The wind calms down and the night is quiet, and the lights are dim at night.

The sky in September is not cold, but the cold dew drops in the middle of the night, making it so cold.

After taking a shower, Gu Jinzhi called the palace servants to come in to serve the dressing.

The smell of the bathhouse was very exciting, and the four little palace maids who came in frowned slightly.

Gu Jinzhi did not look straight, and let them serve and put on their clothes and come out of the bath.

Her hair was wet.

Zhu Zhongjun has already bathed and has been waiting for a long time.

Things are done here, and Aunt Cheng has to take down her great responsibility. She takes her people back to Kunning Palace to pay for her. The Xilan Palace is quiet.

Seeing Gu Jinzhi come out, Zhu Zhongjun smiled at her.

The palace servant took a scarf and a squid to wipe Gu Jinzhi's hair.

Gu Jinzhi took it and said with a smile: "It's not too late, so don't need to serve..."

The palace servant followed the advice and did not dare to say a word, and retreated outside the hall repeatedly.

After closing the hall gate, only Gu Jinzhi and Zhu Zhongjun were left in the wide and tall inner hall.

The roof of the hall is high, and in the glazed tiles on the dome, a few cool moonlights appear, reflecting on the ground, connecting with the moonlight that penetrates in the window, quiet and condensed.

The cold air of autumn night quietly climbed up.

Zhu Zhongjun got up and carried Gu Jinzhi to the bed.

He took the scarf from her hand and smiled and said, "I'll help you wipe your hair."

Gu Jinzhi said it was OK.

She sat with her back to Zhu Zhongjun, her wet black hair hanging down, and all of them were placed on her thin and slender shoulders.

Zhu Zhongjun helped her wipe her hair with gentle movements.

The two of them were silent for a moment, and Zhu Zhongjun said, "Gu Jinzhi. I have a very serious problem..."

"I didn't describe myself like this." Gu Jinzhi replied, his tone calm and unevenly ups and downs. "Who says he has something wrong? This is a swear word."

"I have hidden diseases." Zhu Zhongjun changed his statement, "Apart from sexual diseases, other diseases that cannot be told by anyone can also be called hidden diseases, right?"

Gu Jinzhi: "It should be possible."

She speaks very lightly and has no interest.

She felt that Zhu Zhongjun was talking nonsense.

Gu Jinzhi is a doctor who has been with so many years. Although the doctor will lose his mind when he is consulting the person he is closest to, Gu Jinzhi can see clues of the disease.

Zhu Zhongjun has no hidden illness at all.

"When I was studying outside, most of my classmates thought I was gay," said Zhu Zhongjun.

"At that time, our school also had this saying: boys who were handsome and beautiful were all homosexuals and didn't have to chase them. You are the best-looking ones. It's not uncommon for others to misunderstand like this." Gu Jin's words.

Zhu Zhongjun smiled.

When they were young, the domestic atmosphere was relatively conservative. When he was in junior high school, girls confessed to him.

When he went out to high school, most of the people who confessed to him were boys, girls, and fewer, and they were all Asian girls.

At that time, girls always said that he had the temperament of a gay person...

"...You have dated a boy?" Gu Jinzhi asked, "Is this your hidden disease?"

The scarf and handkerchief in Zhu Zhongjun's hand tightened, and his voice couldn't help but get angry: "No! What you said is disgusting."

"You said first." Gu Jinzhi said, "It's not that I said you are..."

"I'm not!" Zhu Zhongjun immediately said, "We couple for so many years, are I? Do you still not know? Have you ever been perfunctory when I was with you?"

"No." Gu Jinzhi said fairly.

Zhu Zhongjun was only satisfied.

The topic turned back to his hidden illness.

"When we separated, I was in my prime." Zhu Zhongjun said, "When men all have sperm | insects | brains, I can't avoid it. Sometimes I'm anxious and want to find someone. I have looked for it before...

”

Gu Jinzhi gently picked his lips.

She never thought that Zhu Zhongjun would be a monk in his remaining life.

This is unrealistic.

Their marriage was separated by Gu Jinzhi.

Gu Jinzhi didn't care much about whether he had found a woman again.

Now, she still doesn't care much.

"I've searched twice..." Zhu Zhongjun hesitated.

Gu Jinzhi said, "It's okay. At that time, we were all separated. You are looking for someone else, it's not considered a traitor. Besides, it's all in my previous life, so I never expected you to not look for it. Now, I want to

Marrying you is to marry you now. Just don’t betray me in the future.”

Zhu Zhongjun behind him was silent.

His hand that wiped Gu Jinzhi's hair also paused.

He coughed gently, looking very embarrassed.

"...It's not done." Zhu Zhongjun was silent for a while before saying.

Gu Jinzhi was also stunned.

"What's wrong?" Gu Jinzhi asked him.

"Disgusting." Zhu Zhongjun said, "It's the first time I went in. It's hot and wet, sticky and wet, like swallowing the pus spit out by someone else's mouth. I was so scared that I stepped out. I was so disgusting that I put on my clothes and left.

When I was the second time, I obviously wanted it very much, but when I thought about the feeling last time, I was even more disgusting. I didn’t even do the prelude, so I let the woman go…”

Gu Jinzhi frowned.

She thought for a while and said, "When you have sex with a woman, do you feel disgusting?"

Zhu Zhongjun nodded softly.

"Are you gay?" Gu Jinzhi said, "Who are you lying to?"

