I sighed: "I know that you have a good impression of me, and even like me, but this shallow feeling is not enough to make you respond to me equally, so you have always been close to me for the past twelve years, making me unable to let you go... right?"

"I don't!" Chen Yu hurriedly retorted, "I have clearly rejected your confession several times. You are very clear about my attitude."

I almost wanted to kill myself on the table with embarrassment. The second law of licking the dog really took effect - it always combines three major illusions in life: first, the phone vibrates, second, someone knocks on the door, third, she likes me. licking the dog always feels good about itself, but in fact it is just someone else's food.

"Is what I just said too straightforward? But I really didn't treat you very well." She looked at my hunch and asked again. It was okay if she didn't care about explaining this sentence, but I was furious when I opened my mouth.

"Yes, you rejected me." I heard that she was so anxious to clear the relationship between us, and the feeling that had been accumulated over the years could not help but burst out, and finally all of them broke out.

"But when did you not answer the phone number I called you? Which text message I sent you did not reply?

"You know that I am devoted to you and will not give up easily because of your rejection, but you still keep interacting with me and giving me hope--Isn't this hanging me?

"You are like a carrot hanging in front of the donkey, making the donkey keep chasing the carrot, right? Isn't it cruel to treat me like a donkey?"

The more I talked, the more angry I became, the more excited I became, the more I wanted to squirt.

"I'm not made of cement, my heart is also fleshy. When I feel uncomfortable, my heart will be like a knife!" My eyes turned red, and I gritted my teeth and tried hard to hold back my tears, hoping to maintain my last dignity in front of her.

"Twelve years! It's been twelve years! How many times do I want to give up? Come and care again.

"How many times I was so excited that I couldn't sleep all night because you said a few more words to me - yes, you rejected me, but you didn't alienate me, you didn't even have a boyfriend, and I couldn't let go if I couldn't get it!

"Touch your conscience and say, what's your business!

"I was like I was trapped in a mud pit, unable to pull out my legs, and I don't know when it will be the end! I'm going to suffocate to death!"

I grabbed my hair hysterically and roared at her in pain.

I remembered another thing, no, I still have to spray it!

"I was so nervous that I was dying on the day you had a car accident! Later, the doctor told me that you prepared a pair of rings, and I was both sad and happy! I was sad because I was afraid that you would not wake up, and I was happy because I felt that there was finally a response! Even if you didn't mention it later, I thought it was because girls were prone to shyness.

"But you said yesterday that everything you did was pity me! Hahaha! What am I? Is it just a joke? A complete joke, right?" I was involuntarily convulsed all over my body.

"You..." Chen Yu looked at me with a pale face, looking extremely shocked.

After a while, she murmured, "I suddenly understood one thing, why did God divide me into two people? I'm afraid it's just to pay off my debts - I didn't lie to you, I've had a certain lack of feelings since I was a child, a lack of family, friendship and love.

"When I grew up, I didn't go to the doctor, but you know, modern medicine is a little powerless to treat viruses, let alone psychological problems that cannot be seen or touched. The doctor is also very strange, but he can't change this.

"You have always been nice to me, and I know it clearly in my heart, as if I were standing on a high building and seeing the lights of thousands of houses. I tried hard to respond, but I couldn't concentrate. I was really very frustrated in this regard.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know it would be like this. You always look so peaceful and carefree." She bowed to me solemnly, "To you, the apology seems too shallow, but I still have to say, sorry.

"But one thing I want to tell you is that I never treat you as a spare tire, I treat myself as your spare tire-I do have psychological problems now and can't fall in love with you, but I will not fall in love with anyone except you.

"If you have a heart and fall in love with other girls, even if that girl and I are a community of twins, I have carefully considered it and I am willing to accept it. I will not hinder your happiness.

"Since you mentioned the ring, I can tell you that the ring was not bought in those days. I actually bought it not long after returning to China, and then kept it with you, for no other reason, just for a certain year, day, time and moment. When I suddenly had emotions and when I suddenly fell in love with someone, I would put the ring on your hand at the first time regardless of the consequences..."

I stared at Shen Yu blankly, not knowing what to say.

She had never said such words, and I never knew what she thought. But when I heard her say so much in one breath, my nose became sore inexplicably, and tears came out of my eyes, and I was circling on my eyes with the tension of the liquid.

"You said yesterday that you will fulfill my wish and Hua Yan..."

"...That's indeed my selfish idea." She thought about it, "I don't know when I will be better, and I have lost confidence at all. But when I think about you coming with others in the future, my heart is inexplicably empty. I thought later that if you can really be with that woman, it might not be a bad thing, because in this way, you will be by my side."

After saying this, Shen Yu was silent for a moment, then looked at me again, and said firmly: "I have already said it thoroughly today. Now I have changed my mind. I must tell you that if I have someone I want to love and someone I want to get married, you must be the first choice! As for that woman, let her wait in line with me first!"

I stared at her in a daze. I couldn't tell what I felt. It seemed sour and astringent, bitter and sweet, but no matter what, it was a hundred times better than being so numb that it didn't taste like it.

"I said that yesterday, in addition to being selfish, I also feel that it is unfair to you in the long run, because I can't respond to that deep emotion, and for some reason, when I just woke up that day, I felt a little angry in my heart, as if I was unwell to say something to you.

"But for so long, you are the only man I should like," Shen Yu seemed a little embarrassed to say such stingy words. She looked chaotic and didn't dare to look at me, "It's also the man I should like now."

The adverb "should" seems to be a little embarrassed to use here. But no matter what, this is Shen Yu's approval of me after all.

It seems that she switched over in the middle of the night, and Lengbingbing's attitude towards me was false, and this attitude was true - although this may also be one of the three major illusions in life.

But my heart still jumped wildly, as if the spring breeze blew on my face in an instant, and my whole heart was soaked in the warm hot spring.

I couldn't help but hug Chen Yu.

"Oh, what are you doing?!"

Chen Yu pushed me hard, but her struggle became weaker and weaker until she stopped moving.

We suddenly became quiet, and the restaurant seemed to suddenly become quiet, and the whole world was quiet.
Chapter completed!