020, no branches to rely on

Ding Qi rejected the mentor's kind proposal, and then the two of them didn't speak for a long time. They were so silent, and the atmosphere seemed a little low. In the end, Liu Feng took the lead in breaking the calm and said, "Ding Qi, you are very outstanding and excellent in all aspects. But you will also make mistakes. After all, we are just mortals. There are many things in this matter, and you handled it wrongly.

You can follow the more reasonable procedures, such as telling me first, then I will say hello to Ankang Hospital, and then ask Director Lu to make arrangements. In the name of investigating the case, the public security department requests the assistance of psychiatric professionals to go to Ankang Hospital to inquire about the mentally ill patients.

In this way, if you calculate that matter, no matter how much pressure the public opinion is, no matter how much the school leaders think, I can still strive to save you according to reason. You are still too young, too impulsive, and too willing to make your own decisions!"

Ding Qi lowered his head and said, "Is there any difference?" Of course, I am not defending myself. If I do something wrong, I have to bear the consequences, so I accept the punishment from the school calmly."

Ding Qi didn't want to tell his mentor that he was also stimulated when Liu Feng was assassinated. Jia Jia's repeated instructions made the stimulation deeper. Inexplicably, he met Liu Guonan blocking the road, which prompted him to make a decision suddenly. More importantly, if he told Liu Feng first, Liu Feng would probably not agree and would stop him.

In fact, the calculation procedure is more reasonable. People who want to find flaws can always find faults, and someone will always take the blame for any problems. Tian Xianglong made the matter like this, but the school did not give him disciplinary punishment. In the professional field and professional circle, it is still a disastrous experience for him. At least in the existing institutional competition environment, it is difficult for him to get along again.

Now discussing these things is already hindsight, and it is useless. Liu Feng also reminded Ding Qi that he thought he had done nothing wrong just now, but how could a person not make any mistakes? Under what circumstances and for what purpose. Ding Qi also made mistakes, so he didn't have to be so stubborn.

After a while of silence, Liu Feng said first: "How did Tian Qi die?"

Ding Qi took a deep breath and looked up and said, "Strictly speaking, he died of suicide... Before going to Ankang Hospital, I didn't expect him to die, but after experiencing his spiritual world, I induced him to self-destruction. This sudden decision was also based on the situation at that time, and I thought I should make."

I'm afraid only Liu Feng can understand Tian Qi's real cause of death, because only he can understand Ding Qi's special talent. Only in front of Liu Feng can Ding Qi tell the "truth" out in its original form.

After listening to Ding Qi's introduction, Liu Feng sighed: "You got up early and killed him, although you didn't plan to really kill him. But in that state, you will definitely take action. That is the truest wish in your heart. But you can actually do it, which is simply a trace! What a pity..." I stopped talking here, I don't know what it was to say.

Ding Qi did not speak, which was considered as accusing the instructor's judgment. Liu Feng sighed again and said, "Actually, you can let him enter the plant state, which would be much less trouble."

The so-called plant state is a psychiatric term, equivalent to what people usually call vegetative. Ding Qi lowered his head and said, "It's not that simple. Maybe my skills are not enough. It's not that I want to do whatever I want. I have done my best. Besides, as long as he is still alive..." He stopped talking.

Does Ding Qi want to kill Tian Qi? Nonsense, of course, many people think! But they can't really go to kill Tian Qi. Ding Qi was sober at the time, and was in the most real state deep in his heart. After experiencing such a scene, he would let Tian Qi go to self-destruction. It seemed like a chance, but in Liu Feng's view, this was almost inevitable.

The two were silent for a long time, and the mentor finally said, "Ding Qi, you can discover a world that ordinary people cannot find. This is your wealth. You must make good use of this wealth in the future."

Liu Feng said goodbye, and Ding Qi stood up to see him off. Seeing that the instructor put away the dormitory keys, but the keys in his house were still on the table, he reminded him: "Instructor, you don't have to put your keys here, I really don't have to move in!"

Liu Feng: "You keep it for now. At the end of this semester, I plan to take three weeks off. I can go to the United States to spend Christmas with my wife. I am not here during the winter vacation and there is no one at home. Jia Jia also told me yesterday that she would go to the United States to spend the New Year with her mother during the winter vacation, and she would spend the New Year there."

Ding Qi took a deep breath and said, "I wish you a happy day holiday in advance. Please ask the tutor to say hello to my teacher's wife and Jiajia on my behalf!"

