Chapter 453: Nothing(1/2)
"Why don't you speak?"
I lowered my eyes and turned around silently: "What else can you say? I can't tell you anything."
"Jiaolong."
He came up and grabbed my arm, and his tone suddenly became lighter: "I don't want to argue with you. You are not wrong. What I appreciate is your rare heart. There are profit-seeking Onmyojis everywhere. As long as you
He can do any evil thing for you if you can give him money. I'm just talking about the matter. I'm really right about this matter. I swore to you that I won't do bad things. You believe me."
I lowered my eyes and breathed out gently: "Cheng Baize, it's not that I don't believe you, I'm just afraid that something will happen to you. I just don't want you to hurt yourself by doing these things. It's that simple."
"Jiaolong..."
I pushed him away gently: "You may be right. If you are borrowing longevity, you are borrowing the longevity of someone who had an accident. Even if such a person is saved, he is still worse off than dead.
If he borrows it, he can go on his way as soon as possible and won't have to suffer these sufferings in the world. Sometimes, living may not be a happy thing. I have always been too kind to a woman. When I go back, you can rest early."
"Jiaolong, we have different understandings of Onmyoji, but I don't want you to be like me. You don't have to think about whether what I did is right or not, you just need to know that I am not doing bad things."
I didn’t want to say anything. I felt like I had been taught a lesson by Cheng Baize, which completely messed up my mind. There were conflicts between good and evil views on many things, especially the Mr. Big guy he was talking about, which irritated me. I felt like
It is true that I have shut myself into a box, which makes my space very narrow when I urgently need to grow. I don’t let myself do many things... I can turn my hands to make Yang and turn my hands to Yin. I really can’t become a big person.
Sir?
"Jiaolong!"
When he walked to the door, Cheng Baize caught up with him: "Maybe I said it too harshly..."
I raised my hand to interrupt him, and suddenly the image of my grandma's face and the scene of her telling people something came to mind. She looked at me with a smile, "Jiaolong, our ability is to save people.
When Lao Xian'er gained enlightenment, he also wanted to save people.
"I thought of..."
"What did you think of?"
I turned to look at Cheng Baize: "I understand, I'm not wrong. Things like borrowing money to live a long life will unbalance the yin and yang, and I won't do it."
"Jiaolong, I didn't say you were wrong..."
"Listen to me first. I want to be a great man, but my ability is to save people's lives, not to harm them. As you said, the life of the person you borrowed was indeed an accident, but he
Before his life span is over, he may turn into a vegetative state and suffer a few years of suffering, but don’t forget that a person’s fate will change. God is merciful. How do you know that he must die in the end? He is alive, even if he lies in bed.
On the hospital bed, this is the hope of his family. How do you know that he will not wake up? How do you know that he will not have other blessings? Why should you borrow his longevity?
Why cut off his escape route?"
I raised my eyes and looked at Cheng Baize: "Your victim has already reached the end of his life, but you let the person who deserves to live go away, and the person who deserves to go lives. Who will be responsible for this debt when the time comes? I
I admit that I am a bitch, but I think that the higher you stand, the more you have to have a sense of right and wrong. Otherwise, how can you be worthy of such a skill if you have a heart full of fame and wealth?
It goes against my original intention of becoming a great gentleman."
Cheng Baize looked at me quietly, then suddenly smiled: "Okay, I've been brainwashed by you again, okay? I can see that you have to figure out everything."
Satisfied, are you going to say later that you have all the people in the world in your heart? Student Jiaolong, am I convinced? I really am convinced."
I pursed my lips and looked at him: "I'm not saying that I have to explain it to you, but I really feel that something is wrong with you. Doing this kind of thing too much will really be bad for you. We are all onmyojis.
You are still my most important friend, so I don’t want…”
Cheng Baize raised his hand and rushed towards me: "I was wrong, I was really wrong, okay? I said it harshly at the beginning, so I should slap you. I shouldn't say that you are doing charity, you have a Buddha heart,
So I must have a conflict with you here, so tell me, you can punish me no matter what."
I sighed: "Can you stop coaxing me? I just want to tell you the truth. Did you take this job for 300,000 yuan? You must be aware of the seriousness of this matter."
Cheng Baize didn't look at me, and he opened his mouth helplessly after a long while: "Jiaolong, there is a large family of my master behind me. I also hope that you can understand me."
Then I understood that it was not a matter of who was right or wrong. Letting an Onmyoji do unconscionable things was not defeated by reality. I opened my mouth and said, "It's okay if you said no earlier. I have your own reasons."
It’s not like I don’t understand.”
Cheng Baize smiled and said: "Do you understand? When you came here, your face was so stinking, and you looked like you were going to start an army to hold the party accountable. Can I still expect you to understand? Can I promise you that you will not take this kind of job in the future?
Come on, no matter if you are right or I am right, I won’t accept it, okay?”
"You're not trying to trick me."
Cheng Baize blinked his eyes: "I'm also afraid that my life will be short. No matter what happens, I have to die behind you. I can't bear to leave you alone in this world. Do you think so?"
I frowned: "Why do I hear this so weird?"
Cheng Baize smiled and leaned forward slightly to look at me: "Remember, I swore a poisonous oath. How could I dare to do bad things? In fact, when I went to the hospital for emergency treatment, the unexpected person I found was also my victim's age.
Quite literally, I won't touch the young man's life, but I always feel that you are biased against me, as if you are afraid that I will do bad things, and you always want to constantly remind me that it is related to your dream."
I cleared my throat and said, "Who said that? I'm reminding you just because we are all onmyojis, and I'm also afraid that my friends will go the wrong way. Anyway, you just have to know what's going on. It's very late, so I'll go back first."
