Chapter 54 The pain of being unable to control yourself

The servants of the Du family were very attentive in their service. They brought hot water for bathing and a hot water kettle for a smoker. All the bedding was new and very appropriate.

Li Yu came out of the bath and changed into a simple long robe and sat there with her hair loose, making herself a cup of tea.

"Girl, let me help you wipe your hair. Although it's hot, it's autumn, so I'm afraid the wind will blow on your head."

There was a girl standing next to them, who was specially sent to serve them.

"Okay, thank you sister."

"Don't be polite. Our old lady has spoken personally. We must serve all the masters well and don't neglect them. Otherwise, they will all be kicked out and no one will be left behind."

The girl smiled and took a handkerchief to wipe her hair.

"May I have your name?"

"Slave Red Lotus, the name of the flower."

"The lotus flower is noble and pure. It is a good name."

"Thank you for the compliment, girl. If you want to eat something tonight, I can go and ask for it."

"Let's have some light porridge. The food doesn't have to be complicated, just lighten it up. It's been a very bumpy journey, so I want to take it easy."

Li Yu didn't ask for it, just make it lighter. This is easier to make and won't embarrass the chef.

"Okay, I will make arrangements now."

Hong Xiu dried Li Yu's hair, put it into a simple bun, and went to the kitchen to serve the meal.

Lin Yue also came out from the bath, sat down and breathed a long sigh of relief.

"I still feel like my body is swaying with the carriage."

"Just two days of rest will be enough. This journey is really hard."

"I don't care. The main thing is that you worked much harder than me. Yu'er, thank you for saving my life and taking me as a burden along the way. I will remember your great kindness in my heart."

Lin Yue sincerely thanked her again.

"Don't be so serious. You have to be strong and live a good life in the future."

"I will. No one will support me this time. I have to be strong and brave. I will live well and be there for my parents and relatives."

Lin Yue raised her head and took a deep breath. She finally woke up and could no longer dream.

Li Yu looked at her with her lips pursed, and didn't know how to persuade her. She was really suffering. In the past, her parents wanted to sell their daughter to seek honor and change their family, regardless of her face.

Now that her parents are gone, she is the only one left. Even if she has an aunt, she can't really care about her too much. After all, Gu Lin is also a widow and she doesn't have much ability.

"Going to Wang's house and studying hard will be beneficial to you."

"I know it's because you took pity on me and gave me opportunities again and again. I can no longer be willful. I will learn my skills seriously."

Lin Yue shed a tear.

"In the end, you have to fight your way through life by yourself. Your aunt hopes that you will live a better life than she does."

"I...I didn't understand before, but now...I understand."

Lin Yue nodded with tears in her eyes.

"Don't cry, or people will think I bullied you again."

Li Yu wiped her tears.

Lin Yue wiped her tears and laughed, "What's the matter? It's obvious that I have been bullying you. You are a soft-hearted person who is best bullied."

He pointed at her and said flatly.

"You still want to touch me."

Li Yu scratched her nose.

"Yu'er, I was sorry for you before. I was too ignorant. I... just couldn't accept the reality. You are very happy and lucky. You have parents who really love you. I don't. I actually know everything, but I can't do anything about it.

…”

I have always been a tool of the Lin family, just a pawn to please the superiors and change the family. I know it, but I don't want to admit it.

"I don't know how to advise you. I think you may not be in the worst situation now. Now you can live your life according to your own wishes, learn your skills, and live a down-to-earth life. You no longer need to be someone's pawn. You can just do your best.

Yourself, Lin Yue."

Gu Lin and Wang who were outside the door were listening attentively. They came to see if the girls had settled in and if there was anything missing.

After hearing these words, Mrs. Gu Lin endured sadness. She was not a tool. She was just a tool at the mercy of the late emperor. It gave the Lin family hope, just like a wolf smelling meat.

Wang patted her shoulder, and Gu Lin covered her mouth to prevent herself from making any sound, turned around and walked away quietly.

There was a screen blocking the door, so Lin Yue didn't notice anyone outside, and Li Yu didn't reveal it either.

"Be myself?"

Lin Yue had never thought about this problem.

The stunned expression was a bit at a loss and confused.

"Yes, be yourself. No one will force you to do something you don't want to do anymore. You can think about whatever you like and do it. If you don't know how, just learn."

Li Yu clapped her fingers and continued, "I liked Luban locks when I was a child. I thought it was very interesting. I wanted to learn it, so my father went to find mechanical toys to coax me. As a result, I couldn't control it. The more I thought about it, the happier I became.

That’s why we later invited the Mo family’s successor.”

"I like to play with my brothers, and I also long to watch them practice martial arts. When I was a child, I wanted to be a flying heroine. It was so free to travel around the world, so I decided to practice martial arts. My father secretly increased my training volume.

, you want me to quit despite the difficulties, but I won’t be fooled. I have persevered through no matter how hard it is.”

She wrinkled her nose and looked proud.

"Yu'er, you know I envy you so much, and I'm jealous of you. You live a life that's flamboyant, like a beautiful rose with thorns, but I'm not as good as you in every way. I'm like a clown in front of you, and I feel so uncomfortable...

"

Lin Yue finally bravely said what was in her heart. She had no close friends and it was also because she was introverted and had low self-esteem.

She wasn't stupid. How could she not know that there was a big difference between her and the Gu family? What could she do? Her mother would send her directly to the Gu family every now and then to be a guest. She wouldn't come to pick her up for half a month.

How should I deal with myself? The Gu family resented her, not because they didn't know, but my mother didn't care at all. She just said that this marriage must be successful. If it doesn't work, just cook it and find an opportunity to make it happen.

What does mother mean, shame is nothing, useless things can be thrown into the bucket. You have to marry the Gu family whether you want to or not, it’s not up to you.

I didn't understand it when I was a child, but I understood it when I got older. There was something wrong with my mother's upbringing. She deliberately guided herself to admire and covet her cousin. In fact, she was using herself, but she had no right to resist.

At that time, she only said that her cousin was avoiding her like the plague, so why go there anymore? Then she was slapped in the face, called a useless idiot, and was fined without eating for two days.

She knew she had no choice and could never make the decision herself.

"Lin Yue, I don't know how much hardship you have endured, but I can see that you are a good girl. You have never done anything bad, you just have a bad mouth. No one will force you to do something you don't want to do anymore. You

You can behave openly and honestly."

"Maybe your aunt knows everything. She let you live in the Gu family just so that you can have a peaceful life for a few days without suffering too much grievance."

When Lin Yue heard this, she covered her face and cried. She burst into tears. This time, she was really sad and sad in her heart.

"I failed my aunt. I couldn't help her. My aunt... really loved me. I couldn't help her and my cousin..."

Lin Yue lay on the table and cried loudly. She had accumulated too much bitterness and pain that was not shared by outsiders, and now she found an outlet to vent her feelings.

Li Yu did not persuade her, but sighed, wanting her to vent her emotions. He could feel that there were too many things accumulated in her heart, which had exceeded the pressure she had endured at her age.
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