The librarian's job is very leisurely and boring. Ding Qi is not a formal employee of the school library. This is just a temporary part-time job. When it is his turn to sit in the reading room, reminding some students not to make loud noises and to pack up the unplaced books at any time.

According to the saying, the books taken from the bookshelf should be put back in their original place after reading them, but there are always some people who unconsciously put the book in the wrong place.

The school library is closed every Wednesday afternoon. In order to consolidate the library, the reading room is still open and provided for students to study. Although the campus is also being expanded after the expansion of enrollment, the study room is always a bit nervous. The library has two busiest time. One is that after the library is closed every night, everyone must organize the area they are responsible for as it is, and the other is to consolidate the library on Wednesday.

Ding Qi is just a temporary worker, but he is very familiar with the library work. In addition to managing the reading room he is in charge, he also helps others after the store is closed every day. As for the large-scale database on Wednesday, he also often helps with other jobs in the library. Such employees are popular everywhere, almost everyone loves it, and temporary workers are even more rare.

But Ding Qi is usually idle and even does nothing. Because of this, he always wants to find more things to do. For most of the time, he is reading books, and anyway, there are books in the library.

From being expelled in October to school holidays in early January, Ding Qi has read more than two years in less than three months. Now, books in a broad sense are no longer limited to paper books, but also various audio-visual records. Although network information is already very developed, there are still many materials that can only be found in large libraries.

Liu Feng reminded him how he would feel if he would continue to stay in the old environment. Ding Qi was also mentally prepared. He was feeling all this personally. Many of his original colleagues met him in the library. Most of his attitudes were very polite and gentle. Many of his eyes were sympathetic and seemed very well-educated, but he felt inexplicably unfamiliar.

When sitting in the reading room on weekdays, Ding Qi also found that many students looked at him secretly with good eyes, and probably would even talk about him privately. In fact, sometimes this is just Ding Qi's self-feeling, and the truth may not be like this. At the beginning, there were many girls who liked to look at him secretly and pointed at him. Who told him that this young man is so elegant and handsome! - Ding Qi comforted himself so much.

The winter vacation is coming in a blink of an eye, and the Spring Festival is coming in another blink of an eye. The campus becomes deserted. Walking on the empty road, you can feel the chill of the river breeze in the north.

On New Year's Eve, getting up early to dust is a custom in Ding Qi's hometown. Ding Qi went to his mentor Liu Feng's house early, and Aunt Zhou had already gone home for the New Year. The house was empty and cleaned up very clean. Dan Ding Qi still cleaned it again and completed a customary ceremony. Then he closed the door and left, leaving the keys on the coffee table in the living room before leaving.

After dusting, we started to cook New Year’s Eve dinner. According to the customs of our hometown, many dishes for New Year’s Eve dinner were prepared one after another after the twelfth lunar month. As long as the twelfth lunar month is over, it will be the "night". After the table is set, go out to set off firecrackers first. After setting off firecrackers, you can close the door and eat the New Year’s Eve dinner.

Ding Qi also prepared a string of whips, and the string of red rolls was a big plate. He had never set off such a long firecracker. He rolled the firecrackers away in front of the dormitory building, and discharged a horizontal line from a distance and extended to the stairs. Ding Qi took out a box of cigarettes, lit one, took two puffs, and vomited them hard against the cold air.

Ding Qi has no bad habits and never smoked before, but he has learned it in recent months and occasionally smoked two. He lit firecrackers with cigarette butts, and turned around and walked away from the building with the rumbling sound of firecrackers. The firecrackers outside the building were very loud, and even if they closed the door in the dormitory, they still felt a little deafening.

This is the single dormitory building for faculty and staff. On the afternoon of New Year's Eve, the entire building was empty, and only Ding Qi was still living.

What to eat for New Year’s Eve dinner? Ding Qi forgot to buy it without a refrigerator or microwave. Today, the school canteen is not open, and he is even less in the mood to go to the public kitchen to make something. He prepared instant noodles in advance, as well as various cooked foods, including canned foods, bags, and vegetarian foods. First, boil water and soak in an electric kettle, then a bag of bags, and open the cooked foods in a desk.

The dishes were all cold, but the instant noodles were hot.

After the noodles were soaked and the dishes were all arranged, Ding Qi did not move at all. He had no appetite, but just bent down and pulled out a can of beer from the cardboard box at his feet, opened it and poured it down. Maybe it was choking, and the wine dripped from the corner of his mouth to his chest. He reached out to wipe his chin, of course his chin was wet, and subconsciously wiped his face again, and his face was all wet.

At some point, he was already in tears.