Cheng Baize curled his lips, and as if he was being cute, he stretched out his hand and flicked my forehead: "You still said to me, just don't go astray yourself. If you tell others one thing, you will get confused."
I hissed, rubbed my forehead and looked at him: "Why am I confused? Okay, I'm going back. You can go to sleep quickly. Remember, you must never do this again in the future!" After saying that, I turned back directly.
:"You dropped your bath towel!"
Cheng Baize was shocked. He lowered his head and pulled the towel around his lower body and looked at me: "Hey, Ma Jiaolong, you don't even know how to be shy!"
But I couldn't help but want to laugh. I opened the door and turned to look at him again: "Why am I shy? It's not like I'm not shy."
"Hey, you...can you be the same as mine? How embarrassed are you that you still looked at it for a long time after it fell off!!"
"Who has been looking at me for a long time, and who asked you to flick my forehead? Damn it."
I glanced down at him pretending to be disdainful. Although I didn't see anything at all, I still wanted to tease him deliberately: "Tsk, tsk, it doesn't seem to be directly proportional to the height. The upper body you trained in fitness is quite intimidating."
, the lower body still needs to be improved.”
Cheng Baize's face turned red: "Say it again, who can say it's not proportional? If you have the ability, let me see yours!"
I pursed my lips and snickered, "Forget it, I'm afraid I'll irritate you. Good night."
"Hey, stop here, Ma Jiaolong, you are not going too far, you..."
With a 'bang!' sound, I closed the door directly. When I turned around, my smile faded. Although I felt much more relaxed afterwards, and I deliberately joked with Cheng Baize, I still felt that he was buying people life insurance.
Feeling uncomfortable, I exhaled softly. As I walked home, I kept thinking, maybe I am really a little too serious. Cheng Baize and I are not the same onmyoji. If I can demand myself, why should I go?
Asking others, and what he said very clearly later, was to borrow the life of an old man who had an accident.
Thinking of the poisonous oath Cheng Baize swore to me, I always feel a little bit regretful. As a friend, Cheng Baize has done too much. Maybe his master didn't set so many rules for him, but I have enforced the rules on myself.
When it comes to him, one thing may be wrong when viewed from the front, but it is right when viewed from behind. I am not wrong, but in fact Cheng Baize seems to be right as well. It’s just that our concepts are different, just as I am disgusted with his concepts.
Overtaking me, who am I to put my ideas over his? Life is inherently contradictory.
I suddenly felt that I was a very troublesome friend. I always forced Cheng Baize to tell me that he was wrong again and again. In fact, what he said was also right. Onmyoji is a profession that is difficult to determine the importance of. In many cases, you cannot even go
Judging whether the decision made by an Onmyoji is right or wrong is like the time when Cheng Baize let Fengxia's soul fly and be annihilated. I think he made a heavy move, but he couldn't judge whether it was right or wrong.
The two of us are like spears and shields. We always have conflicting views in the professional field. In fact, to put it bluntly, I am just afraid, as Cheng Baize said, whether I am biased against him because of the dream in my previous life.
This sentence seemed to hit me directly in the pit of my heart. I didn’t dare to admit it, but it was a fact. Maybe the time to wake up from the dream was too short. I must always remind myself that I am not the Bai Jingqi of my previous life, and he is not the person he wanted to be.
Make me a scumbag bastard.
Before going to bed, I took a long breath: "Ma Jiaolong, Cheng Baize in this life is a very good person. He will not do bad things. He has been in the industry longer than you, so don't worry about being poor...
"
…
Because I was worried, I didn't sleep well all night. My grandpa still ignored me in the morning. When Cheng Baize came to have breakfast, my grandpa actually chased him and kept asking, "Xiao Bai, do you really have someone in your heart?"
Who is he? Can he keep up with Jiaolong? Cheng Baize was helpless to deal with it.
I was confused, it was Cheng Baize who said he fell in love with someone else, so why did my grandpa still compete with me?
"Grandpa, don't worry, I will always treat Jiaolong as my sister. No matter who I marry in the future, I will be filial to you."
But my grandfather looked like he didn't know what to eat: "But I just want you to be my grandson-in-law. I feel relieved if you become my grandson-in-law. I have always felt that we should be a family."
I sat at the dining table and glanced at my grandfather: "Grandpa, Cheng Baize and we are not a family, but we are a family."
Grandpa snorted, "It's better than it is. You think your grandpa is really stupid. How can I get someone to pay for it in vain? How can we, the Ma family, repay Xiaobai's kindness!"
"Grandpa, I don't want to repay you. Jiaolong is right. A family is not better than a family." Cheng Baize continued next to him. I looked at him with emotion and mouthed silently: "Thank you.
.”
Grandpa simply put down the chopsticks in his hand: "Come on, I won't eat. I can't eat. Oh, it's not easy."
I frowned slightly and looked at my grandpa's legs that were still slightly lame when he returned to the house: "Grandpa, are your legs still uncomfortable? I'll take you to the hospital for a checkup."
"What kind of hospital am I going to? I'm so angry with you!" Grandpa replied in a muffled voice, then walked to the balcony to look at wintersweet.
I sighed softly, but Cheng Baize touched me next to me and whispered: "It's okay. Grandpa will probably think about it after a while. He is just afraid that you will not be able to find a place in the future. I will talk to him some time."
Let’s have a good chat.”
Nodded: "Thank you."
"If you really thank me, I won't let the old man worry about you anymore. What are your plans now? Have you found the location of the store? Do you need any money?"
To be continued...