Chapter 9 Want to live
Lin Leyang instantly felt ashamed and turned red from his ears, praying that his conversation with Zhao Ruixiao had not been heard.
This is too inferior!
Li Chuan ignored the two people in the room and walked straight towards Lin Leyang.
Wu Xu asked: "Is this the child you mentioned? I thought it was really a child..."
Lin Leyang hurriedly turned his eyes and told Wu Xu not to continue talking, but unfortunately Wu Xu finished speaking.
He wants to bury himself even more now.
Li Chuan didn't care. He nodded to the two people and reported his name, "My name is Li Chuan."
Wu Xu looked at him up and down, and Lin Leyang didn't know where to look, so he followed him.
Li Chuan was in much better condition than when he first met. On the one hand, he actively cooperated with the treatment. On the other hand, no matter how bad the food was in the hospital canteen, he would eat it all. Even the nurses who checked the rounds admired this. It was okay to remind him out of kindness that it was really hard to swallow and not force himself. Li Chuan's answer was just: "I need to adjust my body to a healthy state."
He looks like a very ordinary hospitalized patient, and there is no other special place except for being younger.
Yes, strangely speaking, he always had a kind of paranoid slut when he looked at Lin Leyang. When he looked at others, his eyes were always calm, which at most made people feel a little introverted, but not aggressive.
"Okay, then you two talk, we'll leave first." Wu Xu pulled one of Zhao Ruixiao's arms, and it seemed that there was something urgent. He turned to Lin Leyang, "You... are you okay?"
"What's my problem?" Lin Leyang said stubbornly, but in fact he was still confused. Although the answer was found, it was not as complicated as he thought. It was just for someone, and he easily ended his life for someone.
Before leaving, Zhao Ruixiao said goodbye to Lin Leyang.
Lin Leyang replied goodbye, and the man suddenly bent his lips and smiled at him, his expression was gentle and restrained, and there was a feeling that Lin Leyang could not understand.
After the two left, the room became quiet.
Lin Leyang gave up his seat to Li Chuan, and Li Chuan sat on his bed without hesitation.
"Did you hear it just now?" he asked Li Chuan.
"What are you referring to?" Li Chuan said calmly, "Do you like men?"
Lin Leyang: “…………”
He weakly defended: "I don't like it."
"Is that true?" Li Chuan looked at him, "If you don't like it, don't like it."
Lin Leyang became even more embarrassed and tried to defend himself: "You also know that I came here through time."
He was not afraid of talking to Li Chuan like this, because no matter how outrageous he said, Li Chuan would accept it.
Sometimes Lin Leyang couldn't figure out whether he accepted these absurd things or simply accepted them.
"Well, so you don't know anything, and those things are not what you do now," said Li Chuan. "They are right, it's good now."
Lin Leyang said: "You have heard it all."
Li Chuan nodded calmly: "Most of them heard it."
Lin Leyang was a little shocked, "Are you considered eavesdropping?"
"Then do you want to arrest me?" Li Chuan asked.
Lin Leyang was hoarse, "...If you come next time, you will come in directly. Why do you keep standing outside?"
Li Chuan said: "I understand."
Lin Leyang also felt that he was very obedient and could not say anything serious. He rarely got angry and lost his temper, not to mention that he did not really regard himself as an elderly person and looked down at Li Chuan from top to bottom. They were together, and in most cases, they communicated with each other as equals.
After a while, Li Chuan held an apple in his hand and asked Lin Leyang: "Do you want to eat it?"
Although Lin Leyang was depressed, he still forced himself to look like an adult, "I don't want to eat, you can eat it yourself."
Li Chuan tried to break the apple with force. After trying twice, his arms trembled but still didn't break it.
When Lin Leyang saw this, he temporarily put his entanglement aside, pressed his shoulder with one hand, and comforted him: "If it doesn't work, don't force it."
Li Chuan tried harder to break the apple in his hand.
After a while, he lowered his eyes and said, "I was not like this before."
Lin Leyang rarely found the part that belonged to the boy in his expression, and felt that Li Chuan said this sentence with a little depressed and angry expression.
So he patted Li Chuan on the back with great loyalty, "It doesn't matter. I will give you half of my lunch in the future, so you will be healthy and beat three of them."
Li Chuan glanced at him, "I can do it now, too."
Lin Leyang opened his mouth and said, "Brave, right?"
Li Chuan suddenly smiled at him. This was a rare thing. The next thing to say is fresher, "Don't you know if you try it?"