Why didn’t Ding Qi go home during the Chinese New Year? Because he had nowhere to go! At this time, it felt like a deserted forest with cold wind, with no leaves on the bare branches, and only he, a lonely bird in the world.

Ding Qi's parents were no longer alive. His mother died of illness when he was twelve years old. In order to treat his mother, the family had almost no savings. When he was seventeen years old, his father was in a car accident in the second semester of his second year of high school. Fortunately, there was a compensation for a car accident and a pension from his father's unit that could support him in his life. He completed his high school education and was admitted to Jinghu University.

He also has many relatives in his hometown, including several uncles, uncles, uncles and aunts. His family lives in Jingyang County, Wanling City, adjacent to Jinghu City. His father was born in the rural area of ​​Jingyang County. He was assigned to work as a civil servant in the county town when he was studying, which was quite promising. He then married his mother in the county town.

His parents also left him a commercial house in Jingyang County, with an area of ​​about 100 square meters and a three-bedroom apartment. The location is almost the best location in the county. Ding Qi's father bought it from his original unit at an internal price, which was also regarded as the last batch of policy and welfare housing distribution at that time.

After his father passed away, grandma and his uncle's family came to him and made arrangements, and the uncle's family took him over to raise him, and the house was first used for marriage for his cousin. Ding Qi refused the arrangements and told his grandma that he could live independently and no one needed to raise him again. Both grandma and aunt accused him of being ignorant, but Ding Qi refused to do it, and the relationship ended up being very stiff.

Ding Qi's relationship was very complicated at that time. He didn't want others to occupy his parents' house, such as he didn't want others to occupy his parents' position, even if they were no longer there. The reason why he refused his grandmother's arrangement was somewhat related to another thing. He still remembered how his father took him to his uncle to borrow money when his mother was seriously ill.

After her mother was seriously ill, her father planned to sell her house and change to a smaller house in a more remote place, and send her to a large hospital in Jinghu City. Ding Qi was still young and not very sensible, so he accidentally let him say something in front of her mother. As a result, her mother scolded her father for being too promiscuous and that she could still treat her illness in a county hospital. If her father really dared to do that, she would not even stay in a county hospital, and the house would be left for Ding Qi.

My uncle's family lives in the county town, while Ding Qi's uncle lives in the countryside. Of course, the relatives of my father's family also heard about this. Later, my uncle discussed it and suggested that their family take care of him and live together. How to take care of him? My uncle's family also moved to the county town to live, and the couple also brought their two daughters, Ding Qi's cousin and cousin.

Ding Qi also declined his uncle's "good intention" and said that he had grown up and was eighteen years old after the age of 18, so he didn't need anyone to take care of him. Seeing that Ding Qi's attitude was so firm, it was difficult for him to persist. Later, the relationship was pretty good.

Ding Qi's father came out of the countryside, which made his grandfather and his family feel very proud. The relatives in the village usually rest at Ding Qi's house when they enter the city. Ding Qi's father would treat them well and often provide financial support. His mother had a lot of opinions about this and had quarreled with his father several times in private, and Ding Qi had heard of it when he was a child.

After my mother got sick, my father never helped my relatives in my hometown. Some people in my hometown also had complaints, but at least no one said it in person.

Ding Qi later took the entrance exam for Jinghu University. Like his father, he became the pride of his hometown in the village. Many people praised him for his promisingness, using him as a show of his life or holding some expectations for him. During the Spring Festival a few years ago, Ding Qi went back to his hometown to spend with his uncle and his uncle, otherwise he would be too lonely and desolate.

During college and the first year of working, Ding Qi had no money, but he would find ways to save money on weekdays. During the Chinese New Year, he would give the children of relatives in his hometown as New Year's money. In the past two years, Ding Qi's economic situation has improved a lot. He would prepare more expensive gifts during the Chinese New Year, and red envelopes were packed thicker and became more and more popular.

In recent years, except for grandpa, Ding Qi has never received New Year's money from others because he is already an adult. It's all trivial matters, but this is the life of ordinary people.

Ding Qi told his uncle that he rented the house in his hometown. In fact, he did not rent it out. It was so empty, and everything was kept as it was. He took the time to go back twice a year to clean it up.

Although the best housing prices in Jinghu University are more than twice as high as the best location in Jingyang County, if Ding Qi sells his house in his hometown, it will be enough for him to pay for the down payment for buying a new house here. But Ding Qi did not intend to do that at all. For him, it was a souvenir left to him by his parents and a kind of sustenance deep in his heart.

