Chapter 13 Emotions
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After telling his father that he was an innate master, Qin Yu was filled with excitement. He wanted to get his father's approval and praise. Now, he could finally let his father know that he was not
A useless person!
"no!"
Hearing Qin De's words, Qin Yu's body trembled, and his face suddenly turned pale. His eyes staring at Qin De were full of disbelief and anger: "Why? Why not..." Qin Yu kept talking, seemingly unable to do so.
Accept Qin De's answer.
Qin Yu's eyes were misty. He had been working hard since he was eight years old. He worked hard day and night. Every day was constant extreme training. He had no happiness from his peers, no care from his parents, and even no peers of the same age.
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After ten years of hard work and a little bit of luck, I finally reached my current level of strength.
After ten years of hard training, Qin Yu didn't complain a word. Why?
It is not just to be able to cultivate to the innate realm, to be able to help my father, to make my father happy, to make my father proud of me, and to be proud of myself.
"Father, didn't you just say that the innate realm is enough? My strength now far exceeds that of ordinary innate masters. Even if I am a master of the innate Dzogchen realm, I can still compete. Why, why are you still not allowed to go with you?
?" Qin Yu stared at his father, his eyes full of anger and unwillingness.
Qin Yu's angry and unwilling gaze made Qin Yu's heart tremble slightly.
"Yu'er, calm down." Qin De shouted coldly.
Qin Yu took a deep breath and said: "Okay, I'll calm down. Father, please tell me what the reason is. If you can't convince me, I won't give up no matter what."
"Okay." Qin De said immediately, "Once I want to overcome the tribulation, I will definitely choose a hidden location, and your uncle Feng will follow me. Of course, the news that I want to overcome the tribulation will be kept very confidential. There are only two situations, one
, if Xiang Guang and the others cannot find out the news about me overcoming the tribulation, and no one comes to disturb me, that is naturally a good thing. It doesn’t matter whether you go or not. Second, if Xiang Guang learns that I have overcome the tribulation, the two great immortals will come together.
, Yu'er, although you have good strength, the strength of the immortals who have experienced the forty-nine heavenly tribulations and become cultivators is beyond your imagination!"
Qin De sighed and said: "Although it is only four or nine heavenly tribulations, compared with the average innate Dzogchen master, it is nothing but heaven and earth. A cultivator can easily cut you off with a simple flying sword attack."
If you take his head, it will have no effect at all, you will only die innocently!"
"So... in both cases, it won't help at all if you go, but you may die." Qin De stared at Qin Yu, "Yu'er, this is why I won't let you go!"
Qin Yu was silent after hearing this.
But the silent Qin Yu was exuding chaotic aura. The stronger the soul, the stronger the aura generated. Although Qin Yu did not intend it, the aura generated at this moment was felt by everyone. No one knew where Qin Yu was at this moment.
What to think.
"Xiao Yu." Qin Zheng and Qin Feng both looked at their younger brother.
"Father, do you still remember?" Qin Yu ignored his eldest brother and said to himself, "Before I was six years old, you cared about me and often stayed with me. At that time, I
So happy and carefree. In my heart, my father is the wisest and most powerful. However, when I was six years old, I was sent to Yunwu Villa." Qin Yu lowered his head and spoke in a low voice, as if talking to himself.
Talking to himself, he seemed to be talking to Qin De again.
Everyone fell silent.
"In Yunwu Villa, I was the only six-year-old child, and the others were servants or guards. No one played with me. I was alone. At that time, I watched the dawn and the sunset, looking forward to when my father would come to see me.
I don’t know how many disappointments I experienced, but finally my father came, but soon he left, and then I continued to look forward to it... But I didn’t wait. For two years, my father only came to Yunwu Villa once." Qin Yu
Still speaking slowly.
Everyone present thought of a six or seven-year-old child watching the sun rise and setting, looking forward to the arrival of his father, but being disappointed again and again.
Qin De's lips moved slightly, but he didn't say a word. He had nothing to say! Of the three sons, he felt the most guilty. He spent the least time with Qin Yu, cared the least, and got together the least.
of.
"I was just thinking, why didn't my father come to see me? Did my disobedience make my father angry, or am I too annoying? If I didn't do something well enough, couldn't my father tell me?
It can be changed... But I'm not stupid. My eldest brother practices martial arts, and my second brother studies some political matters. My father often guides my eldest brother and my second brother, and visits them often. I finally know... my father thinks I can't succeed.
That’s why you don’t care about me.” Qin Yu bit his lip, with a little light shining in his eyes.
"After much thought, I decided to practice to become a master. However, I could not store internal energy in my Dantian, so I could only practice external skills. In the first year, Teacher Zhao Yunxing taught me, and I started practicing from dawn every day. Extreme training is indeed
Training that goes beyond physiological limits, every time I am in extreme pain and exhaustion, I am tired and really can't hold on, but once I think about how I can make my father happy in the future, I will grit my teeth and continue to hold on..." Qin Yu said slowly
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Qin De's eyes were moist.
"When I was sixteen years old, my father told me some secrets. I finally realized that it wasn't that my father didn't love me, but that he had his own affairs and he didn't have time to take care of me. Looking at my father, the eldest brother and the second brother, they
I am working hard for big things in the future, but I, a descendant of the Qin family, am not busy at all and can only watch from the sidelines. That night, my father said that I will not be allowed to lead troops to kill the enemy unless I reach the innate realm.
I decided at that time that I would become an innate master no matter what!"
Qin Yu suddenly had a smile on his face: "Ten years, ten years, I finally succeeded. I had luck and hard work, but no matter what, I finally reached where I am today!" Qin Yu suddenly raised his head.