He looked at Li Chuan in confusion, "How to try?"
Li Chuan's hand was sucked on his wrist, but this was a common thing. From the meeting between the two and now there was no such physical contact. Lin Leyang agreed that his actions were harmless and did not even struggle at all.
Li Chuan pursed his lips slightly, and the apple was broken open at some point, but the cross-section was not very beautiful. He stuffed the small piece into Lin Leyang's mouth.
Lin Leyang: "???"
Li Chuan said without opening: "Forget it, you still don't know anything."
"What do you mean? You can explain it clearly." Lin Leyang bit off the apple, and there was a hint of sweetness in his mouth. Li Chuan seemed to have expected that he would do this, and reached out to catch the fallen piece and looked up at him.
Lin Leyang said embarrassedly: "Why did you give it to me suddenly..."
He reached out and took the apple over, and the two of them touched each other, and the juice was sticky around his fingers.
"It's my fault." Li Chuan skillfully pulled out a few pieces of paper and handed it to Lin Leyang, "You will talk after eating, don't worry, don't choke."
Lin Leyang: “…”
Who is twenty-eight years old and who is nineteen years old?
Lin Leyang thought that he was not as thoughtful as Li Chuan when he was eighteen years old. People really couldn't compare themselves with each other. Perhaps because of family reasons, Li Chuan's various behaviors were particularly precocious; it was because of family reasons. Lin Leyang was spoiled by his parents, but fortunately his family education was good and he did not grow up wrong.
Li Chuan went to the bathroom to wash his hands, and Lin Leyang lay on the bed and watched the ceiling empty his thoughts.
I didn't find the way to travel back. Instead, I learned that I was going to die for a man ten years later... He turned over and lay on his side, thinking that this was too funny. No matter what kind of person it was, it was not worth it. Is he crazy ten years later?
Li Chuan came out of the bathroom, his hands were still dripping with water, and his cuffs were rolled on his arms. Lin Leyang easily saw the fine and dense scars on his arms, some of which had fallen off, leaving a light white mark.
Somehow, he asked, "Do you want to die too?"
He shouldn't have asked, and he regretted it after saying it, and quickly got up to try to make up for it.
But Li Chuan answered.
He sat back in front of Lin Leyang, looked at him and shook his head very seriously and said, "I want to be alive."
Lin Leyang's expression was stunned. The words "I'm sorry" were about to blurt out, but Li Chuan stopped him. The boy stretched out his hand and wrapped it around him, his posture a bit like a hug.
The two of them were so close that they could feel their breathing. Li Chuan smoothed his hair with his hand that was still dipped in water, "I asked the nurse to bring a rubber band from outside. It was new and had not been used. Can you tie your hair for you?"
Lin Leyang felt guilty and nodded without thinking about it. He let Li Chuan fiddled with his hair and skillfully combed a little chirp.
Li Chuan's technique was very gentle. He tied the light pink headband and looked at it, saying, "It's very suitable for you."
"Don't you look like a girl? This morning I heard others say that I have long hair like a girl." Lin Leyang put on a confused look. He often did this. Since he came to this strange place, his expression always showed fragility that was easy to fold, making people treat it in a gentler and lighter way.
Li Chuan looked at his face, his fingers were still wrapped around his hair, and asked calmly: "Will you cut off your hair?"
Lin Leyang was stunned for a moment, and it was strange to say that such slightly longer hair was indeed inappropriate and it took more time to take care of it, but he never seemed to have thought of cutting his hair.
"I'd better not want it." Lin Leyang said, "I didn't keep my hair. I don't know if he wants to cut it."
He was vague, but Li Chuan fully understood what he meant.
"You ten years ago and you ten years later were originally the same person. Your thoughts were his thoughts, and there was nothing to hesitate to do."
Lin Leyang thought for a moment and shook his head, "Forget it, I don't know at all what I think at the age of twenty-eight. He even likes men..." He said this and covered his mouth and closed his mouth, looking up at Li Chuan.
"Can men like men, Brother Leyang?" Li Chuan suddenly showed an injured expression, which was something he had never seen before. Lin Leyang was a little confused for a moment.
Why did you suddenly call him brother?
"Do you hate homosexuality?" Li Chuan asked.
"No, no."
Li Chuan suddenly laughed. He was a little handsome when he smiled. He should be a very energetic college student when he changed his clothes.
"It's great, just don't hate it." He smiled, but the emotion in his eyes was quiet, "Because I am."
Chapter completed!