came out.

It's Qin Xing, the boy who went out to let loose.

"You're going to die! What are you doing standing there with the toilet in your hand?" the middle-aged woman in the room screamed, "Are you lazy?"

Chin

, you take your brother to the hospital to get water."

My dad goes to the construction site to play cards? For so many years, he has been using the excuse of "raising a girl to make movies, how can I save money?" He spends three days fishing and two days drying nets. Such lame excuses still make middle-aged women feel guilty.

Guilt.

Qin Xuexin felt that something in her throat was about to overflow. She heard Qin Xing say: "Aunt, today is Monday, and I have to go to school."

The middle-aged woman said: "Just let her go. She won't be able to pass the college entrance examination anyway. If she doesn't go to school, she won't go to school... Who are you showing your face to? Qin Nian'er, let me tell you, we can treat you

That's right. I let you go to high school and only raised you. Don't be so shameless and show off your face to others..."

"It happened that Aunt Wang and the others were short of people before. We just got there. I'm a teenager and still living at home and eating family food. I think I'm some kind of pretty lady..."

"Uncle, aunt, my sister's grades are so good, why not let her study?" Qin Xing coughed and said, "Dad! Don't you know so many people? Think of something for sister Nian'er..."

"Did you only raise me? You couldn't give birth to the other one -"

"Snapped!"

A hard slap in the face.

Qin Xing was so frightened that he cried loudly. Several adults gathered around to comfort the precious boy. Qin Xue's heart and hair were in turmoil, and she covered her face and did not dare to look at her family.

Ran out.

She rushed to the street, which was only a thin line away from the busy traffic, and stepped back when she looked up and saw the automobile merchandise building. Qin Xuexin always wore her school uniform when she was on the island. Although it was old, this was what made her proud and made her feel different from others.

.But outside the isolated island, in the eyes of others, this dress only means poverty and backwardness.

So she quit.

Student status.

Middle school.

Read in vain.

I'm worth three hundred thousand, right?

She covered her face and cried in the morning light. Advertisements for female celebrities flashed on the bus stop next door. She said: "I am here today mainly because of my own efforts and the opportunities I fought for..."

Just give me a little chance, just give me a little respect.

Let me kill people and set fire to them.

"Qin Nian'er?"

Ruined.

Qin Xuexin looked up blankly. She saw several girls looking at her with narrow eyes. One of them looked at the slum area behind her with an expression of disgust. The other raised his chin, with a malicious pride hidden in his smile.

"I just saw you running out of here. Do you live here?"

"Isn't this our school beauty and college tyrant?"

"Hey, no wonder you want to take the 211 exam so much, it's just different from us."

Ruined.

These are the girls in school who love to bully people the most.

The girls laughed and left. Qin Xuexin felt cold all over. As a loan student without a student status, of course she couldn't go to a good middle school. The atmosphere in this middle school was very bad, and of course she knew what happened to the students who were targeted. Moreover,

In the past, when she was in school, in order to disguise her family background, she would always take a detour and come out from the other end, pretending that she lived in that commercial housing complex.

I forgot all about it today.

It's all over.

She shook her shoulders and began to twitch. In a daze, she saw the slogan on the billboard.

Women's talent show.

She gritted her teeth and stood up suddenly. She remembered that she had passed by the road to the talent show before. The bus in the morning was very crowded, and no one noticed whether everyone had bought a ticket. Even so, she squeezed

In the gap between people, I feel like a thief.

Give me a chance.

Just a little chance.

Let me kill people and set fire to them.

she thought desperately.

All the gifts of life have a price tag. But some people don't even have the tickets to receive the gifts.

In the years that followed, only once did she receive a gift.

"The name Qin Nian'er is very gentle." The company boss said, "Nian'er..."

"Actually, I want a son." Qin Xuexin stammered.

"That's not good, let's change a stage name. Many artists use stage names." The company boss said, "You can think of one now."

It turns out that artists can change their names.

The young Qin Xuexin did not travel through time, was not reborn, did not get the system, and was not adopted by the wrong family. She was suddenly recognized by a family with a compound surname and became a rich princess.

But she still got a name when she was eighteen years old. This was the first gift that young Qin Xuexin gave herself.

…

So why should we look for Bo Jiang? Qin Xue couldn't figure it out.

"Actually, you really hate Bo Jiang." She heard Yi Wan say, "You have everything, but you always look half-dead."
To be continued...