Then I remembered something, turned around and looked at him, "Are you still like this now? Are you disgusted when you touch me?"

Zhu Zhongjun threw away the scarf and handkerchief in his hand, leaned over her and kissed her lips.

He took her hand in his mouth and sucked for a moment. He let go of Gu Jinzhi, took her hand, and touched him lower body.

The hot clone stood up unwillingly.

"If it's disgusting, can you react?" Zhu Zhongjun said, "I'm not disgusting at all when I do it with you. When did our couples over ten years be unhappy?"

Gu Jinzhi quickly retracted his hand.

Her attention was turned to Zhu Zhongjun's issue, and she was not so disgusted with his touch.

Looking back on the sex joy in my previous life, it seems perfect.

Zhu Zhongjun never showed any disgust for women.

Gu Jinzhi glanced at him.

In the snow- bright candlelight, his eyebrows and eyes were against the light. He restrained his handsomeness and beauty, leaving only a deep outline, and looked at Gu Jinzhi so seriously.

Gu Jinzhi said: "You made up those words, right?"

Zhu Zhongjun immediately glared: "I am so despicable? It's true, I swear to you."

Gu Jinzhi's contemplation.

She thought for a long time, recalled all the medical knowledge in her mind, and said, "...Your is probably a psychological problem. Are you stimulating after we are separated?"

After they separated, Zhu Zhongjun was not stimulated.

But he really has no good feelings for girls.

This is the psychological shadow his mother gave him.

He will remember his mother's appearance on his second uncle's bed for the rest of his life...

As long as he is not with Gu Jinzhi, he can think of his mother when he sees other women. Then he will feel disgusted.

"No." Zhu Zhongjun said.

"Then you are homosexual, don't quibble." Gu Jinzhi said, "Zhu Zhongjun, do I look like a man?"

"...Hopathy is not what you define as you." Zhu Zhongjun despised her. "Actually, those two things happened, and I also felt that I might be, so I found a man and tried it."

Gu Jinzhi frowned even deeper.

"Then?" she asked.

"It's even more disgusting." Zhu Zhongjun said, "Just just thinking about it, I want to vomit. At that time, I wondered if there would be any contact. Will it change? What's the use of thinking? I have to try it. For the rest of my life, I

Can't live by yourself? I'm a normal person. I've never been intimate with a man, so I found a try. Seeing him take off his clothes, I didn't respond. He wanted to get close to me, so I interrupted him with a punch

The bridge of the nose.”

Gu Jinzhi slowly breathed a sigh of relief.

Fortunately, he is not.

Gu Jinzhi doesn't want to get married, she is not that great.

"Gu Jinzhi. Although I have never told you, what I said is all the truth. I promise. If there is a little lie, I will tell you that I will die a bad death. Do you understand?" Zhu Zhongjun asked her, "Actually,

I don’t like men, nor women. I just like you. I’m a monster.”

Gu Jinzhi's eyes suddenly opened and he looked at him.

Zhu Zhongjun took her hand, put it on his chest, and said softly: "I only like you. If you don't have me, you can find someone else. If I don't have you, I will only be myself. Don't ignore me...

…”

Gu Jinzhi looked at him in a daze.

“…It’s unscientific,” she said, “because why?”

Zhu Zhongjun pursed his lips.

Even now, it is still difficult for him to speak of the reason.

Zhu Zhongjun wanted to keep the secret as much as possible after his biological mother did something unbearable.

He didn't want Gu Jinzhi to know about those things.

It seemed that he didn't want Gu Jinzhi to see his ugliest side. Even if he loved her, he wouldn't have the courage to reveal all his disgrace. Although he knew very well that Gu Jinzhi was not a person who was indifferent to right and wrong.

Zhu Zhongjun is Zhu Zhongjun, and his mother is his mother.

Even if you understand, you can't speak.

Reason cannot overcome emotions.

"You put a lot of pressure on me." Gu Jinzhi saw him silent and said, "You... do you like me? I never knew."

Zhu Zhongjun was silent again.

He felt very wronged.

"Can I take back those words?" Zhu Zhongjun let go of her hand and said, "Forget it, I'll make up the story."

Then she touched her hair, and she had already had 80% of it, and said, "It's not too early, go to bed. I'll have to 'confront you're early tomorrow morning, and I'll have to struggle for another day."

After saying that, he slept in the bed and lay down on his side.

But Gu Jinzhi didn't move.

She looked at the man lying with her back to her, and felt mixed feelings.

Her heart seemed to be a dry and tough piece of soil, which needed a lot of emotional water to penetrate and slowly penetrate to soak her heart.

Zhu Zhongjun's water was watered very much.

Although he was half a beat slower, Gu Jinzhi still understood.

She asked, "Have you ever loved me?"

Zhu Zhongjun was so angry.

He didn't get up, but still turned his back to her, and said in a grievance: "My heart is still the same, never changed. I have always loved you. You don't have to feel stressed, just like me a little."

Gu Jinzhi was stunned again.

It took her a long time before she lay down.

Zhu Zhongjun's Wei'an shoulders were right next to her.

There were ripples in her heart, which could not be dissipated for a long time.

She turned around, hugged Zhu Zhongjun tightly, and pressed her face against his back.

The warmth of his skin spread to Gu Jinzhi's face through his thin middle clothes.

Her eyes were sluggish and tears burst out from her eyes.
Chapter completed!