Come, a fierce momentum spreads out from him, "Throughout the ages, people have said that external skills have no future and cannot reach the innate realm. But I don't believe in evil. I have been working hard, and sure enough, I finally did it!"
There was a trace of arrogance on Qin Yu's face. How could a person who was only eighteen years old and had practiced to a level that could compete with the masters of the Xiantian Dzogchen Internal Sect without arrogance? What's more, Qin Yu practiced external skills, which are known to be much more difficult than internal skills.
"I am a master of innate external skills, and I have improved a lot now compared to when I first entered the innate realm, and my strength is much higher. I want to tell my father this news, because I think that once my father knows that I am an innate master, he will
I will be reused like the eldest and second brothers, and I can also help my father." Qin Yu stared at Qin De, and suddenly his face turned miserable, "Haha... I was wrong, I was wrong, it was outrageous!
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Qin Yu suddenly became excited and said loudly to Qin De: "Father, when my skills were weak, you didn't use me or let me help. I don't blame you. I gritted my teeth and worked hard, but now I have far surpassed
Generally, you are a congenital master. With such strength, you still don't let me help. You still let me hide aside and watch you go through danger, while I sit back and relax. Father, do you think you care about me? No, not at all.
, I feel sad instead!”
"Haha, I have been practicing hard every day and night, giving up the fun of my peers, giving up everything, and devoted myself to practice. Ten years, haha, ten years, what exactly have I been doing in these ten years of practice? How can I reach the level I have reached today?
What's the use?" Tears flowed down Qin Yu's face uncontrollably.
The goal, the goal for ten years, now Qin Yu found that the most determined persistence in his heart for ten years was in vain, how sad he was.
"Father, I know how powerful the Four Nine Heavenly Tribulations are. Once you fail to overcome the tribulation..." Qin Yu's body trembled. He could not imagine what a huge blow it would be to him once his father died. "You
If I'm gone, what's the use of my ten years of perseverance? I practice cultivation, but it's of no use at all. In any case, father, at least you can let me be of some use. In this way, I won't die.
Sorry."
"But... you don't give me a chance, not even a chance. You only say that my participation is of no use. Father, you don't even give me a chance, why are you so sure that I am useless? Why,
Why!" Qin Yu yelled at Qin De at the top of his lungs with red eyes.
Suddenly Qin Yu laughed sadly: "I understand, father, my third son has always been useless in your heart, right? No matter what I do, I am of no use at all. Even if I cultivate to the innate realm, I am still useless.
It’s useless. It was useless in the past and it’s useless now, Father. I think that even if I raise troops in the future, I’m an innate master and you probably won’t think much of me!”
Qin De had nothing to say.
Indeed, even if there is a war in the future, it will be a battle between legions of one hundred thousand units. An innate master will indeed have little effect in such a war. Qin De did not care at all what role it would play in the future war with Qin Yu.
Seeing Qin De's expression, Qin Yu smiled.
"Haha... I am just useless, the most useless one. No matter how hard I try, no matter how far I practice, I will always be the most useless. It's funny, for so many years, what have I practiced and what have I practiced for?
What’s the use of my practice?”
Qin Yu laughed, and then cried silently, with tears slowly flowing down his face.
Qin De looked at Qin Yu in front of him. He had never paid any attention to his third son, and suddenly felt extremely guilty and heartbroken. But he opened his mouth, but couldn't say a word at all. He didn't know what to say at all.
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Indeed, in Qin De's heart, Qin Yu had no use at all in his plan, and there was nothing wrong with what Qin Yu said.
"I'm stupid, really stupid." Qin Yu shook his head and smiled bitterly.
"Xiao Yu." Qin Zheng and Qin Feng were about to say something, but Qin Yu reached out to stop them. Qin Yu took a deep breath, looked at Qin De, and said calmly: "Father, I'm sorry, I lost my temper." For the first time,
The suppressed emotions in my heart completely exploded for the first time in so many years.
"Yu'er, father..."
Seeing what Qin De wanted to say, Qin Yu smiled bitterly and said: "Father, I am in a very confused mood now and need to calm down. Father, don't worry, I won't bother you anymore, at least for the most part of the year before the tribulation."
, I won't come back to bother you." Qin Yu looked at Feng Yuzi and said, "Uncle Feng, can you help unlock the restrictions around you?" Feng Yuzi immediately released his true energy and lifted the restrictions.
Qin Yu raised his head and roared, and then a black lightning swooped down from the sky.
Qin Yu's figure was like lightning, leaving behind several afterimages. He was already on the back of the black eagle ten meters high in the sky. Qin Yu was sitting on the black eagle's back, and suddenly leaned forward slightly to hug the black eagle's neck. After so many years,
, Xiao Hei has been accompanying Qin Yu, and Qin Yu's heart calmed down against Xiao Hei's warm feathers.
He gently patted Xiao Hei and said: "Xiao Hei, let's go back to Yunwu Villa." Xiao Hei also felt Qin Yu's sadness at this moment, his wings fluttered, a strong wind blew up, and the black eagle flew high into the sky.
, just a moment before disappearing into the sky.
Qin De's face was extremely pale, like a sickly person. Qin De looked up at the sky. He knew that Qin Yu had left and would not leave for at least half a year. This half year might be the last half year of Qin De's life.
Qin Yu's words were like knives engraved in his heart. However, Qin De knew that his son was in more pain than him. Although Qin De was sad, he felt more guilty and extremely guilty. But in this life, he
Will Qin De still have time to compensate?
Chapter completed!