After graduating from undergraduate, Ding Qi and Jiajia established a romantic relationship. At that time, colleagues discussed that although Ding Qi and Jiajia were not a match, his mother died, without any burden, and he was born clean and had no worries. Ding Qi could also guess these comments, but he was too lazy to care about them and couldn't care about them. He would say whatever he liked.

Ding Qi's experience is like this, you can imagine what Liu Feng's appearance means to him, and what kind of emotions did he project on Liu Feng's body?

Ding Qi only called and said that he had something to do and he might not be able to go back during the Chinese New Year. The aunt who answered the phone was quite disappointed on the other side of the phone. As usual, she praised him for his promising words, and then said in a joking tone that it would be fine to transfer red envelopes or something like that.

In previous years, every time he went back to his hometown for the New Year, his relatives liked to ask questions, such as what job he is doing now, how much money he can earn every month, what is his relationship with Jinghu City, etc., even personal privacy issues have to be thoroughly asked. After Ding Qi's "incident" this time, he did not receive a call from his hometown relatives. They may not know about this, probably because they had never heard of it.

Ding Qi thought he was very strong, and he was indeed quite strong and sober. He walked step by step from such a situation to today. A few months ago, his life path was still full of sunshine, with a bright and beautiful future, enough to make his peers envious. In the blink of an eye, he fell to the trough of his life, as if it was an abyss.

Ghosts know how this happened, and Ghosts know how he felt! No matter how strong a person is, he still has times of fragility. Tears can't stop flowing down silently, and he can only drink wine one sip after another.

Today, the beer is as light as water, and it tastes nothing after drinking it, let alone any alcohol. Ding Qi simply took a bottle of rice wine from his hometown from the corner of the wall. During the Chinese New Year in previous years, relatives in his hometown loved to drink this wine the most, and they also like to add shredded ginger, raisins, plums and other things to cook and drink it hot.

Ding Qi didn't add anything to hot wine. He drank so coldly and felt that the wine was not good. The mouth was similar to water. He quickly finished drinking one bottle, and then opened another bottle... I don't know how long it took and if it was midnight, he suddenly felt his stomach turbulent, and ran into the bathroom, crawled in the toilet and vomited.

He didn't eat anything and vomited all over the wine. In the end, he couldn't spit it out. He kept retching, and he heard the sound like crying loudly...

When Ding Qi woke up, he found that he was leaning against the corner of the bed, and his clothes and shoes were not taken off. He felt sore all over his body, but he raised his hand and found blood. The right forearm was cut into an inch more than an inch long hole near the back of his hand, and a lot of blood was bleeding. Dried blood spots could be seen on the floor, and the cuffs of his shirt were also stained with blood, and the wound had scabbed at this moment.

When did he cut his arm through something, he had no memory. Ding Qi only remembered that after setting off firecrackers yesterday, he came back to close the door, sat down to eat a New Year's Eve dinner alone, and later forgot everything, and he broke the article. The cooked food opened on the table was almost the same, and the chopsticks were still inserted into the instant noodles. After counting, he drank a total of eight cans of beer and two bottles of rice wine.

Ding Qi vaguely remembered that he had drunk beer, but he couldn't remember when he would drink the two bottles of rice wine. This was the first time he had lost his memory in his life, and suddenly he felt very scared.

When I found my phone, I found that there was still electricity. I received more than a dozen WeChat and text messages for New Year greetings. It was six:50 in the morning, and it was not yet completely dawn. Scattered firecrackers came from afar. He woke up so early. Ding Qi took a hot shower, dried his hair and looked in the mirror, and found that his eyes were not so red and swollen, and his head felt no pain.

He woke up so early, but he didn't feel sleepy. Instead, he felt that he had nowhere to vent his energy and always wanted to find something to do. He changed his clothes, rubbed his shirt stained with his hands and cleaned the house neatly.

Then he felt hungry and his stomach was gushes, so he started to boil water and instant noodles. After eating two buckets of instant noodles, he felt full. He packed up all the food that the table had not moved last night and went out to throw it away. He also went downstairs to sweep all the firecrackers that he set off yesterday. He returned to the house and looked around and found that there was nothing to do.

He walked into the bathroom, looked in the mirror for a long time, carefully shaved his hair, and dressed neatly.

Just then, someone suddenly knocked on the door. It was ten o'clock in the afternoon, which was ten o'clock in the afternoon on the first day of the Lunar New Year. And all the people in the building were gone, only Ding Qi lived alone. At this time, someone suddenly knocked on the door, which was a bit like a horror movie, and Ding Qi was also shocked.

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Chapter completed!